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Reviews for The Sound of Silence

By : ZaKai

From ANON - StupefiedNarutard on July 31, 2007
I'm dead, I'm dead... I'm just... dead.

I can't even begin to explain how many feelings this story gives me. The pain. It makes me tremble, I feel that feeling in my chest... My heart beats so hard it feels like it'll explode. I feel like I wanna vomit, and I cry, but I can't stop reading. I wanna see that bastard die. I wanna hear what Ed does to him-- I want to see the revenge so many people don't get on such... /disgusting/ people. I want it to be so painful, does that make me a bad person?

Now Ed is a sex addict and Roy has made him this way. Some people are effected like that, whilst others start to fear sex and fear any contact whatsoever... I hate that Ed feels so bad, that he's forgotten what brotherly love is like... that every waking moment he's paranoid that someone will find all the sins he's been hiding. It's not just Anger Ed's feeling-- It's frustration, helplessness, the feeling that you can't do anything without that feeling wherever you go. Sometimes it goes away, but it just haunts you while you try to sleep, when you have nothing else to pre-occupy you. There are so many things Ed can turn into, things he shouldn't (nobody should!) have to feel!

Even if Ed could kill himself, he couldn't do it. For Al's sake, he wouldn't. I wanna know what makes Ed go off-- does Roy try something on Al?

I hate him and I want him to die so painfully.

Thank you so much-- I tell you that so often because I truly am thankful!

lovelovelovelovelove,
stupefiedNaruard

P.S. OH! Btw, before I forget, here:

This is a fanart for Descent (keep in mind that I can draw better than this and that I was using Paint): http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/59643703/

And this is a poem inspired by this fic (I read a chapter and had so much feeling so over I wrote a poem XD): http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/57533148/
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From ANON - lily-longstreet on July 30, 2007
This fic is really good. It's so realistic that it's hard to read, and harder to stomach. I have to say that I really can't see Roy ever sexually abusing Ed. Neither anime!Roy or manga!Roy, so sometimes it's really jarring and all I can think is "No way." I mean, I could maybe see another officer abusing Ed, but Roy? Still, it's a great story. Well written and, with the exception of the fact that I just CAN'T see Roy doing that, totally believeable.
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From MustangsHavoc on July 28, 2007
That was the most heart breaking thing I have ever read to date! Little Alphonse is so adorable I just love him to death! I just want to hug him give him nuggies on his sweet little head! SQUEE!

Another emotional and gripping chapter, keep it going!
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From ANON - Angst-Addict on July 28, 2007
"Oh no" was probably the first phrase that came to mind after I read this chapter. All the things in this chapter, the paranoia, the feeling of being trapped and the horror of what Ed did were all really hard-hitting.

Through reading this story I actually came to understand how Ed could abuse his younger brother, I mean he's just looking for comfort and affection but as a previous reviewer said, he's so screwed up that he associates affection with sex and Mustang has given him the idea of seeking this from children.

It was really...just..sad how Ed tried to be different to Mustang though, the way he felt he had to reassure Al that it wasnt his fault where as Mustang told Ed the opposite. And he feels genuine remorse but he doesn't know if that will be enough to stop him in the future.

Oh I just don't know what'll happen next, there's so much impending doom, will Ed kill himself?? (That's probably what I'd do) I don't think they have expert psychiatric treatment in Amestris which seems at this point to be the only way he'll ever get over the abuse.

This is really setting things up for the climax, thanks for the excellent chapter and good luck with the next one.
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From squallstorm on July 28, 2007
I can see why you didn't want to write that one...but it was good none the less. I'm sure you're getting excited to be near the end of this. go ZaKai!

kiki
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From ANON - Amethyst-eyed Koneko on July 27, 2007
Whoa! Ed is doing the exact same thing Roy did the first time Roy touched Ed - making promises to not tell! Poor poor Ed. T_T He's tearing himself apart second guessing everything. He's gonna wear himself out awfully fast doing that making him an easy target for Roy. It surprised the hell out of me when Ed called out to the God he supposedly doesn't believe in after he realized what he'd done! O_O Just goes to show how badly broken Ed is. ;_; [It's always fascinated me that Ed doesn't accept the idea of God but seeks atonement for his sins none the less. :) Ed has always been such a contradiction in terms!] I couldn't believe Roy got Ed that big bed! It's so obvious what Roy intends to do in that bed - hopefully not while Al is there! UGH! He may or may not try it but the implication is clear. *grins* I sound as paranoid as Ed! ;)

I don't think Al would fake amnesia just because Ed's not telling him everything. Even in a normal situation, an adult doesn't tell a child every little detail about every little thing. I'm sure Ed can explain his behavior in such a way that Al will understand and accept. hmm. Getting kinda close to that making promises to not tell thing again. damn. Can't win for losing. :( It would take more than just one weird moment to make Al even start to pull away from Ed. Al is smart enough to know that something is definitely wrong with Ed but he is only 10 years old and still very trusting of Ed. As long as Ed doesn't have another straying hands incident, Al's youth, trust, and innocence can overlook it. Maybe Ed can get Al a pillow and put one of his tee shirts on it so Al can snuggle with it in his own bed instead of climbing into Ed's bed. tch. Nah, that won't work. That might upset Al and make him suspicious. (Not to mention the fact that that only works for puppies! XD) Al might accidentally blurt that out to someone and then there'd be hell to pay! GAH! I don't know! It's all so confusing! There is always the chance that Ed could drive Al away from him but it would have to be something big to do it.
Update soon!
Koneko =^.^=
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From ANON - Hikaru9 on July 27, 2007
This chapter just hurts, it hurts so much because you donn't want Ed to fall intop the cycle and repeat it all. ;_; Thank you. *hug*
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From Bookworm51485 on July 27, 2007
It's like the beginning of the cycle of turning the abused into the abuser. Makes you wonder if that's what happened with Roy. I just hope that Ed manages to keep himself from going down that road. He doesn't need that kind of guilt on top of what he already has piled on himself.

This chapter just made me really sad for him, more sad than any of the others I think. Looking at the extreme lack of trust he has into anything, himself and others (all male it seems). Constantly questioning motives. Wondering if simple things are normal. The paranoia. It almost makes you want to jump into the story and just hold him except he'd probably question that too.

I definitely want to see where it's going and what led him to kill Roy especially after dealing with the abuse for so many years. Before it seemed like it would be straight forward and that it would likely be because Roy made some advances towards Al. But now this chapter has added a new layer of complications and a new set of reasons added on as to why he did it.
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From ANON - TheSoulmater on July 10, 2007
I can't really put into words how I feel about this fic, it's just so intense, emotive, and tearjerking, it's absolutely fantastic. Ed's whole situation with hating Roy, yet still wanting any sort of affection from one of his only parental figures is truly heartwretching. You really want to hate Roy for what he has done and yet, you still feel a certain amount of...pity for Roy because of his own childhood. This has been one of the most orginal FMA fics that I have read in a long time.

I love the way you structured the whole story as well, the fact that everything was 'doomed' from the very first chapter. Being able to see the ending from the very beginning just made the reading that much more intense, I hope I'm making sense, lol! Kind of reminds me of Romeo and Juliet that way.

I especially loved Ed's line about not being able to kill roy, the irony of it all was simply divine. Also Ed owing Riza that favour, the only thing really left now is the catalyst which will tip Ed over the edge to kill Roy. I think now, the only thing bad enough to make Ed finally snap would be Roy trying to touch Alphonse, or threatening to do so to Edward, but I'm waiting with baited breath to see how it all develops.

Also would you be able to send me an email when an update is up please?

Holly

XXX
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From Bookworm51485 on July 09, 2007
#100 yay, unless of course someone squeezed in in front of me.

I love this story but I hate it too. I'm sure you understand what I mean. It's well-written and I think you address the issue with all the seriousness it's due but it's still a bit hard to read. To have to be in that situation for so many years. Your Roy is such an asshole, really. I hate him so much which is weird because I love the character. I feel like I shouldn't hate him:) But anyways, I can't wait until the story gets to the point where Ed kills him. And I hope that he doesn't get a legal punishment for it, though he'll have to live with it and what Roy did to him unfortunately. I hope they can get him help. That's all really, I hope your next update comes soon.

BTW I'd love to be added to the update list: Joyful51485@hotmail.com
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From ANON - Angst-addict on July 08, 2007
I started reading this on fanfiction.net and I was just amazed at the realism of the story. The way Roy gains control over Ed and brainwashes him are just very believable. I was impressed at how you didn't make Roy a completely 2D villain, he's horrible of course but you've shown he can be human (to a certain degree) as well.

Also you showed the twisted pleasure Ed was getting out of the situation which I thought added realism. I think you've done a great job in putting Ed's feelings into words showing how he simultaneously loathes and desires the attention Roy's giving him and how that all makes him feel.

I thought this chapter was great for showing how Ed envies Al's innocence and how alone he is, he probably wanted at a certain level to tell Al what had happened but due to Al's age and memory loss he probably never will and if he can't tell Al, he can't tell anyone else (besides Riza of course, it's just that Al is the closest to him.)Plus being around Al is going to amplfy his feeling of dirtiness and remind him of everything he did to get Al's body back. (Oh the angst!)

Since the beginning I've just found this story extremely gripping and I really want to see how it ends so best of luck with the rest of the chapters, I'll review them all and I hope you'll update soon.
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From ANON - Amethyst-eyed Koneko on July 07, 2007
*wipes tears off cheeks* dammit. You made me cry again. Even though we all know that Al lost his memories when he got his body back, it's hard to watch it happen moment to moment. The joy of their reunion lived but a brief minute before it died in the cruel light of reality. Witnessing Ed gradually realize that Al really didn't remember and then having to tell Al the highlights of their tragic past was just brutal. I didn't really breakdown until Ed was alone in the bathroom sobbing into the towel. It breaks my heart that Ed is even more alone now than he was before. Oh man! What if Al DID make the bargain of trading memories for getting his body back! whoa! That's just so...wow! I mean, the Gate does work that way - you have to give something to get something. The Gate is all about equivalent exchange. Ed didn't lose anything that we know of so it makes sense that Al would have to be the one that lost something. Oh shit! You got my mind reeling!! That makes so much sense!! Why hasn't anybody thought of this before?!? Damn you're good, ZaKai! :D

Oh my freaking GOD! Does Roy not have any respect for anything?!? The man really is completely morally bankrupt!! Seriously? Seriously?!? Damnation and hellfire Roy! ugh! Although it shouldn't surprise me, I can't believe he made Ed go down on him, in a hospital, in front of his sleeping brother no less!!!! *shakes head sadly* damn. "You�re finally beginning to be worth what I�m paying you...I expect you�ll be willing to pay for my signature as well." Why you arrogant sonofabitch! I do love Roy (not THIS version of Roy mind you! *grins*) and am kinda hesitant about him dying and all; but with all the stuff he keeps doing, he's making it easier to want him dead! He deserves it but it's gonna kill me a little bit when it happens. I'm gonna cry for Ed when that happens like I've never cried for him before! Damn, I'm already getting all anxious!! :)
Update soon!
Koneko =^.^=
P.S. I looked back at my last review to see what I meant when I wrote "encounter" (I am so random sometimes) and noticed Leigh's review stating that she couldn't understand why someone wouldn't tell if they were being abused. Has she not been paying attention to the story? The reasons are too numerous to count. The mental barriers and blocks we put up bind us as surely as any rope or chain could. She's obviously never lived under someone else's thumb and should consider herself quite blessed. It's a pain I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy.
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From MustangsHavoc on July 07, 2007
This story is incerdible. I went back to reading it after a break to think about it objectivly. I was afraid of what this story might make me feel. The emotions were powerful and what I think you ahve done best of all is the psycology behind what's being allowed to happen, and how Ed is dealing with it emotionally.

Brilliant.
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From radcat on July 07, 2007
You have done a good job getting into the mind of an abused child and maybe into his abuser. What goes around unfortunately sometimes comes around. Mustang was an abused child and then he turns around and abuses other children. Ed just does not have the abuser part in his soul. It is sooo sad that Ed does not realize that there are so many avenues to help but abusers know how to manipulate their victims. I have been thinking for awhile that Ed kills Mustang because Mustang started to abuse Al. (Something that many people would like to do to an abuser or have actually done.) That sad part is while we are reading this that so many people of all ages are being abused secretly who feel that they have no opportunities for help. And we can't always see it and are unable to help.
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From ANON - Leigh on July 07, 2007
again i was very impressed with how you wrote the chapter. its amazing that you can make me love mustang to death in one fic and then make me hate him and want to rip out his throat in this one... O.o i never thought i'd think of Roy as being such a bastard, but i am speechless... i dont kno why but i've never been able to understand why, if you're being abused in such a way, you wouldnt tell someone about it. maybe its just my personality, but being the spiteful person i am, i'd do everything i could to get the person in the most trouble possible >.
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