Keeping My Hands Busy
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Gundam Wing/AC › Yaoi - Male/Male
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Adult ++
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39
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5,530
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44
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You weren't...were you?
Ok, finally get to see what’s wrong with Quatre, though, most of you have probably figured it out….maybe not.
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Trowa was in immense pain, he could hear people talking but his head made it sound muffled. As his head cleared, he could start making out voices…five to be exact. He could piece apart four of them but not the fifth. Opening his eyes he looked around, four pilots and a doctor…oh that was right, Quatre had shot him in the stomach. At least he was still alive.
“I’m not leaving.”
“Quatre, man, go home. I know you feel guilty but you should go get some sleep.”
“I don’t think you heard me Duo. I’m not going to leave him.” The doctor seemed to be uncomfortable as he shifted his weight on his feet.
“If I may make a suggestion, the cushions under the window sill are just as comfortable as any bed, and it would allow you to stay here with him.” Quatre immediately nodded, he wasn’t going to leave the person he shot. The doctor smiled before leaving the room.
“Ok, tell us the truth, what happened?” Wufei demanded as soon as he was sure the doctor was gone.
“I fucked up…he just asked me a question…I forgot I was holding the gun.”
“How can you forget you’re holding a gun?” Heero asked calmly.
“I don’t know…I just…I got scared, he got too close and I felt numb again. I didn’t mean to shoot him; I just wanted him to go away.” Quatre said quietly as he sat on the seat in front of the window.
“He came back.” Duo pointed out sadly.
“And he’ll leave again if he finds out about what happened. I don’t want him to look at me like everyone else does…”
“Did we look at you like that when we found you?” Wufei asked as he sat next to him. Quatre slowly shook his head no. “Then what makes you think he’ll look at you like that?”
“Because he’s not like you, he’ll feel sorry for me…I don’t want him to feel sorry, I just want him to be normal around me.”
“How can he be normal if you keep pushing him away?” Heero asked as he sat down on Duo’s lap in a chair across the room.
“It’s not easy; I just don’t want him to know.” The room fell into silence as they listened to the steady beep of the heart monitor. Hearing a slight click as Trowa finally found the morphine button all of them looked at the bed.
“Go home…everyone except Quatre.” He said dryly. Pushing the button to get the bed to sit him up Trowa looked around at them. “Yes I heard you and we still need to talk.”
“Hey, Trowa, the doctor said not to get you excited or anything that’d make your heart work faster before you heal completely. You can talk to him-“
“Now Duo, I’ll talk to him now. Please at least go to the cafeteria and get me some coffee.” Looking over at the blonde Duo slowly nodded as he got Heero to stand and motioned for Wufei to follow them. The door closed behind the three and Trowa was sure at least one of them was waiting right around the corner in case something happened.
“I can’t tell you Trowa…”
“But you can tell them?” Quatre shook his head; he hadn’t told them what had happened. They were there when he finally managed to get home.
“I can’t say it Trowa, I can’t force the words out.”
“Did it have to do with the target I saw? Why the groin was the only part you shot?” Quatre looked out the window and nodded. “Quatre…when I left…were you-“
“Don’t say it…please don’t say it. Yes...I was. Every time I close my eyes I see them…I don’t ever want that to happen again.”
“Quatre, why would you think I’d look at you any differently after finding out you were raped?” Trowa heard the muffled sob and wished he wasn’t hooked to all the machines.
“You left me before it happened…I didn’t want to give you another reason.”
“I didn’t mean to leave you.”
“It happened two months after you left…I came home all bruised and bloody. Honestly I don’t even remember the details; I just remember the pain…”
“Little one-“
“I don’t ever want to feel that again, but…”
“But you’re attracted to men?” Trowa asked softly.
“It doesn’t matter, I can’t-“
“Come here little one.” Quatre didn’t even hesitate to walk to the side of the bed and sit on the edge. “Do you trust me?” Nodding to hide the insecurity in his eyes Quatre forced himself to relax a little. “Close your eyes.” Squeezing them shut tight to make sure he wouldn’t open them Quatre started counting to ten, but he only got to six when he felt Trowa’s lips on his.
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Cute, ok, now you know the reason…and so does Trowa, he’s gonna help the little one heal lol
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Trowa was in immense pain, he could hear people talking but his head made it sound muffled. As his head cleared, he could start making out voices…five to be exact. He could piece apart four of them but not the fifth. Opening his eyes he looked around, four pilots and a doctor…oh that was right, Quatre had shot him in the stomach. At least he was still alive.
“I’m not leaving.”
“Quatre, man, go home. I know you feel guilty but you should go get some sleep.”
“I don’t think you heard me Duo. I’m not going to leave him.” The doctor seemed to be uncomfortable as he shifted his weight on his feet.
“If I may make a suggestion, the cushions under the window sill are just as comfortable as any bed, and it would allow you to stay here with him.” Quatre immediately nodded, he wasn’t going to leave the person he shot. The doctor smiled before leaving the room.
“Ok, tell us the truth, what happened?” Wufei demanded as soon as he was sure the doctor was gone.
“I fucked up…he just asked me a question…I forgot I was holding the gun.”
“How can you forget you’re holding a gun?” Heero asked calmly.
“I don’t know…I just…I got scared, he got too close and I felt numb again. I didn’t mean to shoot him; I just wanted him to go away.” Quatre said quietly as he sat on the seat in front of the window.
“He came back.” Duo pointed out sadly.
“And he’ll leave again if he finds out about what happened. I don’t want him to look at me like everyone else does…”
“Did we look at you like that when we found you?” Wufei asked as he sat next to him. Quatre slowly shook his head no. “Then what makes you think he’ll look at you like that?”
“Because he’s not like you, he’ll feel sorry for me…I don’t want him to feel sorry, I just want him to be normal around me.”
“How can he be normal if you keep pushing him away?” Heero asked as he sat down on Duo’s lap in a chair across the room.
“It’s not easy; I just don’t want him to know.” The room fell into silence as they listened to the steady beep of the heart monitor. Hearing a slight click as Trowa finally found the morphine button all of them looked at the bed.
“Go home…everyone except Quatre.” He said dryly. Pushing the button to get the bed to sit him up Trowa looked around at them. “Yes I heard you and we still need to talk.”
“Hey, Trowa, the doctor said not to get you excited or anything that’d make your heart work faster before you heal completely. You can talk to him-“
“Now Duo, I’ll talk to him now. Please at least go to the cafeteria and get me some coffee.” Looking over at the blonde Duo slowly nodded as he got Heero to stand and motioned for Wufei to follow them. The door closed behind the three and Trowa was sure at least one of them was waiting right around the corner in case something happened.
“I can’t tell you Trowa…”
“But you can tell them?” Quatre shook his head; he hadn’t told them what had happened. They were there when he finally managed to get home.
“I can’t say it Trowa, I can’t force the words out.”
“Did it have to do with the target I saw? Why the groin was the only part you shot?” Quatre looked out the window and nodded. “Quatre…when I left…were you-“
“Don’t say it…please don’t say it. Yes...I was. Every time I close my eyes I see them…I don’t ever want that to happen again.”
“Quatre, why would you think I’d look at you any differently after finding out you were raped?” Trowa heard the muffled sob and wished he wasn’t hooked to all the machines.
“You left me before it happened…I didn’t want to give you another reason.”
“I didn’t mean to leave you.”
“It happened two months after you left…I came home all bruised and bloody. Honestly I don’t even remember the details; I just remember the pain…”
“Little one-“
“I don’t ever want to feel that again, but…”
“But you’re attracted to men?” Trowa asked softly.
“It doesn’t matter, I can’t-“
“Come here little one.” Quatre didn’t even hesitate to walk to the side of the bed and sit on the edge. “Do you trust me?” Nodding to hide the insecurity in his eyes Quatre forced himself to relax a little. “Close your eyes.” Squeezing them shut tight to make sure he wouldn’t open them Quatre started counting to ten, but he only got to six when he felt Trowa’s lips on his.
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Cute, ok, now you know the reason…and so does Trowa, he’s gonna help the little one heal lol