The Dark and Light side of Love

WARNINGS: Language, maybe a little angst too.

topbear – Oh my gosh! Someone else reviewed! I’m sooooo happy! *Does a happy dance, which deals more with jumping up and own than actual dancing* Thank you! And I shall update more! ^^

Zofo – Yay! You’re pc is back! I’m even more happy! *Throws arms in the air to express the happiness* I imagine it is easier. Oooo! You want to see a pic of him too, huh? Alright. That shall be my next project then. Though, I have to start my profile on deviant art. I’m a member, I just don’t have any work done on it yet >.< I’m glad I’m keeping the characters in character. ^^ I’m sorry that chapter was so teasing for you, but I have to keep the story entertaining, right? Well, my version of the transformation is different. Also, the doctor (maybe I should have a name for him, :/) said he thinks it ‘might’ take six weeks. But, who knows? With Vegeta already showing early signs of the transformation, it might be shorter. *Gasp* But I shouldn’t be telling you things like that! >_> Anyways, I’m sad too about my time of updating, since I’m also getting into the story just as much as my readers now. And, I should have mentioned that I updated two chapters at one time, but it looks like you read it. *Phew* I’m sorry that it’s all so long. I should find ways to make it shorter. :/ But, I also need to know what I want to do with my characters as well. Ohhhh! I don’t know what to do! I haven’t even started writing any male pregnancies yet! Or any lemons for that matter! Except on the third chapter. *Ponders* I should consider making those better. *Looks over response to review* Sorry for the long response and adding a little of my depression to it. ^^;

Thank you both for your wonderful reviews! After reading them, I immediately wanted to update! ^^ So, here ya are!

(Also, unattainableslutvegeta’s response will be at the end of this chapter.) ^^

Vegeta’s POV

This is hell. I knew it would be intense, but this is unbearable! Death would be more of a pleasure than what I’m feeling right now. Kakarot wasn’t kidding. It’s only been…God, how long has it been? A week? I can’t tell anymore. A day seems like a year to me and the hours seem like months. I never knew the days could be so long. I know Kakarot is trying to help me, but now, it just seems pointless. I don’t want him to waste his time and energy on me. He’s a King for God sakes! He has other duties to tend to! What about my men? What if they do decide to attack? I heard Bardock the day I was turned. To say the truth, I really don’t know when they’ll attack, but if Haru is leading the army, then it’s a sure bet that they’ll attack soon. Well, soonish. I mean, it’s been a while. When are they coming? Why am I waiting for them to attack? Maybe because I prefer my previous life before this hellish one now.

Oh, Kakarot. I’m so sorry I’m refusing most of your help now, but I really do think it’s pointless. I know you’re trying your best and I know you won’t give up on me, but, I just don’t think it’s worth it now. Though, it’s been so long since we’ve been together, I’ll do anything to be with you again. I’d even suffer for you and here I am, doing just that.

I look down at your sleeping form. Your crystal trails of sorrow have been on your flushed cheeks for quite some time. I also can’t recall you ever leaving my side. Your head has rested where it always has, by my side on your folded arms, your hand always holding mine, but I can never feel it. I want to reach out and stroke you soft, unruly hair, but the pain in my body will not allow it. I’ve also felt this pain for quite sometime, I can’t say when it will end, or why it has begun in the first place, but I want it to leave my being, for I cannot stand to be alive with this pain forever molded into my flesh, into my very soul.

You wake up now, as if something has woken you. You look at me with those same tear filled eyes as you always have and your luscious lips start moving, but I can’t tell what your saying. Your beautiful eyes are big with fear and shock, I don’t know why and I don’t care. I just want to stare into your hypnotizing orbs until I go blind, but I would love to touch your unruly locks one last time before I lose all feeling in my body, if it hasn’t already.

Then, I focus my hearing on something loud. The sound is filled with agony, so much agony that I can hardly bear hearing it anymore. Then I realized that it was someone screaming. I tried focusing my hearing a little more to see if I could recognize who it was. I panicked as I realized it was mine. I panicked even more when I realized why. The pain, the agony was still there, worse than before.

I started thrashing when I saw Kakarot trying to give me his ki. No! I will not let him waste his energy on something so pointless! All the ki does is numb the pain a bit. It does nothing! He doesn’t need to waste it on something like me! I cease a little when I see him cut his wrist, what seems like something so natural to him, and I cease all thrashing when he brings his new wound to my mouth and I lick his addictive, golden blood greedily. His blood is the only thing I believe will get me through this.

He tried giving me Shadow’s blood, but it just makes the pain worse. He says it’s normal. It’s to get me used to drinking it when I get my strength back. Kakarot was actually surprised to get me started on drinking it so soon. Since the doctor said it would take six weeks until I get my strength back. Though, the doctor wasn’t sure, maybe I’ll get it back sooner. Then again, maybe not. I’m not exactly going by the rules here.

Kakarot’s talking to me again and I try focusing my hearing on his gentle voice. His beautiful tears stream down his face and I barely make out the words he says, “…please…make…this…all…ok…love…” I cry out again as another twist of hot-searing pain tears through my body. I writhe and arch as I tear the sheets apart. He rests his hand on my overly-heated forehead and his tears go down his chin and splash on my sweaty chest. I try focusing on his voice more, rather than the pain, “…Vegeta, try…down. Everything will…alright…trying…best. Please…there…” I can’t understand what you’re telling me! Your voice can’t carry through my cries of agony and I desperately need your guidance right now.

I fade in and out of consciousness, as I do so; I feel a cooling sensation on my body. I try opening my heavy lids to see the cause of the wonderful feeling. I see something white on my body and I recognize it as a towel. A wet towel from the feel of it. I moan a little in relief from the cooling effects of the cloth on my body. He’s also damping a wet cloth on my neck and face. The feeling is good enough to put me out of consciousness for a while.

Sleeping is also a new thing for me. I find it very peaceful and relaxing. Where has it been all my life? I even found out that I have images or visions when I’m asleep, which I have found that are called dreams. They are also wonderful. They keep my mind occupied from the pain while I’m asleep, so I can rest longer.

Often times, these dreams are mainly of my love. His beautiful face glowing where there is no light, only by his lovely smile. His gentle hands caress and hold me in his warm embrace. His light lust-filled voice whispers in my ear of the things that he’d love to do to me. If only he knew what his presence alone does to me. Unfortunately, these dreams can also cause me to heat up even more, and then I would wake up. The pain, so unbearable to ignore.

Now I’m dreaming of you again, of us. Except this time, it’s a little different. We’re outside and the sun is hotter than ever. So hot that I feel like I’m melting. I look down at myself as if that statement were true, and sure enough, I’m getting closer and closer to the ground while I’m becoming nothing more than a puddle of blood. I look up at my love to see if the same thing was happening to him and he was still standing proudly above me, giving me the most gorgeous smile I’ve ever seen. I had a hitch in breath at the sight. Then, he got down on his hands and knees and crawled over to me to lick the blood, which was pooling around me, off of the hard dusty ground. This, I must admit, was a real arousing sight to see.

I reached out for him to help me, to not leave me, but when I touched him, my hand turned into more of the golden liquid. Golden? Wait. Why is the puddle below me red and my hand was a golden liquid? I looked quizzically and worriedly at Kakarot, who just kept licking my blood until it was almost all gone. I’ve melted all the way to my chest now and I fear I might be nothing more than a puddle of blood soon.

My love sat up on his knees and he came over to give me the most sensual kiss I’ve ever experienced. Why must I have the best dream I’ve ever had of Kakarot when I’m in a situation like this? Then he said, with that same gorgeous smile, “your blood is mine to drink, your body is mine to touch, and your soul is mine to have.” With that said, he pushed his fist into what was left of my chest. I felt a tingling feeling, but it was kind of numb. He then pulled his fist out with something in it. My vision started to get blurry as I tried in vain to see what was in his closed hand. He opened it slowly and a blue glow was radiating out of his palm. He opened it more and I saw a blue ki ball that was giving off the most beautiful glow I’ve ever seen ki do. Then, that’s when I figured it out, that that wasn’t a ki ball, it was…my soul. I looked at my beloved one last time before I exhaled my last breath and he held my soul against his chest until it sunk into him. I looked at him with shock and heard him speak again, looking at his chest, “There now, love. Now you will always be with me.” He walked away without a second glance at my melting body, which is now nothing more than the sand on the ground.

I awoke with a cry and sat up fast, looking for my beloved. My body was more alarmed and my senses were sharper as I tried searching for the man of my dreams. “Vegeta?!” I heard my love say with a panic tone in his usually gentle voice. I quickly turned my head to the sound of my love and tried getting up to go to him, but my legs gave out as pain shot up them, immobilizing me, keeping me from having my Kakarot in my arms.

“Kakaroooott!” I tried calling for him while a scream escaped from me. He’s immediately at my side, picking me up and carrying me back to his bed. “Kakarot…” I moaned as I tried latching myself to him, not wanting to let him leave me again.

“Shh…Vegeta, it’s ok. I’m here.” My love tried comforting me in his sad voice.

I’m panting heavily as I remember the dream that just took place moments before. Then my mind goes to Kakarot. I can hear him now. Perhaps I just…need to ignore the pain. Yeah, easier said than done. My thoughts come back to reality as Kakarot puts a couple of wet towels on my head and body again. “Kakarot…please…don’t…”

My love hushed me by putting a gentle finger to my lips and finishing my sentence for me. “It’s alright, love. I won’t leave you. I promised, didn’t I?” He ended his assurances by giving me one of his heart-melting smiles. Then, I winced as I remembered the dream and looked away from his irresistible face as if my heart would actually melt. “Vegeta? What’s wrong? Are you in a lot of pain? Here…take some of my blood.” Kakarot ended his worried questions and started to give me something that he knows will help me.

“No! Don’t give him your blood! You gave him enough of it already! He’s ready for Shadow’s blood now. Get him started on that and he might get better more quickly.” I sighed. Damn, he’s not alone.

I look up toward my beloved to see another figure standing next to him. It’s Bardock, my soon-to-be-father-in-law. “But, it hurts him more. I can’t stand to see him in so much pain.” Kakarot caressed my face as he said this.

“Of course it does! But he’ll never get over this if you don’t start giving him Shadow’s blood. Do you want that, Kakarot?”

There was a sigh. “No. No I don’t want that.”

Bardock put a hand on my love’s shoulder. “Then I’ll be right back.”

Kakarot put his face in his hands as his father left. “I’m sorry, Vegeta. I want you to get better. I want you to get over this. I don’t want you to be in pain anymore.” He sighed in defeat. “But…this is the…only way.”

I struggle to move my hand to touch one of his arms. “I…under…stand, Kakarot.”

His hands fell from his face and he looked at me with a stunned expression. “Oh, love. Are you feeling better at all?”

I shook my head slowly and winced as my muscles protested against the action. He laid his hand on my head again and began petting my hair comfortingly, his eyes sad now. I tried smiling at his efforts of comforting me, but the muscles for that even keep me from doing so.

I closed my eyes and tried meditating, to see if I can will away some of this pain. It’s worth a shot. All the muscles in my body are trying to get heated up and the blood is trying to get them working. Just moving them causes them to burn inside me. If I stay still, I can feel the burning sensation of my heart beating ferociously in my chest and the blood trying to will itself throughout my body. It’s strange and painful, but I know it’ll be worth it. I’ll be able to be in the light with my love and I can live in his warmth, forever. Though, he can forget me ever wearing that ridiculous bright material that they call clothes. I rather stick with the ones I have already. They don’t stand out too much and I won’t look ridiculous.

My meditating was brought to an end when I heard someone entering the room. “Alright, here it is. Have him drink that until he gets better. Then he’ll be ready to get food into his system.” Bardock explained as he handed a glass to Kakarot.

Kakarot brought the glass in front of me and began lifting my head so I could drink it better. I flinched as the cold, crimson liquid came closer to my lips. It’s actually kind of strange drinking the same blood that was in me not too long ago. “C’mon, love. Please drink it. It’ll help you get better. I promise.” With my love’s reassurance, I shut my eyes and drank it obediently. I quickly swallowed it, without tasting it, until the glass was empty. “That’s it…”

Kakarot quickly took the glass from my lips and handed it back to Bardock. He sat still, both of them, staring at me, waiting for the inevitable to happen. Then, it came when I felt the overwhelming sensation of fire and ice burning its way down my throat and to my stomach. I screamed in agony as I curled up on myself and let the pain do its thing. Tears leaked from my eyes as my body tried to take in the new foreign blood.

Kakarot leaned over and held me against him until the unbearable pain ended. “Give him your ki, Kakarot!” Bardock tried yelling over my screams.

There was a hitch in my breath as I considered my love wasting his precious energy on me. “I can’t! He won’t let me!” Kakarot’s answer was muffled by him hold me still as I writhed in his grasp, no longer bearing the searing pain.

“For God’s sake!” Bardock quickly grabbed me out of my beloved’s arms and pinned me to the bed. “Do it! Do it now!” Bardock pinned my hands on either side of my head to keep me from thrashing, trying to stop me from letting Kakarot do this.

Kakarot brought his hands closer to me and I tried thrashing more, almost throwing Bardock off of me. “Nooooooo!” He stopped.

“Father…he doesn’t want this!” Kakarot tried convincing his father to go with my wishes.

“I know he doesn’t, Kakarot! But if you keep doing what he says, he’ll never get better!!” Now they were yelling to get their point across than trying to hear me over my screams and cries of protest.

I shrieked as the new blood tried to do its magic, but I kept fighting it. Bardock powered up a little to keep me under him and I thrashed more in response. “Come on, Kakarot! Do it!” Bardock looked down at me with the effort in his eyes. Hm. Whatever that was.

“Okay…” I barely heard Kakarot answer as his hands started their advance towards me again.

I cried out some more and threw my head side to side. I don’t want Kakarot to waste his energy on me! I don’t need it! Then, one hand made it to my head again as the other came to my chest. A warm glow started radiating from Kakarot’s body as he tried moving his ki into me. I settled down a bit; as I know I have lost this battle and let the ki do its work. Just like the blood. I settled more as the pain was numbed away and I felt nothing. Almost like I was nothing. Bardock and I panted heavily at our efforts of overthrowing one another and he finally eased off of me.

“There. That wasn’t so bad, was it Vegeta?” I moaned as unconsciousness tried to take over me. “Damn. He’s strong for someone who has no energy or strength left in him.” I hear Bardock say as he lowered his ki.

I looked over at my beloved, who had freshly fallen tears. “Kakarot…s-stay…”

He immediately reacted to my words, “Yes, love, I’ll stay.” More tears streamed down his face as he leaned over to gently kiss my panting lips and head. “Everything will be alright, Vegeta. You’ll see. You’ll be better soon.” I get the feeling that I’ve heard him say that before.

I sigh and smile, at least, I think I am. “I know, Kakarot. If you say it’s going to be alright, then I believe you.” I say tiredly, then my lids droop and before I know it, I’m in a dreamless sleep.

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Sorry if the perspectives of this chapter are confusing. Vegeta is in a state of disorientation, so it’s going to be a little confusing in his POV. He’s aware of what’s going on, but then again, he’s not. Ya know what I mean? I hope you all like the dream that I so randomly made up. ^^ Ain’t it weird? Ever have those kinds of dreams? Ya know, where it’s one thing, and then it immediately changes into something else? Well, mine are always like that. They just never make sense.

Maybe I should make a-whole-nother chapter for the response to this review. Oh well. I’m happy about this one. ^^

Unattainableslutvegeta – Yay! Someone else reviewed! I’m sooooo ecstatic about your reviews! It makes me so happy that you’re such a big fan, I could just hug you! *Hugs at a questionable strength* Phew! Anyways, in response to your reviews. To tell you the truth, I thought you were flaming me when I looked at the length of the reviews. ^^; But, since I read them, I feel loads better. I was even squealing in delight. ^^ Moving on…

Response 1 – I’m so…touched…that you became a member to just review my story. It makes me feel so special. ^^ I’m also intrigued to read some of your work when you get it published. Yay! Finally! Someone likes my humor! ^^ (I like to put in those signs all the time to make those eyes, their cute). Woa, it’s like, you reviewed at the right time. I was just starting to have troubles on what I should be writing for my future chapters. I am aware of the options I have, or of what options that I’m thinking of, and I do have ideas for what I should write, it’s just the matter of introducing the ideas and how I should put it into words. Also, I can tell that you’re thorough just by reading your reviews and that’s not a bad thing. ^^

I’m glad that my explanations of the Shadows and Lights weren’t confusing to you. It’s just…since it seemed like I threw it all out there, I didn’t think it would make much sense. I’m glad you like the colors for my Gothy Vegeta. Since he’s a Shadow, I thought I would relate him to a vampire or… a Goth. Heh. I did have ideas of an Emo Vegeta or something similar, but I’ll save that for another story. I am unsure on what I want to do with Haru, but since you seem so thrilled on the idea of something violent to happen with the character, I can make it so.

Oooo! I’m glad you think that way between Haru and Vegeta! I was beginning to worry people were getting the wrong idea between the two. *Looks back over first chapter* Ah crap! I did put Prince! Damn! *Tears hair out of head because of the simple error* I should probably go back and change it. I’m just so used to hearing ‘Prince’ Vegeta that I have to remind myself to put ‘King’ instead. It’s an easy mistake to make. >_> I thought the different versions of Super Saiyan between the two were unique as well. It’s another thing that can tell them apart. Squee! I’m so glad you like them! Hm. You want a Light, Huh? And the one in particular? Sorry, I need him for my story. ^^ You think my characters are in character? Yes!! I will try to keep them so.

I have done my homework on DBZ and I have noticed that hardly anyone seems to know the facts about the characters, such as age, who killed who, similar things like that, and it pisses me off to no end that they get them wrong. It makes me want to flame. -_- But I will do no such thing because I am a nice person. ^^ It’s weird how I made Vegeta kind of similar to how you are. It’s…kind of…creepy, but cool. You specialize in smut and lemons, huh? I may not really need the smut, but the lemon I could really get better at. I am also nocturnal, but, since I’ve started my job, I’ve been retiring to bed early and getting up early as well. Though, I’m going to be doing night shift soon. Then I can stay up late and sleep in as well. I need like, 12 hours of sleep, otherwise I can’t function throughout the day.

Response 2 – So, it was good of me to kill Vegeta’s father right off, huh? I was wondering if I killed him too soon, but with all the years I mentioned in the chapter, I thought it seemed right. Hm. Now, I’ve been debating whether or not I should change Bardock’s character. I have been getting some ideas, but, then again, Haru can play that role. Never mind. I put in Demetri as a distraction to Bardocks’ plan. ^^; Just when he was about to say it, I thought it was the perfect time to put in an interruption. Kakarot’s thoughts are ones that I thought would be the thoughts of my readers on the character because he interrupted an important scene. (Does that sentence make sense?) It’s just one of my random acts in this story. It’s simple and typical, but I couldn’t help it.

I’m glad someone agrees with me on Vegeta being turned. I must say, I’m a submissive Veggie fan. ^^ Yes I am! I like it when the horrible and good things happen to him instead of Kakarot. Also, I know it’s obvious, but I’m also a Vegeta fan. ^^ Well, I had to have Vegeta as a Light. (Hence the male preg. that’s indicated in this story. Though, now I’m debating whether or not if I should indicate it at all). I kind of had this planned before I wrote this. Omg! I’m so glad you noticed the living qualities of a Light than a Shadow! I’ve been waiting for someone to comment on that. A shadow is hard to describe. Instead of them sighing, they would roll their eyes. Or instead of them gasping or shivering, they would freeze or stiffen. (Even though they’re already frozen. Heh, heh. Just my lame humor kicking in).

Oh, I’ll definitely add in more blood shed. I can only take the smut for so long until I have to put in something crazy. Well good. ‘Cuz there shall be more jealously in future chaps. *Rubs hands together in a menacing way* I’m glad you loved that paragraph. I was wondering if it was pointless to put in, but then I figured out that it’s the most important paragraph in there.

Response 3 – Squee! More indication of in character! ^^ Happy to know that it’s still there! Well, ya know, it’s just like Kakarot to tend to someone. Especially to one whom he fell in love with at first sight. Oh! I’m so glad their first meeting was a success to you! I wasn’t certain if it should’ve gone that way, but you just ended my worrying. ^^ Hm, unflinching? *Looks worried* Does that mean it wasn’t good enough? Maybe I should’ve made up something more unforgivable. A whip is pretty…original.

Yes, Kakarot did know that Vegeta was the Prince of Shadows when they first met. It is said that Kakarot was sent to spy on the King of Shadows to see what his plans were. Though, on his mission, he came at the wrong time and saw the King’s twisted behavior towards his own son. Kakarot, naturally, felt pity for the Prince and fell in love with his pain, his tears, and then felt obligated to help the poor Prince by giving him an escape for his depression. As you can see, it worked. ^^ (Hence the perfect timing of the tantrum). If you really think about it, Kakarot is putting himself in harm’s way for Vegeta. Vegeta only loses his energy, when Kakarot can just as easily lose his life. It says that Kakarot always gives his ‘addictive blood’ to his love before they leave and Vegeta can accidentally drink all of that addictive blood. So, Kakarot still has his ki, just not some of his strength.

Also, it is said that their time together is short. Because they meet in the late afternoon, which effects Vegeta and they separate at sunset, that way, Kakarot can still make it back in time while there is still sunlight left. Since the dark approaches at sunset, it doesn’t affect Vegeta much, so he can head his way back, but not before drinking his beloved. I know that the time they meet is…a little…risky, but I didn’t know when else they could meet. Oh, and they made it their permanent spot because it’s about halfway between their hideouts and no one dares to go outside of their territory unless they are hunting, except the two lovers of course. ^^ They’ll do almost anything to see each other.

Of course they didn’t have to say where they’ll meet next, because it obvious. Doesn’t that make sense? If you found someone where you first met them (that you really, really liked), wouldn’t you be obligated to go to that same spot to see if they’ll be there again? Its love, I tell you! Love! (Exaggerated humor. Perhaps its random humor. :/ Maybe it’s both). The ‘next level’ is the…love between the two. At first, they were only acquaintances which gradually turned into friends, and then the next level is the actual ‘dating’ level. *Sighs* I should really explain all this in my chapters more. It’s my first story though! It’s only natural that I don’t do a perfect job on explaining the situation more fully! God, I seemed much stressed when writing this. There was so much to consider!

-cough- Anyways…their love didn’t go very far, but still, it had such a huge impact on them that they didn’t know if they could live without the other. Aw. *Shakes head* Yay! You too love my gore!! *Laughs manically* –cough- Of course he would endure all that. It was to save their relationship. Oh! It’s so sad and touching! * wipes away a tear* But it’s gore, so no crying when the gore comes around. I wanted Vegeta to be absolutely ruthless here because I wanted him to live up to his title. *Looks innocent* I do have this more brutal side of me that most people don’t know about. *Shuffles feet* So, I sometimes let that side come to the surface whenever needed. Though at times, it can come out when not needed. Like the hulk, or something. *Shrugs* Well, you know what it’s capable of and more of it will come. Sooner than you think. *Grins evilly* At first, I didn’t know why I made Vegeta cry at the end, but, it seems to make more sense when I try and think about it. *Rubs temples as headache starts to form* O.o Is classic good? *Shifts eyes*

I just want to make a point here; they wouldn’t be following the rules by preventing to see each other because, obviously, no one knows about them. It’s also mentioned in the chapter that the time will come when they’ll become Kings and responsibility will come across them, so they wouldn’t be able to see each other. The only reason they see each other now, is because Kakarot is king, when he was simply a Prince before, so he was limited to do what he desired. Well, I probably would have been more pleased than annoyed if you did harass me to update. I was getting sad when only one person was reviewing me. (Not that that’s bad. Once is better than none. I love you Zofo!)^^ I really like this chappy. Just because it’s got gore in it. *Smirks evilly* I would like to add that I wasn’t very proud of some parts of the chapter with Vegeta and Kakarot. I feel like I could’ve made it better.

Thank you so much on your reviews! Its reviews like these that authors would only dream of having. I just never thought I would get ‘em so soon! By the way, you have a lot of phrases. I’m glad I have such a good word choice. ^^ You also seem to like the angst a whole lot too and I’m glad for it. I was wondering if I was putting too much into it or not. :/ I’m very glad that the story has gone along with your tasting. ^^ I think it tastes pretty good so far. *Licks the screen and ponders* Hm, I think it could use more gore and rape though. *Epic foreshadowing* (Don’t be worried about my randomness, think of it as chocolate. You can’t get it all the time, but when you do, it’s really sweet, but rare. XD I’m such a dork!) Well, off to ponder another chapter. I shall be looking forward to your other reviews! They make me so happy! It’s great!