Insanity

Chapter 14

Duo looked at Heero nervously. He knew his lover didn\'t want to go there and see hehe hhe had done enough damage already and Heero had the feeling that nothing good would come out of this visit.

\"Hee-chan, love... I know you don\'t want to be here, but it\'s really important for me to know how is she\"

Heero just couldn\'t understand why Duo cared so much of Relena\'s state of mind. She had tried to hurt him in a level beyond repair and he knew that because he had seen everything that day at the end of the battle.

\"Duo...\"

\"She won\'t hurt me. If I\'m right and what I think it was a dream actually wasn\'t one, then I HAVE to know how it affected her\"

\"Duo, please tell me what happened?\"

\"I\'ll tell you everything after we had seen her, ok?\"

Heero sighed but nodded.

\"Ok\"

They walked down the corridors of the hospital Relena was in. The floor they were in was a restricted area and only the parents of patients were allowed and only if the head doctor gave his permission. They had not only Sally\'s permission but they had Zechs\' signature with them. Heero had asked Sally to try and contact Zechs one way or the other. In less than four hours he had the signed permission from Milliard Peacecraft and Sally Po in his hand.

They stopped in front of a blue door that had the name Relena Peacecraft on it and under it was a sign that said \'High risk patient. No visits allowed\'. Duo sneered at the warning, as if that could stop them. Tonghonghaired pilot opened the door slowly and noiseless. He entered the room without making any noise and Heero followed him equally quiet.

The room barely had things. It was completely white and it had a simple nightstand at the side of the bed and on it there was a glass of water and a pill. Releas sas sitting in the bed and the back of it had been lifted so she could be more comfortable. She had her hands over he extended legs and her eyes were opened, but it was obvious she wasn\'t looking at anything. Her sight was fixed upwards, looking at the ceiling.

It was like looking at a doll that had been left alone in one corner. None of the two felt bad for her, not even pity. Duo shook his head and approached her bed.

\"Relena? Relena do you hear me?\"

She turned her head slowly and looked at him, and then her eyes opened wide and her face turned as white as the room they were in.

\"Y-you!! Go away! Get away from me! I already told you I wouldn\'t try to see him again or call him or anything! Just leave! LEAVE!\"

Duo understood then, the \'dream\' had been true. His other self had gone to punish her, and it seemed that Heero didn\'t even notice it.

\"Relena, please calm down. I\'m not here to hurt you. I just want to talk with you\"

\"No! Leave right now!\"

Duo shook his head and turned to see a very shocked Heero. Relena followed Duo\'s sight and it was then that she noticed the other one in the room. She became even paler, and she was shaking in terror now.

\"No! Please leave! You can\'t be here! I can\'t see you or talk to you!\"

Heero didn\'t understand and he never liked when he didn\'t understand what was happening around him.

\"Relena?\"

\"Please go! Please...\"

She started to cry and her body was shaking even more.

\"I don\'t want to keep dy.. n.. not like that... please\"

Duo shook his head and made Heero leave the room. Heero looked at him hesitantly but did as Duo asked him. Once Heero was out and the door was closed Duo went back at the side of Relena\'s bed.

\"I won\'t say I\'m sorry Relena. I saw the same thing you saw a lot of times. Again and again and there\'s no way I will ever forget it. You tried to kill me and in the process you would have killed Heero too. I will never forgive that you almost made him suffer so much. If you had succeeded Heero would have died and you would have made all our efforts to bring peace useless\"

\"Leave me alone... please\"

\"No Relena. First you have to promise me some things\"

\"Will you leave and never come back again?\"

\"I will\"

\"Then talk\"

Duo sighed and shook his head.

\"There\'s something you must understand Relena, and that\'s that no matter what you do, you will never get rid of those scenes. However, you still will do as I say. Once we leave, you\'ll contact your brother and ask him to organize a press conference. There you\'ll resign to your place as the princess of the Peacecraft family; you\'ll resign to your name and never try to work for the government. You will leave the Sanc kingdom and never come back... Understand?\"

Relena nodded, but for Duo that was not enough.

\"A nod won\'t do Relena. You must agree verbally and soon you\'ll sign official papers. There will be a restriction order too, won\'t try to contact any of us or be at less than twenty miles away from us. You won\'t contact your brother for anything. Relena, you will have to learn how to live by yourself. Like most of us had to do since we were kids\"

Relena felt the tears falling through her cheeks.

\"I can\'t even see my brother... ever again?\"

\"You won\'t be allowed to contact him. But it will depend of him if he want to see you or not. I can\'t force him to stay away from you if he doesn\'t want to\"

\"What if I don\'t do as you say?\"

Duo\'s eyes turned a shade between red and violet and he spoke in a deep voice that Relena could recognize easily.

\"You really don\'t want to know what will happen to you\"

With that Duo turned on his heel and left the room. Relena stayed in the same position she was when they first entered but her face showed an expression of pure horror.

* * *

Heero had been pacing from one side to the other while Duo talked with Relena. When his lover finally left the room he gave him a look that said \'explain now\', and Duo knew better than to try and avoid the matter. Heero would always make him talk and this time more than ever.

\"Can we leave this place first? I would prefer if we talk about this somewhere else\"

\"We can go to a cafe that\'s near the beach. I\'m sure you must be hungry. I know a toast and a coffee are not enough breakfast for you\"

Duo nodded and they left the hospital. They had woken up early that morning and only had a small breakfast so they could go faster and finish the \'meeting\' sooner. They got into the car and headed towards the beach. During the short trip they didn\'t say a thing, and Duo felt relieved for it. He really didn\'t know how to tell Heero about his \'dream\'. He knew he wouldn\'t doubt of him but that didn\'t mean it wouldn\'t be estrange.

Heero parked the car and turned off the engine. Duohed hed and opened the door to leave the car; Heero looked at him worriedly but didn\'t say a thing. They walked towards the cafe, entered quietly and then looked for a table that would be in a corner so they could talk in peace. Once hey had took seat a waitress approached them and gave them the menu.

Duo looked over it, closed it and then gave it back the girlndinnding next their table.

\"I would like a portion of waffles and a strong coffee, thank you\"

\"And you sir?\"

\"Just a cup of coffee, thanks\"

The waitress left and Heero turned to look at his lover.

\"Now Duo, please tell me why did you want to visit her so badly\"

Duo looked down and shook his head; he took a deep breath and then raised his head to look at Prussian blue.

\"Heero... you know I\'m not normal. I share my body with Shinigami and... and he wanted to make justice. He\'s extremely upset about what Relena tried to do and he... he gave her the punishment he thought was the most appropriate\"

Heero wasn\'t shocked nor he was surprised, but he was impressed.

\"What did he do?\"

\"Do you remember the dream I had yesterday? When you said you felt the temperature of my body had gone down a few degrees?\"

Heero nodded but didn\'t say anything.

\"Well, that happened because he left my body to pay her a visit, but since we are connected deeply I saw and felt what he did\"

Heero\'s eyes narrowed, not because he was worried about Relena\'s safety but because he was worried of Duo\'s welfare.

\"Did he hurt her?\"

Duo seemed to misunderstand Heero\'s worry and he narrowed his eyes too.

\"Are you worried about her?\"

\"No. I\'m worried about you Duo. I don\'t want to see you in a hospital bed again because of her OR him\"

Duo lowered his face.

\"Heero...\"

Just then their orders came and the waitress put the plate of waffles in front of Duo together with the coffee and gave Heero his own.

\"If you need anything just call me, my name is Helen\"

Duo smiled.

\"That\'s a beautiful name\"

She blushed and smiled nervously. Heero smiled too, he knew why Duo had said that.

\"Thank you sir\"

\"You\'re welcome\"

Duo said smiling again.

\"I\'ll be near the bar if you need me\"

\"Ok, thank you Helen\"

Heero could see gleam in Duo\'s eyes when he said the name. Helen turned around and left them alone once again.

\"I miss her and father Maxwell too...\"

\"I know Duo\"

Heero took Duo\'s hand and caressed it softly. They didn\'t speak for a while and Duo really needed the silence. He took the fork and knife and started to eat and for the first time since they had been together Heero saw Duo eat his waffles slowly. He hadn\'t finished his waffles when he put his fork back on the plate and looked at Heero once again.

\"He showed her everything. Every little detail of it... that will be the only thing she\'ll see every night when she goes back to sleep... He knows what he was doing. He wouldn\'t let her go insane but she\'ll see the same thing I saw and what you all saw that day at the battle...\"

Heero had his eyes wide open.

\"God...\"

\"The problem here is that... Heero, I hope you understand me... I\'m not a bad person and I don\'t like to see people suffering but... but I\'m actually glad with it. I approve what he did. I feel it was the right thing to do\"

Duo lowered his eyes he really didn\'t want to see the look on Heero\'s eyes, because he felt that he would see sadness and maybe something else.

\"Duo... Duo look at me please\"

\"I can\'t... Heero, even when I feel glad he did it I know is something terrible. She will be tortured for the rest of her life and I want that to happen, I want her to suffer. When I woke up that day and I saw her I felt everything again, I didn\'t want to sleep because I knew I would see all again...\"

Duo was sniffing and some tears were falling down his cheeks.

\"When I was in coma all I could see and feel was that. Over and over again... I wanted to die right there and then; I didn\'t want to keep suffering that same pain and terror again... But he helped me and stopped the images and helped me to wake up again and accept what I was and who I was... I owed him his revenge\"

Heero stood up and took seat at Duo\'s side; he embraced him and soothed him.

\"Duo, I\'m not angry with you... I couldn\'t care less about her... Thay, ay, when we all received the images we not only saw them... we lived them\"

Duo raised his head and stared at Heero.

\"Did... did the guys talked with you?!\"

Heero shook his head.

\"No, but I felt it, I lived it. I\'m sure they did as well. When I saw all that I understood what you told me when we were at Howard\'s base, and I will never forgive her for the pain you had to endure so many times... And you must be sure that our friends will never either\"
"Hee"Heero!\"

Duo buried his face on Heero\'s shirt and cried. They didn\'t notice the waitress looking at them and they never noticed her smiling sadly. Duo stayed with his face buried in Heero\'s shirt for a while more, but he had already stopped crying.

\"Duo... What exactly happened yesterday?\"

Duo raised his face and before he could do it himself, Heero was already cleaning his face from the tears. Duo sniffed a little more and then started to tell him.

~Flashback~

She was lying awake on her hospital bed; it had been several days since her brother\'s visit. He had said he may come again but it wouldn\'t be too soon since he had some important matters he had to attend to. His visit had been exactly what she had needed and now she was completely aware of her surroundings. Soon she would be back at the mansion in Sanc and hopefully Heero would be there.

\"My Heero... I hope you\'ll be waiting for me\"

The doctors had told Zechs that she had completely erased the event that had brought her there. So she didn\'t remember Heero hitting her or her trying to cut Duo\'s braid. They never told her why she was there, at least not the truth. They had told her that she had reacted badly to some food and that they needed her to stay there so they could be sure she was ok.

The only light in the room was coming from a small lamp on her bedside. The curtains where shut and so she was in shadows. She sighed and turned her head and it was then that she saw \'it\'.

\"AHHH!! Hel-\"

But her scream was muffled by a hand.

\"Stop screaming, no one will come to help you I\'ve taken care of that. I will release you now\"

The hand disappeared and she was about to keep screaming when the figure approached to the light and she recognized it. Her eyes narrowed and a look of pure hatred fell upon the figure in font of her.

\"What the hell are you doing here, you filthy-\"

\"I wouldn\'t continue if I were you\"

\"You can\'t threaten me. I\'m the Queen of the World and I\'m the ruler of the Sanc Kingdom. I don\'t know how you did to get in here but I-\"

\"Shut. Up!\"

He lowered his face so she could see it clearly and just then she noticed the difference. Her eyes widened in shock and her hands were trembling.

\"What... what are you?! You\'re not that idiot Maxwell!\"

He smiled somberly.

\"I am him, in a way... I live inside him, but that\'s nothing of your concern. You tried to destroy Duo and now I\'m here to give you your punishment\"

Once again she narrowed her eyes and looked at him defiantly, as if she actually could do something to him.

\"My \'punishment\'?\"

She raised an eyebrow.

\"You tried to destroy a soul so pure and important that you must be punished\"

She laughed cynically.

\"Maxwell? Pure and important? Please don\'t make me laugh... He\'s just an idiot, Heero would be better off without him\"

He leaned closer to her, his red eyes shining deadly.

\"He would have died if he hadn\'t been there. Relena, from now on everything you\'ll be able to see in your dreams will be the horrors that would have happened if you had succeeded in your attack to Duo\"

\"I never tried to attack that scum. Be sure I would never try to even touch him\"

\"But you did. You tried to take the only thing that keeps him here. The only thing that keeps me under control...\"

She frowned.

\"You never told me who you were\"

\"I, you rotten soul, am Shinigami. The God of Death... and I\'ll make you pay for your audacity\"

He touched her forehead with his index finger and a black light started to pour from it towards Relena. Her eyes went wide open and there was an expression of terror.

\"From now on, you\'ll never see anything else in your dreams. You\'ll never forget what your stupidity could have created\"

Her screams could have been heard everywhere, but no one came to help her. Once the light had subsided he withdrew his finger.

\"You will never forget and will forever be lucid to know the consequences of your acts. I\'m Shinigami and for that only I have to power to never let you die by your own hand. Your death will have to wait some decades from now on. Good bye Relena and I hope for you to be a better person in your next life\"

She saw how the beautiful God disappeared; his shining red eyes forever engraved in her memory. A tear rolled down her face and she refused to close her eyes. She had seen in a flash what would be her eternal torture, and she knew that if she closed her eyes the experience would be a hundred times worst. But there was nothing she could do, after a while her eyelids fell closed and she fell asleep. Her dreams were filled with images of one Duo transformed into a demon, a god with the power of taking a life with just thinking about it.

Dreams full with one Heero suffering the lost of his lover and the sight of the only group able to stop the war falling into pieces. The sight of her own brother turning his back to her and finally her own death in the most painful and horrible way. And she knew she would see all of that, with all the details forever. And she wouldn\'t be able to stop it, not even trying to end her own life.

It was the worst torture someone could endure.

~End Flashback~

Heero sat there voiceless, and Duo thought the worst. He was sure Heero would tell him that what he did have been horrible and that no one deserved that. He feared that his lover would leave him there alone and would never want to see him again, but he found himself suddenly being embraced by a pair of very strong arms. Strong enough to bend iron.

\"Heero?\"

Duo lifted his face from Heero\'s chest and saw the Prussian blue eyes wet with unshed tears.

\"Heero are you alright?\"

\"Yes... I\'m ok. But I want to know how are you. Duo, all this time you had to cope with what happened all alone because you never wanted to tell me what had you seen. When the zero system made us all see and feel exactly what you did I couldn\'t understand how was that you were still sane... I think it\'s time for all of us to sit down and talk about it\"

Duo tensed; he didn\'t want to talk about it with his friends. He knew Heero would sooner or later ask him to talk about it and he had prepared himself to that talk, but he never thought he would have to face the other four pilots. Suddenly he felt pleased that Zechs was not there with them.

\"I don\'t think... that would be a good idea Heero\"

Heero let Duo sit straight on the chair next to him and took his hands in his.

\"Duo, I don\'t think they understand what happened. They felt it the same way I did, they deserve an explanation\"

Duo sighed.

\"I know, but I don\'t think I can face them\"

Heero just embraced him and kissed him softly on the lips. Heero waited till Duo calmed himself down and the finished his breakfast. He took his wallet and left some money over the table, and it was obvious it was a lot more than the food had actually cost. When they were leaving the small cafe the waitress named Helen approached them.

\"I hope you had enjoyed your food and we would be glad to have you again with us\"

They both smiled and nodded. She smiled back and it was only then that Duo noticed it. The resemblance was just too much to be only coincidence.

\"Sister Helen...\"

His voice was very low but both Heero and Helen had heard him. She looked at Heero and smiled sincerely at him.

\"Take care of him. We will be watching over you two\"

He nodded and then she walked back to the small shop, just to disappear a second later.

\"She... she was\"

Duo looked at the spot where she had disappeared and a single tear rolled down his cheek.

\"Sister Helen...\"

Heero would have been extremely shocked if it weren\'t for the fact that a god lived inside his boyfriend. When the war depended of \'them\' he felt that he had been given the most important task of his life, but now that the ghost of the one Duo considered his mother had entrusted her \'son\' to him he felt that the task of the war was nothing in comparison. She asked him to protect him.

\'I will... I swear to you that I will protect him even after he had taken my life\'

He smiled at that thought. He was the boyfriend of none other than the God of Death itself, his own lover would take his life and he couldn\'t think of any better way to die.

\"Heero... tell me you saw her too, tell me you saw how she vanished just there in front of us... tell me I\'m not dreaming\"

Heero embraced him tightly and whispered in Duo\'s ear.

\"As sure as you are Shinigami...\"

\"Thank you\"

Heero kissed him once again, not caring that there was people looking at them. They then walked towards the car and then left.

* * *

Wufei couldn\'t believe how well he had done with just one session of exercises. Definitely Heero was a really good trainer; he decided to go to the gym alone and keep practicing by himself following the same routine they had been doing the day before.

He was now doing stretching exercises. He was on the floor over one of the bunk mattress; he was sat with his legs spread as wide as he could get them and was bending himself over. He now could stand the position more time than before.

\"Perfect, if I keep like this I\'m sure I will be in perfect shape in less than a week\"

He didn\'t heard the door opening softly or saw Sally entering the gym.

\"You are aware that if Heero finds you doing this without him here he\'ll be REALLY mad with you?\"

Wufei jumped at that and the sudden movement made him pay the consequences. He felt how a muscle in his right inner tight got a cramp.

\"KISAMA!! Ahhh, holly shit it hurts!!\"

Sally walked towards him and made him lay down.

\"With that mouth you eat?\"

\"And used to do other things. Now since this is your fault onna, could you be so KIND to bring me something for this fucking cramp?!\"

Sally laughed and stood up to go for the ointment that was on the emergency kit the gym had, just for this kind of things. She came back with it and handed it to the now very upset Chinese pilot.

\"Could you leave please? I won\'t take my sweatpants off with you here\"

Sally laughed even more.

\"Ok, I\'ll leave. But I came here to tell you that Heero and Duo are on their way back. So unless you want to be skinned alive by a very upset Heero I suggest you to go back to your room\"

\"Ok, ok. You can leave now onna\"

Sally shook her head and left the gym. Wufei took the sweatpants off and started to massage his tight with the ointment. After a while massaging his tight he felt the cramp going away. He slowly stood up and walked to the door and exited the gym. He never saw the pair of blue eyes looking at him from the other side of the corridor.

Wufei has finally gotten to his room and was now taking a shower; he really felt fine. He finished washing his hair and turned off the water. There was a full-length mirror in the bathroom and he stood in front of it with only the towel around his thin hips to cover him. The sight the mirror was giving him wasn\'t good.

\"I\'m too thin... Treize and Zechs would never had let me get this skinny\"

He felt his heart bleed. He missed his lovers too much and he knew he would never see them again. Treize was dead, by his own hand and he was sure Zechs would never want to see him again. He would never forgive himself for what he did, and he knew it was just justice taking its price.

\"I must remind alone after what I did. It\'s just only fair\"

He shook his head and left the bathroom. He took his usual clothes to dress himself that day. The white pants and blue tank top. After that he finished drying his hair but decidedleavleave it down this time. He sat on the bed and took his katana from over the desk where he had left it before he went to the gym. Wufei took a small cloth and started to clean the shining blade. He saw the dragon carved on it and suddenly stopped cleaning it. That dragon, once again, made him think of his dead lover.

\"Treize...\"

\"Yes Dragon?\"

* * *

A man was walking down the hall in front of him there was another person, but this one was on a wheelchair. Both of them in silence but very decided. Today they would be visiting someone very special to them, but they were nervous too because they didn\'t know how this person would react towards them.

\"I\'m scared\"

\"That would be the first\"

\"You know what I mean...\"

\"Well, you shouldn\'t. The only one here who should be scared to death would be me. I\'m the one who\'s going to be skinned alive you know?\"

The one on the wheelchair laughed.

\"You know that won\'t happen\"

\"Well, I hope you\'re right then\"

\"I\'m always right\"

\"Please, repeat that when we\'re there ok? I would really enjoy to see the reaction to that comment\"

They both laughed. The one pushing the wheelchair stopped in front of a door and took a deep breath.

\"Ready?\"

\"Always\"

They entered the room silently; the one inside never saw them. They saw how the person looked down at what was on the bed and sighed, and then they heard the low voice.

\"Treize...\"

The man on the wheel chair smiled and answered.

\"Yes Dragon?\"

* * *

Quatre was in the kitchen once more. He had refused to let the others cook Wufei\'s meals, and had said he would cook all the meals for the Chinese pilot. No one could make him stop. Trowa just sighed and stayed with him to help him cook and prepare Wufei\'s tray. This time he was making a nice vegetables cream and Trowa was cutting some apples to make the juice.

\"Here, please tell me if I should add more salt\"

Trowa took the spoon with the pale greenish content and tasted the soup.

\"I think it\'s ok, but you know I don\'t like salt that much. You better wait for Duo; he\'s better at these things than me\"

Quatre smiled and was about to turn off the stove when he heard the familiar voice of his hyperactive friend coming from the door.

\"Do I smell Quatre\'s food?!\"

Heero was right behind him and both, he and Trowa arched an eyebrow.

\"How can you always tell?\"

\"I have a gifted nose!\"
ro rro raised his other brow and looked at his boyfriend strangely.

\"What?\"

Duo winked at him.

\"I can recognize Quatre\'s meals just smelling them\"

He turned to look at the blonde.

\"I don\'t know, but when you cook your food smell different\"

He shrugged and went towards the stove and snatched the spoon from Quatre\'s hand. He took some of the hot liquid on it and blew over it a little to cool it down so he wouldn\'t burn his tongue with it. Once he thought it was enough he tasted it.

\"Ummm... I would add a little more of salt, but I think it\'s ok for Wufei\"

Quatre nodded and turned the stove off. He then took the pot and left it at the back of the stove to prevent accidents. Heero sat on the table and Trowa offered him and Duo some of the juice he had been making. Heero looked at him and then asked.

\"How was him?\"

Quatre took seat in front of him and smiled.

\"I think he\'s a lot better. He all hll his breakfast and then started to do some meditation. I don\'t think he\'ll be completely ok anytime soon but he\'s trying to cope. I can feel the pain in his heart; he misses them just too much\"

\"Poor Fei... I hope Zechs shows up soon. I really wonder where that man had been all this time\"

That was the question they all had in their minds. No one knew why Zechs didn\'t come back with them after the war. No one knew where he was, and no one knew if he would accept Wufei after what had happened. They stayed there in the kitchen, thinking about what they could do to help their friend. It was then that they heard it.

\"NOOOO!\"

Heero raised his head and noticed the other three had done the same and now they were looking at each other with wide open eyes. It was Duo the one who reacted.

\"That was Wu-man!!\"

Duo stood up like a flash and hurried to the stairs and then down the hall towards Wufei\'s room. He was being followed very closely by the other three pilots. When the four of them reached the room they saw a very scared Wufei on the bed. They then saw who else was there, Zechs was standing and in front of him was Treize on a wheelchair.

\"Dragon\"

\"No! Shut up! You can\'t be here! I killed you! I heard the Tallgeese explode!\"

Zechs pushed the chair towards the bed and Wufei backed away from them.

\"Wufei, please calm down\"

But Wufei was just too shocked to react. Quatre approached to Zechs and put his hand over the tall blonde\'s shoulder.

\"I think is better if you leave now. Let us handle him and then I\'ll call you. I\'ll suggest you to come alone and talk to him. Remember that he\'s convinced that Treize was dead\"

Zechs didn\'t want to leave, but he understood Quatre\'s reasoning and taking the handles of Treize\'s chair he turned around and headed towards the door. Treize held one of his hands and made him stop.

\"Please, try to make him understand...\"

Duo turned around and looked at him.

\"I\'ll try\"

\"Thank you\"

With that they left the room and closed the door behind them. Quatre sat down on one side of the bed and Duo went around it to take seat at the other side and hence closer to Wufei than Quatre. The Chinese pilot was trembling and was shaking his head.

\"Fei-Fei?\"

Wufei raised his head and looked at Duo.

\"He can\'t be alive, can he? I killed him myself... why would he wait so long before contacting me if was alive? Why didn\'t Zechs try to get to me before? Why they made me think he was dead and that Zechs hated me? Why?!\"

Duo took Wufei\'s hand and pulled the trembling pilot towards himself and embraced him.

\"Shhh... It\'s ok pal. I don\'t have the answers to your questions, but I\'m sure there must be a reason. Let them explain...\"

\"Duo, you don\'t understand. They have all the right to leave me after what I did, and I was starting to think I would be able to live with it... I can\'t face them, not now... not ever\"

Duo sighed and tightened his embrace.

\"Man... I don\'t think they made you wait on purpose. There must be a really good explanation for it... Wufei, you are not to be blamed for what happened. If we must blame someone, those should be the scientists. You asked them not to install the system in your gundam but they did it anyway\"

Wufei closed his eyes. He didn\'t know what to do. He didn\'t know how to confront the two men he loved the most. No matter what they said, he was the one who had destroyed the Tallgeese.

\"Now, please lay dawn and take a rest. You really need to sleep a little. We\'ll talk with them and once you have rested enough we\'ll talk ok?\"

Wufei was indeed tired. He just nodded and let the braided boy help him into the bed. He closed his eyes and soon he was fast asleep. They all looked at him sadly and then proceeded to leave the room. Once outside Duo chedched his fist and turned to look at his friends.

\"I would prefer if you let me talk with them alone. It\'ll be too awkward if the four of us are there\"

Heero shook his head.

\"I don\'t care if you don\'t want to Duo, but I\'m coming with you\"

Duo sighed but nodded. He knew that Heero would come with him anyway.

\"Ok then. Q-man, please tell Sally to go and do a check up to Wufei and tell her what happened\"

Quatre nodded and left with Trowa. Duo turned in his heel and walked down the hall to his and Heero\'s room. He took off his shirt and changed it for a clean one. Then he tuned again and left the room always followed by Heero.

\"Duo, are you ok?\"

\"I will be when those two explain everything to me. And I hope for their well being for that to be a Hell of a good explanation\"

\"Duo, you know you can\'t hurt Zechs, don\'t you?\"

Duo said nothing and kept walking. Heero just shook his head and walked behind him. They went downstairs and as Duo expected both men were in the living room obviously waiting for them. Duo sat down on the armchair in front of the fireplace and looked at Zechs who was seating in the other armchair with Treize on his wheelchair next to him. Heero remained stood next to Duo.

\"I hope you two have a really good explanation for this. Or be sure I\'ll make of your lives a living Hell\"

Zechs looked at Duo and knew the boy wasn\'t joking.

\"And before you start let me tell you something. Wufei had been blaming himself all this time about what happened, no matter what we would tell him... He even tried to... He tried to kill himself believing that was the only way to do justice. I won\'t let you hurt him, in any way-\"

Zechs and Treize opened his eyes wide, they had been told that Wufei had been found and that he was fine, but they never knew he had tried to kill himself. Zechs cut Duo in mid sentence.

\"Duo, the last thing we would want to do is hurting him\"

\"Well, you did already. You should have thought better be bre bringing him to see Wufei just like that! He had been hurting all this time thinking Treize was dead! Didn\'t you think that it would really scare the shit outta him to see the person he was sure was dead, killed by his own hand!?\"

Heero decided to calm down his lover before he launched himself towards the two men.

\"Duo, please calm down. I think they already got it\"

Heero was caressing Duo\'s hair softly, but his eyes reminded fixed over the two in front of him.

\"I don\'t think you two should go near Wufei anytime soon. He\'s pretty shocked and needs time to digest what just happened. When he had calmed down again I think the best would be if just you, Zechs, go and talk with him\"

Duo had calmed down a little already and once again looked at them,

\"Now, please explain what was so fucking important that you couldn\'t contact Wufei right away after the battle\"

Zechs looked at Treize and this one nodded.

\"When Wufei attacked the Tallgeese this one didn\'t explode right away. Treize had the chance to get out of it in time, but even when I could caught him the explosion still hit us. He fell unconscious and I knew I had to take him as fast as I could back to the Peacemillion... I was in my way there, with him in Epyon\'s right hand when it happened. I don\'t know how to explain this, but suddenly everything became blaThe The last thing I heard was Treize\'s scream. Then I woke up to something that I don\'t know what it was...\"

Zechs fell silent when he felt Treize\'s hand over his.

\"I woke up just in time to feel it too. I don\'t know if it was a dream or reality, but I\'m sure I felt it as if I had lived it-\"

Duo\'s eyes went wide open when he understood.

\"Wait... I think I know what you two saw. You two saw something that could have happened if-\"

\"If my sister had succeeded...\"

\"Yes\"

They fell silent. Duo had lowered headhead and started shaking. Heero put his hands over Duo\'s shoulders massaging them trying to relax Duo a little. After some minutes Duo spoke again.

\"Deathscythe\'s zero system activated by itself and showed you and the other guys something I dreamed. Or what I thought it was a dream. What you saw could have been real if Heero hadn\'t come in time to stop her\"

Treize looked at him very shocked.

\"So... that mea. th. that it is true? You actually \'are\' the God of Death?!\"

\"Yes... I know is something hard to believe, but it\'s true. I wouldn\'t want anyone to know about it, but it was his will. He wanted you to know and he found the way to do it. Even thou we\'re two different beings we share the same body, when he needs to show himself I fall sleep\"

\"I see... So if she had succeeded, then you would have killed her so he wouldn\'t take over your body?\"

\"She would have died anyway, no matter if it was me or him who killed her. In a way Heero saved her life once again. But doesn\'t mean that she would be left without punishment\"

\"What do you mean?\"

\"Your sister had been punished for what she tried to do. Shinigami had already taken care of that\"

\"What happened to her?\"

Duo looked down once again. He didn\'t want to tell them and Heero decided to change the subject.

\"I think is better if we don\'t talk about that right now\"

Zechs noticed the pained look on both boys\' eyes.

\"Ok, then...\"

\"Now, please keep explaining what happened\"

Treize looked at them and continued.

\"Well, after that it took some time for us to regain consciousness. Zechs tried to contact Wufei but his line was dead. He wanted to go back to Peacemillion, but the colony was closer and I didn\'t have too much oxygen to keep breathing, so he took me there\"

\"That doesn\'t explain why you didn\'t contacted Wufei afterwards or us for that matter\"

Zechs sighed and continued explaining.

\"You see, when I finally reached the colony there was still some chaos. Some of our Taurus were still fighting Tubarov\'s troops and the colonists were in panic. My priority was to take Treize to a hospital and after that go and help our troops. When we finally could stop the troops I left to look for Tubarov. I knew he was there and if I let him escape I knew he would try to attack once again when he felt he was stronger\"

Duo looked at Heero and he nodded, Zechs and Treize were impressed at the way those two could talk without words. Heero left to the kitchen to get something to drink for all of them and just a minute later he came back with four glasses of the apple juice Trowa had made before. He handed each one of them one and then went back to his place next to Duo.

Zechs took some of his drink and kept talking after his throat felt less dry.

\"I finally found him, he was trying to escape but I stopped him. He took out his gun and tried to shoot me; I couldn\'t stop it and I couldn\'t let him kill me or escape. I had to kill him... I ordered one of my men to take care of the body and I left to the hospital I had taken Treize to. I had left two of my men to stay with him but when I came back they told me he had to be taken to the operation room... He had internal bleeding and they needed to operate him as fast they could. I couldn\'t leave him there; I was the only one who could actually protect him. I didn\'t trust those doctors, so I went to where he was being operated and stayed thereh hih him...\"
"Wha"What happened after that? You could have called after the operation since I can take it actually went ok\"

\"Yes Duo, the operation went ok, but he was too weak and I couldn\'t leave him alone. I did tried to communicate once again with Wufei but it was useless. I know it was stupid from me not to try contacting any of you, but I was too worried for Treize and Wufei. I just didn\'t thought about it. Things just got worse when after a week Treize fell into a coma. In that moment I just forgot everything and all I wanted to do was to stay there with him... Three days later I got a call from Master O, he toe Wue Wufei was with him, but he wouldn\'t tell me where he was. Just that he was ok\"

Zechs took another zip from his juice and kept talking.

\"Treize came back from that coma two days after the call. I told him everything and we decided to wait until his wounds were better and then we would go back to earth. Once I was sure he was well enough to defend himself in case someone tried to attack him I took a ship towards earth to visit Relena. She was in some kind of self-induced trance; it seems that she had created a world of her own. I spent three days there until she came back to our realm. She recognized me and constantly called for Heero... It was really sad... The doctor told me that now that she had reacted they could work with her and keep her \'here\'. I went back to space and sent a mail to Noin\"

Duo nodded.

\"I know about that. She told us what you had said and your orders pertaining our allowance to live here\"

Zechs nodded and continued.

\"I came back to stay with Treize and started to look for Lady Une. I found out that she was working forming the Preventers at L-1, same place we were at. I went to talk with her and asked her if she knew more about Wufei. She told me that you had been told about it too and that you were in your way to take him back to earth. We never knew that he had tried to... God...\"

Treize caressed Zechs hand softy and continued for him.

\"Zechs called Sally and asked her to not tell anyone here about our coming back. He was just following my wishes, I admit it was a mistake of my part and that I should have let you warn Wufei before hand... We came back the same day you did. We actually were almost behind you; it seems you never noticed the space ship behind yours...\"

\"We were kind of busy worrying about Wufei\'s health during the fly back. All I had in my mind was to make the entrance to the earth atmosphere as soft as I could. And after that my worries were to make the softest landing I had ever done. The last thing in my mind was to check if there was a ship following us\"

Duo\'s words were shand snd sarcastic.

\"I understand your anger towards us, but please try to understand us too. I\'m just human and I can make mistakes, I thought I was doing the right thing Duo\"

\"If you had seen him, if you had seen the bandages on his wrists or the look of pure loathe towards himself, then you would understand why I\'m so fucking pissed with you two, Zechs\"

Heero looked at Treize and then asked.

\"You said you two came back the same day as us. That was yesterday morning; why didn\'t you came to talk with us then?\"

\"I was too tired, I had taken some soft sedatives for the way back and didn\'t feel that good when we finally reached the mansion. Sally took us to Zechs\' room and once again Zechs asked her to not say anything. I thought it would be better to wait until the next day so we all would be rested\"

Duo pinched the bridge of his nose and closed his eyes sighing.

\"You two are aware that if Fei-Fei ever forgive you two for your stupidity you still will have to pay for it, don\'t you? You know how is he and that when he finally get over this he\'ll want to have your skin\"

Both men smiled, but Duo spoke before they could.

\"I didn\'t mean it that way and you know it. You\'ll be lucky if he even let you touch him anytime soon\"

Their smile disappeared.

\"Glad you understand that. Now I think you two should go back to your room... Or wherever you want to go. We\'ll let you know when Wufei fells better. But remember that only Zechs will be allowed to talk with him first. I think it will be less shocking for him\"

\"I understand. Please, tell him we love him...\"

Duo nodded smiling softly.

\"I will\"

Duo and Heero left the living room and went upstairs to explain the other two what had happened. Zechs stayed there, and Treize looked at him worried.

\"Don\'t worry, you\'ll see how everything will be alright\"

\"I hope so... I really hope so\"

~Tbc~
Well, that was something hard to do... This thing is really making me feel frustd. Id. I actually have to say that I didn\'t like this chapter. Don\'t know why ^^! Well, I\'m starting classes again this Monday and so I once again won\'t have too much time to write... I\' really sorry for that, but you know how teachers like to annoy poor students TT