Quatre Winner\'s Diary
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Gundam Wing/AC › Crossovers
Rating:
Adult +
Chapters:
84
Views:
3,720
Reviews:
14
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
0
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Jan 24th
January: New Year, New Life
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Friday, Jan 24th
2:15 pm
Only six more hours until dinner with Trowa, and I can\'t believe that I\'m counting. It seems so…depraved. Even Dorothy said I seemed excited. I told her the whole story, starting from the beginning, only I left the part out about the dream. She kind of smiled at me knowingly, then kissed me on the cheek. We have a date tomorrow afternoon. I haI have dinner tomorrow night with the gang. And dinner tonight with Trowa. God, I\'m popular lately. I just lay back a little and then everyone wants to be my friend. It\'s nice, and I get to have dinner with…no, I get lunch with Dorothy. Yes. Maybe she\'ll let me kiss her again. I wonder if Trowa\'ll try to kiss me tonight. It\'d be hard to explain to him I\'m straight, and I might lose his friendship. I really want him around. I like him.
5:12 pm
Only three more hours until Trowa\'s here. I don\'t know why I\'m waiting with baited breath. Maybe because I want to see if I really do desire Trowa. It\'s a great way to test it. Spend a few hours with him. See if he was the cause of that dizzy spell after the accident and not a possible head trauma or the adrenaline rush. But what if it was him? What if I really want to kiss him? Have him run those long fingers over my naked skin? What then? Would I be gay or is it an exclusive feeling for him? What if nothing happens? Why am I worrying about this? I obviously like girls and I have a potential girlfriend who I\'m eating lunch with tomorrow. No, there\'s nothing going on. I\'m straight.
6:00pm
But what if I\'m gay? What then? I know my friends would still accept me, everyone\'s okay with Duo being gay, so they\'d all be f The Then there\'s Dad. He\'d be disappointed not to have any grandkids, at least from me. I\'m the male heir. I need to make more heirs. Then again, he might be happy if I finally found someone to share my life withme ome of my sisters wouldn\'t deal well, but then there\'s others that would love it and some that wouldn\'t give a shit. I couldn\'t come out at work though, well, I might be able to, after all nepotism is good for something. Piss me off, you piss off the big boss. BesiI\'mI\'m in charge of all the people I deal with anyway. So power would keep me safe.
It\'s becoming cooler to be gay these days, even if it\'s still dangerous. But still I\'m glad that I might not be. I really don\'t want to deal with it. I don\'t think I\'m strong enough. Duo\'s strong enough, but the first snide remark…I’d just lose it. I\'d really need a strong man by my side. Someone who could show me how to take it all in stride or how to roll it off. I really couldn’t do it. Not alone.
12:15am
I swear that was the best non-date of my life. Trowa was amazing. I\'d love to go on a real date with him sometime. I\'d love for him to kiss me. I\'d want him to make love to me. I want him to take my virginity. I need him to. I don\'t think anyone else is worthy. I swear I\'m in love. He make me all hot and cold and tingly, and all he did was brush my hand. I don\'t care about anything as long as a man like that is still in this world. This has to be love. I think I\'m going to pass out now.
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Friday, Jan 24th
2:15 pm
Only six more hours until dinner with Trowa, and I can\'t believe that I\'m counting. It seems so…depraved. Even Dorothy said I seemed excited. I told her the whole story, starting from the beginning, only I left the part out about the dream. She kind of smiled at me knowingly, then kissed me on the cheek. We have a date tomorrow afternoon. I haI have dinner tomorrow night with the gang. And dinner tonight with Trowa. God, I\'m popular lately. I just lay back a little and then everyone wants to be my friend. It\'s nice, and I get to have dinner with…no, I get lunch with Dorothy. Yes. Maybe she\'ll let me kiss her again. I wonder if Trowa\'ll try to kiss me tonight. It\'d be hard to explain to him I\'m straight, and I might lose his friendship. I really want him around. I like him.
5:12 pm
Only three more hours until Trowa\'s here. I don\'t know why I\'m waiting with baited breath. Maybe because I want to see if I really do desire Trowa. It\'s a great way to test it. Spend a few hours with him. See if he was the cause of that dizzy spell after the accident and not a possible head trauma or the adrenaline rush. But what if it was him? What if I really want to kiss him? Have him run those long fingers over my naked skin? What then? Would I be gay or is it an exclusive feeling for him? What if nothing happens? Why am I worrying about this? I obviously like girls and I have a potential girlfriend who I\'m eating lunch with tomorrow. No, there\'s nothing going on. I\'m straight.
6:00pm
But what if I\'m gay? What then? I know my friends would still accept me, everyone\'s okay with Duo being gay, so they\'d all be f The Then there\'s Dad. He\'d be disappointed not to have any grandkids, at least from me. I\'m the male heir. I need to make more heirs. Then again, he might be happy if I finally found someone to share my life withme ome of my sisters wouldn\'t deal well, but then there\'s others that would love it and some that wouldn\'t give a shit. I couldn\'t come out at work though, well, I might be able to, after all nepotism is good for something. Piss me off, you piss off the big boss. BesiI\'mI\'m in charge of all the people I deal with anyway. So power would keep me safe.
It\'s becoming cooler to be gay these days, even if it\'s still dangerous. But still I\'m glad that I might not be. I really don\'t want to deal with it. I don\'t think I\'m strong enough. Duo\'s strong enough, but the first snide remark…I’d just lose it. I\'d really need a strong man by my side. Someone who could show me how to take it all in stride or how to roll it off. I really couldn’t do it. Not alone.
12:15am
I swear that was the best non-date of my life. Trowa was amazing. I\'d love to go on a real date with him sometime. I\'d love for him to kiss me. I\'d want him to make love to me. I want him to take my virginity. I need him to. I don\'t think anyone else is worthy. I swear I\'m in love. He make me all hot and cold and tingly, and all he did was brush my hand. I don\'t care about anything as long as a man like that is still in this world. This has to be love. I think I\'m going to pass out now.