The Angst Never Ends

Pocky: This is the final chapter of \'The Angst Never Ends\'.

Disclaimer is the same as the first chapter.

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~Tiger~


I was watching him as I lay in my bed that night, wondering what he was thinking. Then he sat up and pulled a small box from somewhere, and I was immensely curious about that box.

I was watching him with half opened eyes, smiling soflty to myself as I ran my eyes over his body. Then he stood up and pulled something out of his pocket and put it on his pillow, and then he went to our shared bathroom and locked himself in it.

I stood up and walked past his bed, momentarily glancing down at the item on his pillow, which had my name on it.

I picked it up and put it in my pocket, then walked to the door of the bathroom, and I thought to myself, What are you planning, my love? Why are you worrying me so?

I knocked on the door lightly, but got no answer, then I tried to turn the doorknob, but found I couldn’t as the door was locked.

After a few minutes I heard the noise of what I feared the most, and as the loud bang from the gun resounded in the bathroom, I knew that there was nothing I could do.

I sank to the ground in front of the bathroom, then I heard the footsteps of my teammates coming closer as I burried my face in my hands and my body started shaking uncontrolably.

It was later on that morning that the tears came, when I saw his body, limp and lifeless, I couldn’t do anything, and I couldn’t hold back the tears when I saw all the blood.

There was blood everywhere. All over the walls and floor of the bathroom, it was a horrifying sight.

I can’t go on without you, my phoenix, I thought to myself, as I sat in a corner with my knees pressed against my chest.

It was a month after Kai’s death and I realised that the pain was too great for me to handle. I had hardly eaten, and not spoken one word since it happened. I refused to speak to anyone, no matter how hard they tried.

That night, when everyone else was asleep, I pulled his letter from my pocket and finally opened it.

My eyes widened as I read the content of Kai’s final letter to me.


Rei,
If you are reading this, then I have gone through with my plans and am no longer breathing. I’m terribly sorry for making you cry as I know this incident will do. Please forgive me, you are the one thing I regret about giving up my life.

I know there is nothing I can do to stop your tears, but please don’t dwell on my death, I want you to move on with your life and find someone else who will make you happy.

Just remember that I will always be with you, my tiger, I will always be watching you and I will always love you.

I have been through so many things in my life, things that still haunt me, so I feel it is finally time to escape them, and this is the only sure way I can think of. I’m so sorry, my precious tiger.

I love you forever, and I always will, but now I will be free, free of my grandfather and his sick and twisted control over me.

He is the one who gave me so many nights tossing and turning, my dreams plagued by nightmares of all the times he beat me and raped me... I just cant stand it anymore.

Please, tiger, don’t cry anymore, I’ll wait for you forever.

Your beloved Phoenix,
Kai.


As I read the last few sentances, the tears poured from my eyes, and I sobbed silently. I missed my phoenix so much, Kai meant everything to me.

I pulled out a small blade I had hidden on my body, and scraped it across my wrist then down the did the same for my other wrist, and the tears were still coming as my vision slowly faded to darkness.

I smiled for the first time in a month as I felt his warm arms around me and his lips on mine, tears coming from my eyes, but this time the tears were happy, we would be together forever now.

~Owari~

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Pocky: This fanfic made me cry when I was writing it. I wrote the first chapter last night, about 1am, after reading some gravitation angst. Then I just finished this chapter this evening.

This is the end, there will be no more additions to this story.