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Title: Pillow Talk (Chapter 1)

Author: Tenohikari

Betad by: Nevermore Amaya

Fandom: Gundam Seed Destiny

Pairing: Kira/Shinn (um... yay for non-existent pairings)
Warning:
A little AU-ish but there are spoilers for the series thus far and
shounen ai/yaoi themed if you haven't gotten that from that pairing. If
the site of two male fictional characters together makes you cringe and
want to write me flame reviews based on the �OMG Kira and Shinn are not
gay for each other because I said so!� - please hit the back button on
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Disclaimer: It's obvious that I don't own Gundam Seed Destiny...

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Chapter One
Whenever
insomnia struck onboard the Archangel, Kira would find himself
wandering the nearly empty corridors until out of habit his feet would
lead him to the hanger. To his mobile suit. This time, however, he
fought that urge and continued to circle around the battleship until he
was able to sort out his thoughts and banish current anxieties. As he
was nearing the mess hall again, Kira noted his lack of progress when
he remembered how vehement Impulse's pilot had sounded when he had
yelled at him over the radio...
"STOP IT! YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING!"
It
was Shinn's voice that had made his heart leap into his throat and
prevented him from taking an offensive position. Only moments ago they
had been fighting together against a common enemy. Why now was Shinn
turning on him in their favor? Kira winced at the memory of Impulse
attacking him, driving him back before flying straight towards the
massive killing machine by itself.
It was one of the moments when
he felt truly afraid. Not for himself, but for Shinn who was so close
to that machine that had already reduced most of Berlin to ruins. So
close to being incinerated for who knows what reason. Kira then made a
choice: he would not watch another person he cared for die before his
eyes.
"First, you decide. Then, you carry it through. That's the only way to accomplish anything..."
He
had taken Lacus�s words to heart yet again. Decisions. Choices. For
every decision made, there is an infinite number of possibilities where
a decision was made differently. As much as the brunette wished he
could review them all, he could not picture a world without Shinn. In
that moment of choice, Kira had felt his own power rise to the surface.
He had decided to save Shinn even if the younger coordinator would hate
him for it afterwards.
Kira was momentarily interrupted from his
brooding when Captain Amagi stepped into the hallway and conveniently
blocked his path. The older man gave him a friendly smile and Kira
forced his present emotions aside to return it. The smile quickly
turned into a frown and Kira wondered how fractured his mask must be
that even strangers could see through it.
"Is everything all right, Kira-sama?"
He
was glad the Orb officers recognized him as their ruler's little
brother, but Kira couldn't help but be annoyed at the honorific title.
In his mind he did nothing worth being honored for. He had just
recently broken his own 'no kill' rule - even though most onboard the
ship said it had been necessary.
Kira shrugged a bit, "Yeah, I'm fine. Just couldn't sleep."
The
Naval Captain only nodded though looked a little apologetic as if he
thought he had offended Kira by the simple question. "It's just you've
passed the mess hall for the fifth time tonight, the men and I were
worried."
Looking over Amagi's shoulder, Kira could identify
several Murasume pilots sitting their quietly. They were rather new
occupants onboard the Archangel and weren't used to his midnight
strolls like the rest of the crew were. He was a little surprised when
one of the pilots raised up an arm and waved at him.
"Would you like to join us, Yamato-taichou?"
The
teenager couldn't hide his shock this time. Back when the Archangel
used to be affiliated with the Earth Alliance, way back when Strike had
been his mobile suit, he had been promoted to lieutenant. He was
relieved that the rank system had gone when he returned. That the
people he would fight alongside with were no superiors and
subordinates; but allies and most of all friends.
This time, it
felt a little different... and he stared back at Amagi who chuckled at
the bewildered look on his face. "Since we'll be fighting alongside
each other now, I thought it would be best to give you a rank. To show
that I trust you commanding my officers if needed, and they will gladly
follow your orders as if they were my own."
He really wished he
could close his mouth and stop gaping - where was Cagalli and her
upper-cut shot when you needed her - and turned back to soldiers who
cleared some space on the bench for him to sit down. This was certainly
not unwelcome at all, just unexpected. Kira was used to taking orders
rather than giving them, doing tasks himself rather than delegating
them. But this rank was an honor even if it wasn't official, and Kira
just felt his face burn with embarrassment for a moment before going
over to join them.
"You all can just call me 'Kira' if you want to. So what are you guys having?" he asked as the drinks went around the table.
"Hot chocolate."
"Hot chocolate laced with kahlua!"
"Idiot! He's underage!"
Kira
let out a small laugh, but downed the warm cocoa beverage anyway. A
little alcohol wouldn't hurt him - Kira was pretty confident after
drinking Waldfeld's triple shot mocha - he could handle anything. As he
listened to the other pilots talk about previous battles and life back
in their home country, Kira started to relax and let his anxieties
slipped away. If only until he piloted Freedom and faced Shinn once
again.
Clack. Clack. Clack.
His
fingers danced across the keyboard as he accessed the proper file that
contained the compiled data of the mobile suit infamously known as The
Freedom. The steady rhythmic tapping ceased as Shinn Asuka leaned
forward, elbows resting against his terminal. He studied the digital
footage of that mobile suit's performance, scene by scene, frame by
frame - determined to find a flaw somewhere.
Yet as minutes
finally stretched into hours, Shinn had to restrain himself from
bashing the screen with his chair. Perfect. As much as it disgusted him
to admit, his opponent was formidable. He watched for the umpteenth
time as The Freedom weaved back and forth between incoming fire,
dodging with ease. Its speed was remarkable and without a doubt in his
mind, it had to be the strongest one on the battlefield at present.
Chewing
his lower lip, Shinn analyzed his data over again - back to Freedom's
first appearance back in the battle at Orb. It had enough fire-power to
take out several opponents at once, so a long ranged attack was out of
the question. Close combat was possible, if he could just increase
Impulse's speed a little more...
Shinn was completely unaware of
the door hissing open, or the sound of footsteps approaching. It was
only when he felt his roommate lean forward to look over his shoulder
did Shinn practically jump in his seat. Rey's blue eyes regarded him
for a moment, before the blonde nodded towards the monitor.
"Have you been able to discover anything new about it?"
Shinn
turned away from the pilot and glared back at 'it' and shook his head.
He couldn't deny that perfection existed in virtually every aspect of
that mobile suit's performance. Even Athrun was defeated by it. Yet
Shinn wouldn't let himself be intimidated... and neither would Rey when
the other teenager spoke up.
"Please allow me to assist."
The
raven haired boy glance back at Rey who continued to stand beside him,
his gaze fixated on the data displayed before them. Remembering back to
when Stellar was alive and onboard the Minerva, Shinn recalled when his
fellow pilot had knocked out a few guards to assist with the escape.
Shinn still owed him for that and now Rey wanted to help again...
Camaraderie...
Shinn nodded his head and allowed a small smile to twitch at his lips
at the realization that even though he would be the only mobile suit
going out to battle for awhile, he didn't have to feel like he was
fighting alone.
Several minutes later, Rey spoke up quickly, much
to the other�s surprise. "Would you replay that last segment again,
Shinn, I think I may have found something."
Having
spent most of his days on a battleship like the Vesalius or the
Minerva, Athrun Zala had almost grown accustomed to living under a
constant threat. As soon as the alarm sounded, his instincts would kick
in as he prepared for battle alongside his team mates. However, with
Savior damaged beyond repair, Athrun found himself brooding more often
than he normally would.
After being reinstated back into ZAFT,
the son of the former chairman had been surprised at Gilbert
Dullindal's trust in him. Being a member of FAITH was a rare honor
given only to a select few after all, for it allowed the freedom to act
on his own decisions. However, the lightweight medal pinned to his
uniform collar felt like an anchor weighing him down more than anything
else.
Really what could he do in this kind of situation? Just as
how it was two years ago, Athrun Zala could feel the storm brewing ever
since his childhood friend entered the fray and now it was going to be
unleashed. He remembered listening to the cheers for Dullindal's name
on the broadcast not too long ago, and how much they sounded like waves
ready to crash against the shore and wash everything away. The Blue
Cosmos. The Earth Forces. Orb. The Archangel. Cagalli. Kira...
A
flurry of emotions was wreaking havoc inside him as he approached Shinn
and Rey's quarters. He paused for a moment as he faced the closed door,
counting several heartbeats, as Athrun wondered what he was should say.
What could he say to that reckless subordinate who barely listened to
his orders in the past? He sighed quietly to himself, raising up a hand
to his eye level and remembering lashing out at Shinn for not listening
to orders. Would the pilot of Impulse listen to him now?
A knock
at the door caused Rey to turn his gaze away from the screen for a
moment and his lips thinned in displeasure when he heard the voice
coming from behind it.
"Shinn? It's Athrun, I'm coming in."
Normally,
whether he liked the person or not, Rey would stop and salute a higher
ranking officer as military custom required; but instead he turned his
attention back to the monitor once more. Both ZAFT pilots ignored their
senior as he approached to stand beside them. From the corner of his
eye, Rey watched the older teen's shocked facial expression when he saw
the battle footage of the Freedom. What seemed to disturb Athrun more,
was how focused Shinn was in his examination.
In all the mission
briefings they've had together, he's never seen Shinn like this. So
calm and focused despite the obvious exhilaration pumping through his
veins. Obsession. Athrun remembered it well from the time Yzak Jule was
fixated on destroying the Strike, and now it was happening all over
again.
Kira...
He reached over and grasped Shinn's
shoulder, forcing the two boys to turn and face him. "Shinn, Rey, what
in the world do you think you're doing?"
The ruby-eyed
coordinator shot him an irritated glare at the disturbance as well as
the hysteria in Athrun's tone. "What?" when Athrun didn't bother to
remove his hand from his person, Shinn turned back to the panel.
"I'm
going through a battle simulation with the Freedom," he answered,
shrugging away from the other's grasp. "What do you want?"
Emerald eyes widened in disbelief as Athrun stepped around the chair so that he wasn't talking to Shinn's back.
"Why are you doing this?"
Shinn
didn't bother to meet the Faith soldier's furious stare, he was so
fixated on Freedom's maneuvering capabilities that he didn't even blink
in the span of an entire minute. But he knew better than to ignore
Athrun Zala. He also wanted to let the older teenager that he was
serious about this... dead serious.
"Because he's strong," Shinn
admitted, "and as far as I know the Freedom is the most capable Mobile
Suit out there. In that case, I think it would be helpful to train with
it as an opponent." The pilot of Impulse glanced in Athrun's direction
for a moment to see that his glare did not die down. "Wouldn't it be a
serious problem if something happened and there wasn't anyone in ZAFT
who could defeat that thing?"
He could hear what other was
saying; but with the blood pounding in his ears, all Athrun could
picture was Kira. His best friend dying before his eyes just like
Rusty, Nicol, Miguel, and his mother had while all he - the former
"ZAFT Ace" - could do was watch. His hand shot out again, grabbing the
boy's arm, shouting his name as he pulled him up and out of his seat.
Shinn pulled his arm back, now scowling directly at Athrun. "What's your problem!"
Before
blows could be exchanged, Rey decided to intervene this time and
stepped forward as the two dark haired boys glared darkly at one
another. "Both of you, settle down and back off," he managed to say
without making it a direct order as he moved between them and faced the
older pilot.
"Athrun, he's right," Rey informed him while Shinn
was glowering over the blonde's shoulder. "Indeed, the Freedom is
powerful but threatening because the side it belongs to isn't allied
with our forces. We have no knowledge of their agenda; therefore trust
at this moment is impossible."
He took a moment to regard the
former pilot of Savior to make an objection. When receiving none -
except for Athrun's torn expression - Rey continued, "Even if you
fought alongside the Freedom, what Shinn had implied is a a possibility
that we - as ZAFT soldiers - need to prepare for."
'If you don't shoot, you'll find yourself being the one shot down.'
For
a brief instant Athrun almost pictured the Rau Le Creuset standing
before him. His deceased commanding officer had given him that advice
long ago, when the Strike had been a threat. As much as he would like
to believe that the circumstances were different... he couldn't. Kira
was in the same position then as he was now: in the line of fire.
'If you don't shoot...'
"But Kira isn't the enemy!"
The
outburst seemed to startle him more than it did the other two in the
room. This was the second time he uttered Kira's name before ones who
would most likely see him as an enemy despite being a Coordinator
himself. With the Chairman, Athrun wasn't worried - but with these
two... who knew what would happen. As he mentally slapped himself for
the slip, Athrun failed to see Shinn's startled reaction to the mention
of the name.
"What?" Shinn questioned in cold disbelief as he
composed himself outwardly. But inside, his rage burned as hot as ever.
'Kira' was the name that belonged to his precious person, a person who
he believed was as far from Berlin as possible. If he didn't already
have a personal grudge against the pilot of the Freedom, he did now.
Once again Rey intervened, before his teammate could lunge at Athrun and make demands of his own.
"Why
do you say that?" he asked. "That mobile suit attacked our vessel at
Dardanelles and as a result, Heine was a casualty. Also, weren't you
also defeated by it?"
Savior's wreckage floating in the sea came back to Athrun, as well as the hurt and humiliation he felt afterwards.
"Although
it's up to our superiors to determine who we fight against," Rey
continued almost mercilessly, "We can't decide for sure if the side
Freedom fights for is friend or foe. Therefore, I believe we should be
prepared to fight... whoever our enemy maybe."
His words seemed
to calm the young men down and he decided to change tactics. He didn't
want Athrun to think he was being ganged up on. Despite the difference
in options, they were still comrades after all. With practiced
obedience and civility, Rey looked over to present member of Faith
thoughtfully, "If possible, we'd like to get some advice from you based
on your past experiences, Athrun."
Shinn after recovering from
his outburst and shoving the 'name' matter out of his mind for the time
being, sat back down in his seat. Attention focused on the enemy mobile
suit again. "It's alright, Rey," he said before Athrun could respond.
"Experiences of losing won't be of any use."
Athrun whipped his head and glared furiously in Shinn's direction. "What did you say?"
Shinn
didn't answer, which did nothing but provoke the other further.
Mentally, Rey sighed to himself. As these two formidable pilots
continued to light one another's fuses normally he would stand back and
let Athrun handle the insubordination; but right now, Shinn was the
only one out of them capable enough of handling the 'enemy'.
"I apologize, Athrun. I'll have a talk with Shinn later."
With
that said, the older boy stalked angrily out of their room. Once again
Rey returned to stand by Shinn's side as they worked together for hours
to defeat a common enemy. Together they formulated their own battle
maneuvers based on a flaw Rey had discovered earlier. The Freedom would
not have a chance.
Another hour later, both boys retired for the
night and while Rey had no trouble sleeping, Shinn in his own bed was
still wide awake. As always, Mayu's cell phone was clutched tightly in
one hand but occasionally, the coordinator from Orb would find himself
hugging his pillow. Embedding his face in the softness and picturing it
as something - someone else.
He wouldn't do this often. It was
only when he was certain his roommate was asleep, did Shinn allow
himself to imagine that it was Kira he was holding in his arms. His
Kira that is. Not Athrun's... not the pilot of the Gundam he was going
to annihilate the next time they met in battle.
'Just a name. Just a coincidence',
he told himself. His Kira was also a coordinator but not a fighter. Let
alone the pilot of the most powerful mobile suit in the world. It was
impossible!
Yawning, Shinn knew that the shadows were closing in, already filling his dreams with doubt.
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Author's Notes:
Due
to popular demand on ffnet and my livejournal, this will be a multi-chapter fic rather than a
drabble I wrote awhile ago just to amuse myself. I'm not sure why, but
the pairing has really stuck with me and - Whoa this is the first time
in like months/years(?) that I was able to finish an entire chapter in
less than a week! - Sad isn't it? If you have any comments or
criticism, please review!
Shameless plug: If you want to read a somewhat side-prequel-ficlet to this series, check out �Washed Away� .
Adultfan Review Responses:
kiira-chan -Thank you so much for commenting... I didn't think anyone would here on adultfan. All I can tell you, neither Shinn nor Kira are going to happy when the truth comes out..
Athrukira-chickie - I did have the rough draft posted up at a couple livejournal communities and fanfiction.net - however this version has been betad and will contain a couple of adult-lemon-nc-17-ish scenes.
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