Phases of Love

CHAPTER 1

    Edward Elric is the only man who can give me chills with a simple glance. Hawkeye, my wife, is just a cover-up, because even the Flame Alchemist has a reputation to keep. I would throw it all away for him though; I don’t care about making it to the top anymore. He is my whole world…and he doesn’t even know. Sometimes I wake with a cold sweat, and in all my longing; I miss him. I’ve heard rumors that he’s back in town, but since he resigned as a state alchemist, I can’t pursue the matter further.

    I have been speculating, though, that I could drop by Ms. Panako’s house for a quick visit, to check on Winry and her family of course. That way, if Fullmetal is back, I will finally have him all to myself.

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    “Damn it! Winry that hurt! Why do you insist on doing this to me?” I complained.

    “Oh, hush Ed; it’s only your eyebrows.” Winry said as she rolled her eyes.

    I really hated it when Winry decided to pluck my eyebrows…even if they did need it from time to time. I winced with every pull, which made it hurt that much worse. After the torture was over, I told her that I wanted to investigate something at Central.

    “I just want to drop in on an old friend, it shouldn’t take long. I’ll be back in a few weeks. My train departs in the morning, so I‘ll be gone before you wake up.” I then went into the house to begin packing my things.

    “Ed sure has been acting strange…what do you think is wrong with him?” Winry asked Al.

    “I’m not sure; he’s never acted like this before. He seems…lonely.”

    I walked the lonely road to the train station sometime around 10:00 pm. I waited until Panako turned off her light and sneaked out, although I knew she was still awake. It always seemed to go by faster at night, either that or I was just too scared to walk as casually as I would otherwise; Den followed me. It would be too difficult to say good-bye to everyone now that I had been around them for a little while, so I decided to sneak away. It just seems like things between he and I, Mustang I mean, weren’t quite finished. Our last departure made me feel as if I was forgetting to tell him something, and I’m making my way to Central in order to find some closure…it’s the least he could give me.

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    “I’m heading out Riza, don’t wait up.” I said as I grabbed my coat and headed out to the train station.

    “It’s Fullmetal, isn’t it sir?” She replied with her usual calm voice, and I hated it.

    “Just an old friend, that’s all.” I smiled and left her at that.

    I hated it when she was right, and she couldn’t have been more precise. That boy has somehow captivated me in a way that I never thought was possible. He has some hold over me that is only spoken of in the most detailed of romance novels...that I seem to be getting into more and more as of late. I wasn’t for regular romance by any means, I was more into the forbidden love…because I could relate. Oh, how I remember those passion-filled nights when I would think of him in my blankets instead of the lieutenant, and how I would flush when he handed me his report. He has the innocence of all the angels in Heaven…but little does he know; I’m on my way to meet him, for I have been warned of his arrival.