Quatre Winner\'s Diary
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Jan 30th
January: New Year, New Life
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Thursday, Jan 30th
6:15 am
So tomorrow\'s the party and date. Tomorrow\'s my second \"real\" date with Dorothy. The same Dorothy who was laying next to me naked until about ten minutes ago when she said she had to get home and get ready for work, and for some reason I don\'t feel overjoyed that she spent the night.
So here\'s what happened: Last night after everyone else left, I wandered into her office and asked her on a real date. And we went. As usual, we both had a good time and ended up coming back here to have a drink, which turned into two, then three, then it was midnight and we were kissing on the couch, both half-naked. So we moved it to the bedroom, where we kissed some more, fully naked. She\'s absolutely beautiful nude. Then she noticed that I was still only half-hard; she teased me about having whiskey dick, and told me that I wasn\'t touching a drop of anything on Friday. I pretty much agreed, and since I didn\'t want to leave her unsatisfied, I…there\'s really no great way to be tactful about this. I ate her out, as Duo calls it. I\'ve never really heard of it referred to as anything else less crude, so I usually use that. Then, basically, she passed out and we slept together until about ten minutes ago. And now I feel…empty.
It\'s strange. I thought she was different, but I get this feeling every time I have a girl spend the night. I feel empty the next morning, whether they stay or not. She doesn\'t know that I\'m a virgin either, and I don\'t think that\'s a good thing, but what else can I do? If I tell her now, she\'ll want to wait and dammit, I don\'t want to wait anymore. I want to get this over with. I want to have sex, with a girl. I really do.
I\'m getting better at the drinking thing though. Now at least I\'m not as hung over. A glass of water and I\'ll be fine. No problem. I could make it though work without a worry, except seeing Dorothy and that terrible feeling of guilt I\'ll feel every time she makes eyes at me.
God, what\'s wrong with me?
3:20 pm
Duo just came bounding into my office looking like a kid with too much sugar. \"So guess who\'s coming for a visit?\"
\"The queen of England?\" I asked jovially. \"Hell, if I knew the Queen, do you think I\'d be here? No, guess seriously.\"
\"Heero?\"
\"Funny, Q. No, someone that I love more then life.\"
\"Howard?\"
\"No, and he hasn\'t visited in a while either. I should talk to him about that. But he says hi though, and is really happy about me getting the job, too. Isn\'t that cool? The old man\'s happy for me, and proud. But no, guess who\'s coming?\"
\"Hilde!?!\"
\"Right-o little man. My sis is coming here for like a month. Guess she\'s making a new record or something. Anyway, she gonna be staying at my apartment and everything. Isn\'t that cool?\" Duo\'s sister Hilde was an Alternative recording artist, who basically kicked everyone\'s asses with her first single. She writes songs about her brother all the time, which is cool, because he gets to hear them on the radio.
\"So what color\'s her hair this week?\"
\"Fushia, I think. Or was it magenta? Does it really matter? She\'s coming to visit for a whole month this time. It\'s gonna be so cool. It\'ll be like we\'re kids again, sleeping in each other\'s rooms.\"
\"Is she still dating that bass player?\"
\"No she\'s moved onto the drummer, but she sounds like a real bitch.\"
\"She?!\"
\"Yeah, Hil discovered that she liked girls. Kinda fits doesn\'t it? Like brother, like sisiter.\"
\"Maybe it has something to do with how Howard raised you two?\"
\"Who knows? Yeah, but I think this one will be gone before she comes here. Sounds like a temp, experimentation thing. An experimentation that\'s becoming a lifestyle change. Wait \'til MTV hears about this one. They\'re gonna shit themselves.\"
\"They may stop playing her music.\"
\"Nah, people still really like it. Besides, look at Elton John; he\'s as gay as they come and MTV still plays his shit. Shouldn\'t hurt her career at all. Might even help it. You know how straight guys are when it comes to two girls. It\'s just two guys they can\'t deal with.\"
\"Too true.\"
\"And she wants to see the puppy. Bad. Thinks he\'s gonna be the cutest thing that she\'s ever seen, and I told her to wait and see Heero...I just said that out loud didn\'t I?\"
\"Yup.\" I was smirking. I couldn\'t help it. Duo\'s got it bad, and everyone knows it.
\"I didn\'t mean it any other way except that he\'s attractive and all…she\'s gonna hate me isn\'t she?\"
\"Nope. Mostly cause Heero\'s not a complete asshole like those other guys. She\'ll be happy once she gets over the shock that he likes boys.\"
\"I\'m still not a hundred percent sure on that one. Well anyway, I have to get back to work. Oh, just one more thing. Hil says she might write a song about Firecracker. Isn\'t that just too cool? My puppy gets his own song.\"
\"Well his owner sure gets enough.\"
\"Shut up. Just \'cause she hasn\'t written one about you yeesn\esn\'t mean she won\'t. Besides, she\'s gonna be here so long cause she\'s gotta write a little before she steps into the studio. Well, gotta get back to work. Oi! Dottie, guess what. My little sister\'s coming for a visit!\" I heard him cry as he went down the hall. I\'m sure by the end of the day, Heero\'s going to be given all three of Hilde\'s albums.
7:45pm
I just got back from shopping with Dorothy. She drug me along so she could get Heero Hilde\'s CDs. How did I call it? It\'s kind of nice to have a girlfriend and do all the boyfriend things with her, even if there\'s something missing. I kept having that empty feeling, like I was cheating or lying while I was with her. It\'s almost as if she doesn\'t have what I need, but still, it\'s better than being alone. I just really thought that she could be the one. The one that made all the bad shit go away. The empty feelings. But of course it could be that I just haven\'t slept with her yet. That might be it.
Then Trowa called me again today and asked if we could have dinner again next week sometime. I told him sure. With him, I get all tingly and gooshy over a phone call; with Dorothy, I\'m collected. Is there something wrong with me? Really, is there something so terribly wrong that I can\'t get him out of my head and her into it? There\'s got to be something.
9:45pm
I got off the phone with Wufei. He says there\'s nothing wrong with me, but it may be something genetic, at which point I told him that my dad it so straight he\'d never look at other guys in the changing room at the gym. He didn\'t even bathe me as a child. Then he mentioned my mother\'s brother, Asum [1], who is a flamer that lives in San Francisco with his corss-dressing boyfriend Hank. But I really don\'t think that those genes are passed from mother to son; they\'re probably paternal.
10:52pm
Lena thinks that Wufei might be wrong about the genetic thing, seeing that my mother was straight too, but if I did turn gay, she\'d be my fag hag. Consoling thought. She said that I could share her with Duo and that we could go to the gay bars together and watch all the cute leather men. My friends are being so helpful during this crisis.
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[1] Pronounced \"Awesome\". Really. And it\'s a real name. I knew a guy from Turkey called that. Honest to gods truth.
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Thursday, Jan 30th
6:15 am
So tomorrow\'s the party and date. Tomorrow\'s my second \"real\" date with Dorothy. The same Dorothy who was laying next to me naked until about ten minutes ago when she said she had to get home and get ready for work, and for some reason I don\'t feel overjoyed that she spent the night.
So here\'s what happened: Last night after everyone else left, I wandered into her office and asked her on a real date. And we went. As usual, we both had a good time and ended up coming back here to have a drink, which turned into two, then three, then it was midnight and we were kissing on the couch, both half-naked. So we moved it to the bedroom, where we kissed some more, fully naked. She\'s absolutely beautiful nude. Then she noticed that I was still only half-hard; she teased me about having whiskey dick, and told me that I wasn\'t touching a drop of anything on Friday. I pretty much agreed, and since I didn\'t want to leave her unsatisfied, I…there\'s really no great way to be tactful about this. I ate her out, as Duo calls it. I\'ve never really heard of it referred to as anything else less crude, so I usually use that. Then, basically, she passed out and we slept together until about ten minutes ago. And now I feel…empty.
It\'s strange. I thought she was different, but I get this feeling every time I have a girl spend the night. I feel empty the next morning, whether they stay or not. She doesn\'t know that I\'m a virgin either, and I don\'t think that\'s a good thing, but what else can I do? If I tell her now, she\'ll want to wait and dammit, I don\'t want to wait anymore. I want to get this over with. I want to have sex, with a girl. I really do.
I\'m getting better at the drinking thing though. Now at least I\'m not as hung over. A glass of water and I\'ll be fine. No problem. I could make it though work without a worry, except seeing Dorothy and that terrible feeling of guilt I\'ll feel every time she makes eyes at me.
God, what\'s wrong with me?
3:20 pm
Duo just came bounding into my office looking like a kid with too much sugar. \"So guess who\'s coming for a visit?\"
\"The queen of England?\" I asked jovially. \"Hell, if I knew the Queen, do you think I\'d be here? No, guess seriously.\"
\"Heero?\"
\"Funny, Q. No, someone that I love more then life.\"
\"Howard?\"
\"No, and he hasn\'t visited in a while either. I should talk to him about that. But he says hi though, and is really happy about me getting the job, too. Isn\'t that cool? The old man\'s happy for me, and proud. But no, guess who\'s coming?\"
\"Hilde!?!\"
\"Right-o little man. My sis is coming here for like a month. Guess she\'s making a new record or something. Anyway, she gonna be staying at my apartment and everything. Isn\'t that cool?\" Duo\'s sister Hilde was an Alternative recording artist, who basically kicked everyone\'s asses with her first single. She writes songs about her brother all the time, which is cool, because he gets to hear them on the radio.
\"So what color\'s her hair this week?\"
\"Fushia, I think. Or was it magenta? Does it really matter? She\'s coming to visit for a whole month this time. It\'s gonna be so cool. It\'ll be like we\'re kids again, sleeping in each other\'s rooms.\"
\"Is she still dating that bass player?\"
\"No she\'s moved onto the drummer, but she sounds like a real bitch.\"
\"She?!\"
\"Yeah, Hil discovered that she liked girls. Kinda fits doesn\'t it? Like brother, like sisiter.\"
\"Maybe it has something to do with how Howard raised you two?\"
\"Who knows? Yeah, but I think this one will be gone before she comes here. Sounds like a temp, experimentation thing. An experimentation that\'s becoming a lifestyle change. Wait \'til MTV hears about this one. They\'re gonna shit themselves.\"
\"They may stop playing her music.\"
\"Nah, people still really like it. Besides, look at Elton John; he\'s as gay as they come and MTV still plays his shit. Shouldn\'t hurt her career at all. Might even help it. You know how straight guys are when it comes to two girls. It\'s just two guys they can\'t deal with.\"
\"Too true.\"
\"And she wants to see the puppy. Bad. Thinks he\'s gonna be the cutest thing that she\'s ever seen, and I told her to wait and see Heero...I just said that out loud didn\'t I?\"
\"Yup.\" I was smirking. I couldn\'t help it. Duo\'s got it bad, and everyone knows it.
\"I didn\'t mean it any other way except that he\'s attractive and all…she\'s gonna hate me isn\'t she?\"
\"Nope. Mostly cause Heero\'s not a complete asshole like those other guys. She\'ll be happy once she gets over the shock that he likes boys.\"
\"I\'m still not a hundred percent sure on that one. Well anyway, I have to get back to work. Oh, just one more thing. Hil says she might write a song about Firecracker. Isn\'t that just too cool? My puppy gets his own song.\"
\"Well his owner sure gets enough.\"
\"Shut up. Just \'cause she hasn\'t written one about you yeesn\esn\'t mean she won\'t. Besides, she\'s gonna be here so long cause she\'s gotta write a little before she steps into the studio. Well, gotta get back to work. Oi! Dottie, guess what. My little sister\'s coming for a visit!\" I heard him cry as he went down the hall. I\'m sure by the end of the day, Heero\'s going to be given all three of Hilde\'s albums.
7:45pm
I just got back from shopping with Dorothy. She drug me along so she could get Heero Hilde\'s CDs. How did I call it? It\'s kind of nice to have a girlfriend and do all the boyfriend things with her, even if there\'s something missing. I kept having that empty feeling, like I was cheating or lying while I was with her. It\'s almost as if she doesn\'t have what I need, but still, it\'s better than being alone. I just really thought that she could be the one. The one that made all the bad shit go away. The empty feelings. But of course it could be that I just haven\'t slept with her yet. That might be it.
Then Trowa called me again today and asked if we could have dinner again next week sometime. I told him sure. With him, I get all tingly and gooshy over a phone call; with Dorothy, I\'m collected. Is there something wrong with me? Really, is there something so terribly wrong that I can\'t get him out of my head and her into it? There\'s got to be something.
9:45pm
I got off the phone with Wufei. He says there\'s nothing wrong with me, but it may be something genetic, at which point I told him that my dad it so straight he\'d never look at other guys in the changing room at the gym. He didn\'t even bathe me as a child. Then he mentioned my mother\'s brother, Asum [1], who is a flamer that lives in San Francisco with his corss-dressing boyfriend Hank. But I really don\'t think that those genes are passed from mother to son; they\'re probably paternal.
10:52pm
Lena thinks that Wufei might be wrong about the genetic thing, seeing that my mother was straight too, but if I did turn gay, she\'d be my fag hag. Consoling thought. She said that I could share her with Duo and that we could go to the gay bars together and watch all the cute leather men. My friends are being so helpful during this crisis.
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[1] Pronounced \"Awesome\". Really. And it\'s a real name. I knew a guy from Turkey called that. Honest to gods truth.