Pull the Trigger and the Nightmare Stops�

Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the Gundam boys, I just like to imagine them in my own little world (which is totally of my making). No profits are made from this story, just gratuitous pleasure.

Summary: They were thrust together at the age of 14, members of an assassins guild, then rudely ripped apart at the age of 21. Now, three years later, Duo walks back into Heero's life. The rollercoaster ride has just begun as they must learn to live together once more and to love each other again. Life isn’t always easy, living with Duo, and Heero has to fight hard to remember that.

Rating: NC-17

Warning Codes: Anal,Angst,AR,H/C,Lang,M/M,OC,Oral,Violence,WAFF,WIP,Yaoi

Pairings: 1x2


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Pull the Trigger and the Nightmare Stops…

“dear my friends in the time we've spent forever after beyond this when will our nightmare ever end?
pull the trigger and the nightmare stops...”

Part 23


The drive home was quiet as Duo dozed off as soon as Heero pulled out of the parking lot. Heero glanced over at his sleeping lover every now and then, a soft smile playing across his lips. All in all, this had been quite the rollercoaster ride of a weekend. Heero couldn’t help but be a little thankful that it was over. Duo's little bombshell had to be the most interesting part, however. His Duo, a pop-star sensation. He hadn’t know that Duo could sing like that. Duo had always sang around the house to the radio, but softly, never like he had on the stage last night. That was just mind-blowing. And the way he had moved. That was nothing short of awesome. Heero knew that if he put Duo back on the stage, as he fully intended to once this whole death threat to Quatre thing was over, that he was going to have to beat the wolves off with a stick, both the female and the male. But Heero was always up to a challenge, and this promised to be one hell of a challenge.

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Heero woke Duo from his nap as they pulled up to the house. Duo yawned and stretched like a cat, blinking sleepily at his lover.

“Hey,” he said, smiling softly.

“Hey, yourself,” Heero replied. “We’re home, sleepy head. Need me to carry you into the house?”

Duo smiled at the light teasing tone of Heero's voice. It was nice to see Heero in a playful mood.

“No, I think I can manage by myself. I remember the last time you carried me in,” he retorted, joking back.

“You were the one who kept trying to distract me. I just wanted to get you in to bed, and that was the most expedient way,” Heero replied blandly.

“You were just horny,” said Duo, archly.

“Can you blame me? You almost raped me in the theater. On the drive home you were begging me to stop. I just wanted you in bed,” Heero explained.

“Yeah, well, thanks for the offer, but I’ll just walk,” Duo replied.

“Have it your way, babe,” said Heero blandly as he got out of the car and walked around to open Duo's door. Duo took his proffered hand and allowed Heero to help him from the car. With a smile, Heero slung an arm over Duo's shoulder and the couple walked towards the house in companionable silence. That was the last silence that they would have for a while as Quatre was waiting to pounce on them as they entered the kitchen.

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“Duo, you were so awesome last night,” Quatre gushed. “I can’t believe that I didn’t recognize you! To think, Shinigami is living in my house! I always wanted to meet you in person! You were my idol, I loved you! Can I get your autograph?”

“Quatre, it’s Duo,” said Heero. “How long have we been living here now?”

“But… but, he’s Shinigami! You don’t understand, Heero. Shinigami, here in my house!” exclaimed Quatre, his baby blue eyes glowing. “And… and, oh my god, I kissed you!”

Quatre's face suddenly turned red, realizing what he’d just said as Heero's face became a little bleak with the memory of what had transpired over that kiss. Duo flushed slightly and turned away. That was still a bit of a sore spot between the two of them, and with the looming operation that would involve Duo being near Quatre in a most intimate manner, Heero didn’t want to be reminded of past indiscretions.

“I’m… I’m sorry,” Quatre stuttered. “I shouldn’t have said that.”

“It’s okay, Quatre. That’s all water under the bridge now,” Heero responded, regaining his composure, then looked at Duo. “Duo, are you alright?”

“Yeah, just a little tired still,” Duo mumbled uncomfortably, looking anywhere but at Heero.

“Maybe you should go take a nap, then,” Heero said, noting his discomfort with the situation.

“Yeah, I think I will,” agreed Duo, leaving the kitchen rapidly, wanting to put some space between himself and Heero. No matter how much the understanding with their newly emerging trust, it was still too soon for Duo to be comfortable around Heero in a situation such as this. So he did the wise thing and fled a potentially hazardous situation.

Heero followed a few minutes later, allowing Duo the space he needed to get away. He’d seen the distress in Duo's face and gave him the opportunity to flee, knowing what was going through his mind, and he didn’t like it. He was trying hard to change himself, but he knew it would take time. He couldn’t change overnight. All he could do was consciously control himself and try to show Duo that he was trying. Duo would have to start trusting him, and to do that he needed to stop running away.

Running away was Duo's defense mechanism against fear or in a dangerous situation, just as Heero's was resorting to violence when angered or when danger threatened. These were both things that they needed to change in relation to each other, and it wouldn’t be an easy change, but they could do it as long as they tried to talk to each other. Talking. That was the hard thing to do.

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Heero found Duo on the bed, face to the wall, body tense. He sat down next to his long haired lover and reached out a hand to rest it on his trembling shoulder.

“It’s okay, babe,” he said softly. “I’m not going to hurt you again. Look at me, please. Let’s talk, okay?”

“Okay,” Duo mumbled and slowly rolled to his back. “I wish he hadn’t brought that up.”

“I know, but it’s something that has passed and we need to leave it in the past,” replied Heero.

“But I know that just thinking about it makes you crazy,” said Duo miserably.

“We both know that my jealousy and temper are something I have to work on,” Heero agreed. “But we can’t just pretend that things haven’t happened when they have had such consequences in our lives. It happened, we both over reacted, but it’s past. We can get beyond that. We just need to play out our lives from day to day and not dwell on the past. This is the only way we are going to survive.”

“Okay,” Duo agreed. “So, what’s next?”

“I’m going on another mission in about a weeks time, ostensibly for two days,” Heero explained cryptically. It couldn’t be said in open words because they didn’t know what kind of surveillance was on the house at any given time. They could sweep the house for bugs, it was true, but the enemy would just replace them in different locations. It was better just to leave them in place and watch what was said. And with someone on the inside reporting what was happening between the members of the household, they needed to be careful of their actions, as well. They didn’t want to give away anything that the enemy could use to determine their next move. Their success depended on the enemy believing that they were complacent in the security of their own home. The element of surprise was essential.

“I doubt you will see much of WuFei, what with his involvement with Sally,” Heero continued. “You’ll be alone for a couple of days, but you’ll have Quatre and Trowa to keep you company. Everything should go smoothly for me, but you never know when there may be unexpected snags. That leaves the window of opportunity for things to happen to be open for short periods of time. We’ll just have to deal with it as it comes. You’ll be fine while I’m away. But I think that this will be the last mission I take. I think it’s time for a change for the two of us.”

Heero stopped and took a deep breath. What was coming next was hard, but it had to be said. They both needed to be assured that what was coming was going to acceptable for the both of them. Essentially, Heero needed to know that his trust in Duo was not misplaced, and Duo needed to know that Heero did trust him. So much was riding on the fragile thread of their mutual trust.

“You need to be a little more aggressive, you need to be able to make the move from what you are now to what you can be,” said Heero, knowing Duo would be able to read between the lines of what he was saying.

“Heero, I don’t know if I can do that,” Duo admitted. “I’ve never been able to be really assertive. My training has always been for me to be submissive. I’m not sure I can be aggressive that way.”

“I’ll help you. We can do this together, and there’s only one way for it to happen,” said Heero, quietly. “Duo, I want you to take me.”

“Take… take you?” Duo stuttered.

“Take me. Make love to me. Be the aggressor,” said Heero, looking him straight in the eye.

“Are you sure?” asked Duo. “You really want me to go all the way with you?”

“Yes. I want you to fuck me,” said Heero bluntly. “I want you to be the one on top.”

Duo felt his cock stir at the thought and his violet eyes clouded over with undisguised lust. He sat up and slowly reached for his lover, his excitement building rapidly.

Heero could see the hard bulge in Duo's pants from his now fully erect cock, and he reached out to caress it through his pants. Duo moaned and pushed Heero back on the bed, quickly straddling his hips, grinding his erection against Heero's half hard cock. His mouth came down on Heero's and his tongue invaded, exploring and caressing before enticing Heero's tongue back to his own mouth to play a bit.

Meanwhile, his hands slid up under Heero's shirt, stroking and caressing his smooth, well muscled back and chest before coming to a halt at his tender nipples. Heero moaned and writhed enticingly under his teasing fingers. Duo broke off the kiss and released his nipples to grasp the edge of his shirt, pulling it over Heero's head, baring him to Duo's lustful gaze. One hand came back to one of the nipples and his hot, wet mouth came down on the other, making Heero arch up under him in tormented pleasure. The other hand came down to the waistband of Heero's pants, where it wasted no time popping the button open. However, it required two hands to subdue the reluctant zipper, so the busy hand surrendered it’s hold on the nipple it was teasing, only to be replaced by the warm, wet mouth with the caressing tongue and nibbling teeth.

Heero's hands fisted into the covers on the top of the bed when Duo's hand brushed over his now fully hard cock and his hips bucked up, trying to get Duo's touch once more. Duo was quick to push the pants down over Heero's hips, taking care to lift the waistband of his boxers over his weeping cock, then pushed them the rest of the way off of Heero's legs.

Once he had Heero completely bared to his eyes, he sat back on his heels and jut gazed down at the perfection that was Heero Yuy. Then he reached out tentatively to touch the swollen penis that rose so majestically from the thatch of dark hair at the juncture of Heero's legs. Heero's moans were so sweet, so lovely to his ears, he started to stroke faster, enrapt by the way Heero's hips seemed to thrust almost automatically into the tunnel created by his hand.

“Duo,” Heero gasped, panting heavily. “Ah, Duo, almost there. Feels so good, baby.”

Heero's eyes closed and he arched into Duo's hand, his balls drawing up as he neared his climax. When Duo's warm, wet mouth came down over the head of his swollen cock, he screamed and thrust hard, emptying himself into Duo's greedily sucking mouth. Duo sucked out the last drops of his orgasm as Heero fell back to the bed, gasping and quivering.

He barely noticed when Duo got off of the bed and shed his clothing and his mind only seemed to partly register the fact that Duo had returned to kneel between his now spread thighs. He did register the feel of a lube moistened finger stroking across his anus, then stroked around the tight muscle. He felt the pressure as Duo pushed his finger against the tight, virgin entrance, the muscles resisting the pressure before relenting in quiet surrender to the insistent finger.

Duo watched Heero's face carefully, noticing the slight grimace of pain as the finger slid into Heero's channel, and he stopped as the finger reached the first joint. He waited until he felt Heero start to relax, then gently began to slide the finger deeper into the passage, pulling back and finally sliding it in up to the knuckle. Heero panted lightly as Duo stroked him several more times before pulling the finger out completely. Only a moment later, however, it was joined by a second well lubed digit and the process was repeated.

Heero shuddered and moaned at the invasion, which felt incredibly erotic. He’d never dreamed that it would be like this. Then Duo hit his sweet spot and he arched up hard against the teasing hand, pleasure blasting through every part of his body.

“Like that, do we?” purred Duo, delighted in the pleasure that he was giving his lover.

“Duo,” Heero gasped. “Again. Do that again.”

“Of course, my love,” crooned Duo as his questing fingers passed over Heero's prostate once again.

Duo's cock was starting to ache from it’s need for release, so Duo decided to hurry things along just a bit, adding another well lubed finger to the process, starting to stroke earnestly. He fucked Heero with his fingers for several minutes until Heero was gasping and moaning in his need. Heero's cock had hardened again and Duo started to stroke it as he continued to fuck Heero with his fingers. Heero arched up against his hand and he cried out Duo's name and started to beg.

“Please, Duo, no more playing,” Heero gasped. “Do it now. I need you. I need you bad.”

“What do you need, baby?” asked Duo, slowing his hands. “What do you want?”

“Need you inside me,” Heero moaned. “Need you to fuck me.”

“What ever you wish, my love,” Duo whispered, reaching for the lube once more. He slicked his cock, the feel of his hand on his own overheated flesh almost unbearable. The he moved close to Heero, grasped his erection at the base and pressed it against Heero's slicked opening.

“Are you sure, baby? This is what you want?” Duo asked, giving Heero one last chance to change his mind. Duo would have understood if Heero chose to stop, but he hoped against hope that his lover would want to continue.

And Heero surrendered himself completely to his only love, wanting to become one with him.

“I’m sure,” he replied softly, looking at Duo through half lidded eyes. “Make me yours, baby. Make our love complete.”

Then Duo's lips were kissing Heero’s once more as his hips pressed forward. The tight virgin muscles resisted, but Duo pressed on and soon they relented to allow the head of Duo's cock to slip inside of Heero's tight, quivering body. Duo suddenly stopped with a gasp, almost unable to continue as the enormity of the situation cam crashing down into his sex hazed mind.

He was in Heero, and it didn’t feel right, somehow. With a strangle moan, he started to pull back, but Heero could tell what was going through his mind by the look on his face and he wrapped his arms around Duo's neck.

“Don’t stop now, babe,” he whispered in a deep, husky voice. “Do this for me. Just this one time. Do this for me.”

Duo looked into the love and trust filled dark blue eyes, and with a choked sob, sheathed himself completely in Heero's channel, then stopped, shaking hard.

“It’s okay, babe,” said Heero, reaching up to stroke his sweaty bangs back from his eyes. His hands ran reassuringly across Duo's shoulders and down his back, soothing and comforting. “You can move now, baby.”

Duo began to move tentatively, thrusting his hips gently, and Heero moaned beautifully. Duo was panting hard, trying to maintain a steady pace. He shifted his hips and managed to hit Heero's sweet spot. Heero arched up against him hard, almost screaming in his pleasure. Duo lost it at that point.

“Heero… Heero, I’m gonna come,” Duo gasped. “I can’t hold it back.”

“Then come for me, Duo,” Heero rasped. “Come in me.”

And Duo gave one convulsive thrust and spent his passion deep in Heero's body, then collapsed with a sob, tears running down his face. Heero's arms closed around him and he kissed Duo gently. He moved, rolling Duo easily off of himself, then cuddled him close, Duo's head on his chest, gently stroking his hair until Duo regained his calm.

“Thank you, baby,” Heero whispered, kissing Duo once more.

Duo relaxed against him, finally accepting what he had just done.

“Was it good?” Duo asked hopefully.

“It was great, baby,” Heero reassured him.

“I want to sleep now, Heero,” said Duo tiredly.

“Okay. Sleep, baby. I’m going to shower,” Heero told him..

Duo's eyes slid closed. Heero kissed him on the forehead, slipping out of their bed and pulling the covers over his tired lover. He smiled gently as he headed for the shower. Duo would be able to do what was needed now, Heero was sure of it.

Once in the shower, Heero quickly took care of the erection left over from their lovemaking. His ass stung, but he felt incredible. He’d never dreamed it could feel so fantastic to have someone make love to you. He’d always been the dominate partner, and even in this encounter, he’s still been dominating Duo, but feeling Duo inside of him had left him in awe and wonder. He wasn’t sure if Duo would ever be able to do it again, considering how much of a conflict it seemed to cause in him. But if Duo did decide that he wanted to try it again, Heero was sure he would be willing. He came explosively with that image of Duo keeping him company. Letting the water wash the come from his spent body, Heero left the shower and dried himself off. He made his way back to their room to collapse on the bed beside the still sleeping Duo. Pulling his sleeping lover into his arms, Heero gave a contented sigh and joined him in slumber.

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