From the minds of Duo and Heero

Big metal wall

There’s something in my head
It’s a big metal wall
It blocks my past
It blocks my happiness
It’s cold
I push it
But it doesn’t budge
It’s solid

There’s something in my heart
It’s a big metal wall
It blocks my emotions
It makes me cold
Makes me unfeeling
I push it
But it doesn’t budge
It’s solid

There’s someone else
In my body
This person isn’t me
I’m not cold
That isn’t my voice
You hear
Putting you down
Making you feel small
I didn’t used to be like this
Even through
I don’t remember anyone loving me
Holding me
Taking care of me
All I remember is
The pain
The lies
I cared about people
But they never cared about me
I remember…
People using me
People hurting me
I am a weapon
I am a cheap sex toy
I’ve been used
To bring both pleasure
And pain
But I always had the pain
So I built the walls
There’s one around me now
You’ll never know me
You’ll never see past
If you see past
I’ll hurt

There’s something around me
It’s a big metal wall
You can’t break it
So don’t try
The wall will hold
There’s no more tears to cry
The wall will keep you away
I will be alone forever
But that’s ok
I don’t need anyone
So today I’me
Be
Behind my
Big metal wall.