Interludes

Interludes
By: Kichi

DISCLAIMER: forgot to write one last time.. AKIRA TORIYAMA created DBZ and all its characters


Chapter 3 - It feels so empty without me


Kami how I miss him. I miss his smile, that silly, goofy grin of his. I miss the way he used to look at me and his son. I miss the way he used to snuggle close to me at night like a little puppy. I even miss the way he eats, rude as it is. I tried to teach him how to eat a little neater, but he never really paid attention. But I didn't mind that much. He was, is a hero. And he's my husband no matter where he is.
Truth be told, I was very hurt when he decided not to come back. I know Gohan was too, but he claimed he understood. I understand the desire to train to better oneself. But I also believe that family comes first, no matter what. And I know that Goku trains to become stronger to protect us all, but at the same time, I wish there was someone else who could be the hero, just once.
I can barely remember the last time we made love. It was shortly before Radditz arrived. Kami it seems like years ago now. Before he left to save everyone (again) on Namek, he didn't even kiss me good bye. That really hurt. I know he loves me but at times like that I feel used, like the only thing he cares about is the fact that I feed him well and gave him a son. I feel like I'm back in feudal times. It's ridiculous. I know Goku doesn't intentionally try to make me feel this way, he's just not really thinking about it.
And I can't make him think about it no matter how much I yell. And no, I don't like yelling at him at all, let alone all the time. But some times I get the impression that I'm being ignored and I don't take that shit from anybody. Sometimes screaming like a damn banshee is the only way anything will penetrate.
But I still love him despite everything. I'm just so lonely. And I know Gohan is too. It's probably why he goes off to find that demon, Piccolo. He thinks I don't know, silly boy. But I do. And as much as I detest Piccolo, he has never hurt Gohan or let anyone hurt him. And to be really honest, he's the only father-figure Gohan has right now. And I will not take that away from him. It wouldn't be right. I love Gohan dearly, and I know that Piccolo cares for him as well. So I say nothing. And why should I? It would only drive Gohan further away, and that I couldn't bear.
I have Bulma to visit whenever I like. We have fun, we go shopping. And when I am there I am very, very thankful to have Goku as my husband when I see Vegeta.
I mean, he is very handsome, he would be more so if he ever smiled. But he doesn't except for that aggravating smirk. He treats Bulma like his slave, which I assume is how Saiyan Princes treated everyone. But as Bulma and myself have pointed out when his rudeness was intolerable: he is no longer a prince. But so far it gets no reaction out of him. Its as if he doesn't even hear what we say. Sometimes, if Bulma calls his name when he storms through the house, he doesn't even acknowledge her. He is arrogant and vicious in his insults. He treats everyone like their not fit to lick his boots. Every time I leave Bulma's I thank Kami Goku is nothing like him. And the worst thing is.. I think Bulma likes him. Although how she could is a mystery to me. I can see how she'd be attracted to him, but the thought of any type of relationship with him... I can't even picture it happening.
Sometimes I wish I'd never heard the word "Saiyan". I could have lived out my life always assuming Goku was a human who somehow grew a tail and transformed into a giant ape every full moon. Well, maybe not. I mean, there was never a human who could do such things and there was no one as strong as him. I always wondered about him, but for the sake of our relationship I didn't question him excessively. In fact I only asked him about his heritage once. A week after our marriage, and he knew nothing unusual. And I knew he wasn't lying so I never asked about it again.
I was shocked to find out he was an alien, especially when I found out exactly why he'd been sent to Earth, but at the same time, I knew it had to be true. And in a strange way, I was relieved to hear the truth. It explained so much. Especially why he ate like a starving pig.
Why am I complaining? I miss him, yes, but he will come home. He loves me and Gohan, I know he does. I shouldn't be so insecure. I have no reason to doubt Goku or his love for me and our son. Everything will be fine.
I think I'll call Bulma.

Finis

How'd everyone like that? I really feel for ChiChi sometimes, even though she's usually portrayed like a frikin' bitch.