Lonely Desire

Pairings: Dearka x Yzak (they take the spot here and with aplomb). No Athrun or Kira, sorry.

Disclaimer: I don\'t own anything of Gundam SEED. :( I wish I did, maybe GSDestiny wouldn\'t have come out so lame then.

Warnings: This fanfic contains male/male relationship. This is DEFINITELY NC-17! Explicit sex between Dearka and Yzak. If you don\'t like such things you\'d better avoid reading it for your own good. No spoilers here I think except for some male anatomy :).

Comment: This is not actually the next chapter I promised. This is a small side story that takes place at the same time as the first two chapters and it plagued my mind when I should have been taking notes at the university. Instead I pretended to write down what the Professor said but actually started this one and continued it in the bus on the way home. It\'s a good thing my handwriting is tiny and I write in foreign language or I might have ended in the phsychiatry. I still intend for Kira to do something really bad (he deserves spanking for that) in the next real chapter. Poor Athrun...
OK this smut is for all of you who read this and especially for those who reviewed. My cookie for you and my practice for what is to come between Athrun and Kira in some future moment.
Tell me what you think. Another first time. This time it is my first slash. I hope you enjoy reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it.


Chapter THREE


The Anniversary Gift


Yzak and Dearka were in bed and the mischievous smile on the blue-eyed’s face indicated that he was in the mood to play games… Games which the blonde was pretty sure he would enjoy tremendously and he couldn’t wait to see and feel what new tricks had the platinum boy prepared for him. His lover never seized to amaze and surprise him with something new and devious.

Yzak saw the sparks in his lover’s eyes and his grin grew wider. Both of them were stark naked and still warm from the sleep.

The blue-eyed boy took his time and his gaze traveled down from Dearka’s eyes towards his lover’s strong and broad shoulders savouring the gorgeous sight the tanned body was. He continued down the rapidly moving with every breath chest and lower still to the flat muscled belly.

Yzak payed special attention to the arousal that would be giving him all the pleasure he could take and more.

His gaze went to the long tanned legs but he couldn’t resist and ever so slowly his eyes locked to those of Dearka as he bent his head towards the centre of the blonde’s desire.

Dearka was anticipating the warm wetness of Yzak’s mouth and closed his eyes ready to experience the sweet torture he was about to feel. However instead of lips he felt the cool silky strands caressing his swollen member. That was new. It was more than three months – 100 day to be precise - it took his mind a lot more than usual to calculate something as simple as that and his boyfriend still invented new ways to make him feel good.

Yzak was continuing with his ministrations. He held a strand of hair and kept gently brushing Dearka’s lower head sending shivers across the tanned boy’s body.

The blonde’s eyes rounded at both the realization of the special intimate anniversary they had and as result of Yzak’s actions. Was this his beloved’s way to celebrate that special occasion or was it merely a moment’s decision. He knew his lover was capable of both but somehow he felt the former was more likely. It was not like Yzak to miss or forget about something of the kind.

Suddenly his lover, who till now touched him with nothing but his hair, licked the tip of Dearka’s arousal and then blew at the wet and sensitive skin.

The hair of the tanned’s nape stood up and his hips jumped off the bed.

“You’re not paying attention”, snapped Yzak and accompanied his words with a bite just short of hurting his lover’s lower belly, his hair caressing the skin and sending sweet waves of pleasure. “That’s better! What were you thinking? Was I that boring?\" his voice started to sound irritated.

Dearka smiled and his wolfish grin alerted Yzak but before he could react the blond had changed their position now lying atop his raging lover and his lips claimed Yzak’s fiercely while his hips rubbed against those of the one beneath him.

The response he got was not surprising and he succeeded in drawing his tongue out of the platinum’s mouth just a milisecond before the other’s teeth clashed in anger.

“You want it rough, huh?” Dearka’s face indicated he was in the mood to show who’s the one in command.

He grabbed Yzak’s hands and pinned them to the bed with one of his own. He knew that the blue-eyed’s training and form were good enough to ensure for quite a battle but he hoped the other would not go as far as to use military training in bed games.

But just in case, Dearka sat on his lover’s chest his feet on both sides of the platinum’s head and his member touching the other boy’s chin.

He stepped on the sheet and with his free hand he pulled strongly and tore a long piece of cloth from it...

Yzak’s eyes dilated at the sound but before he could pull out Dearka folded the strip of cloth, twisted it to make it stronger and tied the blue-eyed’s hands together and then the other end to a bar at the bedplate behind his head.

Yzak was getting really pissed off but that somehow intensified his excitement. He pulled at the rope to realize that while he had not used his military training on Dearka, the bastard had used his knowledge in tying knots and the platinum haired boy couldn’t get free. He tried to tear the material but that wouldn’t work either. He was really tied!

“Kisama~!” [you (vulgar)] Yzak’s voice rang with anger and menace. “Let me go this very instance or I’ll…”

Dearka held his mandible to prevent him form biting and kissed him hard. His tongue plunged in his lover’s mouth savouring the special taste.

Yzak answered reluctantly at the beginning but then he poured his annoyance in the kiss. His tongue dueled Dearka’s, demanding the control over the kiss.

Only the need of oxygen made them separate breathing unevenly and they looked at each other their gazes clashing.
Dearka was the first to look away and moved lower towards Yzak’s nipples and licked one of them while caressing the other with his hand. The buttons blossomed but his lover held his moans refusing to let his emotions show.

Dearka smiled accepting the challenge. He started to litter the blue-eyed’s body with little kisses and bites moving lower until he reached his bellybutton. There he plunged his tongue and sucked strongly. He felt the platinum boy take a deep breath but he succeeded not to moan at the sensation.

The blond smiled against the already sweaty skin and continued his path down – licking, biting, caressing, nibbling, sucking. He felt Yzak’s muscles clench but not a single sound escaped the boy’s mouth. Now that was amazing selfcontrol!

Yzak thought that if his lover went on like this he will have to either lose the unannounced duel or burst from within. He felt Dearka’s breath, tongue, teeth, fingers which worked magic with his senses.

The blond was about to suck him deep in his throat and the blue-eyed contracted his muscles in a vain and desperate attempt to resist the urge to shout in pleasure. His teeth clenched, his hands pulled the rope that held him, his hips rocked up, but somehow he prevented the scream from exiting his lips.

And then Dearka deepthroated him and hummed.

The slight vibration pushed Yzak over the edge and he shouted as he came.

The blond swallowed his lover’s cum and then he kissed him, this time calmly while his hands worked the knot to release the blue-eyed from his captivity.

Yzak was still for a second and then his hands closed around Dearka’s neck.

“Kisama~! I’ll kill you!”

“Not likely! You love what I do to you way too much!” Came his lover’s cheesy voice. Dearka’s hand flew to the nightstand and got a small bottle while hips rocked against Yzak’s who had already fully recovered after his orgasm and was ready for the next round.

He was about to open the bottle when his partner stopped him. “Wait, I want to have my way with you too!” came Yzak’s voice as he put Dearka on his back and grabbed his arousal.

His tongue traveled from root to head and savoured the precum that had appeared at the tip. Then he suckled, his lips encircling the silky head, his tongue waiving enticing patterns on the sensitive skin.

Dearka was on the edge. He buried his hands in the soft platinum strands that caressed his hips and lifted his lover’s head.

He took the bottle and squeezed some of its contents on his fingers. Then he touched his beloved’s entrance and carefully inserted one oily finger inside the tight passage and massaged the insides gently before adding another finger and stretching. Yzak arced towards his hand looking to intensify the sensations.

The blond responded with steady strokes at the prostate, knowing this would pleasure his lover. The blue-eyed trembled under those caresses. Third finger found its way inside. Yzak’s gaze was hazy, all his being concentrated on his pleasure. He was ready, more than…

Dearka drew his fingers out as his partner spilled some lube of his palm and applied it on the blonde’s arousal. Dearka laid Yzak on his back and positioned himself at the tight muscle ring at the entrance of his lover beyond which the gates of heaven awaited both of them. He pressed and felt the sphincter ease and allow him in. He continued slowly…

Yzak felt light initial pain but he knew that what was to come was worth the slight discomfort at the beginning. He felt Dearka go deeper and urged him on pressing against his hips.

When he was embedded to the hilt, the blonde paused and let his lover accommodate. The feeling was beyond perfect. Yzak enveloped him so perfectly that he wished he could stay like this for eternity. When his partner indicated he was ready, Dearka withdrew slightly and then thrust forward, the gasps of pleasure both of them made were like a music to him. He drew back again and with the next deep and confident thrust he leaned and whispered in his beloved’s ear “Happy anniversary, love!”

Yzak looked at him with surprise his beautiful blue eyes glowing with pleasure and happiness “You knew!” his smile shone so bright and brought him such bliss that Dearka’s heart could burst at the love that filled him.

“I love you!” came Dearka’s unsteady voice together with his next thrust.

“I know. And I love you too!” was the soft panting response.

At that moment the vidphone peeped.

“Ignore it!” the blond was concentrated on his lover as he moved towards the ultimate pleasure.

“I can’t, I… - Oh, God!” came Yzak’s voice as his lover hit his special spot inside and sent waves of liquid fire through his body. “… Last night I turned the camera towards the bed and set the phone on autoresponse for our closest friends…”

“You what?” Dearka’s voice was surprised, breathless and strained as he fought to control his desire.

Both lovers turned their faces towards the screen of the vidphone when it came to life, showing Cagalli’s face her gaze still in another direction. “Yzak, there’s a small change in p-pla…” She didn’t continue when her eyes saw what was in front of the camera – two of her friends naked in bed doing… Her cheeks became fiercely pink competing with the colour of Lacus’ hair and her mouth stayed opened but not a single coherent sound would come out of it.

Dearka cursed under his breath and said “Camera off! Cagalli, whatever you have to say should be able to wait for 10 minutes. We’ll call you back later, because I’m not in the mood to stop now to listen to you. Till soon. Connection off!”

The two lovers looked at each other and burst into laughter. But the spasms of Yzak’s midriff contracted around the blonde’s arousal and they both gasped at the sensation. That returned them to their activity prior to Cagalli’s untimely interruption and they continued from where they had stopped.

Dearka’s thrusts grew deeper, faster and stronger, hitting at Yzak’s most sensitive spot with the same precision as his combat aim. The blue-eyed’s head was thrown back exposing the tender column of his neck, his hips met each thrust. One tanned hand moved to the platinum-haired boy\'s erection and started pumping in synchronized rhythm to his thrusts.

The combined stimulation sent the blue-eyed boy over the edge of sanity where the world was off axis and he came with a loud scream as his seed spilled over his lover’s hand and their bellies.

Yzak’s spasms of ecstasy were the last straw that triggered Dearka’s orgasm and he spent himself in the tight welcoming body of his beloved.

The two lovers stayed like this tired, satisfied and happy to be in each other’s embrace as the world slowly came back into place.

“Happy anniversary!” came their voices at the same time.


Some time later after quick shared shower they were ready to face Cagalli who was most probably far more disturbed by what she saw then they were. When her face came on the screen it started to redden almost immediately. The two males couldn’t hold back their giggles at the sight.

“Come on, Cagalli, sorry it turned out like this. What did you want to say earlier?” Dearka’s voice ringed with laughter that was on the verge of getting incontrollable.

‘Oh, God’ thought Cagalli to herself. ‘That’s part of my friends’ life I never needed to witness and now I can’t look at them without that scene jumping to my memory. That’s plain ridiculous. Come on, Cagalli, you are not going to be laughed at for something that is definitely not your fault. Get a grip!’

“Athrun’s going at Kira’s place, so I decided it would be better to meet right there at 10:00. We’ll take off from there. That was all. Oh, and I hope I didn’t disturb your activities.” She tried to make them feel a bit of the awkwardness she had felt a while ago. To her displeasure and surprise both of them grinned and Yzak said:

“Not for a second. It just added something extra to the experience”

With this Cagalli decided she was not their equal, at least not at the moment, so she dropped the subject. “Glad to hear it! Till 10:00 then.”

Ok, I hope you liked it. Thanks for the reviews they inspire me to write. So far each chapter seems to come out longer than the previous, but I still don\'t know how long the next one is gonna be. It will definitely be the Athrun x Kira meeting that is still waiting.
Please tell me did I do well in this really strange for me area - describing sex on paper. It turned out much easier and funnier than I expected. I feared the moment when I would have had to write the AsuKira sex (which I have already fitted in the storyline and will probably come in chapter 7 or 8) but now it seems like I\'ll be able to pull it off.
Till soon :)