Unity Ark: Book 1 Weapon Malfunctions, The

Ark: Unity
Book: The Weapon Malfunctions
Author: Zimmerie Kanoah
Warnings: Angst, depression, language, nudity, break down, rebirth, sexual themes, adult content, men with men, past references, sex, kissing, masturbation, fantasying about these things, (and just in case you don’t understand and I don’t want to get in trouble ), all these things happen between two men. Except for some of the Relena things. I suppose I should warn about that. Relationship-ish between Heero and Relena.(past) I think that sums it up. That is over all warnings. If there is something extra that I feel you should be warned about in a specific chapter I will let you know. Please don’t scroll over my warnings. Thanks.
Genre: Angst!!!!
AN: This is going to be in Heero’s POV for the whole book. I’m not entirely sure how many chapters there will be some will be long others short. This book centers around Heero. This is the beginning of the Unity Ark that I promised my readers. If you are not in the mood to stay tuned to an epic angst ark then you can read the shortened more confusing Abridged version and it is named Unity.
Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Wing or anything associated to that show. Please do not steal this idea. I am simply writing this story for the enjoyment of doing it and the enjoyment of others when they read. I am by no means making any kind of money.

Chapter One

I’m sitting at my desk, in my ice box of an office, thinking about who I should call to come and clean my apartment carpet, or if I will just go buy the things that I need to do it myself. I growl at myself in frustration remembering the muddy boot prints leading all the way to my bed. Well, I sigh, there’s nothing I can do about it now but clean it up. I strum my fingers over my desk, a nervous bored action I’m not sure where I picked up and I stop myself. I Swivel in my chair and stare at the cracked open blinds, hands steepled in front of me. When had I become so uneasy?

I turn in my chair and pick up a pen pretending to work as I hear the foot steps stop in front of my closed office door. The knock echoes slightly in my sparsely decorated room.

“Enter.” I say and the door opens to emit one Chang Wufei.

I quickly stand up from my desk and stand at attention as he is now second in command and my superior officer. He nods in acknowledgement of my respectful stance and that is his indication to go to at ease.

“There is a meeting that Commander Une is calling you to.” He says to me.

“Forgive me sir, but why didn’t you just buzz me?” I ask.

“I was in the area of the building checking up on things anyway. I figured it wasn’t to difficult to stop and inform you personally.”

I nod. “When is the meeting taking place?”

“Here in a few minuets. Walk with my Agent Yuy?”

“Yes of coarse sir.” I pick up my jacket on my way out the door and lock my office.

We walk in silence and I vaguely wonder if he takes enjoyment from being my superior or not. He always had seemed to enjoy being better than me during the war. Once I had accepted that I needed help from others I had only ever seen him as an equal. Then again it was Chang and even though he had problems during the war like the rest of he probably has gotten over them by now. He was just First Lieutenant Chang Wufei of the Preventers now end of story.

We make a left turn a few corridors down from my office and stop in front of the elevators. I look to the right of me when I catch a movement down the hall from the corner of my eye and find that it is just a delivery boy, one of the regulars. Not that we would allow anyone new to deliver anything here for security reasons, and if the package is important we send someone of lower rank to retrieve it. I turn back to the elevator as it opens and wait for those who are getting off to enter beside Chang.

“How have the missions been going Yuy?” He asks me now that we are alone.

“They’ve been alright. Not very challenging. I would have thought that I would get more difficult ones since I am more experienced.”

“Mm. Well with Peacecraft doing her yearly rounds I’m sure Une wants to keep you close.” He comments.

“Hai.”

The elevator dings and the doors open to level fifteen and we head to the usual meeting room three doors down and to the left. Une apparently thinks it’s the safest room with all the cameras she installed. We all know she enjoys the view of the ocean and just dedicated it to all the important meetings that involve her. The room is strictly off limits to everyone else unless she is present.

My eyes widen but a split second, as I see everyone there sitting around the rectangular conference table, in surprise. Why is everyone here? Is this mission really that important that everyone needs to be here? I narrow my eyes and look over at Une who is at the front of the table and I realize that the blinds are shut tight. My heart begins to pound in my chest before I wrap a cold mental hand around it, regulating it as I did in the war.

I take a seat next to Chang and I do a quick assessment of everyone else in the room. Quatre, Duo, and Trowa appear to be doing well. My eyes narrow even more as they collide with ice blue, Zechs and I still have yet to let 'dead dogs lie' as Duo always puts it. What the hell is he doing here….

“Alright now that everyone has arrived.” Une interrupts our mental sparring and I turn to look upon her calmly. “Relena has been receiving death threats, which is not unusual given her stasis but we also received these in a small package.”

She clicks a button and I her the cameras beep off, another button is pushed and the lights go off, and the next turns on the projector and I see a very naked Relena in the shower. From the corner of my eye I see Zechs tense, a very small movement compared to the average person, but he is now on complete alert. Quatre gasps and averts his eyes, his princely sensibilities being pressed upon, and Duo lets out a barely audible ’Jesus Christ’. Trowa looks on as if he has never seen the woman in his life and it has nothing to do with anything important for all he shows, and Chang and I look at the photo with disinterest.

“The photos get worse and far more… explicit. Before anyone asks, no Relena has not been informed, she would be horrified more for the content of the photographs than someone being able to get close. “

“What? Did ‘Lena get caught with her panties down masturbating?” Duo joked and received glares for the his crudeness but no denials from the commander.

“You’ve got to be shittin’ me.” Duo replied to the silence.

“Maxwell.” Wufei mutters calmly and Duo closed his mouth.

I simply stared up at the picture, soft curves, round breasts, thick lips. When you looked at Relena you would think that she had thin lips but the opposite was true. After the war I had thought that Relena was my answer and she had always felt the same of me, but once we were together it had turned out to be a different story. Though, I thought ruefully, we did have a good time together. Relena hadn’t been the uptight, by the book, woman once she was behind doors. I briefly wondered if that had anything to do with knowing Dorothy.

I allowed myself to drift away from the madness that was surrounding me in the room, I already knew what Une was going to say. She was going to rant about the lack in security, mention the up coming ball and speech that Relena was to be giving, and how we were all needed just in case. Somehow all that would take a couple hours of briefing, and I simply wasn’t in the mood to listen to her rattle on about things that I already knew and probably could come up with on my own.

I wanted to close my eyes and think back vividly to the year relationship that Relena and I had had quietly, but I would have to continue to seem as though I was fully paying attention. My mind started to drift back towards watching Relena strip down in front of me, her hand slipping in-between her legs. She really was a beautiful woman, and she was strong in her own way.

I could still remember her voice whimpering and moaning my name, and words of pleasure. We had done so many things that were completely improper, doing said things in improper places including my office and back stage after a speech she had given. Most people would find this out of character of the bright and innocent world leader, but when I was with her it had seemed as though it was common place for her.

I had been different back then, so had she I suppose. We were both trying to get rid of the demons inside ourselves in the arms of each other. When we realized that what we were doing was just away to run away we ended our relationship and that had been that. Oddly enough Relena was just so, once something became clear to her and it was not a good thing her feelings were thrown to the way side and it was just no more.

Being with Relena reminded me of something, as if I was so close to what I had wanted, my fingers only moments away from grasping what I longed for. Yet afterwards I could never quite figure out what had been missing. It was hot and heavy with her, a fire burning intensely, blood pumping, heart racing, feeling of freedom, adrenaline pounding in my ears as if I was still on the battle field. That had always been the problem in the long run. I hadn’t fought, bleed, and almost died just to keep feeling as though I was still in Wing Zero. I wanted something more, real freedom. I just couldn’t put a word to it.

“Further more…”

Une was still rattling on, a slight movement to the left from Wufei and I know he knows I’m not paying attention. I feel the weight of his stare for but a second and then it’s gone. He had been the only one who knew about the relationship. He always knew when I wasn’t really there. He just knew things about me before I knew them. Maybe he knew what I was searching for, maybe he could give me the word to put to the feelings I was feeling. He always seemed to be able to explain me to others, explain others to me, Wufei was my go between, he never made me feel like an idiot that I didn’t understand a concept. He understood that I had never been trained to understand such things.

I look over to Quatre but nobody notices not even the man himself. Wufei had explained Quatre to me as well. His space heart allowed him to feel what others were feeling and so he suffered as if he were them. It made sense when he put it that way, it explained Quatre’s tendency to allow the enemy to live. He just didn’t want to feel his death over and over again. So with that knowledge I had lent him my strength, whenever he was around I always sent him feelings of control, power, and calm. They always worked for me, I figured they did for him as well. It seemed to work he helped me many times during the war.

“I don’t think that idea will work. I’m sure I can come up with something far more suitable for such an area.” Quatre commented.

Ah yes the ever faithful tactician, if Quatre was the one to figure out the game plan I would follow his lead no matter how odd it seemed. He would get the job done with less casualties and I trusted his judgment. It was always right on.

I paused in my thoughts, I didn’t even sound like myself to myself. What was wrong with me? Where had I gone? When was I going to come back? What the hell was any of that supposed to mean?

A light placement of hand on my shoulder in order to rouse me from my thoughts so that I could act as though I had been fully present for the whole thing. I close my eyes, push back my chair and slowly rise turning towards the door. Outside, away from everyone, Wufei pulls me aside and gives me a look that clearly says ‘get with it Yuy or else.’ With that he turns and abruptly leaves.

My shoulders sag against the wall and I stare at his retreating back my face slowly forming into a new unfamiliar look of sadness. I think as if I am asking him directly, how? Explain to me what these fellings are inside my chest. Tell me how to fix it. Why am I hurting when I have no apparent wounds Chang? Why?

My eyes close as they start to sting and I grit my teeth. I feel a track of wetness slide down my right cheek. Why, why do I feel so much pain? Tell me, please?