Quatre Winner\'s Diary

Febuary: The Truth Comes Out

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Friday, Feb. 14th
9:36 am

It\'s Valentine\'s day, and Friday. Day 26 in Operation Cupid (and I went back and counted!) It\'s a Friday, and I don\'t have a date. Okay so I have a good reason not to have a date, I know I shouldn\'t have blown Trowa off like that, but still. Why hasn\'t he called to `just be friends?\' I want him to call. I need to hear that voice talking to me again, even if it\'s just about the weather.

I\'ve got it bad this time. Really bad. I can\'t even get him out of my head.

Better yet, it\'s the most romantic day of the year and no one\'s giving me anything. Everyone else is getting a card or something and I\'m not getting anything. I really must be that horrible of a person. Relena even got a card to give to Heero, fat lot of good it\'ll do. Like he\'ll even appreciate it. Why can\'t I just tell her that he\'s head over heel in love with Duo? It would make everyone\'s lives easier, except mine. I\'ll be stuck in the middle of it all. Sucks to be me.

11:12 am

Dorothy came upstairs to brag that she got a card from the cute new intern. I know he\'s just trying to get to her so he can become full- time.

\"But it\'s not like I mind.\" She\'s always so nonchalant about these things. \"Most of the men in that department have been after me to get ahead. It\'s been that way for a while.\"

\"But it doesn\'t mean that you have to like it.\" Listen to me, voice of reason.

\"No, but I do. So what about you? What did that wonderful man in you life send you?\"

\"Nothing.\"

\"Nothing!?!\" Okay so she seemed shocked. \"But…\"

\"I blew him off, I think.\"

\"What did you do, Quatre?\" So, I told her everything, and she laughed. \"Is that all?\"

\"Yeah.\"

\"Oh darling, the great Trowa Barton won\'t be run off that easily. Just be patient. He\'ll call you.\"

I can be patient…I think.

11:30am

He still hasn\'t called.

11:35 am

Still no call.

11:40am

I had to go to the bathroom, so I checked my voice mail. Still no calls.

11:45 am

What if he lost my number? He could have lost my number. That\'s it, he lost my number. Or did I not give him my new extension when I moved offices? No, I\'m sure I did. But what if I didn\'t and he called and got Dorothy and got freaked out and hung up?

You know, that just sounded ridiculous. I think I\'m losing my mind. That\'s it. I\'m giving up on this whole thing. If he calls, good. I\'ll be happy. If he doesn\'t, fine. It won\'t kill me, will it?

1:35 pm

I just got back from lunch with Wufei. As usual, time spent with him got my mind back on track, and per his usual Valentine\'s Day ritual, he was somber and a little depressed. Every year he drops flowers into the Hudson as a way to remember his wife. She died of cancer when they were a little over fifteen. She was his great love and the reason that he\'s becoming a doctor. I saw a picture of Meiran once, and she was beautiful. Wufei really loved her, and misses her to this day.

He once told me that not everyone in China marries early like he did, but they were arranged for each other at birth. It had something to do with cleirseirs and things like that, but he easily got out of his duties and came to America to study. Now he doesn\'t want to leave, much to the dismay of his parents. I can understand where he\'s coming from, more than other people. There are days where I want nothing more then to shrug off all of my responsibilities as the Winner heir and run away. But I can\'t. I\'m too entrenched now.

For some reason, being around Wufei puts all my problems into perspective. I mean, if he can carry a torch for someone who\'s been dead for almost nine years, I think I can wait a few more days for Trowa to call. Besides, if I really care about him as much as I say, then I could wait forever for him to come around. I just hope Dad doesn\'t think I need to get married before then.

3:15 pm

So, my day just went from bad to worse. Relena called from the bathroom crying again. Seems Heero got a little more aggressive with his refusals. He tore up her card. Right in front of her and informed Lena that she should leave him alone.

This is not good. Not for Relena; it would be a great thing if she could move on, but if Duo finds out, he might try and beat the shit out of Heero. That would be a bad thing. Especially since, he still hasn\'t figured out what\'s going on between them yet.

Okay that sounded heartless, didn\'t it? I don\'t think it\'s good that Lena\'s hurting again, but, well she needs to get a clue. He isn\'t going to fall into her arms. It\'s just not meant to be.

You know, something just occurred to me. Dorothy knows Heero. Trowa knows Heero. Does this mean that Dorothy knows Trowa? I know that she\'s friends with Trowa\'s sister, but are she and my vet friends? If so, did she already know about what was happening? That would explain why she was surprised when I told her that he hadn\'t sent me anything yet. But does that mean that he has something for me? Well, that will have to wait until after dinner. Right now, my friends need me. I\'m going to cook tonight! I just hope I don\'t burn the water.

9:58 pm

Dinner went as expected. My food didn\'t kill anyone, but it didn\'t taste great either. I\'ll work on that. At least I trusted my own limitations. I know that I can\'t cook a feast, so I used an easy cookbook! But that\'s digressing, which is something that I need to do right now. Keep my mind off the present.

Lena\'s crying on my bed because she\'s sure that Heero\'s going to kill. Du. Duo\'s off giving the Japanese bodyguard a piece of his mind. I\'m stuck in the middle of it all. And `Fei\'s on the couch getting drunk and trying to forget he\'s lonely. So we\'re definitely a broken hearts club. I just hope Heero won\'t be to upset when Duo punches him in the face.

If he\'s not dead, Duo should be back anytime now. He left over an hour ago. One good thing happened tonight, though. Relena decided to give up on Heero, since he\'s heartless.

11:49 pm

Duo\'s still not back and I\'m getting worried, now. Wufei went home an hour ago, which is good. Relena\'s lying beside me in bed. She cried herself to sleep an hour ago, but I just can\'t follow her lead. There are three possibilities for what\'s going on:

1. Duo\'s fine, and only has a few cuts from the fight, and decided to go home.

2. Heero beat him to a bloody pulp and he\'s lying face down in a gutter (which I don\'t think would happen.)

Or

3. Heero finally told Duo what he feels about him. Duo reciprocates it and they\'re screwing like minks.

I hope it\'s the last one.

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I know it\'s not you\'re typicl, happy Valentine\'s Day post, but of course this isn\'t you\'re typical fic. Hope you like tomorrow\'s. I\'ve been slaving over it for weeks.