When Love and Death Embrace
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This is
the first of three separate Arcs involving various couples in Gundam wing. In
this Arc there will be a Shuouen Ai relationship and Suicide. I this stuff
bothers you then don’t read the story. Keep in mind that I’m a little new with
the whole Yaoi thing, so if it sucks, I’m sorry. (Also I should note that every
song that I use is from the band HIM Cause quiet frankly, they rock.)
Warnings: Shuouen Ai, Adult Situations,
Language, Major Angst, Violence and Suicide
Disclaimer: I don’t own Gundam Wing, HIM,
or their song Join me
Note: The text in bold italics is
the song lyrics
Join Me
Join me in Death
color:black'>Baby Join me in Death
Baby Join me in Death
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Hilde
was rushed into the surgery room where the operators did everything they could
to fix the damage done to her body. But she had lost a lot of blood, and some
of her major organs had been crushed. The doctors fixed her up as best as they
could, but the damage had already been done.
We are so young
Our lives have just begun
Hilde
groaned softly as her eye slowly began opening up. As she adjusted to her
surroundings she heard a soft beeping noise to the right of her. Her entire
body felt so battered that it hurt to breath; except for below her waist. There
she felt nothing, just numbness. As here ears became more focused shd she heard
a familiar voice.
But already we are considering
Escape from this world
Duo
“Even
if she lives, she will be completely paralyzed from the waist down. And that’s
not all, I’m sorry Mr. Maxwell but your wife was 3 months pregnant; the baby
was crushed too.”
She
suddenly remembered why she was here. Her thoughts drifted back, she had found
her husband cheating on her with his best friend.
And we've waited for so long
For this moment to come
A
feeling of depression and anger formed in her stomach. She had been so loyal
and faithful to him. And in return he gave her his nditnditional love, or so
she thought. It became painfully clear that despite all she had done for him,
he felt nothing for her. When she came into the house and saw them together,
she knew she was no longer a part of his life
normal'>Were so anxious to be together
Together in death
She saw the ring Duo himself had
placed on her finger; slowly she reached over and removed it. She held it over
her face and enclosed it in her hand. Tears streamed down her face as she
remembered the bond Duo and she shared. But that bond that had been broken, and
could never be repaired.
Won't you die tonight for love
(baby join me in death)
She
remembered all the nights they stayed up late talking, laughing, holding each
other in there arms. She remembered the day they had gotten married; and how
she felt about it. The feelingpurepure happiness and joy that burst from inside
of her. She wanted that feeling to last forever, but it was just an illusion.
Won't you die
(baby join me in death)
Nothing
mattered to her anymore. She didn’t care for anything; not for Duo, not even her
own life. He was every thing she had, everything she wanted in life. But since
he did not want her, then her life didn’t matter anymore. There was no point;
it’s not like he would care anyways. Hilde looked up as she saw Duo enter the
room and sit next to her bed.
(baby join me in death)
Hilde
looked into his eyes but quickly turned away. Duo placed his hand over hers and
rubbed it gently.
“Hilde…
I just spoke to the doctor, and he said,”
Hilde
moved his hand from his grip “Duo I heard what the doctors said. There’s no use
trying to water it down.”
Duo
looked down and placed a hand over his face.
This world is a cruel place
And we're here only to lose
“Hilde
I’m so sorry, I never meant to hurt you like this. I was just so confused I didn’t
know what I was doing. It’s just that I thought that I might have made a
mistake with my life, but I was wrong. I should’ve not have questioned myself”
“But why
would you have to question the life we had. We had everything we always dreamed
of, everything we could asked for and more, but now…,”
She looked at her stomach “But now it’s gone Duo, everything is gone. You threw
our love away like it was nothing.”
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So before life tears us apart let
Death bless me with you
Tears began to fall from his face
“Hilde don’t say that… I still love you. What happened between me and Wu-Fei
was a mistake,”
“But
that’s the thing, how can I trust you not to make that mistake again? All it
took was for Wu-Fei to say I love you, and you forgot all about me. I’m sorry Duo
but I can no longer trust you.”
Won't you die tonight for love
(baby join me in death)
Duo’s
mouth opened slightly “What are you saying?”
Hilde
looked him straight in the eye “I don’t want you in my life; I don’t want to
live anymore. Just leave and let me die in peace,”
Won't you die
(baby join me in death)
Duo’s
eye’s opened wide “Hilde… don’t do this. You’re not going to die, I won’t let
you.”
“You
have no idea what this has done to me. Don’t try and change my mind, just go,”
Duo
gritted his teeth “I can’t do that, I won’t go.”
Hilde’s
voice began to rise “Duo, Just leave me. I can’t live like this. Please… I
don’t want to suffer anymore”
Won't you die tonight for love
(baby join me in death)
“NO,
HILDE STOP THIS!” Yelled Duo
Hilde
began to squirm in her bed “GET OUT OF HERE, GO!”
Duo
just shook his head; Hilde used all of her strength and sat up. Despite the
pain she looked him in the eye and gritted her teeth
“DUO
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Hilde
suddenly became motionless. Duo watched as a small trail of blood came from her
mouth. Her eyes glazed over; and she fell back onto the bed.
Join me in death
Duo’s
hands began to shake as he looked at her still body; his mouth hung open “No…
Hilde…HILDEEE!”
The
door burst open and the doctors rushed into the room. Duo still clung to
Hilde’s limp hand.
“YOU
CAN’T DO THIS, COME BACK! OH GOD, PLEASE COME BACK PLEASE!”
A
couple of the doctors tried to pry Duo away from her; but he resisted them
fiercely. Suddenly a doctor stuck a needle in his arm, and his vision began to
fade.
“Hilde.”
This life ain't worth living
1 month later
Duo
slowly approached the tombstone, Hilde’s ring in his hand. He placed the ring
on her grave, stood up, and wept.
“
with all your heart and I just threw it away. The life we had, the bond we
shared, everything. Everyday I beg for your forgiveness, but in the end it is
useless. How can I be forgiven, if I can’t forgive myself?”
This life ain't worth living
(Join me join me join me)
Wu-Fei
looked at Duo as he wept. He felt a small feeling of guilt about what had
happened but he pushed it aside. With Hilde dead Duo was all his. It would take
some time but eventually everything would work out.
Wu-Fei
walked up to him “Hey Duo.”
Duo
didn’t even turn around “Go away Wu-Fei, I don’t want to talk to you right now,”
This life ain't worth living
(Join me join me join me)
Wu-Fei
put a hand on his shoulder “Duo I just want to talk,”
Duottedtted the hand away, turned around, and looked him in the eye “Do you have any
idea what you’ve done to me. You ruined my life!”
Wu-Fei
placed his hands on his hips “If I remember correctly, you were more than
willing to leave that slut.”
Duo
snapped; he grabbed Wu-Fei by the shirt and threw him into the ground face
first. He grabbed him by the hair and made him look at Hilde’s grave.
THIS LIFE AIN’T WORTH LIVING
“
EVERYTHING TO ME, SHE WAS MY LIFE!”
He
slammed Wu-Fei’s face into the grass and stood up “But you could care less, you
wanted her gone. Well congratulations, your wish has come true!”
Duo
kicked him in the ribs hard “I don’t want to see you again, ever!”
Duo
walked off leaving Wu-Fei crying on the grass.
“
Won't you die tonight for love
(baby join me in death)
Next Day
Duo Maxwell, words can not describe how truly
sorry I am. Through my own selfish needs I killed the one person that maou
ou
who you were. Hilde made you the Duo Maxwell that I loved. When she was alive,
you were always so bright and cheerful, always smiling, but now... Now when I
look at you, all I see are consequences of my actions. I can’t bear to look at
you anymore, just saying your name hurts my heart.
Won't you die
(baby join me in death)
There is only one thing I can do to atone for
what I’ve done. I hope that one day you can forgive me, goodbye Duo.
Wu-Fei
put his pen down and read over the note. He placed the note down and ran a hand
through his hair.
“
He
took one last look around the room and walked to the bathroom.
Won't you die tonight for love
(baby join me in death)
Duo walked up to Wu-Fei’s door and knocked on it gently. He need to speak to
Wu-Fei, he needed to apologize. He waited but there was no answer.
it up. He peered inside and called out his name, but there was no answer. As he
looked around he noticed a letter on the desk. As he read it his hands began to
shake, just then he saw blood coming from the bathroom. Duo rushed into to see
Wu-Fei, lying in a pool of his own blood. His eyes were closed and he was
motionless. He saw a razor still in his hand, right above his slashed wrist.
Duo dropped to his knee’s and cradled the limp body into his arms. Tears began
to form as he gently stroked his hair.
Baby join me in death
“Wu-Fei… oh god… no… you can’t
die…YOU CAN’T FUCKING DIE!”
Duo buried his face into Wu-Fei’s
shoulder and wept.
“NOW WHO DO I HAEFT,EFT, HUH? YOU
WERE MY LAST FRIEND, AND NOW YOU’RE GONNA DIE ON ME… WELL FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU
WU-FEI, YOU QUITTER, THAT’S ALL YOU EVER WERE!”
Duo’s breathing became heavy; he
grabbed Wu-Fei’s hair and held it tight. He softly began to stroke his face
“Wu-Fei… I’m sorry, I didn’t mean
it… you have to wake up, please wake up… please.”
Duo continued to weep as he gently
rocked the body back and forth.
what you think. Your feedback is what keeps me writing so R&R. Also I would
like to thank all of you that took the time and to review this, I really
appreciate it. And just to let you know in the second Arc I’m going to use the
4xR pairing. Until then…