Unity Ark: Book 1 Weapon Malfunctions, The

Ark: Unity
Book: The Weapon Malfunctions
Author: Zimmerie Kanoah
Warnings: Angst, depression, language, nudity, break down, rebirth, sexual themes, adult content, men with men, past references, sex, kissing, masturbation, fantasying about these things, (and just in case you don’t understand and I don’t want to get in trouble ), all these things happen between two men. Except for some of the Relena things. I suppose I should warn about that. Relationship-ish between Heero and Relena.(past) I think that sums it up. That is over all warnings. If there is something extra that I feel you should be warned about in a specific chapter I will let you know. Please don’t scroll through my warnings. Thanks.
Genre: Angst!!!!
AN: This is going to be in Heero’s POV for the whole book. I’m not entirely sure how many chapters there will be some will be long others short. This book centers around Heero. This is the beginning of the Unity Ark that I promised my readers. If you are not in the mood to stay tuned to an epic angst ark then you can read the shortened more confusing Abridged version and it is named Unity.
Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Wing or anything associated to that show. Please do not steal this idea. I am simply writing this story for the enjoyment of doing it and the enjoyment of others when they read. I am by no means making any kind of money.
Extra Warning: So Heero is really starting to loose it here people. And before anyone says anything yes I know he’s OOC it’s on purpose but I figured you already knew that but just in case. I actually didn’t plan on having so much background before he broke down but I realized that this is much better and far more fun. The next couple chapters are going to be really fucked up and a bit confusing but you have to remember that this is going to be in Heero’s mind and he’s not all there currently. Umm… this chapter will have some really spliced up sex scenes so be aware. *Laughing.*

Chapter Three

“Oh… Heero….” Relena pants into my ear, but why does it seem to far away?

“Please, harder…”

I speed up as if of no will of my own. I’m not with Relena anymore. It’s been three years since then hasn’t it? I open my eyes and the sides are of my vision are fuzzy. I can see pale skin with sweat, a heart beating against my chest, light blue eyes hazy with lust. I’m inside her thrusting away all my problems and she’s taking it to forget about all of hers. Yes that’s right, we broke up because we realized that was what we are doing.

An explosion id heard from the left side and I’m thrown backwards into my cockpit chair. All the lights of my Gundam are flashing and beeping at me as more and more things start to malfunction. My fingers fly across the key board as I avert power from certain problem areas and start to shut them off. I can’t die yet not yet. I have to make it happen. Wait, what? What do I have to make happened?

Up against the wall her dress pushed up between us her panties gripped tight in my right hand as I had removed them but moments ago. I’m pounding up into her my left hand closed around her mouth to keep her from screaming my name. We have to stay quiet, we shouldn’t be doing this, but we are. Somebody shot at her and while the fight continues on out in the conference room we’re fucking the demons away. I should be out there killing those people that dare destroy what I fought for.

What the Hell…?

“Yuy!” I snap my face around and I see Chang running at me down the metal corridor. That’s right the place is rigged to blow. I have to get out of the OZ base before it does. I must live on there’s still more to do. Then and only then can I finally rest in pe-

I’m running, my arm is broken, my leg is bleeding, I probably have a concussion as my field of vision gets blurry and I feel nausea rising. This isn’t turning out the way I planned at all. I was supposed to make it out of there with no injuries, I miscalculated the enemies need to kill me, his strength of will.

I trip and fall right into Relena and she giggles. I roll to the side and she curls up to me, her soft breasts pressing into my arm. Her legs wrap around mine and I can feel her thatch of well trimmed hair rub up against my thigh.

“That was fantastic.” She whispers into my ear and I give a lazy smile.

“Yes it was.”

“Neh, He-chan why are you fighting this war?” Duo asks me and I find myself half way across the room sitting in a chair typing away at the keys to my laptop.

“For Pe-”

My head snaps back and to the side as Wufei’s fist connects with my face, he pulled his punch at the last second, that should have broke my jaw, he really does have such wonderful control over himself. Maybe he will teach me that one day. I can’t even change the strength of my hits like that and not injure myself but he does it all the time.

I don’t bother to raise a hand to place where he hit me, even though it’s throbbing with more pain than I’d like to even admit to myself. I just turn and look at him with dull eyes, a face set in stone. That’s what J taught me, I am but a weapon, I have no emotions, but Wufei he has so much of it.

“What the hell it you problem Yuy?”

What do you mean? I think but I say nothing.

“You just sit there or stand there as if you don’t give a shit what happens to anyone. The mission isn’t everything you fucking machine. There are other people, weak people, that don’t understand a damn thing.”

My eyes narrow. I do not understand. The mission is all that I have.

“Wufei, buddy, come on…” Duo urges , uneasy.

“Stay out of it Maxwell.”

Wufei didn’t even look at him when he said that. Odd.

“Yuy you are a disgrace to everyone else who is fighting for a goal. A reason that beats deep within themselves. You are nothing. You came from nothing, and if you do not learn then you will stay nothing and everything that you do will accomplish nothing.”

My heart jumps into my throat for a moment my eyes widen incredulously. What…

I’m nothing? No purpose? What is this that burns in my chest?

I’m staring at Quatre, and he’s crying. I walk over to him and I wipe at his cheek the dirt on my fingers smear across the milky skin.

“I know of this, this is pain.” My eyes narrow in confusion. “Chang explained to me about you..”

“Did he.”

“He said that you unwilling become them and so you too die.”

“Wha…how?” Quatre looks surprised that Wufei was so insightful.

“Wufei understands everyone.” I reply.

“Uxe-to temae! Chang Onegai!” I yell out at his retreating back.

But why am I calling out to him? This didn’t ever happen. Am I dreaming then? When did I fall asleep?

“You don’t understand anything do you.” I whirl around at the sound of his voice coming from behind me.

“I always have to explain things to you.” How is it he’s moving so fast?

“Do you remember what you were fighting for?”

No, the concept is lost on me.

“Then you are meaningless.”

How am I to change when I don’t understand what you mean!

“Heero harder.”

That’s Relena.

“Neh He-chan what are you fighting for?”

Duo?

“Don’t! Don’t go!”

Why Quatre?

“You are nothing Yuy.”

Chang.

“Hahahahahah!”
Wha-what’s going on here?

“Heero… oh god yes…”

“Everything for the love of a woman.”

“Nothing you are nothing.”

What’s the hell is wrong with me? I don’t get it I don’t get I don’t get it. Why so much pain. Why do I feel misplaced. Why can’t I remember?

“Uh uh uh…har…der…”

No stop it. I, that wasn’t it. I don’t want that. That’s not what I’m looking for.

“Neh He-chan…”

No shut up leave me alone.

“Nothing.”

N-

I shoot up in my bed sweat trickling down my face my whole body covered in it. I raise a shaky hand to my forehead and push my bangs away from my eyes. Just what was that?

I close my eyes once more and I breath in deeply and slowly calming my beating heart. I open them once more and raise my head to look around. Everything is perfect again, but I don’t remember fixing it. I find myself even more confused than I was the day before when I finally realized that I had everything to perfect.

What is going on here?