The Dark and Light side of Love

WARNINGS: angst

Don’t forget to read the last chapter!! I uploaded two chapters again.

Vegeta’s POV

Damn there’s a lot of them. More than I’d thought there would be. All glowing with that wretched warmth. I advance towards them all anyways. To show that I’m not afraid of what they are. I see him. I see the only being that I ever want to see ‘til the end of time. His eyes. They’re so warm…so sad. I smelled the air for him. So addictive. I fought the urge to jump him right this moment. I looked up and down his body…slowly. Hn. He looks just like them, like the sun. Orange and yellow. Since he’s royalty, his cape is golden. He doesn’t need to be a super saiyan to shine.

I managed to break my gaze away from his gorgeous body and looked back over the blinding crowd. I felt a sense of defeat. There’s just too many of them, and about half of my men are still at the enemy’s hideout. It’ll probably take a couple hours until they get here. If they ever do. I wouldn’t be surprised if there’s an ambush waiting somewhere outside this hideout. We won’t make it, but I don’t care. All I want is him. I also looked at the bodies around the hideout of what was left of the Shadows. They’ve regained their strength. I smiled amusingly. “Kill them.”

I looked back at my love as the group behind me suddenly attacked all the children of the sun. He was just standing there. Looking at me with a shocked and horrified expression. I looked at his precious face and saw beautiful, crystalline tears. No. Please. No tears my love. On any other victim, I would love to see those tears, but not on you. He’s seen my tears for too long. He’s too precious to break. Why is he crying? I started to advance towards him. He then got into a defensive position with a determined look on his lovely face. Ignoring his trails of sorrow.

“Did you miss me, my love?” I asked my beloved in a seductive tone.

He relaxed his position somewhat and his expression turned sad, “yes.”

I smiled a more sweeter smile. I actually felt a little twinge of happiness deep down in the endless pit of what is my soul. A feeling that only Kakarot can give me. “I missed you too, my love.” I stopped my advance towards him by just a few feet away. “Lets not fight. All I want, is you. Will you join me? Will you be a Shadow by my side? Forever?” I actually said that with a hopefulness that he’ll say yes. A longing. A desperate longing.

He relaxed his posture completely and stood up straight to look dead in my eyes. “No.” That little happiness died. “Actually, I was hoping it’d be the other way around.” he told me with that velvet voice of his.

He slowly came closer to me with his arm outstretched, his hand just inches from my face. I took a hesitant step back. “Don’t be afraid, love. I won’t hurt you.” I then stayed put. Trusting my beloved’s words. As that hand came closer, he dropped out of his super saiyan state. I did the same and I closed my eyes and felt that warm hand on my cold skin. I brought up my own hand to hold his on my cheek. I nuzzled into that warmness. That warmness in which I haven’t felt in so long. “Do you feel that? Do you feel the warmth of my hand?” I heard my love’s warm voice. I moaned. Everything about him is warm. I moved my hand from his and slowly moved it up his arm until I reached his shoulder, which brought me closer to that radiating heat. He flinched a little as he tried to get used to my coldness.

I opened my eyes. “Yes. I have always felt you.” I answered the God in front of me.

“Then will you…will you become a Light? Will you be by my side? Forever?” My love asked me with the same hopefulness that I had earlier.

I answered the same way. “No.”

He wrapped his arm around my waist and pulled me closer to him. He then bent down towards my right ear and whispered his hot breath into it, “Why not? You’ll be alive, my love. You’re heart will beat. Your body will be warm…and…and you’ll be able…to bear life.” He finished his tender persuasion by gently kissing my cold neck.

I panicked. I managed to pull away from that addicting warmth. “No! Why would you give me something that I obviously don’t want?! I can’t live like you! I’m the King of Shadows! That’s all I know how to be! And that’s all I wish to be!” Then, like it was at the right time, my blood red tears came from my cold eyes.

He took a step closer, but I just took a step back. “Vegeta, please…I-I can’t live without you anymore! I need you! And I know you need me too! Look at yourself! Your soul is dying! I can’t see you like this! If you let me turn you…”

“No Kakarot, no!” I interrupted his pleading. When he told me about my soul, more traitorous tears ran down my cold face. I believed it. His words are true. “Why the hell can’t you make this simple?! Why won’t you be a Shadow?! I can’t…I can’t…” I fell to my knees. I was losing it. I tried again. “I can’t except the Light…because it won’t except me. The Darkness is the only thing I know. It’s a part of me. It’s a part of my being. You’ll kill me Kakarot. I can’t stand what you possess. I just…” I looked up at that beautiful face that was stained with more of those lovely tears, “can’t.”

I didn’t know what else to say to him except…‘I’m afraid.’ I’m scared of that power of Light…scared of what it’ll turn me into…scared of what it’ll do to me. I’ll feel like I’ve given up. But then, our suffering will come to an end. I can stop all this by just saying one little word…but I can’t do it. My mind can’t process acceptance…pleasure…warmth…only pain and sorrow.

“Vegeta…” His voice cracked. I hate myself. I hate myself for making my love cry like this. Even though we have moved on in our lives…even though my father is dead…we’re still suffering. Now…looking at him…I feel I must comfort him. I feel I must apologize and accept his offer…but my pride won’t allow it, and I hate my damn pride for making my love sad. “I don’t want to be a Shadow. Shadow’s don’t really…feel anything. They’re cold. That’s why I want you to be a Light. It just…it makes more sense.” he paused. “Vegeta please…the Light will accept you! You know why?” He walked over and kneeled in front of me to hold my chin up to his sweet face. “Because I will accept you. I love you so damn much that it’s making my heart ache, and I feel like this life is wasted without you. It’s not a life if you’re not in it. Please, love…I’m begging you…” his face got closer to mine. “be with me.” he kissed me.

He kissed me with so much passion, I thought he was stealing my very soul. I kissed those warm, luscious lips back. My cold hands went into his wild hair and touched his warm scalp. Kissed him harder. Soon I felt his hot, wet tongue on my cold lips and I accepted it. The scent. His scent is so wonderful. Just like I remembered it to be. His taste was just as exquisite. I was lost. I moaned into that warmness. My love already knowing that I want more of it.

I realized that this would be the perfect time to try and turn him into a Shadow, but I couldn’t do it. I can’t make him cold and lifeless…like me. I strive on that warmness of his. I can’t…live without it.

I dreaded ending the kiss as I made my decision. Kakarot gasped for air. I put my cold hand on his warm chest and felt him breath. Felt his heart beat. He treaded his warm thumb through my red trails of sadness and mine through his. “Kakarot.” I closed my eyes and leaned my forehead into his. Afraid of what his reaction might be. “If you want me so bad…then you’re going to have to fight for me. I’m not giving up without a fight. I can’t give in so easily. It’s not in my nature to do so. So…let’s make this into a game.” I opened my eyes and smiled slightly.

In return, he gave me a heart-breaking look. “Is that what my love is to you? A game?” he continued to rub my cheek, sadly.

I sat up more to his level. “No Kakarot! This is a game…of our lives…our fates. If one of us manages to catch the other or defeat the most men…then the winner can turn the other. Does that sound fair?” I said this with hopefulness in my voice.

He looked at me for the longest time. Thinking it over. “Why can’t I just turn you right now? I can’t wait any longer. I want you.” he kept his sad expression and held me close.

“Because love, I really don’t want to be a Light and you don’t want to be a Shadow. Since that gets us nowhere…we’ll just let fate decide for us.” I gently stroked his face…like I used to do when we were together. I rememorized every curve.

His lively eyes studied me. “Well, my love…if that’s what you really want…if it pleases you…I’ll muster as much patience as I can to have you in my arms again. Alive.”

I smiled at the determination my love had in his voice, his eyes, and his expression. “Thank you, my beloved. Trust me, it’ll be fun.” I kissed him again, almost like I was never going to see him again. He kissed me back tenderly…tasting him one last time.

He pulled away breathless and I moaned in loss of his warmth. I felt him one last time by gently petting his face and head, and stood up. He followed my movement and gently held me one last time. “I love you Kakarot.” I practically purred my affection for him. He held me tighter, not wanting to let me go. I don’t want him to go either. I don’t want this ‘good feeling’ to go. He’ll just take it with him.

He let me go and that’s when I realized that a battle was happening around us. I looked around, slightly surprised. I heard a small chuckle and looked at my beloved. “You look lost.” he was smiling that heart-melting smile. Apparently, it doesn’t melt a heart as cold as mine, like it used to when my heart wasn’t as cold.

I smiled sadly. “I am.”

Kakarot’s expression immediately turned into a sad one and he touched my cold cheek. “Goodbye Vegeta. I’m missing you already. I’ll see you again, my love. Real soon.” He moved forward a little to kiss my forehead and slowly pulled away. Letting his hands linger on me as he pulled away.

I looked longingly at him as he disappeared into the battle and I stayed that way until the battle was over.

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It took me awhile to decide what should happen in this chapter. I didn’t know which one should surrender to the other yet. :/ So, I turned it sort of playful and let fate decide for them. I AM FATE!! Muhahahaha! *cough* Also…I thought that would’ve been something that Vegeta would totally suggest…I mean, he’s the Prince of Shadows after all. He ain’t going down without a fight! By the way, did anyone else notice that I've been saying 'Prince' instead of 'King?' I went back and changed it in the story, but just a couple sentences ago I said 'Prince.' *sighs* Such an easy mistake to make! I'm so mad at myself! I can't believe I'd make such a huge mistake like that in my own story! *pulls out hair and runs around screaming about my mistake...suddenly stops and takes deep breaths* I'm ok now. :)

Yes Zofo. I decided to keep our Prince a Shadow for just a little while longer. I was debating whether or not if I should just turn him in this chapter, but…another idea came to mind. *Laughs evilly again for the evil thoughts coming to mind* Also, I probably won’t mention the origin of the Lights’ and Shadows’ for a few more chapters yet. I have a couple ideas on where to put it…but…that’s one too many! *Bangs head against wall*