Frustrations

A/N: Good news. I was going to wait until Thursday to post this chapter, but since their was a vote, I will give it to you now. :)

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She was not alone.

This was the thought that awoke with Noin. Her back was to the door, so she made sure to keep her breathing slow and even as she listened to the light, almost not there, sound of footsteps coming closer to her bed. She did not have a feeling of unease, so she assumed that Duo was either hungry or lonely and sought her out.

Noin expected him to pounce on her or some other extreme wake up call. What she received instead were finger tips lightly running down her bare arm. She could feel the goosebumps form on her skin even as a trail of fire was left in their wake.

Once she felt the fingers leave when they reached her wrist, she shifted onto her back and slowly opened her eyes. Noin knew then and there this was a dream. Why else would Wufei be in her room in the middle of the night?

“Took you long enough to drop your facade.”

“Oh?” Maybe she was not dreaming. “What are you doing in my room if I may ask?” She had to work to keep her breathing even because right now, she really did not care. She would rather he would just join her in her bed.

Wufei crossed his arms over his chest. “I told you that if you did not come to talk to me this morning, then I would come to you.” He walked over to the window and opened the drawn curtain. “When I had not heard from you by noon, I headed this way. Duo did not seem pleased that I had interrupted his moping.

Noin just stared at him for a moment as he looked out the window. She found it hard to believe that she had slept so long and so soundly. She never even noticed someone was at the door. Some soldier she was.

“How should we start this talk?”

He turned and evaluated her. She now sat against her headboard, fully awake and a little less then eager to have this conversation. Wufei walked over and sat on the side of the bed and faced her.

“I know that there is a chance you could be with child, I would do my part to help raise the babe, but I can’t guarantee that I will do everything right.” He took one of her hands and laced her fingers with him. “I can tell you that honor is not the only reason I would accept the child, but because the babe is a part of me as much as you. Nothing can change that.”

Noin was not sure she heard correctly. Could this really be the Wufei she knew? He was baring his all to her about a child she was not even sure would ever exist. What surprised her most however, was the fact that he never once called the baby an 'it'. He acted as if it was an already living, breathing being.

Since Noin had been lost in her own thoughts for so long, Wufei decided to continue.

“That's to say that I'm still not sure if I'm ready to be a father. Even when Sally tries to get me involved with her adoption process or when Heero's little girl is around, I'm just uneasy.” He let her hand go and looked away. “I don't want to be like that with my own child.”

She was not sure why he was telling her all of this as much as it needed to be said, she figured she would only get the bare facts and that was it. Noin shifted and moved to her knees and then behind him. She wrapped her arms around his shoulders and leaned her head on his shoulder, allowing her easy access to lightly kiss his ear.

“No matter what happens,” She whispered. “you will be a marvelous father when the time arises.”

“Thank you. “Wufei bowled his head and placed a hand on the arms that crossed him chest. Everything she did was comfort: her words, her embrace and even her kiss. Everything she did in that moment was perfect.

He was not sure why he had said everything he had, but Wufei was happy with the result. She seemed appeased and even just sat there quietly as she held him. He enjoyed the comfort she could offer after he had opened his own wounds. He enjoyed her.

Wufei was sure at that moment that he was going to do what he could to keep her with him.

“Tell me, do you wish to have many children?”

Noin was shocked at the sudden question and let go of him so she could move to sit in the middle of her bed. He turned to watch her. “I never really thought about children until yesterday.” She shrugged. “I guess I always wanted at least one, but I think I would be happy if I had no kids or even nine, as long as I know everyone I care about is happy.”

She smiled at him, but it faded quickly as he scowled.

“Foolish woman.” Wufei snapped as he moved closer to her. “You have to look out for your own wants and needs as well.”

“Don't yell at me, Wufei. I'm not some pushover.”

“Could have fooled me. Only a pushover would be happy with only the happiness of others.”

Noin narrowed her eyes. “It's called being a friend.”

Wufei narrowed his as well. “It's called injustice.” He took a moment to calm himself when he saw a war between her dark blue eyes. He knew she was trying to see it through his eyes. “You deserve to be happy because your happy, Noin. Not because someone else is.”

Her eyes cleared and softened as she saw the caring look behind black eyes. “Don't say things like that unless you mean them.” Noin then moved closer and placed her right hand behind his head, so she could just soak in the look he was giving her.

“I don't use empty words.”

“I already knew that.” She smiled.

He closed the space between them and finally allowed their lips to meet. He literally ate the soft sigh she released as he moved his hand to her hip. Even with the little spat, it seemed that now that the big issue between them was resolved, they were comfortable with each other once again.

A sense of possession washed over Noin. Even though it was a gentle kiss and his hand was lightly on her hip, it seemed as if he was telling her that she was his and she wanted to let him know that she wanted him as well. So, she moved that hand that was holding his head back to his hair tie so that she could pull it loose. Once gone, Noin ran her long, elegant fingers through the silky strands. She she did this she found his free hand with hers and since they were being used to help keep their balance, she could not lace their fingers, but she placed hers on top of his.

After a moment of their intimate and wordless confession to each other, Wufei pulled back enough to break their kiss and to look into her desire filled eyes and slightly flushed face.

“Don't walk away from me like that again. If we would have talked yesterday, we would have had this out of the way all the sooner.”

Noin chuckled softly. “You just wanted to use that third condom.” He laughter quickly died as she moved the hand in his hair to his ear. “Too bad I don't have any here.”

Wufei almost purred as her fingers played along the shell of his ear. She had learned quickly and he appreciated the fact. So, to reward her, he moved the hand on her hip to the pocket of his pants and pulled out a small package and held it out.

Her smile was back at full force. “You brought it with you? Well, aren’t you a little arrogant.”

“Just optimistic.”

Noin pulled him further to the center of the bed and then pushed him down to lay on his back. She leaned over him and kissed him deeply as her long fingers worked on the fastenings of the Chinese style shirt he wore. It was just like the one he favored during the war, just a tan, almost gold color in nature. He wore it with black pants.

She could feel him run his hands under shirt and the feel of his hot skin on hers was enough to drive her
crazy, but she wanted to explore hm some more. By this time she had all of his fastenings undone. She could tell he was wanting her shirt gone and had even gone as far as to unfasten her bra, so she sat up.

They watched each other closely as they started to remove their clothes. Wufei took off his outer shirt and white under shirt, while Noin removed her blue t-shirt and light blue bra. The lovers were both now sitting up in the center of the bed and it did not take long before they were wrapped around each other. Skin against skin. Lips against lips.

Wufei wanted more. He kissed his way to her right ear and began his nibbles, licks and kisses. He felt her body tremble and then began to run his hands up and down her sides in a way to take in some of her pent up energy. Her mews of pleasure were also very nice to his ears.

“This isn't fair.” Noin panted. “I wanted to please you this time.

“You always please me.” Wufei whispered by her ear before he gave it one last lick. “But there is something I have wanted to do since last night and I'm going to do it.” With that said, he moved his lips to her already marked neck.

All Noin could do was moan like a cat in heat as his lips did devilish things now to her shoulders and upper chest. Her mind could only focus on the pleasure. She couldn't even think enough to try and please him as well.

Soon her old faded jeans felt like they were made of itchy wool. She needed them off and she needed them off five minuets ago. “Wufei.” Her voice was raspy, but he stopped what he was doing long enough to look up at her. “We need to take our pants off. Now.”

His answer was to reach for the button of her jeans. One smooth motion and then he was pulling her zipper down. Once Wufei had her pants undone, he laid her back on the bed and then gently pulled them off her long legs.

Wufei just stared as he looked at her in her plane, pink, cotton panties. They were a far cry from the white silk and lilac lace from the night before, but she was still a picture of beauty. Especially with the want and need in her eyes and Wufei knew he was the cure.

When he saw her legs twitch under his heated gaze, he decided it was time to move things along. Wufei stood from the bed and quickly removed his pants and steel blue boxers. He then crawled up her body, making sure that they touched as much as possible.

“Wufei.”

He voice was pleading. Wufei found that that only excited him more to know she was already so far gone. He kissed her briefly on the lips and then fluidly flowed down her body, leaving light kisses and nips in his wake.

Once he reached the waistband of her underwear, that is when he slowed down. He met Noin's fevered gaze as he hooked his fingers under the band and slowly pulled them down. Once they were removed, he settled himself between her legs.

Wufei used his hands to gently message both of her thighs as he leaned down and placed a kiss on her right hip. He slowly moved his kisses towards her hot core as his hand moved up towards the same target.

Noin had thrown her head back when her toes curled and she held tightly to the blanket under her about two kisses ago. Now she could feel his breath on her most intimate spot. It felt like forever before she felt his tongue move over her slowly. She moaned as her back arched off the bed.

She felt his hands move to her hips to hold her down. Noin was not sure if he could. With that talented mouth of his, she was finding herself feeling as if she was floating in space.

With every lick, kiss and nip, Noin knew she was getting closer. She moved one of her hands to his hair to try and let him know this and that she did not want to finish without him, but instead of raising up, he joined a finger to enter her and she was lost on a scream.

Wufei knew that he would enjoy tasting her, but he felt almost drunk.
He removed his finger and saw she was watching him through half laided eyes as he slipped it into his mouth and sucked off all of her essence. Wufei could see that she was still trying to catch her breath, but he was not done yet.

Wufei reached down to his pants, were he had returned the condom from earlier. Once he had it on, he moved back between her legs, but instead of just plunging in, he kissed her stomach and relished the twitching of muscles against his lip and the arch of her back.

“Please. I need you, Wufei.”

It was all he could do not to end things there. Her plea along with the vision she made was enough to break him. Wufei's hands moved to her hips. He pulled her up slightly as he moved forward and moved inside her.

The lovers held their breath and did not move for a few seconds. They just enjoyed being.

Finally, Wufei pulled out slightly and moved back in. As he came forward, he leaned over her so that he could kiss her once again. He also moved both her legs up so that they wrapped around him.

It did not take long before Wufei was moving at a faster and harder pace. She was able to meet him thrust for thrust. He broke their kiss to once again move to her ear.

Noin dug her nails into his shoulders and buried her face into his neck as she screamed once again. She was vaguely aware of him moving within her a few more times before he to let out a low, yet audible moan.

When Noin opened her eyes, all she could focus on were the black orbs she could swear saw into her soul, but then again, she felt as if she was leaving it out for him to see freely. But it was a give and take. Noin was sure she was now seeing a piece of Wufei that he had never aloud her to witness before. At this moment, she never felt more connected to another being, not even Milliardo.

Just then, she saw the look in his eyes change to a more 'Wufei' like look she was use to and felt him shift and move out of her. Noin actually feared loosing the connection they had formed. She did not want to loose it, not yet.

It seemed her fear was for not.

Even as she watched him move to the wastebasket beside her bed to depose of the evidence of their tussle, Noin could still fill him in and around her. She decided quickly that she liked this feeling. She sighed as her nice view was now being blocked as he pulled on his boxers.

“I'll be right back.”

With that, Noin watched him slip out into the hall and pull the door shut behind him. She sighed as she laid on her back with one are draped over her eyes. Something was bothering her about how close she was feeling towards Wufei. She did not want to find out that she only felt this way because he was her first in so long. She also did not want to know that she was wrong in what she saw in his eyes.

This is how Wufei found Noin when he returned. He had went to clean himself and now he planed to help clean her, but it seemed she was so lost in her thoughts that she did not even notice his return.

He smirked as he walked over and dropped the warm, yet wet, washcloth on her naked core. He rather enjoyed her squeal of surprise.

“You jerk.” Noin sat up and glared at Wufei's smirking face. “I think you have spent too much time with Duo over the years. He has rubbed off on you.” She then crossed her arms and turned her head away from him.

“No need for insults.” Wufei said as he sat on the side of the bed and picked up the washcloth and began to wash her thighs. He felt the muscles jump under his touch. Out of the corner of his eye, he saw her arms uncross as she then leaned back on her elbows to watch him as her legs widened to give him better access.

“Thank you.” Noin smiled. “Are you always going to be this thoughtful?”

Wufei did not pause in his smooth motions as he moved to her other thigh. “I'm just cleaning up a mess that I helped make.”

“A little mess never hurt anyone.”

“No,” He then moved to her still sensitive center and felt her jump. “but the cleanup has been known to take casualties.”

Wufei's touch through the cloth became more intimate. He moved his fingers along her as if they were dancing, until he heard a soft moan. They he took one more cleaning swipe and stepped away, washcloth in hand.

Noin was slightly flushed. He had purposely brought on her desire and now he was walking out the door, literally. She assumed he was returning the washcloth to the bathroom to put it with the other dirty towels down the laundry shoot, but something told her he had no intention of finishing what he had started. Then she remembered that she had no protection and was not sure if he had stopped to get more on his way here.

By then her was returning and picking up his clothes. “Are you going to stay in bed all day?”

Smiling, she rolled on her side. “Depends, would I be alone?” Noin learned awhile back that she was spending too much time with Duo.

Instead of answering her, Wufei pulled his pants back on. Noin sighed as she stood from the bed. Message received. They dressed in silence, but Noin would glance his way occasionally ans she was sure she felt him looking her way as well.

Since she had slept all night in the clothes she had on earlier, Noin now wore a clean dark red t-shirt and light gray, tight-fitting jeans. She placed the dirty clothes in her hamper. She then walked over to Wufei and kissed him on the cheek.

“Thanks for dessert, but I need real food now.”

She then walked into the hall with Wufei close behind. When they reached the kitchen they found Duo pushing around the food on his plate. He looked up and the frown on the braided man's face became as bright as Deathscythe's beam scythe.

“Well hello. Did you two kiss and make up?”

“That's none of your business, Maxwell.”

Duo pouted. “Oh, come on, Fei.” He whined. “I heard screams. Did you guys let out all your frustration and are now going to get married and live happily ever after?”

Noin stiffened with her head buried in the refrigerator. Were they that loud? He had heard them? Married?

“There has been no talk of marriage.”

Noin relaxed at this honest answer from Wufei. She then decided on a couple pepperoni rolls left over from Sunday. She had actually learned to make them from Duo's friend Howard. She walked over to put them into the toaster oven to heat them up.

“I guess you can argue that it's a little early for marriage talk, but can I at least tell everyone that it's true that you and Noin are a couple now?”

Noin could see the mischievousness in his eyes as she joined him at the table. “Behave, Duo.”

Duo looked at Wufei, who had moved to lean against the counter, directly across from Noin, with his arms crossed. He then looked slyly back to the blue eyed beauty who was raising the pepperoni roll to her mouth.

“I'm behaving. It's not like I'm screaming in ecstasy for all to hear.”

Noin had just been swallowing her bite when he finished talking. Duo did not expect her to actually start to chock. “I'm sorry.” He was patting her back as she finally coughed up the piece of bread that had caught in her throat.

Even through to Duo it felt like this all took hours, it had happened in a matter of seconds. Just long enough for Wufei to run over and smack his hand away and glare at him.

“You have done enough.”

Duo bowed his head and walked away to his room.