Insanity

Insanity


Insanity
By Black Komagoro


Chapter 8


The days after the incident were very busy; Quatre had taken
Relena with him and she was now in one of his houses. When Heero
hit her he used so much strength that Relena had some broken ribs
and her shoulder was dislocated, but the real reason of why
Quatre had her there was because she was under house arrest and
with a psychiatrist. They decided that she needed therapy and
Quatre told them he would take care of it.

Wufei had gone with Treize and Zechs; he thought that it was
important that Zechs knew all what had happened, besides he
wanted to talk with both of them about the war too. For him and
all the pilots Relena was unable to be the head of the Sanc
Kingdom and they couldnet tet the most important symbol of peace
fell like that; it was of extremely importance to keep Sanc as
the head of the peace negotiations.

But with Duo and Heero things were far from normal. One would
think that since Relena didn't cut the braid and all that he
dreamed didn't really happen, then Duo would be ok and back to
his normal self, but for Heero's and all of them surprise Duo
didn't get well. When Heero found Relena and stopped her from
cutting the braid Duo just cried. He embraced Heero and just kept
crying for hours, and he never said a word; he didn't want to
sleep either. Trowa had tried everything, even tried with
hypnosis but nothing worked, after a week and a half of no
sleeping at all, Duo fell unconscious and then entered in a
comatose state.

He was in one of Quatre's states and under the excellent care of
his personal doctor. The hospital was the Winner Private
Hospital, it wasn't a big place since it was just for the family
members; it had the most advanced technology, but not even that
could make Duo wake up. Duo had been in a coma for a week now and
Heero hadn't left his side, he wrote to Dr. J about what had
happened and that he wouldn't be doing any missions. His place
was beside his koi, and this time he wouldn't fail him.

* * *
~At the WPH~

"Duo... I know you can hear me. Please wake up, we miss you...
I miss you so much"

Heero was in small chair at the side
of the bed; the nurses had brought a second bed to the room so he
could sleep there. It had taken three nurses with broken ribs and
noses to understand that he wasn't going to leave Duo alone. He
had one of the braided boy hands in his and kept repeating his
mantra, 'Duo please wake up'. Trowa entered the room with
a vase with flowers; he remembered once hearing Duo talk about
how much he liked flowers, specially those rare violet roses that
had been created not long time ago. That was exactly what he
brought him.

"Heero..."

Heero looked at him and he bags under his eyes were clear
evidence of lack of sleep and too much coffee. Trowa was really
worried, it was enough with Duo. He didn't want Heero to get sick
too.

"There's no change Trowa... Nothing at all. I just... I just
can't understand"

Trowa set the vase with violet roses in the small table next to
the bed and sat at the other side of the bed.

"The human mind has very estrange ways to work. Duo suffered
a shock of some sort; I don't know if seeing Relena with the
scissors in her hand was the reason or not, but his mind was
trying to protect him of something"

"What if he never wakes up?"

"I don't know, but I have faith in him... You know better
than anyone else that he's one of the strongest people we've ever
known"

Heero smiled. Trowa was right, his Duo wouldn't leave without
fighting, but what bothered him was that he couldn't help him. He
couldn't get inside Duo's mind so this was a battle he had to
fight by himself.

"You will win Duo, and when you finally come back to us
we'll be waiting here to welcome you back. I'll be here to greet
you... so please defeat your inner enemy and wake up. Never
forget that you're Shinigami, you're supposed to be
indestructible"

The pain in his voice affected Trowa a whole lot; would he been
able to stay that calm and centered if Quatre were in Duo's
place? He preferred to think that he would, for Quatre, but the
truth was that he doubted it. Quatre was his center, he
stabilized him. But the one in the bed wasn't Quatre; the one on
the bed was the pillar of the team, it was what maintained the
five pilots together and with it the hopes for peace.

"Wufei is still with Zechs and Treize. He hasn't called, but
there hasn't been any movements of any OZ troops either"

Trowa hoped that at least this would distract Heero for a moment;
the Wing pilot needed to clear his mind even if it was just for a
while.

"Dr. J told me that Wufei sent them the gundams with Howard,
he said they would make some changes to them. I don't know if
that's really necessary"

And obviously it worked, but Heero didn't seem optimistic. He
understood him; his reason to fight was lying in a bed without
any sign of waking up soon.

"The last I heard was that Tubarov was trying to take over
OZ. That man is crazy and it's better to be prepared"

* * *

~In an Oz base~

Wufei was sleeping on Treize's bed; all what had happened left
him really tired and he hadn't had a decent sleep in weeks.
Treize and Zechs were in the other room and were talking about
the chance of stopping the war once and for all.

"So, what do you think?"

"My sister doesn't fit for the charge... I don't have any
other choice. Wufei's idea isn't impossible, but Tubarov had been
producing the mobile dolls non stop. He's decided to defeat and
destroy the colonies and Duke Dermail is giving him all the
monetary support he needs"

"Those things only diminish the value of true soldiers, but
they are powerful and we'll need all the help we can get. If
Tubarov send the mobile dolls against the colonies the chance of
the first Operation Meteor happening will be too real"

Treize's face reflected all his worry, and he had more than one
reason to be so scared. If only one colony fell to the earth it
would be the end for all of them. The problem was that their most
powerful forces were now lacking two members; without Heero and
Duo to lead the attack it would be pretty difficult to win.

They heard a noise from the other room; they looked at each other
and then hurried to see what had happened to their koi. Wufei had
woken up and in his attempt to reach for the clock he had hit a
glass of water that was next to it; he raised his head to look at
the both men who had entered the room so fast. He noticed the
worried look on their faces and smiled apologetically.

"I'm sorry, I knocked off the
glass accidentally"

Treize walked to the bed and took the glass on the floor to leave
it again in the small table, and Zechs had gone for some towels
to dry the water on the carpet. The Oz general placed a hand over
Wufei's head and caressed the soft black hair; the chinese pilot
sat on the bed and rested his head on Treize's shoulder.

"What are we going to do?"

Treize embraced him and answered softly.

"I don't know dragon... I really don't know"

Zechs placed the towels over the wet spot on the carpet and sat
down at the other side of Wufei; he had his head down and his
hands rested on his lap, the Tallgese pilot was as lost as the
other two.

"We need all the five gundams active; you are our strongest
line of defense and attack, but with Duo in coma and Heero not
wanting to leave his side leaves us weak"

Wufei shook his head trying to clear his mind to think straight.

"There have to be a way to make him wake up... What no one
understands is WHY he's in that state. What could have triggered
that kind of reaction; it just doesn't make any sense!"

"Calm down dragon please... You'll end ill if you keep
stressing yourself like this"

"He's right Wufei, tiring yourself like this won't be of any
help"

Wufei sighed; he knew they were right, but his friend was in a
bed without any sing of soon recovering and without any medical
reason to actually be in that state.

"Wufei, we have been thinking about what you told us and we
agree with you. If Zechs take the charge of the Sanc kingdom
there's a huge possibility to end the war, but Tubarov had been
working full time with the mobile dolls. He can start an attack
anytime soon"

"And we need to be prepared to fight... I know. The
scientists told me they had almost finished the changes on the
gundams; they told me about adding Zero System to the other four
gundams"

"But as far as I know all of you had been already under that
system"

"No, I never piloted Wing Zero
and after knowing what it did to Winner I really don't want to
the take the risk"

"Oh, I see. Did you tell them that?"

Wufei reached for one of Zechs hands and turned his head to him.

"Yes, but they said I would be able to control it. They're
installing it anyway... I just-"

"Shhh... Don't worry dragon, I know you will. You're strong
en to to let something like that control you"

But even when he trusted in his dragon he still felt afraid, the
scientists weren't the only ones who had the program; he had
managed to get the system himself and he installed it on Epyon.
He knew perfectly well what that system could do; he had given
the MS to Heero, but he gave it to Zechs whom took it back to his
original owner. Epyon was now hidden and they never had planned
about using it, now they had the feeling they would have to use
it again.

* * *
~At Quatre's mansion~

Quatre was in his study, checking his mails and trying to figure
out how they would help Duo. He had gone to see Relena some hours
ago and the doctor told him she would need to be under medication.
She had been experiencing hysteric episodes and from time to time
she would start screaming Heero's name and saying that he would
come to save her and kill them all. She seemed to be living
inside her own world, a world where Heero loved her and Duo was
dead. They feared what would happen when she snapped out of her
self-induced dream.

Quatre's mail beeped in signal that he had a new e-mail from
Trowa.

"Please Allah, let those be good news"

He opened the mail and he knew Allah wasn't hearing him; Trowa
said that Duo had stopped breathing twice and that he now was
with life support machines. It seemed as if he actually wanted to
die, and Heero wasn't helping. In his rage and desperation he had
hurt himself and was now on the operation room while the doctors
tried to take two large pieces of metal from his leg and shoulder.
Trowa didn't explain all the episode, but for what he understood
Heero was shoved out of the room when the doctors were trying to
help Duo and since the plot hadn't get a good night of sleep his
reflexes weren't that good. He tried to get inside the room by
the window, but had lost his balance and landed over a small
construction at that side of the building. Two pieces of metal
went through his right leg and left shoulder. He had lost a good
amount of blood.

"God Heero, you couldn't have chosen a better moment to be
an idiot"

He wrote Trowa back telling him that he would be there as soon as
he could, and that he better tell the doctors to not separate
those two under any circumstance. He sent the mail and turned off
his laptop; he pinched the bridge of his nose with his thumb and
index finger and sighed. He stood up from the chair and gathered
all the files he had over the desk, took the laptop and left the
office to make his trip to the hospital.

* * *

~Oz base~

Lady Une knocked softly on the door and waited, when no one
answered her she opened the door and entered the office. She
noticed that the door of the room was closed, but even when she
respected Treize's privacy this was important. She knocked softly
again.

"Who is it?"

"Lady Une sir"

"Wait for me at the desk I'll be there in a minute"

"Yes sir"

Treize looked at Zechs and he took the now sleeping Wufei in his
arms and made him rest his head on his chest; Treize stoop up
carefully and fixed his clothes to then leave the room. Once in
his office he noticed that Lady Une hasn't take seat and was
pacing worriedly from one side to the other.

"Lady Une?"

She turned to him and he saw not only worry but fear too.

"Sir, I'm sorry to bring you bad news but I got a report
from space... Tubarov decided to attack the colonies and they
gave an ultimatum to earth... White Fang will throw the Libra to
earth once is finished"

"Damn fucking bastards"

It was a well-known fact that Treize Kushrenada never cursed, but
given the circumstances no one would have objected his choose of
words.

"The leader is called Quinze and even when he says he's the
voice of the colonies I know there's some colonies which won't
follow him. Sir, the Libra is almost complete and even if the
colonists weren't supporting him I think he would throw that
thing into earth anyway. I know we don't have any right to ask
them, but they may be our last hope to save earth"

Treize motioned her to sit down and he for the first time didn't
seat behind his desk; he sat down in the chair next to hers and
took one of her hands.

"Lady Une, the gundam pilots can't fight right now. I can't
tell you why, but what I can tell you is that they want to stop
this as much as we do. Please, go and tell our troops to be ready
to go out to space as soon as possible"

"Yes sir"

She stood up letting go of his hand and went to the door, then
she stopped and turned to him.

"And sir..."

"Yes Lady?"

"Tell him I wish him and his friends all the luck they can
have, that I respect them and I hope they can win their battle"

Treize looked at her with wide eyes, did she know about what had
happened? About why they weren't able to do anything for the
moment? But how?

"Sir... as I told you some time ago you should have more
trust on my abilities and intelligence. I may respect your
decisions but I will always see for your well being and if that
means to protect our enemy, then I will too"

She bowed in respect and then left the room; Treize shook his
head, leave it to Lady Une to know everything about him. He stood
up and walked back to his room.

"What happened?"

"I'll tell you when he wakes up. He really needs to rest...
We all will have the hardest of our fights soon"

With that Treize took off his shoes and jacket and laid next to
his lovers.

* * *

~A place unkown to all except one
person~

He didn't want to see that again. He had been watching it over
and over again, and it didn't seem like stopping anytime soon.
The scene started just when he made the first cut and ended when
the head fell to the bloody carpet; he saw each cut clearly,
heard each scream and saw how the blood shed from the wounds. He
could feel the pain and grief of the people there, the hurt of
the one he loved, and his own pain for losing his memories and
his past.

He thought that this place would be dark, but instead he saw
everything as if he were in a movie. He didn't understand. Had he
done this for real or it had been just a dream? Did he die? Did
he really lost his braid and became Shinigami? And the most
important, did he lost Heero forever?

The sequence was ending; he saw whom was supposed to be himself
cutting Relena's head and this one falling to the floor, and then
it was starting again. He wanted to scream to stop; he wanted to
close his eyes and avoid looking at it again, but he couldn't. He
had closed himself in that place and he didn't know how to get
out. From time to time he would heard his voice, or at least he
thought he heard it, because he hadn't heard it since a long time
now.

And that made him get even more depressed.

What he didn't know was that he had a chance to leave that place,
but in his current state he wasn't ting ing right. It was then
that he heard a voice again, but it wasn't the voice he wanted to
hear.

"Duo, please wake up. Heero needs you, and he can't talk to
you right now"

He couldn't understand what they were saying; he recognized the
voice but not what he was saying. He noticed the desperation in
Quatre's voice, and even when he wanted to ask him what did he
say his body just didn't want to work. His voice didn't come out
and his couldn't move his arms or legs.

'Where the fucking hell am I?!'

He had been asking himself that for a long time now and he always
ended with the same answer... nothing. The ones he saw in the 'screen'
wouldn't answer him and the ones talking to him wouldn't talk
clear. Again he thought about the reason of why he was there; he
had almost convinced himself that he was being punished for his
crime. Maybe he actually did it and this was the price he had to
pay.

'Maybe... maybe I died and this is hell?'

'*Stop saying bullshit! You're not dead*'

'Who?!'

'*Soldier boy is right, you're a real baka sometimes*'

It was then that he noticed it; the image had stopped as if
someone had pushed the pause button and the one who was supposed
to be him turned his head towards him.

* * *

~In a room at Quatre's mansion~

"Heero will come and
kill you all! He'll save me! Because he loves me too much to let
you bastards keep me in here!"

Once again Relena was under one of her episodes; the doctor and
some nurses had come to check on her and they had found her awake
and trying to set free from her restraint. The doctor had seen
himself in the necessity to strap her to the bed, and they had to
tie her good arm and her feet to the bars. Or she would end
hurting herself even more.

"You are just a bunch of psychos!! Let me go or he will kill
you all! Heeeeroooo!!! Help me!!"

Four nurses were trying to make her stop moving so the doctor
could inject her the sedatives. He checked the syringe and then
cleaned the inside part of her elbow; he used one hand to help
the nurse to get the arm still and then injected her. They
released her and she started to writhe again, but after some
minutes she started to relax until she fell asleep once again.

"I feel pity for her Dr. Crawford"

The man shook his head; he felt bad for her too.

"I know, but there's not much we can do"

They left the secured room. It didn't depend of them really; she
was the one who had to do the hard work if she wanted to get
well, but it was obvious that she wasn't aware of her illness,

* * *
~At the WPH~

Trowa and Quatre were now resting in a couch in the room
were Heero and Duo rested. Since he owned the place he could do
whatever he wanted and so he asked the nurses to put a couch. He
had installed two phone terminals so he could have his and
Heero's laptops always turned on. Just in case the doctors or
Wufei needed to communicate with them.

"Even in that state Duo is in great pain... I can feel it"

"And Heero is not that much better"

"I know. How did this happen? When did things go so bad?"

"I don't know little one... I just hope for both of them to
get well as soon as they can"

Quatre pressed himself harder into Trowa's arms; they couldn't do
anything now, just wait and see if something happened. He had
been just starting to fell asleep when Heero's laptop beeped; hes gos going to stand up but Trowa made him stay on the couch and he
went to read the new mail.

"It's from Wufei; he's coming back, but he's not coming
alone"

"Is Zechs coming with him?"

"And Treize too. It seems that things just got worse"

Quatre frowned.

"Great... just when I thought things couldn't get worse,
they actualy did"

Trowa didn't even bother to close the mail; he just walked back
to the couch and sat down. He took Quatre in his arms and lay
down; they better rest now because he had the feeling that hey
wouldn't be doing it again any time soon.

* * *

~Back into Duo's mind~

'What the hell!?!'

The one in front of him was, well himself, but his hair was short
and black and his eyes were blood red. He could see the black and
sharp nails contrast against the extremely pale skin.

'*You should stop asking that... I already told you we're not
in hell*'

Duo narrowed his eyes and he noticed he now was able to move.

'Who are you?'

'*You should know, you have been telling everyone who I am*'


Duo arched an eyebrow and then he understood.

'Shinigami'

~tbc~

Well, I know this is getting kind of confusing, but I
said it was TWT and I changed a lot of the original time line as
you already could see. So please bear with me if there are some
mistakes; it's difficult to change the time line without getting
kind of confused ^^!

Silverflamekitten
- Well, here's another chapter, I hope you enjoyed it!
Thanks for your support ^^

Timber Wolf
- Thank you! I'm very glad you liked till here, for
me doing that part was quite difficult, I didn't want it to be
another it_was_just_a_dream fic. I hope you like the nexts
chapters too. You'll know what it was on the next chapter, I
never give spoilers ^.~ I know... I'm evil and I like it!

Aria
- Ah well, you see... I'm a half demon, half
saiyajin... being cruel is part of my nature and I really enjoy
it! ^^V
- I hope this chapter was of your pleasure, since you know what
happened to Reena more or less. She won't be mentioned in the
next chapter but I haven forgot of her and her not finished
bashing, so don't worry.
- I'm not thinking of givng up on this fic but after the next
chapter my updates will take more time between them. I still have
to go to classes and study TT So I don't have as much time as I
would like to have, all thois chapters were ready since a long
time ago because I was posting this fic in a ML.
- Well, telling you what will happen would be a spoiler and I
already said I never give spoilers... I know, I know... I'm mean,
but as I said... I love it!! ^_^