Insanity

Insanity
By Black Komagoro

Chapter 9

The god looked at his human counterpart and smiled. Duo couldn\'t quite believe what he was seeing, and the fact that the damn dream had been repeating again and again didn\'t help much either. Did this mean that the dream wasn\'t a dream and it really happened?

\'Did... did this actually-\'

\'*It did... but not how you think it did*\'

\'Now I\'m confused\'

\'*I\'m not surprised*\'

Duo narrowed his eyes.

\'Shouldn\'t you be at my side? Maybe all this time Hee Heero damaged you\'

Shinigami actually sweatdropped.

\'*Baka-*\'

\'Yep! That\'s Heero\'s influence\'

He didn\'t know why, but he felt very calm being in his other half presence. Shinigami rolled his eyes and shook his head; he actually liked Duo, the boy had given him another point of view about being Shinigami, even if said boy didn\'t know he actually was Shinigami.

\'So... Are you going to explain me?\'

\'*Indeed*\'

The place changed and now they were in the hospital room; Duo could see his own body lying on the bed and next to his was Heero, bandaged and sleeping. On the couch he saw Trowa embracing an obviously disturbed Quatre, both were looking at Duo\'s bed and time to time they wold look towards Heero. Duo frowned.

\'What happened to Heero?\'

\'*As your friend Quatre said, he was an idiot*\'

\'Hey! That\'s my lover you\'re talking about\'

\'*So? He still did something stupid*\'

\'Ok, ok... I got it, now explain\'

\'*I\'m trying to. Now please shut up and listen; Heero had been all this time next to you, and when the doctors made him leave the room he tried to get it through the window. As you can see he couldn\'t make it*\'

\'Mission failed\'

\'*Indeed*\'

Duo sighed.

\'Heero no baka... Anyway, at least he\'s ok... he\'s ok, right?\'


\'*Yes, but he\'s weak. It was not a soft fall*\'

Duo fell silent and shook his head. He looked once more time toward Heero and then turned his eyes towards Shinigami, there was something about him that intrigued Duo and he wanted to know
what was that.

\'There\'s something I want to know\'

Shinigami looked at him and nodded.

\'*What is it?*\'

\'Well, I noticed that there\'s a big difference between you and the Shinigami from my dream... Why?\'

\'*That wasn\'t a dream Duo, it was a vision... You could see the future that would have happened if you had lost your braid at Relena\'s hands. The result of that action would have turned me into what you saw*\'

\'Oh... wow. Then everything I heard was true? All of what my friends and Heero said was true?\'

\'*Yes it is... Why it surprise you so much?*\'

Duo lowered his eyes.

\'Well I... I didn\'t know I meant so much to them. I mean, even Zechs turned against his sister because of me!\'

\'*You underestimate your own value Duo. Don\'t take it wrong, but you really are unaware of your own importance*\' (*)

\'What do you mean?\'

\'*You\'ll have to find that by yourself. There\'s no point on it if I tell it to you*\'

Duo thought about it, but the only importance he gave himself was the fact that he was a gundam pilot and that he was fighting for the peace between the earth and the colonies. And so he expressed
it.

\'My only value is as the pilot of Deathscythe Hell\'

\'*In part... but there\'s much more than just that. The moment you get that you\'ll finally wake up*\'

Duo opened his eyes in shock.

\'But I can\'t stay here!! I have to go there and fight a war!\'

\'*I\'m sorry Duo, but you have no other option*\'

Shinigami left without saying another word and the dream started to play again. Duo felt as if he were in a cinema again, but he definitely didn\'t like the movie.

\'No please... not again!\'

* * *

Quatre stood up when he heard the knock on the door, slowly he walked towards it and opened what he thought was a too heavy piece of wood, he really was tired. He raised his eyes just to find himself almost face to face with non other than Treize Kushrenada, top head of the Oz organization.

"Oh... You\'ve finally arrived... good"

The blonde Arabian stood aside to let the tall man enter the room, being closely followed by Zechs and Wufei. The Chinese boy looked at his friend and frowned.

"You look too tired, you should sleep more"

Quatre shook his head.

"I know, but Trowa is even more tired than I am so I decided to let him sleep and I would look after them"

He said pointing towards Heero and Duo.

"I see, but thatthat we\'re here you can go to sleep; you won\'t be of any help if you\'re tired. Now go to sleep and we\'ll talk when you have rested enough, ok?"

Quatre just nodded and went back to the couch were his lover was sound asleep, carefully he sat down and rested his head over Trowa\'s legs, the Heavyarms pilot had his head resting over a pillow a nurse had given him before and his hands were lying at his sides. When he felt the weight over his tights he instinctively moved his hands to rest them over Quatre\'s head and continued sleeping; Quatre followed almost instantly.

"What are we going to do now?"

Treize asked his Chinese lover, Wufei looked at him and shook his head.

"Nothing, except watching them. We need them fully awake and with their mind clear"

"I see"

Zechs was looking over the window and Treize sat down on the chair that was next to Duo\'s bed; he looked at the boy intrigued.

\'What could have been so traumatizing to leave you like this?\'

* * *

"...He was trying to SAVE YOU! And this is how you pay him?! Destroying the most beautiful soul I\'ve ever had the pleasure to meet?!"

Duo had stopped trying not to hear and see the scene developing in front of him, instead he decided to try and see if he could find what Shinigami told him to find... His own position and value.

"...you took the most important thing away from me. You destroyed Duo the exact moment you cut his hair, and with it you destroyed my life. Duo was like the elixir of life for all of us, he reminded us that besides of being gundam pilots we were humans too"

\'Could that be true? Do I really mean so much?\'

"...If you had taken just a minute to get to know him you wouldn\'t have done this!! He\'s the most amazing person I\'ve ever known! He went through awful times; he survived things you wouldn\'t even stand to see!! He\'s an assassin and a terrorist!! But he\'s also someone with a heart of gold! Even when he had a horrible choodhood he was always so alive!!"

Duo shook his head, it wasn\'t that he lowered himself but he didn\'t thought that high of himself either. After all he had killed too many people and it was his fault that his friends and the ones he considered his parents died in L2.

"But what would you know about living in the streets, having to steal to feed yourself. Not knowing if you\'ll survive another night sleeping in a dirty street with the cold asphalt as your bed. Having to sell yourself to at least get some money, so time to time you could get some dirty clothes"

\'How does he know about that?! I never told him about my life as a whore!\'

"You don\'t know what is it, when you have finally find a place you could almost call a home, to see how it was burned up to ashes and not being able to help the ones you once called you family. You don\'t know what is to see how the person you came to call a mother, die in your own arms. He lived all of that and even more worst things, and still was showing us a smile, comforting us when things seemed too hard to bear..."

Duo didn\'t understand; he knew he had told Heero about some parts of his life, but he had never talked about the darker parts. Heero only knew that he had to steal his food and that later he had been found by father Maxwell, but nothing about what happened next.

"...You killed the only light in my life!! He was the only one who kept me going on, he was my reason to keep living. He made me forget there was a self-destruct button in my gundam!!... Love him so much that if he never wakes up I\'ll kill myself just to be with him!!"

Duo was crying now and he thought he understood what Shinigami had said; he was more important for Heero than he had thought. Maybe that was his value, to keep the perfect soldier alive and human. He didn\'t know there was much more.

"...thing Solo left me, he told me to keep my hair long and I did as a way to never forget him; I did it in his memory"

\'Solo...\'

Duo kept watching how he hurt Relena physically and mentally and how he finally took her life in the name of Heero\'s lost happiness. When the scene ended it all started once again, but he for once wasn\'t paying attention to it. His mind was now years in the past, with Solo and the gang he used to tag along with and then the scene changed. His memories were sho him him things form the past, things he didn\'t want to remember.

The boy next to him was dying, he couldn\'t do anything and he hated himself for being the only one who didn\'t get sick. He couldn\'t understand why, and really didn\'t care... the only thing he cared was that his best friend was dying and he couldn\'t do anything. The moment Solo died the scene vanished and another appeared; he didn\'t remember it, and it was kind of estrange because he knew he had an exely ely good memory.

"Solo... why did you save him? You could have used that vaccine in yourself..."

Solo looked at the other boy and smiled.

"Because I have this feeling that he has an extremely important thing to do later... He will change a lot of people\'s life, for good. That boy will have an important place in the future of the colonies and earth..."

\'He gave his life for me?!\'

Duo couldn\'t believe what he was hearing; his best friend and the person he admired the most had refused the chance to be cured and keep living, for him a street rat.

"What if you\'re wrong?"

"I\'m not wrong... that kid has something special that told me to keep him safe"

"You love him, don\'t you?"

Solo nodded.

"Yes... he captivated me. He\'s so pure I couldn\'t help it"

Duo was crying, he wanted to get inside the image and tell Solo he had loved him too.

\'Solo you idiot... you should have told me, at least you wouldn\'t have died with that pain in your heart...\'

Duo kept watching the different scenes from his past; he saw when he arrived at Maxwell Church with the father, how sister Helen had tried to cut his hair and failed, finally having to braid it. Duo smiled at that memory.

Then he saw how those men attacked the church and he offered to find an MS in exchange of the others life. And how he found the church completely destroyed when he came back, how Sister Helen
died in his arms and how he promised that Shinigami would have his revenge.

\'And he got it...\'

And once again he saw something he was sure he had never lived.

"Father... what do you think of little Duo?"

The old man smiled happily.

"He\'s a soul like I have never seen before. Even when he lived rough times his soul kept its pureness... He\'ll be an amazingly important part of our future and the future of all the people in earth and the colonies..."

Sister Helen agreed with him.

"I understand what you mean, I have this feeling that he\'ll leave his mark in the hearts of a lot people, the same way he did with ours. That boy will make those close to himpierpier thaey
ey
never were before"

Father Maxwell nodded and stood up, and it was then that the image faded and was changed for other one. Once again it was one he couldn\'t remember; he could recognize the place as one of Oz
cells, inside there were Heero and Trowa.

"You already miss him don\'t you?"

The only thing Trowa got was a small nod and a hn for an answer.

"I don\'t know what it is about him, but every time he\'s with us the ton don disappears..."

"Hn... I know"

Trowa shook his head; he wasn\'t a good talker but even him couldn\'t stand being in silence for that long, but it seemed that Heero actually could.

"He\'ll make it, won\'t he?"

For once Heero smiled and actually answered.

"He will... I trust in him and he won\'t let them win... Duo\'s a lot stronger than he let people see"

Trowa nodded.

"He made something to you, didn\'t he?"

There was a tiny smirk in Trowa\'s lips and he saw how Heero\'s eyes shone for a second.

"Yes he did... And I\'ll be forever grateful with him for that"

The scene once again faded and Duo found himself utterly surprised; it really touched him when he heard Heero in his dream, but he knew this actually happened, he had talked with Trowa and for Heero to open himself like that was something. He couldn\'t recognize the next place, it was a space ship maybe the Peacemillion, but he wasn\'t really sure. He could see Quatre and Wufei, they were looking through a window from where they could see the beautiful image of the earth sphere.

"Beautiful, isn\'t it Wufei?"

Thenesenese pilot nodded.

"I remember once Duo told me that if he survived the war, he wanted to live in earth and that he wanted to travel all around the world. He had never seen the sea before he came to earth, his
colony is really poor and they couldn\'t have things like artificial beaches... He told me that the most closer he had been of something green had been a really pathetic christmas tree he had stolen from a shop"

Wufei didn\'t say anything, he had lived in a place that was surrounded by trees; he even had a field of flowers were he liked to go to read. He appreciated that, but couldn\'t imagine how it felt for Duo when he had gone to earth. Right then he learned to value what he once had more than he had ever done.

"Duo\'s amazing... Even without knowing he had taught me so much..."

"I know what you mean... Maxwell didn\'t have all the commodities we had, so he values all the things he has more than we do. He can be loud and act like a child sometimes... ok most of the time, but I must admit he\'s an incredibly especial being"

Quatre turned to look at his friend.

"I respect him Winner, even when I don\'t say it"

Quatre smiled pleased.

"I know Wufei... I feel there\'s something really special about him; I don\'t know what it is, but my heart is telling me. No matter what we must stay close to him when this war comes to an end"

Wufei smiled, he knew what Quatre was trying to say.

"Maxwell is the one who keep us all together... I know"

The scene faded and he kept like floating in a black space, thinking about what he had seen.

\'Am I really THAT important? Did I really change so many people?\'

Duo didn\'t know what to think, but he knew he had to resolve it soon; or there wouldn\'t be a tomorrow.

\'Is this what Shinigami meant?\'

He then saw that another scene appeared in front of him. He was watching one of his memories about the time when he was trying to help Heero. He saw himself on the floor, unconscious and with a black eye and surely with a lot of bruises in his body, but he smiled because he knew he was doing something. It was then when he saw Heero knelt down to lift hiconsconscious body from the
floor and take it to their shared room.

The Wing pilot gently lowered Duo on the bed and started to check him to see if there was something broken or bleeding too much.

Duo was shocked he thought it had been Trowa or Wufei the one that had brought him to his bed that time. He saw the way Heero looked at him with an expression of worry and anger; the perfect
soldier had looked after him until he was sure Duo was ok. When he felt the boy had recovered and was sleeping peacefully he left the room. The \'camera\' was following Heero and he saw how the boy
left the room and went back to the living room of the safe house to work on his report.

He saw the screen and his eyes widened; Heero wasn\'t writing his report to Dr. J he was writing what he thought it was the pilot\'s journal and right now he was writing about Duo.

//April 16th 195 AC

Once again Duo tried to make me talk and failed, this time I hit him er ter than the other times. I don\'t know what\'s happening to me, but every time he tries to make me do something I feel strange, and I don\'t like that. I can\'t feel anything, that\'s a nuisance and I can\'t have weak point that could be used by the enemy.

I should ask Dr. J to be re-trained, but I want to try to deal with this by myself. I want to kill him but he\'s a good pilot and an expert in stealth and with all kind of explosives, I need that expertise for missions. He had been making me feel needs I never had before, and I don\'t know if I should act over those needs or not.

Trowa and Wufei went to a mission in the sea; if they succeed we may finish the war sooner.

Wing needs to be re-calibrated and Deathcsythe must be repaired, the extension of the damage is not large but it is important no less. Quatre fixed the difference of weight of the right arm of Sandrock, but it still need to be tested.//

Duo smiled; he now wanted to wake up more than ever. He too had a journal and now he wanted to talk about it with Heero, he wanted him to know everything about him and he hoped Heero would let him read his. The scene changed but once again he saw Heero in front of his laptop and like before he read over the boy\'s shoulder; he knew that was wrong but if Shinigami, because he knew it had to
be Shinigami\'s doing, was showing him then it was important.

//July 27th 195 AC

I finally accepted it, I love him, or at least that\'s what I think this is. I\'ve never worried so much for someone else; Duo told me he loved me and that even if I didn\'t love him back he would always be there for me. That boy is amazing; he had changed all of us. I would say that he\'s like the pillar of the group, he keeps us together and makes our lives a little less heavy to bear with.

I discovered that Wufei had been visiting Zechs Merquise and Treize Kushrenada and I\'m sure that some months ago I would have killed him for high treason, but now I can\'t. Besides, I know him and he\'s a man of honor, I respect him and know he won\'t betray us. All this was thanks to Duo, he made us know each other and I have this feeling that he saved all of us from killing each other.

Another thing I learned is that he can be a really jealous person and I learned that I\'m not the only one who can\'t stand Relena. She had been following us for a long time now and every time she had been putting us in more danger than we had ever been before. I must find a way to get rid of her without killing her, and I fin find it fast.

Dr. J wrote me back about the issue of being re-trained; he rejected my request. Told me it was normal and that it was better because I wouldn\'t have any problem sending him to missions, and he was right. Duo and I talked about that and both agreed that we wouldn\'t decline any mission or fail one to try and save the other. We both know that the war must be stopped, no matter the sacrifices. Anyway, even if I still send him to missions I still get too worried for my own good. I should talk to him again, he\'ll know what to do.//

Now Duo was understanding more and more about what his other side had told him. He now was used to the change between visions and by the way things were going he probably would see another
entrance of Heero\'s diary, and he wasn\'t wrong. Once again he was reading behind Heero\'s shoulder.

//October 27th 195AC

I can\'t believe what that fucking bitch tried to do. If it weren\'t for Duo I would have never done what I did; my mission was much later that same day, but I had a feeling that something really bad would happen so I lied to him, yes I lied to him... he\'ll never forgive me that one. I left at 3:00 a.m. when I should have gone at 6:30 a.m. I wouldn\'t warn him because then he wouldn\'t sleep and he needed it.

I left the room and when I was leaving the dorms I saw her; she didn\'t see me and I was glad for that. I walked as if nothing happened and disappeared behind a wall, and as I expected she didn\'t move until she was sure I had gone for sure. After 15 minutes she started to walk towards the entrance of the dorms and I followed her from close but far enough so I wouldn\'t be seen.

I saw her opening the door of the room slowly and then closed it softly; I had to admit she had some brains to actually getting this far without Duo noticing it, but in other hand Duo wouldn\'t wake up unless she was as loud as an Oz attack. We had made love and he\'s a heavy sleeper after sex, leave it to Duo to have those kind flaws, even if I find it cute. Thank God he would never read this.

I rapidly entered the room just to see her taking a pair of scissors and ing ing towards the bed. I didn\'t waste time and took my gun to press it against her nape, she stood there paralyzed and her hands trembling. It was then that Duo woke up screaming; I really don\'t know what he was dreaming about but he was looking for his braid and when he found it and sighed in relief he noticed the scissors and then Relena. He called her and it was then that he noticed me pointing my gun at her.

I told her to drop the scissors and then hit her, and even before she could say a thing I gagged her. Duo was extremely afraid and even when I wanted to ask him what he had been dreaming about I couldn\'t, because he embraced me and started to cry.

Duo fell into a coma and it had been a week now, I can see how the group is starting to brake down. Quatre took Relena with him to put her under house arrest and under a psychiatrist; I really don\'t care what will happen to her. Trowa is here with me and I know he thinks I\'ll lose it soon too. Maybe he\'s not that wrong.

Wufei left to talk with Zechs and Treize, he may have a solution for all this and we maybe can finish this damned war. I don\'t know what to do, he was the one who kept us all together and now that he\'s not here anymore not even Quatre can help. I need him more than ever and without him we will never make it.

In his own crazy way Duo took the best of each one of us and mixed it so perfectly well that we worked as if we were just one person. I don\'t want to think of what will happen if he doesn\'t
wake up soon.

Please Duo wake up and keep doing your practical jokes, you don\'t know how much I miss them. How much I miss your smile and the sound of your voice. I know that even Wufei must be missing it,
if I \'m not wrong he\'ll be back here soon and maybe even Treize will be with him. I know you\'re dying to make one of your best practical jokes on him.

Please come back to me.//

Duo understood, those last words made him understand.

\'My place here is to keep them going on; I\'m important because I\'m the link between all of them. My value resides in my carefree nature, because it makes them remember that they\'re not only gundam pilots in a war, but that they are humans too and that they have all the right to enjoy life even if they\'re in a war\'

\'*Yes*\'

\'I am Duo Maxwell pilot of the gundam Deathscythe Hell, and it\'s my duty to keep my friends together and alive\'

\'*Exactly, but...*\'

\'I am Duo Maxwell pilot of the gundam Deathscythe Hell, and it\'s my duty to keep my friends together and alive\'

\'*And?*\'

\'I am Duo Maxwell... I am who I am and I accept myself as I am...\'

Duo closed his eyes and smiled; Shinigami stood there looking at him and waiting for him to recognize himself.

\'I am Duo Maxwell... I\'m a joker, I\'m Shinigami, I\'m gay and an ex-whore\'

\'*What else?*\'

\'I am Duo Maxwell... I may never forgive myself for the deaths of my friends on L2... but I\'ll never make them regret having saved me\'

Duo felt how an invisible weight was being lifted from his shoulders slowly.

\'I am Duo Maxwell... I\'m a killer and a terrorist\'

Duo opened his eyes and there was a grin on his face.

\'I am Duo Maxwell... And I like it!\'

Shinigami smiled and disappeared.

* * *

Quatre jumped from Trowa\'s arms, the Heavyarms pilot got scared from the sudden movement and Wufei, Zechs and Treize looked at him with their eyes wide open.

"Quatre?"

The blonde Arabian turned his head to look at his lover and the smile on his face told him almost everything.

"Duo\'s back and he\'s fine... I can feel it"

They all turned to see the Deathscythe pilot, but there wasn\'t any change, at least nothing obvious for the other four.

"But Quatre..."

Quatre looked at Zechs and smiled.

"Believe me Zechs, he\'s just sleeping now. He had finally come back from wherever he had been for the last two weeks. We need to wake Heero up..."

Wufei was going to protest when Trowa stopped him.

"Heero promised him that he would be the first thing he would see when he finally decided to wake up"

"Oh..."

Treize looked at his lovers and then back to Trowa.

"So, what we\'ll do now?"

"Wake Heero up and wait till Duo wakes up"

"Then we\'ll talk about what we\'ll do with White Fang and Tubarov... first the first"

Trowa walked towards Heero\'s bed and tried to wake him up, the doctors wanted to give him more sedatives, but Quatre stopped them so it wouldn\'t be difficult to wake him up, the problem was that Heero would wake up without knowing where he was or why and that made him dangerous.

"Heero... Heero wake up!"

Nothing, maybe the sedatives were too strong, but they all knew Heero was quite resistant to sedatives. Suddenly Quatre smirked and told Trowa to step aside.

"Are you sure little one? Who knows how he\'ll react..."

Quatre\'s smirk was even bigger.

"Believe me, he won\'t attack anyone..."

Quatre leaned next to Heero and whispered something in his ear, two seconds later the Wing pilot was wide awake and trying to stand up.

"Where?!"

"Calm down Heero, you can make your wounds re-open"

Heero frowned and glared at Quatre.

"Liar..."

The blonde Arabian grinned.

"It was the only way to wake you up..."

Heero calmed himself down and rested once again on the bed, he looked at Quatre and then at Duo\'s bed.

"How is he?"

"He\'s ok... Heero, please stay on the bed ok. If you move without thinking you may be unable to fight..."

"If he doesn\'t wake up we all won\'t be able to fight Quatre"

It was then that Heero noticed the smile of satisfaction Quatre was wearing.

"Is there something I should know?"

"Duo came back, he\'s sleeping right now and I think is the best to let him sleep for now, but he finally is back from that coma"

Heero\'s eyes were wet, he took Quatre by his shoulders and shook
him.

"You\'re not lying right?! He\'s really back?!"

Quatre tried to answer but couldn\'t because of the way Heero was shaking him.

"I think he\'ll answer you faster if you let him go Heero"

Heero glared at Zechs but let Quatre go.

"Thanks... and no Heero, I\'m not lying... Duo is finally with us"

Heero let himself fall on the bed and closed his eyes, the smile of pure happiness in his face was enough for Quatre to know the boy was ok too.

* * *

Heero woke up slowly, the sun coming from the window was bothering him. He sat on the bed carefully and when he was about to stand up the curtains were closed. He closed his eyes and when
he felt they were adjusted to the light he opened them again. Treize and Zechs were sleeping in each other arms on the couch, Wufei was who had closed the curtains and Trowa and Quatre weren\'t there.

"Where\'s Quatre and Trowa?"

"Good morning to you too, Yuy. They went to buy our breakfast"

Heero shook his head to clear his mind and then looked at Wufei again.

"I\'m sorry... Good morning"

He stood up slowly and went to the bathroom, he quickly did what he had to do and went back to the room, now wearing a bathrobe that covered a lot more than the hospital robe he was wearing. He
walked towards Duo\'s bed and stood there at his side, it seemed that during the night, the doctors had came and took all the vitals out of Duo, now that he didn\'t need them it was better to take them out.

"Good morning my love..."

Heero raised a hand to caress Duo\'s cheek.

"Will you wake up now?"

He was caressing Duo\'s face softly when his hand was suddenly stopped by another and Heero found himself staring in two deep Amethyst orbs.

"Yes I will wake up now... Good morning, love"

~tbc~

(*) Taken from the 24 episode of Neon Genesis Evangelion. I just looooooove Kaworu. ^^V

Well, here\'s another chapter... this fic took a very unexpected turn; oh well now that it took the turn I\'ll have to see what I can do ^^!

Timber Wolf
- Relena, Relena, Relena... right now she\'s like stone in my shoe, I kind of don\'t know what to do with her ^^! I won\'t mention her too much in the next chapters because there\'s something else I want to focus the fic in, but I haven\'t forgot about her completely so don\'t worry that there\'s still some more things I\'ll do to her. *evil laugh*

Tess
- ^_^ Glad you liked it so far. About the confusing part ^^! Believe me... Even I am confused, this fic turned out very different as what I originally thought.
- *blush* Thank you, I tried my best with this fic I\'m glad people think I did a good work. *her smile is too big to fit in her face*
- About the grammar... TT Oh well, I surrendered at the fact that my fics will never have a perfect grammar, I edit my fics several times before posting them, but no matter how much I check them
there\'s always some things that scape my eye. The other thing, is that my mother language affects my writting, and that\'s a flaw I think I\'ll have forever ^^!
-Anyway, thanks again for your coments ^^