"Realizations"

Disclaimer: I don\'t own the G Boys. The belong to their respective copyright agencies. But you can bet if I did they would have a whole lot more fun!

Rating: NC 17

Warnings: Sap, Yaoi, Lemon, PWP.

Pairings: 1x2

Notes: Set around episode 45 - 46. Heero and Duo share their thoughts and emotions before going into the final battle.

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Author: ShenLong


\" Realizations \"

Aug 2002 ShenLong

The door to the tiny cabin swished open and allowed the youth to enter. Whooshing shut behind him Heero took a moment for his eyes to adjust to the dimness of the small room. He could just make out Duo\'s form lying on the bed. Silently he moved towards it.

Duo cracked open an eye as he heard Heero enter, rolling over onto his back he watched as the teen approached him.

The thin mattress gave to allow Heero\'s weight to sink into it. Heero raised a hand and laid it gently against Duo\'s cheek.

Duo moved towards the touch. \"Heero?\"

\"Hai Duo?\"

\"Tomorrow\'s battle.... It\'s going to be the last one ne?\"

\"I hope so Duo. I really hope so.\"

\"I\'m tired of all the fighting Heero.\"

\"Hai.... me too.\" Heero\'s thumb caressed the cheekbone.

A small muffled sob came from the boy on the bed. Instantly Heero\'s arms reached out and wrapped around the form hugging him close to his chest.

\"What is it Duo? What\'s wrong?\" he asked.

\"I d..d..don\'t know Heero. I guess I\'m scared...\"

\"Hush there Duo, Its okay to be scared.\" said Heero as he gently rocked the other boy.

\"But what if something goes wrong? What if one of us gets hurt?.... What if we don\'t make it back?\" the last question was spoken in a whisper.

Heero reached for Duo\'s chin and tilted Duo\'s head upwards to gaze into those violet eyes. Eyes that were misted with tears, clearly showing the vulnerability of the youth. \"We will be fine Duo. We have fought more battles than I care to remember and we still survived. We will survive this one as well.\" He reached for Duo\'s lips and grazed his own lightly across them.

\"I know we have fought many other battles. But I have a bad feeling about this one. Heero?\"

\"Hai?\"

\"I don\'t want to lose you.\"

\"You\'re not going to lose me Duo.\"

\"Easy for you to say. Once you get out there all you think about is the battle. You never think about your safety.\"

\"Hai.. true to a point Duo. But.\"

\"But what?\"

\"I never had a reason to survive before.\"

\"And what makes this battle any different?\" Puffy eyes peered through chestnut bangs.

\"I have you waiting for me.\"

Another sob broke from Duo\'s throat. Heero moved onto the bed pushing Duo back so he could lie next to the American. Duo buried his face against the Wing pilots chest and wormed his arms around Heero\'s waist.

\"Promise me you will stay alive.\"

\"Hai\"

Heero gently stroked Duo\'s back as he felt the sobs begin to slow. He meant what he said. He had every intention of staying alive and coming back to the braided one who had taught him to love.

\"Duo, I have no intention of dying tomorrow. I will do everything in my power to survive this. Duo... I need to live, we have so much still to do, so much to find out... about us...\" he trailed off.

Duo\'s arms tightened their grip. \"I love you Heero. I don\'t want to live without you. Not after just having found each other.\"

Heero felt his heart tug as he stared at the fey beauty in his arms. He had no recollection of when Duo had wormed his way into his life. All he knew was it had happened. Over the course of their missions, battles and schools he had found himself with Duo as his companion. The more time they spent together the more he found himself enjoying the Americans company. What started out as seeds of friendship had grown, strengthened and fiy bly blossomed into love.

They both knew it but as yet had only shared the comfort of each others embrace, a few stolen kisses and the odd caress. Neither felt ready to take the next step. The war being the main factor.

But tonight was different.

Tonight Heero wanted to fully express his love for Duo. He needed to. Words were never his strong point and knowing tomorrow\'s battle could well be their last in more ways than one he needed to show Duo just how much he loved him and hopefully give them both another, stronger reason to fight and survive.

Heero rubbed Duo\'s back, soothing and calming the other. As Duo began to relax so the sobbing eased to become sniffles. Gently Heero raised Duo\'s head again and tenderly stroked the tears away. Reaching forward he kissed away the last remnants of sorrow from those reddened cheeks before brushing lightly across ruby lips.

Duo watched as Heero\'s face came closer then closed his eyes as he felt the tears kissed and stroked away. Duo was the only one to see this soft caring side to Heero. He doubted if anyone would believe that trained assassins and terrorists like them were capable of any feelings at all and yet underneath the facade they hurt just as much as the next person. Only they had been trained not to show it. It was only during times when they were totally alone they could put away the masks and allow themselves to release the emotions that constantly waged their own war within their minds and hearts.

Feeling Heero\'s lips brush his own Duo reached for more, he needed to feel Heero close to him, to draw on that bottomless well of strength to supplement his own. His lips found Heero\'s and locked in a fierce kiss, pouring all the love hlt ilt into that kiss, determined to let Heero know how much he cared for the teen.

Panting slightly they pulled apart and violet clashed with cobalt. There was no denying the attraction.

Duo\'s arms tightened their grip on the Wing pilot as he plundered that mouth again. He ran his tongue over Heero\'s bottom lip seeking entrance. Permission was granted and he pushed into the warmth to explore and re acquaint himself with Heero\'s sweetness. Tongues met, entwined and stroked the deepest recess\'s of the opposing cave before forced apart to breathe.

Panting heavily they stared at each other. The question was in both sets of eyes. The softening of blue and the darkening of violet gave the answers.

Knowing that tomorrow may be their last they began their study and explorations with tenderness and slowness. Every touch, every taste, every sound and every vision to be savored, to be memorized, for neither knew if they would ever have the chance to be together like this again.

Sliding his hands under the back of Duo\'s shirt the roughened skin of palms rubbed gently over muscle, callused fingers traced the line of bumps from nape to waistband.

Duo shivered at the touch of Heero\'s fingers against his skin, delighting in the sensations they caused. He slid his own hands under the thin tank top to rub softly against Heero\'s sides.

Trembling against Duo\'s hands Heero began to tug at Duo\'s shirt. Pulling the material free from the pants, he withdrew and began to release the buttons that stood between him and the flesh he wanted so much to touch and taste.

Duo shifted slightly to allow Heero to remove his shirt, raising his hands for the cloth to be pulled from his body. Tugging his braid from the tangle of his shirt Duo released the mane to flow around their forms.

Heero tossed Duo\'s shirt to one side and hitching his thumbs under his own, peeled it from his body where it followed to lay with Duo\'s. The tickle of Duo\'s hair upon his sensitive skin caused a moan to escape his throat and he reached again for Duo\'s lips. His hands carded through the chestnut waterfall, spreading it in a soft curtain around them.

Duo purred as Heero\'s fingers worked through his hair massaging his scalp. His hair had always been his weak spot. To have someone playing with it or brushing it reduced him to a mindless puddle.

Pushing Duo onto his back Heero began to explore Duo\'s neck, gently nipping, sucking, kissing and licking his way along the pale skin. Finding a particularly sensitive spot just above the juncture of neck and shoulder he began to torture it mercilessly.

Enjoying every moment of Heero\'s ministrations Duo let go of all his fears and concerns and let himself just feel. He was fully aware of his body\'s response to Heero\'s touch, the fire in his groin beginning to build as neural pathways went into overdrive.

The fire of passion had been lit and Heero was lost in the flames. He had one focus.... to enjoy every moment as if it would be his last. His lips found a pink nipple and began to suckle.

Duo arched into the touch. \"Nnnn.... Heero.....\" Fingers entwined in the mop of dark hair as he fought to control his body.

Rolling the hard nub with his tongue Heero mimicked the actions of his mouth with his fingers on the twin causing more moans to come from within that chest. He nipped and sucked then pulled away to flick the tip of his tongue across the pebbled flesh.

Duo panted with excitement as the new sensations coursed through his body. The fire in his groin intensified and his hips pushed upwards seeking some form of friction.

Heero released the hardened swollen flesh and blew gently across the nubs eliciting more moans of pleasure. He reached between his own legs to adjust his painful erection to a more comfortable position.

Duo ran his own fingers over Heero\'s chest to stop and toy with the Japanese teens nipples in an attempt to return the pleasure he had been gifted. He smiled as Heero\'s body reacted to the touch, arching forwards in silent plea for more. Running his hands over the hardened muscles of Heero\'s stomach he grinned as they fluttered at his touch. He found the waist band of those spandex shorts and ran his thumb just underneath the edge.

Heero\'s flesh was tingling with the touch of his Koi. Each touch raising his desire for more. When that thumb edged just under the tight elastic of his shorts he couldn\'t hold back the groan of want and need. His hips rocked forward seeking more.

Fingers found a button and zipper and worked to release them. As cool black cotton slid over heated flesh so spandex followed the same route, both discarded to reveal their closely guarded secrets.

For a moment all that could be heard was the sound of deep heavy breathing as eyes went on a tour of the unknown.

\"Gods you\'re beautiful Duo....\" Heero\'s breath hitched as he took in the sight of his love\'s sleek body.

\"Not as beautiful as you...\" came the whispered reply as Duo\'s eyes feasted upon the bronzed skin of the one he worshipped. Unable to wait any longer Duo\'s hand snaked out to caress Heero\'s stiffened flesh.

The touch sent synapses firing as the sensations washed over him. Pushing forward of their own violation his hips sought more.

With a small chuckle to himself Duo watched as the body began a dance of need. Coaxing more moves with his skilled fingers he delighted as he watched Heero\'s form move and writhe.

Awash with sensation he was completely unaware he could feel, Heero let himself be taken by the moment. When Duo\'s tongue swiped across the sensitive tip Heero cried out. \"Aggnnn Duo...\"

Looking up into passion clouded cobalt Duo grinned. \"I see you like that.\" and he proceeded to run his tongue around the sensitive rim before dipping into the tiny slit to taste his loves essence.

Heero\'s hands clutched at the sheets as his cock slid into that moist haven. It was all he could do to stop himself from thrusting madly into it.

Duo wrapped his lips around the head of Heero\'s arousal and sucked lightly, swirling his tongue around the head he drew the length further into his mouth bathing it gently. Fingers found their way to the soft sac at the base and Duo began to roll Heero\'s balls in his palm.

\"Christ Duo!...\" Heero exclaimed as each new wave of sensation threatened to send him over the edge. Managing to get some control over his rebellious body he began to pull Duo\'s head away from his cock.

Duo growled as he was forced to relinquish his feast but one look at his Koi\'s face soon melted the disappointment.

Heero reached between them and took Duo\'s straining erection in his hand, pumping lightly he stole a kiss. \"I.. I .. I want to make love to you Duo.... Will you let me?\"

The words penetrated Duo\'s lust filled mind somehow. He nodded as he grasped what Heero was asking. Moaning and thrusting into the warm tunnel of Heero\'s hand he consented. \"Please Heero.... take me, make me yours.\"

Plundering that sweet mouth once more Heero felt his heart swell to bursting. Now he knew Duo truly loved him... loved him deeply enough to allow him to take his virginity. His hand moved lower between Duo\'s legs and traced lightly over his balls and rubbed against the sensitive patch of skin just behind them.

Duo bucked in response, it all felt so good. Feeling Heero\'s finger trace along his cleft to find his entrance he huffed out, \"Need something to make it easier....\"

\"Hai.\" Heero understood. He didn\'t want to cause his love any pain, he wanted this to be a memorable experience for both of them. A reason for them both to survive and live. He reached across to the side table and grabbed a bottle of lotion. \"This do?\" he asked in-between kisses.

Cracking open an indigo eye Duo nodded.

Heero flipped the cap and squeezed a generous amount onto his fingers. Dropping the bottle back on the table he began to massage the stuff around Duo\'s cleft working his way to that tight ring. He circled it gently, rubbing and teasing as he loosened the muscle. His other hand remained on Duo\'s cock pumping slowly to distract the long haired beauty.

Shivers of anticipation joined those of pleasure as Heero\'s hands worked his body like a fine tuned instrument, coaxing a symphony of sounds from him with his touch. Duo felt the digit penetrate him and welcomed the invasion begging for more.

A second finger followed as Heero stretched Duo\'s virgin channel to receive him. Working the fingers inside he found that special bump of flesh and rubbed it mercilessly.

\"Nnnn.... Heero.... oh god....\" Duo\'s body drew taunt as stars exploded in his head. His already hard cock hardened even more and strained desperately for release. \"Take me... please ..... No more teasing..\"

Heero smiled when he heard those words. Pulling his fingers from within Duo\'s tight heat he reached for the lotion once more only to have Duo take the bottle from him.

\"Let me.\" came the husky voice.

A groan rumbled from his throat as Duo\'s fingers closed around his penis coating it with the thick slippery lotion.

Tossing the bottle aside Duo lay back and spread his legs in invitation. Not needing any prompting Heero sank between those spread thighs and guided the head of his arousal to Duo\'s waiting opening. He watched those violet eyes as he gently pushed forward past the tight ring that was determined to keep him out.

As the head of Heero\'s cock pushed past his ring so Duo squeezed his eyes shut as a momentary spasm of pain passed through him. He willed his body to relax and accept the invasion.

Inch by agonizing inch Heero pushed deeper into Duo\'s warm passage feeling the inner tissues part and allow him to enter previously untouched areas. Once fully sheathed he paused to adjust to the flood of sensation that threatened to drown him.

The pain had passed as Duo felt himself relax around Heero\'s cock. The sensation while different was not unpleasant, he decided he liked the feelings having Heero\'s cock buried inside him evoked. Eager to feel more he contracted his inner muscles and began to push his hips in an attempt to get Heero to move.

Knowing that Duo was ready for him Heero began to withdraw, pulling back until only the head remained inside that velvet passage and then plunging forward into paradise once more. He began to build a slow rhythm, easing outwards and then pushing back in enjoying the tightness of that channel and the friction it caused along his shaft with each thrust.

Duo moaned and writhed beneath as Heero\'s cock plunged deeper into him. The head pul alo along his tissues, stroking them and providing pleasure he never dreamed of.

Heero angled his hips slightly and found that spongy lump of tissue with the tip of his penis and began to hit it with each forward thrust causing Duo to arch off the bed and slam back down onto him.

\"Nnnn.... Heero.... So good....\" panted Duo as he enjoyed the fireworks in his head. Pleasure raced along nerves sending his brain into sensory overload.

Heero\'s passion had built to the point where he was pounding into the creature beneath him, desire and sensation running through his blood and setting him on fire.

Duo wrapped his legs firmly around Heero\'s waist and pulled the Wing pilot even deeper. He felt Heero\'s balls slap against his cheeks with each retreat and advance in a dance as old as time.

Reduced to a creature of need Heero reached between their sweaty bodies and took hold of Duo\'s weeping erection. Brushing his thumb across the head he spread the tears to aid his hand in pumping that long shaft.

The ache in his groin intensified as he felt Heero begin to pump his cock in time with his thrusts and Duo knew the end was close. He was loathe to reach it, wanting the pleasure to last but unable to resist as his body cried out for release. Heero\'s cock hit his prostate once more and that was the beginning of the end for the Deathscythe pilot. With a scream his body began to spasm and jerk, his cock pulsed in Heero\'s hand as thick jets of creamy fluid shot from that tiny slit to cover his stomach and chest along with Heero\'s hand.

As Duo came Heero was lost in the vision of pure ecstasy that was written into every line of that heart shaped face. The warm liquid that spilled from the hard flesh in his hand all the proof he needed of Duo\'s love. Feeling the walls clench and release around his shaft he knew he was soon to follow his love into the abyss of orgasm.

The fire uncoiled in his groin and raced along his shaft to be buried deep inside that warmth. Screaming Duo\'s name Heero tensed as he found his release, sending his seed to be lost inside his lover\'s willing body.

Slumping forward he managed to roll slightly so as not to crush his slender lover beneath his weight. Feeling his softening member slide out he pulled Duo close to his chest and stroked through the chestnut mane of hair that entangled itself around their sweaty sated bodies.

Duo snuggled closer to the warmth, happy and content to be held. If he was unlucky enough to illeilled in tomorrow\'s battle at least he had had a taste of heaven to take with him. He reached for Heero\'s lips and gave the Japanese teen a kiss of passion, love and sheer possessiveness. \"You\'re mine Heero Yuy and you had better make sure you remember that.\"

\"Hai Duo, I\'m yours just as you are mine.\"

\"So no stupid stunts tomorrow like trying to self destruct okay? I want you back in my bed for an encore.\"

Heero smiled, a genuine smile from deep within his soul. \"I have every reason to live Duo... No more self destructing. Someone has to keep you satisfied.\"

Duo chuckled. \"I love you Heero Yuy.\" and he kissed the tip of his nose.

\"Aishiteru Duo.\" and Heero returned the kiss.

~ Owari ~

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I have been considering writing a sequel to this, depending on the response I get will determine if I do or not. Please review!