The Angst Never Ends

Pocky: This is my first angst fic

Disclaimer; I don\'t own Rei or Kai, wish I did, but those two belong to the creaters of Beyblade.

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~Phoenix~


This is so hard for me. Fuck it all, everything’s been hard for me. I just can’t take anymore of this. But I have a way to end it. End it for once and for all.

I look down at the small box I pulled out from my belongings. It has a padlock with a tiny keyhole, so none may open it without the key, which I wear around my neck.

I am sitting up in my bed and it’s now about 2am, all the others are asleep in their respective rooms, but he- he is watching me, I have no doubt about it.

I glance over at the bed next to mine without moving my head and see that I am right, I see the glimmer of some light shining dimly in his half opened eye that is visible.

He would be my only regret to going through with the plans in my head. I have thought about this long and hard, and I know that once I take action, there will be no turning back, no undoing what I have done.

This will be the end. The end of my life that is, but that is where I don’t care. They would be sad, maybe cry a little, but none of my team really knew me, so they would heal after a few months and go on with their lives, not really caring about me anymore. But he- he would care, he wouldn’t heal as easily as the others, he’d mourn the death of a close friend and lover for perhaps the rest of his life.

Yes, he will be my only regret for what I am about to do.

I pick up the box with one hand, as I pull a sealed envelope, with his name on it, out of my pocket and place it on my pillow. There is a letter contained within this envelope, a letter for him and him alone.

I stand up and walk to the window, and as I stare out into the cold early morning, I can feel his eyes on my back.

I then enter the small bathroom attatched to my and his shared bedroom and lock the door, then sit on the closed toilet seat and think.

I think about how much I’m going to miss those long nights he and I spent together, he and I were really close.

I hear his barely audible footsteps approach the bathroom door, and he knocks lightly, but I don’t answer it. I see the doorknob turning, but the door is locked, so he can’t enter the bathroom.

I pull my chain from under my shirt and unlock the small box, smiling sadly as the content of the box is revealled to my eyes.

This small box of mine contains only one object, made of cold, hard, metal.

I pick up the small item, my heart racing at the feel of cold metal beneath my fingertips.

I then point the gun at my head and give a sad smile, as I think my last coherent thought, I’m sorry, my tiger, but this is the end. I love you forever.

I pull the trigger and there is a loud noise, and I feel intense pain for half a second, then nothing.

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Pocky: This is a two part fic, Kai\'s POV, then Rei\'s.
Please R and R, reviews will be greatly appreciated!