Secret Lover~A Fury Love Story

SECRET LOVER ~A Fury Love story...lots of fluff and sap
Secret Lover


By Mija
Beta-ed by~DemonMistress who I thank with all my heart. Ty Ty Ty


Disclaimer~Don\'t own any of the Characters of FMA. This is for a Fury/Anyone but Havoc or Roy challenge, and I don\'t even know if I will end up posting it there, since my spelling and grammar suck so much. It may not even be long enough to meet the requirements, but I thought I might give it a shot. This is meant to be a one shot fic. Huggles and smiles Mija...:-)


~~~Cain Fury cuddled next to his lover and sighed dreamily. Lover. No, that word did not even begin to describe how he felt for the person intertwined in bed with him. His Love. His Secret Love. Love, it was the only way to describe it. It wasn\'t a fling, an outlet for frustration, or something to let go of some steam. No. None of that could ever be said about the way he felt for this person, or the way this person felt for him. How could it? They had fallen in love years ago. Oh, at first they had been acquaintances, semi-coworkers, then friends. When exactly had it went from there to love? Fury did not know really. One minute they were talking, passing the time, finding they had a lot of similar interests, which was odd, considering how opposite they were, but it had happened none the less.

~~~For years it had been nothing more than talking and sharing mutual loves and hobbies, then some small banter and laughter, a few looks passing between them that would make him blush, whenever those bright eyes looked in his direction. Of course, no one knew about the feelings that were blossoming in Fury, or in his Love for him. No one would have guessed or had a clue, and if they had, they would have thought him crazy, thought them both totally insane. Really, it had been unavoidable. When that voice spoke to him, Fury could feel his insides turn to mush and his face heat up. Although the other didn\'t show so much emotion, Fury could tell by the quiver in his voice that he felt the same as well. Of course, for a very long time neither did much about their newfound love. But when the opportunity struck them, they would sneak off and go for long walks in the park, or down the busy market district looking into windows and talking.

~~~Some of Fury\'s fondest memories were of sitting on a park bench with his secret love, either he or his love reading passages from some romance novel or book that they both were interested in. Sometimes, when they were at Fury\'s place, they would listen to music and even dance. It had been awkward and sometimes painful. His love hadn\'t known how to dance at the time, but Fury had taught him. He had relished the feeling of being the one able to show his love this or that for the first time. Sometimes, when at the park, they would hold hands and just sit there, looking at the sky, or people walking, both silent, but enjoying the silence as long as they were together. Of course it had to be a secret. Their time together could not be revealed to anyone, lest one or the other got hurt. And Fury, not violent by nature, would do anything in his power to make sure that his love would not suffer any harm, and his love felt the same way. His love had told him this, had said that nothing would ever happen to ever harm Fury, and Fury believed him. How could he not? When his love spoke, he spoke with a conviction that you could not doubt at all.

~~~In retrospect. Who couldn\'t love this person? He was the most sweetest and understanding person Fury had ever met in his life. He was so full of joy and love for everyone. He respected everyone and everyone respected him. Lots of people had said that he couldn\'t feel, that he couldn\'t love or be sad, that he couldn\'t be happy or angry. But Fury knew different. He had seen his love angry, sad, happy and he had seen the look he would give Fury, telling Fury with nothing but a look, that he loved him. Again, if anyone, including Fury had been told that he would fall in love with a suit of armor, Fury himself would of laughed in their face. But again it had been unavoidable. Al was so lovable, so kind and sweet, everything his brother was not. He understood Fury like no one else ever had, or ever would, and Fury understood him.

~~~Of course, for years there wasn\'t much they could do to really consummate their love, as there were only some things a suit of armor could do, and none of it very pleasant. Fury guessed that\'s what made it even more special. They hadn\'t fallen in love by physical sight, or by prowess, or what not. They had fallen in love the way true love should be, over years of respect and mutual intrests. Fury had never seen what Al looked like, other than a suit of armor, but to him it didn\'t matter. If Al never got his body back, Fury would love him until the day he died. The subject had come up once, Fury recalled. Al had been fretting, and had finally asked Fury what would happen to them if Al never got his body back. It had been after one of his and FullMetal\'s busted missions where their hopes had been dashed yet again. If anyone would take a moment to look, they would have seen the sadness in those shining eyes, the quiver of fear and sadness in his hollow yet lovable voice.

\"So what if it doesn\'t happen, Al? Will you stop loving me because you\'re not flesh and blood?\" Fury had asked, fearful. He didn\'t want to lose Al. Al was his one shining star in his life, the only thing he looked foward to everyday. It would break his heart if Al rejected him.

\"Of course NOT!..but Cain? What if I don\'t become flesh and blood at ALL? How can you even love something like me? I mean we can\'t kiss or do...anything..else? How can you live like that? How can you love something like that?\" Al had asked with so much sorrow in his voice that Fury had held him the best he could without getting impaled on one of his armored spikes.

\"Love is more than physical contact Al...and if I couldn\'t have anything in this world but you, your voice, your love and just holding hands then I would die a happy man...because I love you...don\'t you see that? I didn\'t fall in love with the physical you, Al, I fell in love with the person, the spirit, the soul inside the armor...I fell in love with YOU, Al...and nothing is ever going to change that...you\'re all I think about..all I dream about at night...my heart races every time you look at me, or speak my name. I get all knotted inside when ever I\'m near you...not because I know that we will be spending the night in bed or something like that, but because I know that I will be spending time with the one person in this world I truly care about, the person who understands me and accepts me for who I am...and who I accept for who they are...you\'re everything to me Al...and if you never get your true body back, it wouldn\'t make one single difference in how I feel about you. I love you and that won\'t change...even if you stop loving me...I don\'t think I could ever stop loving you.\" Fury replied, his eyes shiny with tears, sadness for the ache Al was feeling, but his heart was full and happy, knowing that his words were true. He loved this person with every fiber of his being, and nothing in the world could make that change.

\"I love you too Cain..nothing in this world could ever change that with me either, but, I...I want...I want so badly to touch you...to feel your flesh, to feel your lips on mine...to hear and feel your heart beat against your chest...I want to give you everything Cain..and I\'m afraid...afraid I won\'t get to do that...and you deserve so much more than I can give you like this.\" Al explained sorrowfully and Fury smiled.

\"I never thought I deserved much in this life...but God blessed me with someone to love, someone I admire and truly care for...that\'s all I need...or could ever truly hope for.\"

\"But don\'t..don\'t you ever...want?\" Al asked with a look that Fury could tell would be a blush if armor could blush.

\"I would love to feel your flesh pressed against mine...to feel your lips and watch you smile, a real smile...to hear YOUR heart beat...but if it doesn\'t happen then I have the most important part of you.\"


\"What\'s that?\"

\"Your love...your soul...that\'s all that matters to me in the long run...that you love me and I love you.\"

~~~They had hugged then, it had been an awkward one, and a careful one, but one filled with how they felt. They went on. They continued with their secret love affair, and Fury missed him when he was out on missions. Sometimes he thought his heart would break when ever they heard news that the Elrics had gotten in some scrape or another. But Al always returned to him and Fury had been grateful. Then it happened. One day Ed and Al disappeared. No one knew where they were, and Fury\'s heart had broken. He zealously clung to every lead they heard about. Even Mustang had been out of sorts, worrying about the two brothers. The whole office wondered and waited. Everyone holding their breaths for bad news, news that told them that the brothers were gone for good...dead. Each time someone mentioned something like that, Fury would jump up from his desk and run to the bathroom, where he cried his eyes out and prayed to God that Al would come back to him.

~~~As the time passed, everyone sort of got used to Fury\'s emotional roller coaster, although no one had actually asked him why he seemed more upset than most of them, and in their minds they had known the Elrics more than he had. Well, they knew Ed, but Fury knew Al. No one, but maybe Ed himself, knew Al better than he. They wouldn\'t understand and Fury wasn\'t much inclined to tell them. Everyday he waited and he cried into his pillow, wishing and praying to hear something, anything, just so he knew one way or the other. It would kill him to find out his one and only true love had died, but even knowing that would finally fill this empty space in his heart and his soul. He would be able to grieve, to move on, not that he was sure he could, but not knowing ANYTHING was ever so worse. He hated it.

~~~After a year and a half, most of the crew had given up hope that they would ever see the Elric brothers again. The military had put out a reward poster up and asked about leads to the deserter the FullMetal Alchemist, and his companion and brother Alphonse Elric, known to wear a full suit of armor. Fury did not give up hope, although it was hard. He couldn\'t sleep, he couldn\'t eat, and he couldn\'t concentrate. Many times, he often daydreamed that he saw Al walk towards him, and his face would light up. Fury would start running towards him, not caring who saw or what they thought, he just wanted to hold him again and hear his voice. He always woke from those daydreams, only to realize that that was what they were, only dreams, and Al was still gone It always broke his heart all over again.

~~~Finally, Fury\'s hope had faded until it was almost all gone. He didn\'t look well, he looked pale and had circles under his eyes. Not to mention, he was a lot thinner than was healthy. This had the Colonel and the others worried, but no matter how much they pried, Fury never spoke of his secret lover. It was personal and special, something only they shared, and he wouldn\'t tarnish it by having them know about it, and probably making fun of the most precious thing he ever had in his life. Finally, the Colonel had ordered him to take leave. Fury looked horrible and everyone was worried. Fury didn\'t even protest. He took his leave, pretty much shut himself up in his room, and closed out the waking world with his life spent in dreams where he and Al were together, happy, and in love. Most nights, he would fall asleep with one of their favorite books, curl up against a pillow crying, and calling out his loves name over and over till his voice was raw.

~~~He was still on leave when a knock came to his door. He didn\'t want to answer it. He didn\'t want to face the world, a world without Al in it. He would much rather spend it dreaming of Al. But the knocking wouldn\'t cease, and finally Fury got up to answer the door. He looked at the tall sandy blond haired young man on his doorstep and stared at him. Neither said a word, and Fury was getting frustrated. What did this boy want? Didn\'t he know that his world was crashing down around him and he had no time to just stand there staring? Then he spoke. Fury fainted.

~~~Fury was sure it was a dream. It had to be. That gorgeous young man on his doorstep couldn\'t be who he thought it was, but the voice. It was familiar, so much like Al\'s, yet more husky and grown up, and it had no metallic tang to it. When he woke up, he found himself on the bed, and the young man was sitting on the bed looking at him with huge green gold eyes, and a look that Fury would of recognized anywhere. AL!

\"You okay Cain? You had me worried..you scared me to death...I couldn\'t wait to see you and came back as soon as I could, and I find you like this? Are you ok?\" asked the now fully restored Alphonse Elric, and Fury couldn\'t even dare to believe it wasn\'t another dream. In all his musings, he had never once believed Al could be as beautiful in flesh and blood as his soul was. But that\'s what he was, beautiful, and here. All Fury could do was pull Al into his arms and hug him tight, afraid he\'d disappear in a mist, and realize it was yet another cruel dream.

\"I\'ve missed you Cain...I tried to get back to you as soon as I could..but when brother restored me I was sick...I had been deprived of sensation for so long it took awhile for my body to get adjusted to it all It took awhile, but as soon as I could, I came right away to see you....we had to be careful though..they are hunting brother and I don\'t want him harmed. He did what he promised me, he got my body back, and became a deserter for it.\" Al explained and still held on to Fury as Fury continued to cry on Al\'s broad but lanky shoulder.

\"Is..is it really you Al...please tell me I\'m not dreaming again?\" came Fury\'s response, riddled with hiccups and sobs. Al held him tighter.

\"Yes its really me, it\'s not a dream Cain...I always wondered how it would feel to hold you in my arms...my flesh and blood arms...to feel your body pressed against mine...to hear your heart beat against my ear...and it\'s the most wonderful thing I\'ve ever felt in my life.\"

\"Ohhh Al..I\'ve missed you so much! I thought you were gone for good..I thought I would never see you again.\" Fury cried, touching Al everywhere, tracing his hands over the beautiful face that looked at him with love and apologies. Fury wanted to map that face and every inch of him in his memory. He never wanted to be parted from his love ever again.

\"I know Cain, and I\'m so sorry about that..truly I am..but like I said..it couldn\'t be helped. I\'m sorry, I will understand it if you hate me...if you...you...don\'t ...love me anymore.\" Al replied with hopefulness, yet fear. Fury looked at him like he had grown two heads.

\"Are you kidding me?! Now that I have you back, I\'m NEVER letting you go..I don\'t give a damn WHO knows about us...I\'m never letting you go ever again Al.\" Fury replied with the utmost conviction and Al laughed.

\"Good, because I thought I might have to transmute you into a teddy bear or something if you didn\'t love me anymore...I mean...I was afraid to hope you still loved me...but if you didn\'t? Well, I wanted to make sure I still had something of you with me.\" Al teased as he chuckled and Fury chuckled as well, giving him another hug that Al fully returned. That night they shared their first kiss, their first everything, as far as flesh and blood bodies could. Both had been shy and a bit awkward in all, but Fury had loved every moment of it.

~~~Al had told Fury that he eventually told his brother about them. At first, Fury was a bit worried about what the hot headed Full Metal Alchemist would do to him, but Al assured him that after some colorful words and letting some steam off, Ed was glad Al had found someone to love, someone who had loved him as Al, and not Al the armor. Now, Fury lay there with the heart beat of his lover gently beating against the hand he held over his lover\'s chest and sighed happily. Never in his life did Fury ever dream that he would find someone so special to love, someone that would love him back, but to have this gorgeous young man still love him after he\'d been restored was a miracle. A miracle Fury was not ever going to take for granted. He also mused that his secret lover would soon not be so secret anymore. Although at one time, that might have scared him, he found that he could care less who knew now, and in fact, he wanted everyone to know. He wanted everyone to know that he loved Alphonse Elric, and that Alphonse Elric loved him too. Life was wonderful.

A/N~ok ok this came out alot sappier than I intended to. And yes I did not describe the love scene but some how I didnt feel like it needed to be said. Anyhow I know it sucks, but for half an hours work and since it\'s like 5:05 in the am, it\'s as good as it gets. Huggles Mija.