What's Not to Use?

by: a psycho chibi named Wendy!
Disclaimer: Characters not mine, don\'t sue.

Warnings: Just think of it as a big Lemon tree, Angst, OOC in some parts, Violence, Rape, maybe a tad of Sap here and there...

Oh yeah, MAJOR YAOI!! You don\'t like, don\'t read.

You read, Not my problem. I warned you so don\'t complain.

Here\'s a heads up for all the pairings you\'ll see: 5x4, 1x4, 3x4, 13x4, 6+4, flash back to ocx4, implied 13x5 and 1x3, and finally 2x4

hehe fun fun stuff ^_^

Parings for this chapter: 5x4

Enjoy!

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Chapter one: Used beauty

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It was a beautiful summer evening as Quatre stood on the second floor balcony of his mountain estate. Silently his aqua eyes gazed out over the landscape and watched the sky turn from a light blue to a rosy pink with light purple streaks. While sipping slowly at a cup of tea he sighed in content and smiled as a warm breeze gently caressed his face. Slowly the sun settled between two tall mountains, and moments later it was gone, replaced tiny points of light that hung in dark blue sky. All of the other pilots had been sent on missions so the blonde was left to himself. Everything was peaceful and serene.....

But the moment was broken when the sound of a door being brutally slammed shut echoed throughout the quiet estate.

Quatre winced slightly when he heard the loud Chinese swears and oaths that soon followed the slamming door. From the ferocity of the shouted words the boy knew it was going to be a long night. None the less, Quatre turned back towards the main room to greet the arrival of his comrade.

\"Hello, Wufei. How did your mission go?\" he asked softly so as to not upset him more.

The Chinese stomped out to the balcony and up to face the other boy. \"Shut up!\" Wufei snapped viciously.

Quatre cringed away at the other\'s fury, which happened to be a big mistake. Before he realized what he had done, Wufei struck him hard in the face with all his considerable strength, causing Quatre to fall to the ground.

\"What did I tell you about backing away from me?!\" Wufei snarled as he towered over him.

\"Not to.\" Quatre whispered softly, and lightly touched the now red place on his face.

Wufei glared at hard at him, his dark eyes looking wild in the dim lihght. \"And you better not again. Do you understand?\"

The blonde slowly got up to his feet and kept his face lowered so as not to look at Wufei. \"Yes, I understand. I\'m sorry, it won\'t happen again.\" Quatre said meekly.

\"Look at me.\" Wufei commanded.

Quatre obediently lifted his head and looked into Wufei\'s eyes. The Chinese pilot raised a hand to the place he had just slapped on Quatre\'s face, and lightly rubbed the soft, slightly swollen cheek. Wufei\'s touch stung Quatre\'s face, but he kept as still as he could.

He knew that the slightest movement would earn him another slap.

Quatre stared in Wufei\'s dark eyes and saw anger, stress, and lust all rolled into one. And at that moment all of it was directed at the small blonde.

Wufei suddenly snorted as he looked into those bright sparkling eyes. \"You are too damn beautiful... Nothing I seem to do changes your beauty... Even when you\'re hurt you still look the same... Except when you get tears of pain in your eyes... That just enhances your beauty....\" Wufei then leaned forward and whispered into his ear. \"And I will not stop tonight until I see those tears.\"

\"If that\'s what you want... I can\'t stop you.\" Quatre whispered, and hoped it wasn\'t the wrong thing to say.

\"You\'re right.... You can\'t... Even if you could you wouldn\'t, would you?\" Wufei began to nuzzle at Quatre\'s neck.

\"No.\" Quatre answered automatically.

Wufei breathed in the scent of his hair deeply as he nibbled on the pale ear.\"Good boy.... Remember, you can not scream or cry out no matter what. You can only shed tears.\" he told the blonde calmly.

\"Not even to beg?\" Quatre asked softly.

He actually paused to considered it. \"Hmmm... No, no begging this time. Just tears. And you can not move after I start. You just lay there and take what I give you, and move when I tell you. Understand?\" He bit sharply into his ear.

Quatre bit his lip so he wouldn\'t cry out. \"Nnn... Yes, Wufei... Whatever you say. I... I\'ll do whatever you say.\"

The Chinese lapped up the drop of blood that came from the bite mark on Quatre\'s ear.\"Good boy... You behave, and do what I tell you, and I might please you a little... You would like that, wouldn\'t you?\" Wufei asked sadistically.

His ear started to burn from Wufei\'s saliva on the torn flesh. \"I enjoy anything and everything you do, Wufei.\" the blonde whispered.

\"Good answer... You are learning well... So well that I will forget about that last cringe. I can contribute that to me not being around as often and you just forgot.\" Wufei kissed the ear then kissed a line down his neck.

\"Thank you, Wufei... May I ask you where we will be this time?\" Quatre asked, frightened but not showing it.

\"I think your room tonight... Unless you know of somewhere better.\" He wrapped one arm around the other\'s slim waist.

\"That\'s fine with me..... But you do not need my consent to decide something.\" Quatre said quietly.

The Chinese nodded approvingly. \"Very good. If only the others would have learned as well as you do.\" Wufei licked back up to his ear. \"Then they might still be alive.\"

\"They were foolish not to obey you, Wufei.\" Quatre said as he tried desperately to withhold a shiver.

\"Yes they were...\" Wufei moved back and looked at Quatre\'s eyes. \"You will never be so foolish, now will you?\"

\"Never, Wufei.\" he stated softly.

\"Excellent. Now follow me.\" Wufei released him and turned to walk back in the room.

\"Yes, Wufei.\"

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Soon the two pilots were standing outside of Quatre\'s room.

Wufei looked at the big wooden door then turned to Quatre. \"Now, Quatre, once we go in you are not allowed to make any sound until I say you can, alright?\" The black burning eyes gave a glare that promised a slow death if he didn\'t comply.

Quatre nodded. \"Yes, Wufei.\"

\"Good.\" Wufei went to the door and opened it slowly. He walked in the room and motioned for Quatre to enter. Once in, Wufei closed the door and locked it. \"Alright, do you have the silk sheets tonight?\" Wufei looked over at Quatre who just nodded. \"Good. Now go over to the side of the bed.\"

Quatre walked, as told, to the bed and waited.

\"Now face me and take off your clothes.\"

The blonde turned to him and began to remove his clothes, not going too fast or too slow. Soon all of his clothes were in a pile beside him and he stood bare in front of the Chinese. Wufei took in the sight of the smooth pale flesh with hungry eyes.

\"Now get in the center of the bed.\"

Quatre turned and tried his best to find the exact center of the king sized bed. When he found it he laid down on the pure silk sheets. Soon he could hear the rustle of clothing being removed, but he just stared at the high ceiling and kept repeating the same thing over and over in his head. ~Just do as he says and it will all be over soon. Just do as he says and it will all be over soon. Just do as he says and it will all be over soon. ~

Quatre felt the bed shift as Wufei crawled on it. \"Now, my beautiful angel, I want to see those beautiful tears.\" he purred evilly.

Quatre\'s body betrayed him as Wufei began to gently rub his hands all around the blonde\'s naked form. After a few moments of teasing, Wufei tired of this game, and proceeded to get to the whole point of his actions. The Chinese boy moved down and sat himself between the Arabian\'s spread legs. After he positioned himself, he grabbed Quatre\'s legs and placed them on his shoulders, then grabbed the slim hips.

\"Look at me.\" he growled.

Quatre propped himself on his elbows and looked at a naked Wufei between his legs.

\"Good boy.\" After he said that he lunged forward and pierced through Quatre to the core. Quatre\'s eyes went huge and he clamped down his mouth to silence a scream. \"That\'s it, just a little more.\" Wufei groaned to himself as he watched Quatre through half lidded eyes. He pulled out all the way and thrust back harder into Quatre\'s tight heat. Quatre was in complete agony, but he didn\'t make a sound. He could feel the tears form in his eyes, and prayed that Wufei would finish soon.

Wufei pulled out again and looked at Quatre. \"This should do it.\" he mumbled to himself.

He thrust again with all his strength, and ripped through Quatre. That was all it took as Quatre began to cry silently, which that set Wufei off. \"Oh, God, so beautiful!\" Wufei began to pound relentlessly into Quatre\'s thin form.

Every thrust shook the blonde and caused even more pain. After two more flesh ripping thrusts, Wufei stiffened and released his essence deep within Quatre\'s body. The Chinese stayed there for a moment, still buried in Quatre, as he regained his senses.

Quatre was still looking at Wufei while tears streamed down his face.

Once he knew where he was, Wufei slowly pulled out, which sent a last shiver of pleasure through him, while sending a last stab of pain through Quatre.

Wufei collapsed beside Quatre, and was panting hard. \"God... That was perfect, Quatre.\" He smiled for the first time that night. \"You did exactly what I told you... You are the first to ever fully please me... You can speak now.\" Wufei said as he tried to catch his breath.

\"I... I\'m glad I have pleased you, Wufei...\" Quatre was able to say without the pain seeping into his voice.

\"You have greatly... And now I will reward you for your excellent performance.\" Wufei kissed Quatre\'s forehead and began to work his way down. He kissed, nibbled, and sucked down Quatre\'s body, leaving no spot neglected. When his was half way down the pale stomach, Wufei looked back up at Quatre\'s face. Quatre was biting his lip to prevent any sound. \"Hmm, I\'m glad that you are still following my instructions, but you may make some noises now.\" Wufei smirked as he watched Quatre let out a loud moan. \"Good boy.\"

The Chinese returned his attention to Quatre\'s stomach and restarted his journey downwards. As he nipped and sucked, Quatre let out soft moans and thrashed his head about. Not really because he was enjoying it, but because he knew it was what Wufei wanted. Soon Wufei reached the part of Quatre that was demanding any and all attention. Wufei reached out and began to run his fingers along the blonde Arabian\'s length in a way that sent shivers throughout Quatre\'s body.

\"Now you stay put and do not move. The less you move the more I\'ll reward you.\" Wufei purred.

\"Yes, Wufei.\" Quatre breathed out.

\"So obedient... So beautiful... You are still crying... Why?\" Wufei encircled Quatre\'s length in one strong hand and squeezed it slightly.

\"Unnnn... Because you said that you wanted me to cry... I am only doing as you instructed me to... Does it not please you anymore?\" Quatre gasped quickly.

\"Yes it does... Tell me, what would you like me to do now?\" he asked, and squeezed Quatre tighter.

\"I will like anything and everything you do, Wufei.\" Quatre moaned.

\"Very good, that is usually where many make mistakes in telling me what to do.\" Wufei smiled again and loosened his grip.

\"I would never tell you what to do, Wufei.\" Quatre panted.

\"Hmmmm... What about in battle? Would you order me then?\" Wufei squeezed Quatre\'s stiffened member incredibly tight.

Quatre closed his eyes tightly and tried not to cry out in pain. \"If it were up to me I would never... Nnnn! But that has yet to happen... I honestly don\'t know what will happen... I\'m sorry... I can\'t give you a real answer to that question... I\'m sorry!\" he grunted in pain, but tried to remain still.

Wufei let go of the hard shaft, and soon the raven haired boy gently glided his hands over the smaller pilot’s slim thighs. \"Do not be sorry, angel. You are the first to answer that question honestly. Most of the others promised they would never order me no matter what, but when they went into battle with me they ended up breaking that promise. You told me the truth and have pleased me again. That is twice you have pleased me, and for that I will do something that I have never willingly done to anyone before. Do not move at all, understand?\" Wufei said as he moved back between Quatre\'s legs.

\"Yes, Wufei.\" Quatre laid back down on the soft bed and clutched onto the soft, silk sheets.

\"Good.\" Wufei leaned forward and began kissing the base of Quatre\'s building erection, which caused Quatre to close his eyes and grip the sheets tighter. Wufei then started trailing his tongue all the way up the blonde\'s length and lightly bathed the tip of it. Quatre kept still and only let out soft moans and gasps as Wufei rewarded him. Wufei stopped for a second and looked at all of Quatre. The small Arabian remained perfectly still, his skin glistened with a fine sheen of sweat that made him seem to glow. Wufei frowned slightly when he saw that Quatre\'s eyes were closed.

\"I want to see your eyes before I continue.\" Wufei said sternly.

Quatre slowly opened his eyes, but could barely see due to the darkness of the room and the white lights of pleasure that kept blurring his vision.

Wufei only saw bright blue eyes glazed over with lust and passion. \"Now, my angel, this is my gift to you.\" Wufei leaned over and slowly took Quatre\'s entire length in his mouth. Quatre gasped at the feel of Wufei\'s mouth surrounding him, but did nothing more. The Chinese boy suckled and massaged the blonde with a great amount of skill. It didn\'t take very long before Quatre tensed up, and soon after his seed spilled out and into Wufei\'s waiting mouth. Wufei swallowed every drop of the salty fluid then let Quatre\'s length slowly slide out of his mouth.

Wufei crawled back up to Quatre\'s face and laid next to him. \"Did you like that?\" Wufei asked with a small smile.

Quatre looked at him, eyes still glazed over. \"Oh yes, Wufei. It was wonderful, thank you.\" he panted and gave him a small smile of his own.

\"I knew you would..... Keep up this kind of performance and I may do it again... Maybe even more.\" he whispered into the blonde\'s ear.

\"You are very generous, Wufei. May I ask you for one thing?\" Quatre looked at him pleadingly.

\"Hmmm... Alright, what is it?\" Wufei asked in interest.

\"Will you kiss me before you leave?\" he asked softly.

\"Since you\'ve been so good I will, but you can not move.\" Wufei stated.

\"I won\'t.\"

\"Alright then.\" Wufei leaned forward and claimed Quatre\'s mouth. He trust his tongue in and deepened the kiss while Quatre moaned softly in his mouth. It was a hard, bruising kiss, and Quatre could taste himself in the Chinese\'s mouth. It made him tremble, and his stomach turned in knots, but he continued on with the kiss. After a few seconds Wufei released Quatre and they both gasped for air.

Quatre sighed softly. \"Thank you, Wufei.\"

\"Hn, beautiful.\" Wufei got off the bed to retrieve his clothes, and hastily dressed himself. Soon he was dressed and walking towards the door. Quatre sat up and looked over at him as he reached for the handle.

Before he opened the door, Wufei paused and looked over his shoulder. \"Remember, Quatre, you tell absolutely no one that I was here.\" He gave another glare that promised death.

\"Yes, Wufei, I will not tell anyone.\" Quatre answered and nodded.

\"Very good. Farewell.\" Wufei walked out of the room and closed the door behind him.

Quatre stayed silent and listened for Wufei\'s foot steps to stop. When he could no longer heard them, Quatre turned on his side and got in a tight fetal position.

\"DAMNIT!!\" the broken blonde cried out in anguish.

He shivered violently and cried so hard that it his eyes began to hurt. After a few more minutes of hysterics, Quatre calmed down and sat up. He was sore all over and felt sickeningly filthy. Slowly, he crawled out of his bed stood up on shaking legs. Quatre looked back at the bed and felt intensely ill with himself when he saw a rather large stain of his blood and Wufei\'s seed on the center of the white, silk sheets. He tore his gaze away from the reminder of what just happened and slowly and painfully made his way to the bathroom.

\"I\'m so sick with myself... I didn\'t even try to stop him... But that\'s nothing new. I never try to stop him... Or anyone else for that matter... Allah, I don\'t know how much longer I can live this way... I don\'t even know how much longer I can live period... It hurts too much.\" he mumbled to himself as he entered the bathroom.

Quatre gingerly moved around as he prepared a bath for himself in the large marble hot tub. He slowly lowered himself into the hot water and sighed.

\"That feels a little better...\" He tried to make himself comfortable as he could in the water. When he was settled, he stared up at the large full length mirror that hung on a wall in front of him. He tried to stare himself in the eyes, but after what just happened, he couldn\'t bear to look at his own reflection. So he turned away from the taunting mirror, and stared down at the steaming water around him. \"I guess Wufei had a right to be angry... I mean I would be too if my gundum malfunctioned in the middle of a big battle... I don\'t see why that alone would make him want to see me though. Must have been too much stress for him to handle... Either that or he just likes to hurt me... I have really stopped caring anymore though... So I guess it doesn\'t matter... Wufei seemed to have enjoyed it... That makes one of us.\" Quatre sighed again and quietly slipped under the water.

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TBC