A Great and Terrible Denile
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Fullmetal Alchemist › Yaoi - Male/Male
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Adult +
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A Great and Terrible Denile
I don\'t own Fullmetal Alchemist, I just use to to fufill my sick fantasies.
Fullmetal Alchemist © Hiromu Arakawa
I\'m walking towards you with hallow steps and I know you can hear me. But my bodiless presense somehow comforts you more then it did when we were younger. I seemed to startle you alot then, and now at seventeen you don\'t even seem to glance up from your book... It\'s more interesting then what I have to say. I stop moving, a faint clank echoing through the room and my empty form. I have your attention, but I\'m still of little interest. I know you can tell though, this visit isn\'t as brotherly as most. Even with an expressionless face you kow exactly how I feel, I don\'t need sad eyes and a froen for that. You\'re smarter then you let on brother. You glance those golden eyes over your book\'s spine slowly... Scar once told you, that you had eyes similar to his brother, eyes that stare off into the distance searching for something only you can see. I don\'t believe that, because I know you see something in the forground. You see me.
You close your book tentively as if the longer you delay it the better, the better. Already you know my visit isn\'t something you\'ll enjoy. You sit up on the couch and strech, the sound of metal scraping against metal fills the room as you move, and all at once I realize exactly what you\'re doing. You\'re trying to make this as casual as you can for your own benefit. I want to sit suddenly, I want it to be casual as well.. But the only real seat in the room is on the couch next to you... I\'ll pass. You finish your streching, your yawning, and you look at me again, and somehow I don\'t think you see me as much as you did a moment ago. I really don\'t blame you much, I\'m not something many people enjoy looking at, but I don\'t have the time nor the patience to play your childish games, this is much bigger then that.
You smile at me, but it fades as I answer you with silance. You know that even if I had a face to smile back with, I wouldn\'t be smiling back at you. Silant fidgeting makes you uneasy soon, and you spead frst.
\"What is it Al?..\" You\'re confused, I\'m usually not like this, but I am today, and with good reason. I just don\'t know how to word this quite yet. I sigh softly, sighing isn\'t as simple a task as I would like it to be. In all theory I don\'t need to breath, lungs not exactly part of my organic make-up, but for all it\'s worth I fill this new silance with a sound similar to a sigh. I\'m trying to find my words, but it\'s hard. I feel as if, if I said them now, I would only trip over them and look like a fool. But I need to hurry, you\'re starting to get anxious, you really hate this tenceful silance. \"Al if you have something to tell me just-\"
\"I know brother.\" I don\'t mean to cut you off, but the words fell from me almost as if by accident and now we\'re in awkward silance again. I don\'t seem to make alot of sense, but you\'re paling and you already know exactly what I\'m talking about. And then an urge over comes me to run from the room and just leave all this at that. But I can\'t do that and I know it, I\'ve already dug this hole far to deep to just walk away now. You\'re getting paler but you try and look confused, you try hard to act like you have no idea what I ight mean. But you do, it\'s all over your face and in your eyes... and suddenly you\'re focused on the forground again, suddenly you see me again, even though you don\'t seem to want to. You glance away with something you might beable to call disgust, I don\'t blame you. But you and your childish games get old, we\'re not ten anymore. \"I know about you and...\"
I would continue but your pale color has went to a sickly green and you look faint. But this suspense is getting imensly ridiculous.
\"I saw you and Taisa last night Ed.\" I don\'t call you that often, and it feels almost weird falling from me, like I\'ve swallowed something foreign. Like a bug. But I can\'t swallow anything. Much less a bug. You\'re staring at me like I\'m a demon now, one that just engulfed your entire family.. but I\'m far from a demon, and I\'m the only family you have. Do you hate me now?... Can you really do that? Look at me with amber eyes so full of hate? You can. Your confusion, and your dread, turns to anger right before my eyes. Please don\'t look at me like that brother... You\'ll never know just how much it hurts me. I\'m not in this world for a few moments, I\'m in another place, one where you may hate me. Then my mind returns to find you on your feet before me, fists clenched, angry. Please don\'t look at me like that, I\'ll rue this day when you decided that you hated me. Why are you replacing your true feelings with all this anger and hostility? I know you\'re embarassed brother, I know you well enough to know that you\'re embarassed that I saw you with him, but I want you to talk to me. Not hate me... You don\'t want to talk though... you want to yell.
\"So you where spying on me Al?! What kind of person does that?\" I can only take a few steps back to defend myself from your sudden outburst. Please don\'t yell at me brother...
\"I only want to-\"
\"To what? Spy on me and ruin my life?!\" Here you are again, with your childish games. Can\'t you see how important it is that you stop this?... You can\'t... you can\'t see demotions and ranks being stripped away, you can\'t see reputations torn to pieces and relationships unrepairably ruined by a romp. If you don\'t see these thinsg what do you see brother?... I really would like to know what you see with those eyes of yours.
\"Maybe I love him Al.\" You spit the words at me like venom and they catch me offguard, the ability of you to /love/ somone like Taisa is beyond my mind comprehension, I just can\'t seem to force my brain to wrap around your words.
\"L-Love?.. How can you...\"
\"You would never understand...\" Something inside me hurts suddenly as you turn your back to me and walk towards the door, because I know you\'re right. I probably wouldn\'t understand what it\'s like to feel hands on flesh... and think that perhaps there\'s someone who loves me for my body and my looks and my soul... I probably wouldn\'t understand.
Like I said before, I\'m really not sure if I like this or not. Does it need a second chapter or should I just leave as is? Review please. Email if you like =3.
-Wrath.
Fullmetal Alchemist © Hiromu Arakawa
I\'m walking towards you with hallow steps and I know you can hear me. But my bodiless presense somehow comforts you more then it did when we were younger. I seemed to startle you alot then, and now at seventeen you don\'t even seem to glance up from your book... It\'s more interesting then what I have to say. I stop moving, a faint clank echoing through the room and my empty form. I have your attention, but I\'m still of little interest. I know you can tell though, this visit isn\'t as brotherly as most. Even with an expressionless face you kow exactly how I feel, I don\'t need sad eyes and a froen for that. You\'re smarter then you let on brother. You glance those golden eyes over your book\'s spine slowly... Scar once told you, that you had eyes similar to his brother, eyes that stare off into the distance searching for something only you can see. I don\'t believe that, because I know you see something in the forground. You see me.
You close your book tentively as if the longer you delay it the better, the better. Already you know my visit isn\'t something you\'ll enjoy. You sit up on the couch and strech, the sound of metal scraping against metal fills the room as you move, and all at once I realize exactly what you\'re doing. You\'re trying to make this as casual as you can for your own benefit. I want to sit suddenly, I want it to be casual as well.. But the only real seat in the room is on the couch next to you... I\'ll pass. You finish your streching, your yawning, and you look at me again, and somehow I don\'t think you see me as much as you did a moment ago. I really don\'t blame you much, I\'m not something many people enjoy looking at, but I don\'t have the time nor the patience to play your childish games, this is much bigger then that.
You smile at me, but it fades as I answer you with silance. You know that even if I had a face to smile back with, I wouldn\'t be smiling back at you. Silant fidgeting makes you uneasy soon, and you spead frst.
\"What is it Al?..\" You\'re confused, I\'m usually not like this, but I am today, and with good reason. I just don\'t know how to word this quite yet. I sigh softly, sighing isn\'t as simple a task as I would like it to be. In all theory I don\'t need to breath, lungs not exactly part of my organic make-up, but for all it\'s worth I fill this new silance with a sound similar to a sigh. I\'m trying to find my words, but it\'s hard. I feel as if, if I said them now, I would only trip over them and look like a fool. But I need to hurry, you\'re starting to get anxious, you really hate this tenceful silance. \"Al if you have something to tell me just-\"
\"I know brother.\" I don\'t mean to cut you off, but the words fell from me almost as if by accident and now we\'re in awkward silance again. I don\'t seem to make alot of sense, but you\'re paling and you already know exactly what I\'m talking about. And then an urge over comes me to run from the room and just leave all this at that. But I can\'t do that and I know it, I\'ve already dug this hole far to deep to just walk away now. You\'re getting paler but you try and look confused, you try hard to act like you have no idea what I ight mean. But you do, it\'s all over your face and in your eyes... and suddenly you\'re focused on the forground again, suddenly you see me again, even though you don\'t seem to want to. You glance away with something you might beable to call disgust, I don\'t blame you. But you and your childish games get old, we\'re not ten anymore. \"I know about you and...\"
I would continue but your pale color has went to a sickly green and you look faint. But this suspense is getting imensly ridiculous.
\"I saw you and Taisa last night Ed.\" I don\'t call you that often, and it feels almost weird falling from me, like I\'ve swallowed something foreign. Like a bug. But I can\'t swallow anything. Much less a bug. You\'re staring at me like I\'m a demon now, one that just engulfed your entire family.. but I\'m far from a demon, and I\'m the only family you have. Do you hate me now?... Can you really do that? Look at me with amber eyes so full of hate? You can. Your confusion, and your dread, turns to anger right before my eyes. Please don\'t look at me like that brother... You\'ll never know just how much it hurts me. I\'m not in this world for a few moments, I\'m in another place, one where you may hate me. Then my mind returns to find you on your feet before me, fists clenched, angry. Please don\'t look at me like that, I\'ll rue this day when you decided that you hated me. Why are you replacing your true feelings with all this anger and hostility? I know you\'re embarassed brother, I know you well enough to know that you\'re embarassed that I saw you with him, but I want you to talk to me. Not hate me... You don\'t want to talk though... you want to yell.
\"So you where spying on me Al?! What kind of person does that?\" I can only take a few steps back to defend myself from your sudden outburst. Please don\'t yell at me brother...
\"I only want to-\"
\"To what? Spy on me and ruin my life?!\" Here you are again, with your childish games. Can\'t you see how important it is that you stop this?... You can\'t... you can\'t see demotions and ranks being stripped away, you can\'t see reputations torn to pieces and relationships unrepairably ruined by a romp. If you don\'t see these thinsg what do you see brother?... I really would like to know what you see with those eyes of yours.
\"Maybe I love him Al.\" You spit the words at me like venom and they catch me offguard, the ability of you to /love/ somone like Taisa is beyond my mind comprehension, I just can\'t seem to force my brain to wrap around your words.
\"L-Love?.. How can you...\"
\"You would never understand...\" Something inside me hurts suddenly as you turn your back to me and walk towards the door, because I know you\'re right. I probably wouldn\'t understand what it\'s like to feel hands on flesh... and think that perhaps there\'s someone who loves me for my body and my looks and my soul... I probably wouldn\'t understand.
Like I said before, I\'m really not sure if I like this or not. Does it need a second chapter or should I just leave as is? Review please. Email if you like =3.
-Wrath.