Insensitive

Insensitive
Archive: Sure go ahead
Author: Galacia
Category: One-shot
Rating: PG 13
Warnings: Shonen Ai (mentioned) Some language.
Disclaimer: I don't own these characters. I don't own the song Insensitive either. I am simply borrowing them for my own pleasure and, hopefully, the pleasure of others.
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Insensitive

"How do you cool your lips after a summer's kiss?
How do you rid the sweat after the body bliss?
How do you turn your eyes From the romantic glare?
How do you block the sound of a voice You'd know anywhere?"

Life can be pretty interesting one day things are just fine the world is as it should be and everything is normal.
Next thing you know the rug has been pulled out from under your feet and you fall flat on you butt looking up at
the shattering pieces of your life and the gods of your fate (who at the time choose to be invisible) are laughing their
heads off at you. Happened to me a few times actually and I can count them off one by one.
1) Mirai Trunks arrival and departure
2) The Cell Games Android Saga in particular
3) The Saiyan Saga
4) Meeting dating and breaking up with Videl and running into Crystal (Known to everyone else as "She who's name will never
be spoken in public. Or Trunks will kill you." Chibi can be funny that way.)

I don't know it feels like that song:

It's the end of the world as we know it
It's the end of the world as we know it
It's the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine

It's true though. As I lay on my bed and think it all over. I just ended my relationship with my last "girl friend" Lisa. She was great and we had fun. But I didn't feel about her "That" way and she needed to get some creeps off her back, and neither of us really wanted to spend the weekends alone we came to an arrangement sort of a "Hey want to do something? Hang out? I can grope you in public to keep those guys away until someone worth while comes along" So we were just good friends posing as more until we could find other people. We had a blast though. Can't say I regret any of it, even though part of me wished it lasted longer but I can't blame the girl for being able to find love just because I can't seem to. So I'm happy for her and wish her all the best. It's always the same though, I try to date but it never seems to last. Making me wonder if trying to fall in love is completely hopeless. Maybe I should just lay back and wait for it to strike me again like lightning. Can you be struck a third time? Interesting question. However the only good thing about staying on the dating scene is that it keeps my mom off my back. Yes, "The iron clad bitch" herself. I lover her she's my mother but....UGH!!! She and my father are from two different worlds And I am not talking that Mars and Venus stuff either. My mom is human and my father is a Saiyan. You think she would start to get it after a while that Saiyans and humans are not quite the same.

But she hasn't so I have to go though all these games that I don't always have the patience to play. Going out, dating and bringing home girls I don't really care that much about just to keep my mom placated. And to tell you the truth I am tired of it. I've tried to be what she wants me to be and to tell you the truth it aint working. However just like it brings the bad life can also bring the good. Not too long ago the best thing in the world happened. Or the worst thing. Depending on your view point. Mirai Trunks came back. Apparently, something _interesting_ must have happened between him and his mother because we found him in a drug induced sleep in the cockpit with the time machine on auto drive. He had a backpack on his lap and there was a note from Bulma-san to her past self and Vegeta. Pretty much telling them that he needed a place to stay... for good, their world didn't really need him and it was only a matter of time before people started putting two and two together and that he would be as feared and hated as the andriods. Also being the only non full human on the planet wasn't good for him. So we were to keep him. Absolutely no arguments. And there was a note for Trunks in the backpack. "So." Said Goten a bit curiously. "This is the Mirai Trunks we've been hearing about."
"Uh-huh." I answered.
"You're going to be hot when you grow up Trunks." Goten said jokingly to his best friend.
"Thanks a lot." Muttered Chibi taking that as an insult to his current looks either that or as an insult to his maturity. Although for a nineteen year old chibi wasn't THAT unattractive. Of course Mirai was also like what late twenties early thirties? When you factored in the fact he was a time traveler it could be hard to guess his age. "Well we better take him back to the house." I said trying to clear my head of all these confusing thoughts. I was happy to see Mirai it had been a long, long time since we've last seen each other. At least it felt that way. Besides Bulma and Vegeta hadn't seen their surprise yet. Chibi capsulized the time machine and carried the note from Bulmasan. I carried Mirai into the house, for some odd reason I felt like I was a groom carrying his bride over a threshold.
That was utterly ridiculous and funny but kind of embarrassing too.. I mean did I actually think THAT way about Mirai? "Gohan? Why are you blushing like that?" Of course Goten can always be counted on during embarrassing moments like this. "Nothing Goten. This just looks weird that's all."
"Whats going on?" Came Vegeta's voice from the dining room. We simply carried Mirai into the room and with a bit of irreverent ceremony handed him to Vegeta."Congratulations it's a boy." I told him.
"WHAT THE HELL?" Vegeta spurted doing an impression of a human fountain. You really shouldn't disturb people with information like that when they are eating. But the results were funny nonetheless.

"MIRAI?" Screeched Bulma. She ran over to us. "I don't believe it."
"There's also a note." Said Chibi.
"And personal belongings." Said Goten holding up the back pack.
"He's planning to stay a while is he?" Asked Vegeta.
"Pretty much." Answered Goten. Then as a joke pretended to "read" the note outloud.
"Please take care of our darling baby boy. As we can no longer care for him. Here are his belongings his name is Mirai Trunks.
P.S.
This is your son Vegeta Take GOOD care of him or I will come back from the dead if need be and kick your ass clear across the universe all through other world and back."
We all looked at him. " That part is actually in the note." Said Goten. And he was right it was. After that it told Vegeta that she loved him, and hoped to see him soon. "So he's staying for good then?" Asked Bulma curiously. "If we want him to. He just can't go back to his own time." Replied Chibi.
"Something about him being veiwed a threat to the world he saved." Goten explained.
"Well of course he can stay here." Said Bulma.
"I'll clean out my room." Muttered Chibi. Goten touched his arm and stopped him.
There seemed to be some form of unspoken communication going on between them but by the end Chibi was smiling. It made me smile too, seeing the friendship these two shared and knowing that Mirai used to do the same to me. No matter what I was feeling he could always make me feel better. We were good friends. Still are, we just don't get to write or talk much, but I thought we could still pick up where we left off.

"How do you numb your skin After the warmest touch
How do you slow your blood After the body rush
How do you free your soul After you've found a friend?
How do you teach your heart it's a crime to fall in love again?"

The last couple of weeks haven't been too bad. It's great having Mirai around again. We spend some time together, and even talk about the old days. It's like he never left. But he does have other responsibilites now, he's helping out at Capsule Corps and he did meet up with a nice girl named Sarah. Only thing that bothers me is that she is Crystal's cousin. But then again Crystal is the black sheep of that family so we are probably still good. I met Crystal after I broke things off with Videl. Not that I didn't care for Videl, I did but... to actually marry her would be cruel. I loved Videl I guess, but I
was never sure that it was THAT kind of love, you know the bells ringing singing birds, walking down the aisle type of love. IN Love. Marriage love. I doubted I had that and trying to marry her would have been unfair to her, and our families. Probably to me too. So when she had that car accident and lost some of her memory, I didn't help rekindle the fact that we were practically engaged. Mom never forgave me for that either. She wanted us to get married and raise a family. Actually my mom planned and excuted about 75 percent of my life from age 1-17. So I shouldn't have really been surprised. However I still feel like I did the right thing and if I wasn't so concerned that she would take everything out on my Dad and Goten I would've moved out years ago. Although part of me blames mom for how I MET Crystal the rest of it was my fault..

Crystal. Now there is an interesting story. I loved Videl and cared about her, but with Crystal there was no love. Just.. pheromones and the like. There was a lot of fun though, and at the time that was what I THOUGHT I needed. Crystal uncaged a beast I never knew I had in me. I had one of my infamous blow ups with mom the day after Videl was released from the hospital. I visited Videl every day and we were still good friends, but we decided the day before that we were better off friends then boyfriend and girlfriend so we mutually let the relationship go. Mom was NOT happy when she found out. I simply pointed out that we did the right thing for us and that it wasn't working out. She yelled at me for
shirking in "my duty". I am still not sure what EXACTLY she meant by that either way we had a HUGE fight, and I stormed out of the house. To make a long story short. I met Crystal at a night club a few dances, a few drinks we hit it off. I spent three weeks with her, after which I took her to meet mom. Who of course was less then pleased to met Crystal, she was practically the opposite of Videl. I packed my things and left with Crystal. I was tired of the bitch's crap. That was the day the things Crystal told me began to make sense. I went to wilder parties with her, and she taught me many things.
Although we never actually had sex, I learned more about foreplay and sex from Crystal and her friends then I knewever existed. Through the haze of pleasure and drugs, I felt a form a freedom that I never knew was possible. I wasn't held back by "the iron clad Bitch" anymore and I felt free to do whatever I wanted. I am not proud of the things I did in the months following. I didn't even know how much I was tearing up my dad and my brother. If I was hurting mom I could care less. At the time I felt she deserved it, however what I DIDN'T know was that Crystal was getting tired of waiting for me.
So one day she mixed some Viagra into my food trying to see if she could get me to have sex with her. But when I still wouldn't respond to her she got the idea that I was gay. She got disgusted and left me still full of drugs, food and viagra mixed and as helpless as the average untrained human in one of the worst streets in Toyoko.

I am still foggy about all the details of those eleven months I was gone. But I do know that I will love Chibi till the day I die for coming and finding me. Same with Piccolo. Apparently Goten was getting really upset and worried about me and getting tired of me being the reason that Goten was crying Chibi found Piccolo and they went searching for me. If it wasn't for them... I don't even want to THINK about what would have happened. The only good thing about it was.. well..I THOUGHT I was free. With her, with the drugs, the pressures, the cares, my mom..they were all gone like they didn't exist. I could
do what ever I wanted and feel free. There was no actual love between Crystal and me . It was drugs hormones high spirits whatever but not love. Never that. But it's behind me now. I'm back to normal now. No longer hurting the people who love me and care about me. Goten isn't crying himself to sleep anymore. Dad isn't worried. Mom, well she can be a bitch and a harpy sometimes but on those rare occassions she does have a melt down I make sure I am the one she does it at. Maybe because I
feel I deserve it, I don't know but I make sure I am the only one that gets it. Dad and Goten haven't done anything to deserve it. The deal is she can do this as long as Dad and Goten aren't around for the explosions. Therefore, Goten has more father and son outings when he was young then I did. But then again. I was around 10 when dad left. And Goten didn't know dad for the first eight years of his life. So I guess it all evens out. The funny part of the story is that Videl has always been door number two in my love life. There was someone before her, someone that I loved a loved a long time ago.
Of course I never told this some one at the time. Heck, I didn't even realize what it was until it was too late to say anything. Sometimes I think it is better that I didn't. I would rather not lose what I have with that person. The question is how do you tell some one you love them? What if they never love you back? And that I suppose leads us to the million zenni question. How do you keep your self safe from getting hurt again? Is it even possible? Well I can think of at least one person to ask.
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"Well brat, to what do we owe this visit?" Asks Vegeta "One that you bother knocking on the door that is."
'Busted' I think to myself. Okay so some people do know what I have been sneaking off doing the last few months. Concealing my ki as much as I possibly can, I use the spare GR that Bulma put on the property so no one knows I am there or else are too busy to notice that I am there. "I was wondering if you would be interested in a spar that's all."
I could tell that he was starting to be intrigued, but was keeping it back. "What makes you thing I'm interested?" He asks me I answer with a smirk on my face, probably something that he didn't expect from the 'spawn of a third class warrior.' "I'm a challenge." I answer.
"No you're not." Vegeta retorts
"You sure about that?" I ask. I can see deep in Vegeta's eyes that he is amused correctly guessing that I am choosing to act like a sayian and not a human. I can see that he is considering that I deserve a chance just for this achievement. "Does the Harpy know where you are?" Vegeta asks me. Some kind of test I am guessing so I gave him a straight answer. "Do I really give a shit?" I ask.
This brings a smile of amusement from him. He likes my answer, and gives a nod
"Alright." Vegeta answers. "But you better be worth my time brat."
'Oh don't worry Vegeta, I will be. I have a request for you.'

"Oh I really should have known By the time you drove me home
By the vagueness in your eyes your casual good-byes
By the chill in your embrace The expression on your face..."

(Three hours later)

"Had enough brat?"Vegeta asks.
"You first old man." I answer back.
"OLD?" Repeats Vegeta in shock. "I can hardly be on my home planet, boy."
"But were aren't on your planet are we?" I retort back.
That took nerve on my part I guess, but the results were worth it. He started taking me seriously again.
And I wasn't even using mystic. (Okay, okay I cheated by using the energies of mystic to keep my SS form going as long as I want. Learned the trick awhile ago but Vegeta didn't know that.) "How about we make this interesting?" I ask.
"Oh? How do you plan to do that?" Vegeta answers.
"I win and you concede to a request I have."
"Really? And if I win?" Vegeta asks
"Who says you are going to?" I answer, then shrug. "We'll figure that out at the end."
"Alright then." Agrees Vegeta, "Now let's see what you can REALLY do." He goes SS 2. I follow his lead.

After another hour or so the fight is over and Vegeta admits that I've won.
"Alright you win, what do you want to ask me?"
"You mentioned sometime ago that it was fruitless to be sentimental in times of battle." I begin.
He looks at me curiously. "What's your point brat?"
"Teach me." I answer "Teach me how to keep my emotions from inhibiting me, and not to wear my heart on my sleeve.
So that I'm not hindered at inoppurtune moments." The look on his face is absolutely priceless.
"Nani?" He asks bewildered probably wondering if he heard me right.
"You heard me right." I tell him "I anxiously await your instructions oh great Yoda."

"That told me you might have some advice to give on how to be insensitive"

Vegeta gives me a look that shows half amusement and half like he's attempting to keep some one of questionable sanity
placated. Considering his opinion of my parents I wouldn't be surprised if he thinks I AM insane. After a few moments
consideration after he gives me an answer "Fine Brat I'll teach you what I know."
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It's been two weeks now, since I asked Vegeta for his advice. Right now the four of us and Mirai's girl friend Sarah are at a night club. I take another glass of whatever the heck it is the waiter keeps pouring into my glass. You have to admit Chibi sure knows how to pick out a night club. I feel more at ease watching Mirai and the others dance right now. "Hey gohan. Are you okay?" It's Goten, I wonder what he wants. "Yeah I'm fine little bro. What's up?"
"You haven't really been yourself recently that's all." Goten tells me.
"What do you mean?"
"Are you and Mirai fighting or something?"
"No, We've always been like you and Trunks." We used to be anyway.
"That's what worries me." Goten answers.
"Huh?"
"We've argued before and it will be days before he feels like apologizing. He hates it when I'm right sometimes. "Which is why." He nods knowingly to me.
"The reason why you always follow him around like a puppy who has found it's master?"
'That and always do what he wants to do and do frightening impersonations of dad.' I add mentally.
"I don't want to lose him, Gohan. He's my best friend."
"I know what that's like." I answer and drink some more out of my glass. "Is that why you distanced yourself from Mirai a little? So he doesn't think your smothering him and are jealous of.." He gives a nod to the lady in question.
"Yep." I answer and take another drink. "She seems okay and he's really happy with her. I mean he is a great guy he deserves to find happiness. Especially after all the shit he's been put through. If he finds it with her may they have all the best." I give a slight salute to the couple on the floor with my glass. "How many of those have you had?" Asks Goten
"What?" I ask. Goten looks at my glass curiously, I give him a drink out of it.
"Gohan How many of these have you had?" Goten asks again. I really have no idea
"Not sure." I answer "Haven't really kept count why?"
"This is pretty strong." Goten answers
"Goten..." I don't need another mother. Really he should know that with the mother we have.
Goten sighs and gives me the glass back. "Gohan?"
"Is this going to be about what I am drinking again?"
"No"
"Go ahead then."
"You and Mirai haven't had a fight have you?"
"No."
"So you are still on good terms."
"I thought we discussed this. I'm giving him space."
"So you aren't upset at him for leaving then."
"Don't be ridiculous Goten."
"Am I?"
"He had to go back. Our time was saved but his was still getting trashed by the androids. His mom was back living in that
hell hole for crying outloud."
"You have a point. So you weren't mad huh? Did you... you know miss him?"
Everyday. "Yeah I guess so but you know, he was back where he belonged I'm where I belong so things went okay I guess."
Goten gave me one of those looks that says he knows you're trying to pull one over. Oh well like I care. The waiter refills my glass. "So you wouldn't care if he say.. went back home."
"He's going to have to make a little extra space in that machine." I answer.
"What?"
"He'd take Sarah with him if he goes, at least I think he would. Why would he ever leave her in the dust? He actually loves her." I roll my eyes and go for my glass which I find is covered by Goten's hand. "What did you just say?" Goten asks.
"I said that Mirai loves Sarah and I didn't think that if he went back he'd leave her behind." I repeated.
"No you didn't." Goten answers.
"More or less." I answer. "Goten your hand."
"I know where it is. Talk to me. What's wrong?"
"Nothing. Why?"
"Gohan." Somehow he manages to stress it with out seeming too.
"Look, nothing is wrong. Mirai is back, we're still friends. He's dating Sarah and he's happy. What is the problem here?"
"Why have you been having all those spars with Vegeta?"
"I'm bored."
"You could ask us."
"Didn't think anyone else would be interested that's all. Besides you three are usually busy and dad is away right now."
For some reason Goten is still covering my glass with his hand. "Can I have my drink please?"
"Not until you answer me one more question."
"Okay."
"Why have you been acting so strange?"
"What kind of question is that Goten?" I ask "I haven't been acting strange."
"Gohan." I take advantage of the moment to reclaim my drink and finish it off. Goten shakes his head "What is it then?"
He continued "You haven't been yourself for a while."
"What do you mean? I'm here, I haven't taken up with Crystal again Goten. I've kept that promise. I've been working, and
staying out of the way. Standing back losing Mirai to people he probably rather spend time with then me. Because heaven only knows I probably only remind him of the past.. Cell, andriods etc. etc.." I stop, Goten is looking at me strangely. "Goten? Are you okay?" He's just giving me the oddest look.
"You really missed him didn't you?"
"Yeah I did."
"You really think he'd think that way about you?"
"I'm not really sure Goten."
"Is that why you spend all that time around Vegeta?"
"Yes."
"So you aren't just sparring. He's teaching you something isn't he?"
"Yeah. Goten he is."
"What is he teaching you?"
"He's teaching me what I should have known in the first place to protect myself from things like this."
"And that is?" Goten asked.
"How to be insensitive." I answer back.
"Okay, but why would you want to learn that?"
"Because," I answer softly. "It's killing me to love Mirai the way I do and not knowing if he'll love me back or hate me for it." I look at Goten "I don't want to lose 'my Trunks' either." Goten doesn't say anything and hugs me tightly, the look he gives me is one of understanding.

'I'm sorry Mirai, but my heart and soul have always been yours whether you want them or not.'

"Oh you probably won't remember me, it's probably ancient history
I'm one of the chosen few Who went ahead and fell for you
I'm out of vogue, I'm out of touch I fell too fast, I feel too much
I thought that you might have some advice to give on how to be insensitive"

OWARI

(Muses (yawn): Okay we're awake what we miss... hey you wrote one by yourself. Told you, you could do it.
Galacia smiles and goes off to begin to think up a possible sequel.)