Pain or Pleasure

A/N: Uh, first time writing a fic this... weird, really. I just had the knife scene in my head and was craving Crazy!Sadist!Rey. Forgive me for the OOC.

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Shinn had slowly given up fighting it. With disgust he noticed how good it actually felt... the pain dwindled away to only some kind of prickling that he felt in the back of his mind for a few seconds. Another slow, precise slash glided against his chest. Just enough to make him bleed-- and maybe scar-- but not enough to cause serious damage. The kiss of the blade was soon followed by the wet trail of Rey's tongue. Shinn let out a shaky breath as the blond lapped up his blood with that feline grace he always seemed to possess. He may be... liking this, but he wasn't going to show it. Rey sucked at the cut before peering into Shinn's eyes, he smiled as he caught the look in them. He could see how much Shinn enjoyed it... as much as he was enjoying it, if not more. And he could see how stubborn Shinn was in trying to hide the fact. He made another slash-- diagonal, across his collar bone-- eyes glittering from the red seeping out, then he dipped his head forward to catch the liquid on his tongue. Rey heard Shinn bite back a gasp and chuckled silkily, murmuring heatedly against the brunette's skin:

"Don't hide it, Shinn... I can see how much you like it..."

Shinn panted, from pain, from pleasure. He took a bit to finally realize what Rey had said, and when he did, a frown marred his features. Rey laughed again at the sight, rubbing the handle hard against the front of Shinn's pants. A deep, shameful blush blazed across his cheeks when he realized that his body had been betraying him all along. He almost let out a low moan at the downright violent contact between his clothed erection and the knife, but he refused to let his voice betray him as well. He did, however, tilt his head back, his mouth forming a silent groan. Rey smiled at his show of pride, whispering again:

"I'm going to ellict a scream from you before the night's over..."

Shinn clenched his teeth for a moment, but his hateful gaze fell apart once Rey started licking and biting at his neck. He made a small sound in the back of his throat which he tried to swallow, much to Rey's amusement. The blond leaned forward and kissed him, allowing the other boy to taste his own blood on his lips. Shinn let Rey ravish his mouth, but didn't do anything to stop him or return it at all. The brunette was focusing entirely on denying the eroticism of tasting his own blood. He'd had it on many occasions, when he'd been punched, when he'd had a dangerous run-in with a mobile suit, but this time... it was with something distinctly Rey. His bland blood, Rey's saliva and their pants of warm breath all mixed together to form something that was so -good-... Shinn tried to stop himself, but with Rey's tongue in his mouth he couldnt bite his lip to help. Rey could feel his desperation... he -knew- that he was about to break... The blond put a surge into the kiss, nibbling on Shinn's tongue while he scratched the blade across one of Shinn's sweet spots on his neck. Shinn lost it in that moment, his self-control and pride fleed and crumbled, respectively, from him.

Shinn moaned.

It was a loud, reverberating moan that Rey could feel traveling through his throat, the vibration causing him to moan as well. Shinn sounded so...well, he sounded so fucking hot like that. After denying himself the luxury of moaning for the last half hour his voice took a husky tone from not being used. Rey's eyes glimmered once more, he wanted him so much... but he could wait, and he would wait. Wait until he -begged-, wait until he -wanted-... Oh yes, Rey could wait as long as Shinn allowed. The sweet taste of blood and the sound of Shinn's gasps, breaths, growls and now moans were enough to sustain him until Shinn caved. Rey pulled back, slowly, reluctantly, but it was worth it for the expression of pure shame and defeat that crossed Shinn's face. Rey laughed, it was almost a giggle, coming closer, almost touching Shinn's lips again:

"You haven't lost entirely, yet. You will when you finally surrender yourself to me... but it wont be bad. Painful maybe, but nothing you won't like."

Shinn's eyes went from lost to angry faster than Rey could percieve. He growled out an empty threat, which Rey found somewhat endearing and struggled against his bonds. Rey gave another chuckle, reaching out to hold the boy's chin in his fingers. He pressed another kiss to the boy's lips, feeling and seeing how Shinn tried to resist, then fight back, then fall helplessly into it. Rey pulled back, noting the slight flush on his cheeks with satisfaction as he drew further back and armed his knife. Shinn looked at the sharp object with... something. Something different, something new... When he had laid his eyes on it before, no one could disagree that fear was in their depths. But now... now he saw it with... anticipation? Rey smiled despite himself as he glided the blade over the same cut he had made earlier. It had started it's healing process, but the flesh was cruelly spilt apart once more.

Shinn shut his eyes as his body shuddered at the pain, Rey was very pleased at how the boy didn't resist it like he used to. Shinn just wondered how fucked up he'd be in the head after this was over with.

Rey sucked at the cut, enjoying the hitch in Shinn's breath. He made new incisions and tore open older ones... with his teeth, with his nails, with his blade. And all this pain was becoming oh-so-great to Shinn. He was arching his back and groaning with each sensation, not in any way feeling the ache of the blade, just feeling-- and loving-- the esctasy. Rey looked at him greedily, drinking in the sight of the now masochisized Shinn. All the blood that was on him, the slash marks, the erection straining against his pants and the semen that was seeping through them... Oh yes, his dearest had already come twice from the suffering that he once upon a time had hated, but now enjoyed so much.

Rey's own arousal was begging for release as well, but he ignored it and focused on his objection of his everything... every emotion he felt, he felt towards him... hate, love, desire, disgust, anger, sorrow, joy, he was the objection of his possession and his corruption, his Shinn... Rey licked his lips and kissed him roughly, making Shinn moan and pull at his bounds more fiercely than he did from the pain. His Shinn... not anyone else's. Definitely not Luna's... That girl was foolish to think that he would let her have him. He owned the boy now.. well, not exactly now, but there was no way that either of them were going to walk away from this without finishing it. Shinn would be entirely his when it ended... ...entirely... The thought made Rey moan slightly. He pressed into the kiss harder, smirking as Shinn reacted with a shiver and immediate return of his "affections."

Finally, the brunet pulled away slowly, allowing his tongue to disengage from the vulgar activities in Rey mouth with reluctance. Rey gave him a strange look as he wondered what the boy was planning. Shinn let him himself recover with a number of pants before he finally spoke. It was for the first time since his cries of objection when this has started:

"Rey... I want to taste you... mmm.. and to feel it in my mouth, running down my throat.. mix with my own.. aaahh..."

Rey almost felt his resolve crumble at the sound of that voice-- husky, scratchy and raw from moaning and groaning-- saying those words-- so dirty and interrupted by the sounds imagining it brought... so lustful...-- and the way that Shinn looked at him-- displaying all his wants clearly then, red orbs clouded with so much desire and want and -need-. There was no way he could deny his Shinn what he'd requested. With an escaping breath, he pulled his knife and got ready to slash a line of blood across his forearm, but he was interrupted by Shinn. The brunet wanted to be the one to do it.

Rey stopped before he could to anything to himself. He wordlessly untied Shinn's hands and gave the boy the bladed weapon. Shinn's eyes almost glowed now, mischief, sex, and bloodlust all shining through. He leaned forward, finally able to move freely, and raised the knife to the spot inbetween his collar bone and neck. With a quick motion and a shallow gasp from Rey, Shinn made the cut and started to lick up the resulting blood. He moaned out, blood was normally salty but Rey's... his was almost sweet.. definitely bitter, but not salty at all. Rey slumped closer to Shinn as the brunet licked his neck, sucked at it to make more blood come through, and thrust his tongue into the wound with feral gentleness.

It was driving Rey insane: hearing the soft sighs and pleased moans of Shinn when he tasted his blood, feeling the boy run his hands over him for the first time that he could, and the haze of unconciousness that was almost threatening him now. Rey grabbed his thick black hair and pulled him from his neck, quickly taking away the expression of sure disappointment that had flickered onto Shinn's face with a kiss. He wanted the boy so bad now.. so, so much right now, this instant. It was enough to hurry him into just having his way with the boy now, but his pride wouldn't allow that. Rey viciously rocked their hips together, licking at Shinn in the same spot it'd been done to him. Shinn responded with a loud gasp, a moan of Rey's name. He was panting as he returned the friction, knowing that he was close to orgasm. Rey smirked against Shinn's milk white skin, hardly pure, but it managed to fool the world into thinking so. Shinn went rigid against him, letting loose nothing more that a contained, strangled moan when he came in his pants for the third time.

Rey moaned as well, he could feel Shinn's warm come through both of their pants. Shinn blinked away tears.. it hurt... but it felt so good... and it was Rey doing this to him. That somehow made everything right, despite how wrong it was. Here he was getting off blood, pain, another guy... But he didn't care. The pleasure was so much... and he could touch him now. As if to prove it to himself, he ran his hands down the blond's spine, admiring Rey's soft shudder and look of conflict in his eyes. He found his arousal reawakening again, making Shinn wonder how many times he'd come before it was enough for his body. When he gazed into the other boy's eyes, he realized it would take until Rey was satisfied as well. It'd been an hour, possibly more, and he felt how hard Rey was against him.

Shinn bit his lip as Rey slid his hand down his pants. The brief contact was enough to leave him gasping when Rey pulled his hand back, dripping in Shinn's seed. The blond licked it up with an expression of pure pleasure on his face, moaning once more while he tasted the brunet. Shinn watched, panting harder with every second that passed until Rey was finished. Shinn bit his lip again, before leaning forward and kissing Rey on the lips, following with his tongue. Rey had been a bit surpised, but it was a surprise he welcomed... He took hold Shinn's hair and roughly pushed him closer, crushing their mouths together. Shinn responded by tugging on Rey's hair as they swapped a fair amount of spit, both desperate for more of eachother. Shinn felt Rey bite down on his lip, hard, and his tongue move against the wound to gather his blood. Shinn moaned into Rey's mouth, pulling him closer in another display of the fierce passion they seemed to possess. The interaction could only go on so long before the two of them both remembered that air was, indeed, a good thing.

Shinn looked at Rey when the kiss broke, his breath coming at quick, sharp intervals. He didn't think there was a spot in his mouth that Rey hadn't explored quite thoroughly. He slid his own tongue against his bleeding lip, igniting the pain once more as his eyes fell shut. He could feel the blond tracing the knife's marks with his lips softly, the gentleness somehow feeling better than the pain. It was then that Shinn opened his eyes and stared at Rey, who stared back, waiting for the words he knew were coming:

"Please... Rey, take me... Fuck me. Do it as hard or as fast as you want, but just do it!"

Shinn's words were practically gasped out, the plea becoming apparent from the look in his eyes and on his face. Rey descended upon him almost the instant the words spilled from his mouth, he didn't know if he could have waited any longer had Shinn not broken. He was all over the brunet, touching him, kissing him, telling him with a sultry whisper that it was perfectly okay indulge in this terrible pleasure. Rey discarded his and Shinn's pants while Shinn took care of his shirt. Rey licked two of his fingers before putting them entirely into his mouth, Shinn watched with anticipation as Rey removed them and then pressed them against his mouth. Shinn quickly followed Rey's example. Soon after, he was being pushed back and could feel Rey's fingers pressing inside him, causing Shinn to move his hips awkwardly as he tried to get over the sensation. Rey moved his fingers in and out, spreading him and preparing him before he added another finger. Suddenly his fingers brushed against something, "R--rey!" Shinn gasped out, hands reaching for something to hold onto.

Rey chuckled as he stroked the spot again and watched Shinn buck helplessly into his fingers, moaning. When Shinn gave him another pleading look, he slowly removed his fingers, "This is going to hurt," he warned, before burying himself inside Shinn in one, quick thrust.

Shinn screamed out. It did hurt... but he knew it would feel better soon, just like the entire ordeal, really. Rey kissed him roughly, before thrusting in and out of him almost immediately. "Ah-aah!" The brunet cried out against Rey's mouth, eyes watering enough to send tears trailing down his face. Rey groaned as lost himself in Shinn's heat repetitively as he pounded into the other boy. Shinn was getting over the pain, too, it was mixed in with the pleasure-- or was it part of the pleasure?-- and soon both he and Rey were moaning together, kissing, biting, scratching eachother in their euphoria. Shinn didn't even know anymore, it was just overwhelming... he couldn't think of anything but what Rey was doing to him. "So... so good," Shinn panted as he tilted his head back, swinging his hips foward to make Rey's thrusts feel harder.

Rey gave him a smirk as he licked some of the saliva that was escaping from the corner of Shinn's mouth. "Aah..." he breathed out silkily, "Shinn..." The feeling was overpowering for Rey, too. He had spend god knows how long fantasizing about and dreaming for this moment, and it was there now.

"Nnn...AAH! Rey..!" Shinn let out. He pressed closer to the blond, dragging him into a strong kiss as he bucked into his thrusts. "Aaah, uhhnn... haa... Rey," Shinn murmured around the feelings of Rey's lips on his, Rey's tongue in his mouth, Rey's nails scratching playfully over his skin... Rey inside him... He gave a pleasured sigh as Rey continued to degrade him like this... so wonderfully, so sinfully, but all of it was delicious. Shinn reached up to grab one of Rey's hands, Rey looked at him almost expectantly when he pulled it down with his past their chests. He wrapped his own hand around his erection with a small moan, giving Rey a half-lidded look. Rey put his hand over Shinn's at his silent request and started to help Shinn stroke himself, eyes glimmering once more as the brunet began to moan loudly at the landslide of sensations.

"Aahn!" feeling Rey's hand atop his, assisting him to pump his hard length was too much on it's own... But paired with the blond pounding into his body at such a hard, fast rate? It was almost unbearable... Shinn whimpered out his name, panting and breathing raggedly he started outright trembling with pleasure. "Reeeyyy..." he ground out, feeling the muscles in his abdomen start to constrict and tighten as a prelude to his release. He gasped out, back arching with a final, wordless cry as his seed spilled across his stomach and chest.

Rey let out a heated moan as he felt himself nearing the edge as well, "Shinn..." he panted, thrusting just a few more times before it was enough for him as well. He climaxed with a low groan as he emptied himself inside Shinn, slowly pulling out of the boy and nearly collapsing next to him, chest heaving against Shinn's.

"Rey..." Shinn called, between his uneven breaths, eyes still hazy from it all. Rey finally managed to calm his breathing and looked into the wine-colored eyes of his Shinn. He withheld somewhat of a smug, satisfied smirk-smile inside as he saw the boy's dazed expression, swollen lips, flushed cheeks... They'd never be able to erase the stain they had created now, and Shinn was destined to be his forever and his alone. "Rey..." the brunet said again, blinking in an attempt to clear up his blurred vision. He turned to face him, "Rey, I... lov--" Rey stopped his confession effortlessly, capturing his Shinn's soft lips in a crude kiss. Teeth, lips, tongue all had a place in it's brutal glory before Rey pulled away prematurely. He barely gave Shinn enough time to feel it before it vanished, only leaving him breathless with the taste of blood and Rey in his mouth and the irresistable need for more.

The blond gave him a half-lidded stare that Shinn couldn't look away from, "Don't tell me..." Rey murmured, breath hot against the brunet's ear as his fingertips stroked the skin of Shinn's neck teasingly, "Show me."