My Last Breath

yet another disclaimer: Gundam Wing is not mine. I am making no money by writing this fic. If you want to sue me all you’ll get is a bunch of drawings, a cat, two lava lamps, some clothes, and a lot of tea. I’m pretty much a broke little neko. Taco Bell doesn’t pay.

{Lyrics}
"Speaking"
'thoughts'
////flasback////

My Last Breath
Song by Evanescence
Fic by Angelkitty

{Hold on to me love
You know I can't stay long
All I wanted was to say was
That I love you and I'm not afraid
Can you hear me?
Can you feel me in you arms?}

"Duo...? Duo...?!" Heero called, searching for his beloved among the wreckage of the car crash. Duo had been driving them home to their house on the coast, when a truck out of nowhere hit them. It had hit Duo's side and crushed that part of the car. He had heard the painful scream of his beloved, but both had gotten out before it exploded. Now all Heero wanted was to make sure Duo was all right.

He saw the lithe form some little ways ahead and he heard the moan in response. He ran to him, afraid at what he found. Duo was on his stomach, his beautiful chestnut hair stained with blood, his shirt torn, and he was covered with cuts and bruises. He could also see that his side had been hit and he was sure at least some ribs were broken. 'Oh no,' Heero thought and turned Duo over into his arms.

Duo was staring up at him trying to smile "Heero..." he whispered, finding Heero's hand with his own and squeezing it a little. His touch was so light, like a ghost's touch.

"I'm here Duo... Your going to be fine Love, I know you will" Heero said. His voice was filled with his pain. He gripped Duo's hand tightly not wanting to let go, even though he was sure it hurt Duo.

"No Heero... I know I won't be here for much longer... Heero you know I love you... Oh, just hold me 'till then... Please love?" Duo wanted to say more but it hurt to breathe let alone talk. He would try to regulate his breath so he could stay longer.

"OK" Heero whispered holding him closer. Duo was happier in the embrace. He could feel Heero around him the life and vitality of him, he sighed knowing Heero was here.

{Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
sweet raptured light
it ends here tonight}

Duo knew he didn't have much time left, he could feel it, but he wanted to draw it out as long as possible. He could remember everything about he and Heero... their first safe house, their first meeting, everything. Even the first time he pulled a joke on Heero...

////flashback////
Heero was sitting outside with his laptop, 'Of course Mr. Perfect Soldier himself has to type the report immediately after the mission.' Duo thought looking outside at him. 'How can I make this work I need to find out what Heero's buttons are before I can prank him...' Duo got an idea almost immediately.

He waited 'till Heero had gone in the shower. He knew he only had seven minutes to do this. He booted Heero's computer up and hacked the system quickly. Then he did a few things to make it 'Prettier and Fancier,' then he shut it down and waited for Heero to come out. Heero went immediately to his computer again then sat himself down and started to boot it up.

"DUO!!!!" Heero screamed seeing the fluffy hamsters and pretty flowers pop up along his screen. Then there was the Hamtaro theme song playing in the background, (ya ya ya ya ya, ooh la la la...) To top all that only Duo knew the proper password to stop the madness on the screen, and get back the original programming.

Duo was on the floor in his laughter. He couldn't stop, not even when the perfect soldier had come up to him, picked him up, and slammed him into a wall. "Explanation Maxwell."

"You're... Way to... too serious..." Duo said still laughing, but trying to look at his partner. He was as still as a statue un-showing of the anger Duo felt radiating off him. His cobalt eyes were on fire with that anger even though his face remained calm.

Duo felt his face flush a little realizing that face was utterly gorgeous, drop dead gorgeous. The wave of emotion he got from being this close to him was amazing. He was on fire with Heero's anger and it made him want to just drop everything right then and beg for Heero's forgiveness...
////flashback end////

"Heero I'm gonna miss you..." Duo said reaching up with his other hand and cupping Heero's cheek with all the love he felt.

"Don't think like that Duo. You'll be fine and we'll see the guy's and everything. Just you wait" Heero was trying to be optimistic, but he could feel Duo fading fast. He didn't want this to happen. Duo should be able to live he was the best of the pilots. He should get to enjoy the peace he won by keeping the rest of them going.

{I'll miss the winter
a world of fragile things
look for me in the white forest
hiding in a hollow tree
come find me
I know you can hear me
I can taste it in your tears}

Duo sighed and cuddled a little closer to Heero wanting the warmth of his lover's body he was freezing. "I have to go Heero... My time is up here. Heero... I'm so cold"

"This better?" Heero said hugging Duo closer. Duo nodded and Heero continued with what he was going to say "No Duo it's not right you're the best of the five of us," Heero said brushing the bangs out of his face. "You deserve to stay and enjoy this life."

"Nah Heero, that's you. I'm just the most joyful," Duo sighed. "I'll miss Christmas and the snow but..." Duo sighed trailing off. He really would miss Heero and the others. The last Christmas was amazing, they had all gotten together only to find all of them had lovers in the group (except Wufei of course, he was with Sally.) He didn't want to go, but he could feel Sister Helen calling him into the beautiful white light he knew was heaven. He felt a small drop on his cheek 'a tear' he realized 'but Heero never cries, even when we broke up for that time.' Duo thought back to that distant time when he had been so mad at Heero...

////flashback////
"Duo, are you sure you're alright..." Heero asked approaching his lover and partner, trying to hug him.

"I'm fine, leave me alone." Duo said, pushing Heero away.

"Duo..." Heero said uncertainly. Duo had been like this for a few weeks, he had been detached and he never paid attention to him anymore. Why was Duo acting so strangely? Why would he completely ignore the one he loved?

"Heero if your going to act like this we should break up. Good bye," Duo said walking out of Heero's apartment and slamming the door behind him.

Heero heard the motor rev on Duo's car and heard Duo peal out of his garage. He just stared off after the car, unbelieving what he had heard. Duo… left… him? But... Why? Heero was really confused and hurt, but he couldn't shed a single tear. He couldn't cry, not even when Duo didn't return his calls and completely ignored him. Something just wouldn't let him.
////flashback end////

{holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
sweet raptured light
it ends here tonight}

Duo knew Heero didn't cry then because he had told him after they had gotten back together. He had eventually broken and talked to Heero about the issue (Heero being way too soldiery on Duo). Heero had worked on it now; he barely reverted to that anymore. It had taken a whole lot of work on both their parts though.

Heero brushed Duo's cheek gently feeling the skin getting colder, "But nothing. You'll be there for Christmas." Heero tried to smile, but it ended up being more like a grimace. Heero could feel Duo's grip getting lighter and lighter, the strength leaving him. Duo's eyes were getting a little cloudy too, 'No I can't think like this, he is staying here, with me.'

"I'm having trouble seeing you Heero... but I can still picture you," Duo said sighing and feeling Heero's love all around him. "Heero, I can't even kiss you..."
Heero leaned down and gave his lover a gentle heartfelt kiss, "That better Love..."

"Yeah..." he hated this weakness, he couldn't move at all. Then he realized he wasn't afraid of death. That this seemed perfectly all right to be lying in pain and anguish. Then knowing he was going someplace better. "Should I be scared of death?"

"No! Because you're not dying Duo, you're staying with me Shinigami can’t die" Heero said firmly. Duo was getting heavier becoming deadweight. He saw Duo's eyes close for a few seconds and then he opened them again. It was almost impossible to believe what was happening.

{Closing your eyes to disappear
You pray your dreams will leave you here
But still you wake and know the truth
No one's there}

Duo knew Heero would have nightmares now. Heero had helped get rid of Duo's own so long ago. He would even dream that Duo was still there and then, in the morning, he would go to get Duo out of the shower and find he wasn't there. "Heero... promise me... you'll try to... keep the others... in line..."

"Nonsense, you'll be there to do it," Heero said. Heero’s vision was clouding too but Heero realized that it was from tears. He was crying? He was surprised he could never cry before. "You'll be fine, I'm sure of it, you can't leave me." Heero hid the fact he was crying and closed his eyes putting his head on Duo's, praying to the unseen so they wouldn't take his beloved from him.

{Say goodnight
Don’t be afraid
Calling me calling me
As you fade to black}

"I love you Heero... remember that... I'll wait for you... No matter what I love you..." Duo said knowing this would be his last time to say that to Heero. Then he closed his eyes and exhaled, the rest of his strength leaving him. He knew no more except that Heero loved him and he was surrounded by brightness. It was all around him keeping him safe and carrying him away from this wreckage and, even though he didn't want it to, his beloved.

"Duo... NO!! COME BACK!! DUO!!!... Duo..." Heero had felt the last breath leave his beloved. He hugged Duo's body to his own and cried. He cried like he had cried for no one in his entire life, not for Oden Loed, and not for that little girl and her dog. Now he cried for everyone, but the tears mainly fell for Duo. The person that had taught him how to live, laugh, and especially love. Even as Duo was dying, he taught Heero how to cry.

Heero heard the paramedics show up and rush them both to the hospital, but he did so detached. His body was there, but his mind was still at the crash sight... with the strewn metal and the fire burning. He was still back where he had last been with Duo...

{Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you?
Sweet raptured light
It ends here tonight}

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Owari
Angel Kitty

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(this is the part where my two writing personalities and others discus the work... yeah... i'm a skitzo)

Kitty> [teary eyed] Wow... sniff...

Stormy> [jumped onto Kitty's shoulder cuddling into her head and crying] Duo...

Angel> That moving huh?

Kitty/Stormy> Yeah

Angel> I am so good

Kitty> Yeah... [more crying]

Gabe> You wrote this! Seriously good and so sad [hugs Angel]

Angel> [cuddling into Gabe] Thanks sweetie

Stormy> Poor Duo [more crying]

Angel> Umm... Go see Duo now you'll feel better knowing he's right down the hall and not dead

Kitty/Stormy> OK [sniffles/walk away to go talk to Duo]

Gabe> Don't let Heero read this He'll try to kill you and there's only so much I can do to protect you

Angel> I know but I just got this massively good idea when I saw the words to this song I couldn't help it

Gabe> Whatever you OK

Angel>[rubbing her eyes] My own story got to me too

Gabe> [hugs Angel tighter] Ohh...

Angel> [smiling again] Now I have to write a sequel where Heero gets over it and moves on regretfully Maybe I’ll use ‘My Immortal’…

Kitty> [hearing Angel as she enters] Not until I post a fic!

Angel> [pouting] fine come on Gabe [go to their room]

Kitty> Oh well Please review! tell Ang your opinions on it! Oh! Now Stormy will answer any questions for you too…