Simple and Clean

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Song: Simple and Clean

Artist: Utada Hikaru

Couple: Trowa x Duo

Living in a city like this…it’s easy to feel dirty. Everyone using you for their own gain. When did life get so complicated? I only know of one time when it isn’t. When we’re here like this. Right after we collapse together, you always hold my braid and stare at me with those emerald eyes that make me want to jump you all over again. I usually do.

When you walk away
You don’t hear me say please
Oh, baby, don’t go
Simple and clean is the way that you’re making me feel tonight
It’s hard to let it go

You’re always gone when I wake up. I know you have work, but it would be nice to wake next to you, still wrapped in your arms. You make things so simple for me. I hate getting up without you, and the only way I can force myself out of your bed is knowing that I’ll see you again tonight.

You’re giving me too many things
Lately you’re all I need
You smiled at me and said,

When you gave me that ring, I couldn’t believe it. You told me that it was a pre-engagement ring. To top the night off, you asked me to move in with you. I was so happy, I couldn’t stop crying. Then we made love for the first time in ‘our house.’

Don’t get me wrong I love you
But does that mean I have to meet your father?
When we are older you’ll understand
What I meant when I said “No,
I don’t think life is quite that simple.”

We were in bed snuggling later that night. You asked if you could finally meet my family. I don’t know how many times I told you no. Yet you still ask. I tell you ‘no’ every time. My family is in denial about me being gay and I don’t think it’s a good idea to just introduce you as my lover. They always trick me into going on blind-dates with women, and I’m too nice to just leave. So I just grit my teeth and deal with it till they give up.

When you walk away
You don’t hear me say please
Oh, baby, don’t go
Simple and clean is the way that you’re making me feel tonight
It’s hard to let it go

I woke alone the next morning. Well, except for the fresh flowers on the nightstand. Those were new. I was almost glad you weren’t there when I woke. I avoided the question yesterday, but today I have to tell them that I’m done. I’m staying with you, even if they disown me for it.

The daily things
That keep us all busy
Are confusing me, that’s when you came to me and said,

I should know better. The second I walked into the house my mother was on the phone and my father was talking about how they found the perfect girl for me. I tried so hard, hell, I ended up yelling at them that I was gay and it wasn’t going to change. They wouldn’t listen to me. The woman was on her way and that was that. I tried to hide in my room but they drug me out the moment she arrived.

My parents talked us into going for a walk…well, actually, they talked her into the walk and she pulled me along for it. Why don’t people believe me when I say I’m gay? Is the braid not enough of a tip off? I figured there was nothing I could do now but wait the date out until she gave up trying to turn me straight. I thought it couldn’t get any worse…but then I saw you coming down the street. At first you didn’t notice us but when you did, you stopped right in the middle of the sidewalk.

Wish I could prove I love you
But does that mean I have to walk on water?
When we are older you’ll understand
It’s enough when I say so,
And maybe some things are that simple

She was going to pull me right past you. I knew what it looked like. I yanked my arm away from her and stood in front of you. I wasn’t sure if I was allowed to hug you at that moment. You told me you loved me and turned away. I know you wanted to ask, but you’re the kind of guy that doesn’t want to make me embarrassed, even at your own expense.

When you walk away
You don’t hear me say please
Oh, baby, don’t go
Simple and clean is the way that you’re making me feel tonight
It’s hard to let it go

I was frozen. That was the first time you said it. I knew you did, but we’ve never said it. You were almost at the corner and the woman was trying to pull me the other way. Things were going way too fast, I didn’t know what to do. I wasn’t sure I could do anything. I heard myself yell to you and I was so happy that you came back. I meant what I yelled. I love you and I really do thing it’s time I introduced you to my family.

Hold me
Whatever lies beyond this morning
Is a little later on
Regardless of warnings, the future doesn’t scare me at all
Nothing’s like before

We told the woman good-bye and left her there. For once, I didn’t feel guilty for leaving. Earlier when I was hiding in my room, I had packed my things. I was moving in with you, even if they were against it.

The questions started as soon as we walked in. You didn’t let go of my hand, not even when my father told you that you weren’t welcome. My mother said that you were corrupting me. I couldn’t hold back the snicker for that one. I was the one who picked you up. I told them as much as I pulled you up the stairs to my old room.

We grabbed the bags and I watched your smile grow with every bag you picked up. We went back downstairs and received another onslaught of questions and accusations. I knew you were about to burst, but you didn’t think it was your place. I watched your reactions to what was being said before I made up my mind. I finally told you that you were my family now too and you could say what ever you wanted to them. Yeah, it pissed them off, but I held up my hand to silence them and flipped my hand around so they could see the ring you bought me. They were speechless. You took your time explaining everything to them. You even went as far as to give them your phone number before we left.

When you walk away
You don’t hear me say please
Oh, baby, don’t go
Simple and clean is the way that you’re making me feel tonight
It’s hard to let it go

You held my hand the entire way home. Long after the yelling from my house had faded away. My mother called as soon as we shut the door to our house. She begged me to come home. She said I could go through counseling, that I would realize that two men just don’t belong together. I told her not to call again until she could accept us.

Hold me
Whatever lies beyond this morning
Is a little later on
Regardless of warnings, the future doesn’t scare me at all
Nothing’s like before

You knew I wanted to cry. They didn’t understand, they probably never would. They were still my family, even if they couldn’t accept us. You sat on the couch and pulled me onto your lap. You held me till I stopped shaking, you kissed me till I couldn’t remember why I was so upset. You took things slow, like it was our first time all over again. I can’t count how many times you told me you loved me that night, but I returned it every time.

I’m not sure when I passed out, but when I woke you were there next to me, holding my braid. Maybe love is the only thing simple left, but people are afraid of it, afraid of the hurt that comes with it. There will be hard times, but waking up like this makes all the problems we’ll face worth it. I love you.

Hold me
Whatever lies beyond this morning
Is a little later on
Regardless of warnings, the future doesn’t scare me at all
Nothing’s like before

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