Destrution of Perfection

A/N. Warning Yaoi, rape, violence. If you donÃÕ like please donÃÕ read.
I donÃÕ own Gundam Wing.

This was originally posted on ffnet under the same name but me being my paranoid self is posting it here as well. How the site motto can be ÁÇree your imagination nad release yourl¡¦il¡¦is beyond me when they go around taking down lemons.
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ItÃÔ been year to the day since you, betrayed me, hurt me, abused me, raped me. Do you even know it was a year ago today you destroyed me. IÃ×e watched you as you sit and talk with the others. You show no remorse or guilt. Like you never did anything to me.

IÃ×e heard you talking to the others about how worried you all are about how much IÃ×e changed and you claim to know nothing about what sparked it. IÃÅ love to tell the others what happened to be. What the wonderful Heero Yuy did to me. IÃÅ walk in and say

Å®y problem is ¡¦and IÃÍl point you out. Your name alone was enough to want me to throw up ¡¦that bastard raped me. He raped me and you wonder why IÃÎ screwed¡¦

But I cant do that. IÃÅ never have the nerves to admit to anyone face to face how worthless I am. I could never admit how dirty IÃ×e become.

Do you even remember the events? TheyÃÓe perfectly clear in my mind. Let me refresh your memory.

I loved nighttime on Peacemillion. Not that there is a night and day in space but the time most people were resting. It was the most peaceful and calmest part of the day after the battles we encountered. I used to stay up awe struck at the sight if the earth and the infinite space of stars. It truly was a breathtaking view. How anyone could wish to destroy that view was beyond me.

It wasnÃÕ quiet for too long though because you barged in extremely annoyed about something. In a strange way I felt an attraction to you. You were one of the most beautiful people IÃÅ ever laid my eyes on. Your hair was a brilliant shade of chocolate brown framing you deep blue eyes. If it wasnÃÕ for the fact my heart longed for another I could of easily fallen for you.

Anyway, you stormed over to a chair and sat down before you sent the table flying across the room. I was slightly alarmed by your mood but I walked up to you lightly touching you on the shoulder and asked

Å©eero are you ok?¡¦ I must have made you jump judging by the speed you left your seat and turned to face me.

Ųuatre were the fuck did you come from?¡¦

Å´orry I like to came here when everyoneÃÔ in bed. ItÃÔ so calm and quiet. WhatÃÔ wrong Heero?¡¦

ůothing everythingÃÔ fucking fantastic¡¦You snapped. You sounded t abt about something. I walked around to face you.

Å©eero-¡¦

Å´hut the fuck up Quatre. If I needed any help IÃÅ ask for it. Just leave me alone go and play with Duo¡¦

ŸhatÃÔ that meant to mean?¡¦I asked confused

ŪtÃÔ obvious youÃÓe screwing each other. We all know.¡¦You sounded jealous and I was shocked Duo and me werenÃÕ ÁÔcrewing¡¦as you so elegantly put it and I told you,

ŪÃ×e never done anything like that with Duo and I highly doubt we ever will¡¦ You looked surprised and the tone of your voice softened.

Ÿell you wonÃÕ mind if I do this¡¦

Your lips gently brushed me own as your hand caressed my check. The kiss sent my head spinning. You gently stroked your tongue against my lips and I gladly allowed you entrance. After a few minutes we had to pause for breath.

Ųuatre you are the most perfect person I know. Your so beautiful, so pure, so kind, so intelligent¡¦

You kissed me again this time a little bit harsher. Your hands found themselves under my shirt gentle trailing up my sides. I knew what was going to happen and as much as I would have liked to proceed I didnÃÕ feel like that about you. I wanted my first time to be with someone I love not with someone in love with someone else like you were with Relina.

But you didnÃÕ let it stop there. You clasped my hand and before I could say anything you dragged me to my room. As soon as the door closed your lips were attached to my skin gently kissing my neck.

ůo Heero stop I canÃÕ do this with you¡¦

I pushed you off me and immediately regretted it. I donÃÕ think IÃÅ ever seen you look so furious.

Ÿhat arenÃÕ I good enough for you? ArenÃÕ I good enough for anyone? Not her and now you?¡¦You looked hurt, it was understandable IÃÅ just rejected you but the tone of your voice as you spoke next made my blood run cold. Å°r is it because IÃÎ not Duo Maxwell. YouÃÍl only whore yourself out to him.¡¦

I felt angry. How could you accue ofe of something like that but I also felt scared.
You radiated anger.

ŪÃ×e never done any such thing with Duo. We havenÃÕ even kissed,¡¦I said tentatively trying not to anger you anymore

Å£ut you want to?¡¦You asked. I couldnÃÕ lie and I hung my head as I answered

ŪÃÎ in love with Duo. I admit it but all I want is for him to be happy even if that means he isnÃÕ with me. His happiness is foremost in my mind¡¦

Å­iar. No one gives a damn about what anyone else wonÃÕ as long as they get what they wont,¡¦You snarled at me

ŪÃÎ not lying. I think you better leave Heero,¡¦I said still staring at the carpet.

źou lie to much Quatre. You donÃÕ deserve to be perfect. Your far from perfect¡¦

You used the back of your hand to slap me across the face sending me flying across the room crashing into my desk and chair. I banged my head on the corner of the desk and I felt the blood fall from above my eyebrow.

Ŷp¡¦You demanded.

I somehow managed to get to my feet using the desk for support. I was in shock. YouÃÅ never used violence out of battle especially on one of us. All I could think was why you would do something like that? I stared down at the floor rooted to the spot petrified of what was going to happen next.

You stood towards me again and said something I couldnÃÕ make out. I couldnÃÕ understand why you would do this. One minute being as gentle as IÃÅ ever seen you next the opposite.

You grabbed my hair and forced me to look into your eyes. The blue orbs normally so icy and distant flared with heat and anger and something else I knew I wouldnÃÕ like. I knew youÃÅ lost your grip on sanity and I deeply feared for my life.

You kissed me again but this time it was harsh, angry with none of the tenderness of before. I squirmed trying to break free of the hold you had on me but you just gripped my hair tighter.

You grinded you body into mine. I felt your arousal press into me. I knew what you wanted. I knew my virginity wouldnÃÕ last the night and that scared me more than the thought of my own death.

Your tongue rammed its self into my mouth and I clamped down on it with my teeth. You didnÃÕ seem bothered bys bus but you did break the kiss and move your attention to my neck were you started to bite, branding me.

ŵhat mark makes you mine. YouÃÓe my whore and I donÃÕ like whores who play rough¡¦

Your knee connected with my groin making me double over with pain. You pushed me back onto my bed straddling my hips, pinning me to the bed. I scrambled I tried to get away I whimpered but nothing I did helped it just seemed to anger you all the more.

Å´hut up!¡¦You slapped me again to make your message clear.

Å©elp!¡¦I screamed knowing no one would come.

Ū told you to shut the fuck up!¡¦This time you punched me. I winced as I gingerly prodded a freshly loosened tooth.

Your hand slid down to my trousers pulling the belt I wore off me and used it to tie my heads behind me to the bedpost.

űlease Heero stop. CanÃÕ we pretend this never happened? Please donÃÕ do this to me¡¦I whimpered praying for the madness to end. I only just realised I had tears flooding my eyes, rolling down my checks.

You ignored my cries for help and ripped open my shirt but not being able to full remove due to my bindings. I felt your arousal again as you rubbed you body against mine causing the friction you so greatly desired. All I desired was for this to be over, to never have happened.

You started to attack my exposed chest placing light kisses over my stomach before using your teeth to harden my nipples. My breath caught in my throat . You smiled at me with that damnable predatory grin and muttered

źou enjoy that donÃÕ you my little whore. You wanted it all along¡¦

I couldnÃÕ speak IÃÅ lost my voice to the fear, disgust and betrayal moving through my body. You Heero had betrayed my trust but my own body had betrayed me to your touch. My attention was torn back to you as you whispered in my ear,

Å´eeing as youÃÓe enjoying yourself you wonÃÕ mind if I take what I wont¡¦

It wasnÃÕ a question it was a statement.

My eyes snapped open and I peered own at him as you opened the fly on my trousers then pulled them off along with my boxers. IÃÅ never felt more exposed as I did in that moment. I lay naked before you, laid out like a feast ready to be eaten. ThatÃÔ how you looked at my body. As if it was some piece of meat for you to sample and eat.

űerfection Quatre. What else would it be?¡¦your voice layered with contempt

You stood up and removed your own cloths before lying back down on me. I silently shook my head, pleading to you to stop, hoping youÃÅ understand. I clamped my legs together trying to prevent the inevitable but you managed to open them. I couldnÃÕ move I was frozen with fear. There was nothing left for me to d loo looked up into your blue eyes hoping this nightmare would be over quickly.

You slammed into me. You didnÃÕ even bother to prepare me or stretch me. I screamed as I felt my tender flesh rip under the force of your thrusts. Felt my warm blood trickle down my thigh. Each time you pounded into my sensitive opening I could feel my self break more and more, I felt more blood fall down my naked leg. I wanted nothing more than to die to escape the fate you forced upon me. Unfortunately I was left to scream as pounded into me not giving a damn about the torture you caused me.

I felt you climax, realising your seed into me, mixing with my free flowing blood.

I was crying as hard as IÃÅ ever cried in my life. I can imagine how I looked to you. Blood drying on my face, a large le ble bruise on my face, a neck and chest full of bite marks and bruises. A pool of blood and seamen staining my bed cloths from were youÃÅ forcefully removed my innocence.

ŪsnÃÕ it fun to break perfection Quatre. IsnÃÕ it satisfying to know you broke something so sweet, so centcent, so beautiful. YouÃÓe none of these now. YouÃÓe worthless. Your nothing but a broken whore. No one could ever love a whore like you. YouÃÅ disgust them. YouÃÓe my little whore now. What are you?¡¦

You were right. I was garbage. I was lower than low. I didnÃÕ deserve love, I didnÃÕ deserve anng. ng. I was dirty, filthy, polluted by you.

ŪÃÎ your little whore,¡¦I whispered meekly. What else could I have been?

Ũood. Now clean this up¡¦

You rammed your cock into my mouth before I had chance to reply. The taste of my own blood and your essence mixing in my mouth, ovelminlming my senses with the desire to vomit. I allowed you to fuck my mouth without the slightest protest. YouÃÅ already done your worse nothing you could of done would ever compare to that. I swallowed when you were done.

źour mine now Quatre. Not DuoÃÔ or anyone elseÃÔ but mine`¡¦

You undid my belt leaving me to pass out on my own in my room.

I donÃÕ know how I managed to survive the next morning. I woke up to find Trowa banging on the door wanting to know why my door was locked. I doubt youÃ×e ever
woken up in a mess of you own blood and someone elses seamen. Let me explain its not a pleasant situaton that IÃÅ like to find myself in again.

I somehow managed to stand and get to the bathroom without passing out and tried to clean myself. I scrubbed until my skin was pink and I stared to bleed but IÃÅ never be clean again.

I donÃÕ even know how I managed to face everyone the following day. I was positive they would know how dirty I was but they just saw the old QuatThe The stupid na¡¦e old me who trusted people and believed in kindness. What a fool was I? Worrying about one of my friends caused that to happen to me. I ended up being your punch bll bll because Relina rejected you.

I think that was what sparked such an extreme change. You won. You got to live your happily ever after with the Relina while I had my life destroyed. I truly do despise you. I never knew I could hate someone as much as I hate you. In one night you broke my mind, body and soul and for a punishment you gained all youÃÅ ever wanted.

You reduced me to being your unpaid whore. Although you never did use my services again plenty of other people did. You reduced me to being a filthy whore and thatÃÔ what I became. IÃÎ just everybodyÃÔ little fuck toy. IÃÎ worthless; my body is free to all.

I told you that I loved Duo that night and he confessed to loving me last night. I donÃÕ deserve him. I donÃÕ deserve anyone. I spent so much time dreaming about Duo and living happily ever after with him until we die together from old age but thatÃÔ not going to happen.

You destroyed my life but IÃÎ going to be he one who takes it. See you in hell.

The end

I have no idea were that came from. Would you ever guess IÃÎ an obsessed Quatre fan? I donÃÕ even mind Heero that much.

I am contemplating a sequel what do you think. However, I warn you IÃ×e been contemplating for months.