Shiver

Chapter 11

Pudding

"Oh my God, Ed. What the hell was that?" Roy lifted his head.

I was embarrassed, not able to meet his lazy gaze. Did he think I was damaged? "It, uh, I was just keeping our arrangement."

Roy looked puzzled. "Tell me something, did you really like our arrangement?" He brushed his hand over my forehead.

I turned and let my eyes roam his stunning face. "Maybe." I had to let him find out slowly, if I could let him find out at all.

Roy leaned in and gave me a gentle kiss. "What about it did you like?"

What a loaded question. How could I answer that? Should I tell him I needed to be tamed, craved being at the edge but not allowed to go over until he told me to? "I like, uh, I don't know Roy. How about all of it?"

Roy chuckled. "Come on, Ed. I'm asking for specifics here. Because whatever we did just now, damn, that was hot." His expression changed, he looked serious. "I want to make you happy. You deserve that."

Did I, I wondered? The thought made me squirm for some reason. "Roy, I—" He was looking at me, with those dark eyes I so adored. Would they turn away if I told him the truth?

"Finish your sentence. I want to know how to make you happy. Listen, I don't care what it is, I'll do it." He ran the back of his fingers over my cheek.

So, the master had become the slave, I thought. It was a strange concept. I tell him to tell me what to do. It made me smile. "Okay. All those things you did before? I want all of it, but I want it more."

"More? Like how?"

I had to think for minute, to find words to voice my feelings. "I want you to have complete control over me. I want you to punish me if I can't do what you ask. I want you to make me wait and beg and . . . " I was getting hard again, just thinking about it. "Oh, please . . . "

Roy's brows furrowed. "Are you sure?"

"Please, Roy, please control me." I felt my arousal taking hold in my gut, all over again, like it'd never been satiated. It was the begging. I knew it.

Running his hand down my side, Roy twisted his torso and looked down. "Ed, are you? Damn." He lightly brushed his palm over my erection.

I bit my lip to stifle a moan and willed my hips to stay still while his palm ignited heat inside me.

Roy brought his gaze back to mine. "Continuing the arrangement will make you happy?" He had his signature smirk.

"Yes," I said, softly.

Roy let his stomach fall down to rest over my length. I pulsed with pleasure, wanting to thrust up into him. But I wouldn't.

Roy looked a bit confused for a moment and he smiled. "So, you want me to tease you?"

I nodded, every nerve ending of my body was lit up in anticipation.

His smile never left his face as he slowly slid down my body and began to lick a trail over my chest, my stomach, in my navel. "Don't move a muscle and don't you dare make any noise. You have to learn control."

I felt my erection quiver with his words. His tongue felt like fire going down my body. I could lose myself and stay here forever in this bed, with him doing this to me.

Roy lapped at me, licking the mess off my stomach from our last round of lovemaking. His tongue was slick and wet and tickled as it roamed over my skin, tasting my flesh, taunting me. His head dove deeper, between my legs, licking over my thighs.

I shut my eyes tight. I had to keep control. My hips wanted to thrust and buck and my back needed to arch. But I kept it all inside while his mouth sucked all around the base of my erection.

"Hold still, Ed. I'm going to touch you and you can't move." He smirked up at me before coming down on my erection with his tongue. He licked up my length and swirled the head.

A rush of pleasure raced through my body. "Ah—" I bit my tongue.

Roy stopped and raised himself up to my face, head shaking. "Ed, that won't do. You didn't stay quiet. Now you'll have to be punished."
I was surprised by how much my desire flared with those words. It was like all my nerves were firing at once. "Y-yes, Roy."

He thought for a moment, tapping his fingers on his lips. "I'll leave you for a little while. I have some work to do. While I'm gone, I'm going to have to make sure you won't do anything, but that you'll stay just like this – aroused for me."

Oh the agony. It rippled inside me, made me want to do everything I shouldn't even more. "Please, punish me, Roy, do it. Make me control myself." I felt a pulse in my erection, like the begging alone could bring on my climax. I took a deep inhale and bit my lip.

Roy smiled before leaning down and kissing me hard. His tongue danced in my mouth, flicked against my teeth, drove my desire to a new level. When he pulled way, he pushed his index finger in my mouth. "Here, suck on this and don't make a sound."

I sucked hard on his finger, swirling it with my tongue, all the while gazing into his dark eyes and seeing the immense love he had for me. My brows furrowed and tears stung my eyes. The emotion between us was so intense; I thought my heart would literally stop.

Roy pulled the finger out. "Ed, are you okay? You look upset."

I blinked and a tear escaped down my cheek. I turned my head to the side and wiped it on the pillow, hoping he wouldn't notice it. "I-I'm fine. I just love you. And you love me, right?"

"God, you know I do. I won't do this though if it makes you cry." Roy started to wrap his arms around me.

I grabbed his arms. "No, it doesn't. Please, don't stop. Punish me." I had to make him see I needed the punishment.

Roy gazed into my eyes and appeared to think for a moment. "Why are you crying?"

"I-I'm not, I just, well . . . " I sighed. "I just love you so much. Sometimes it hurts. I can't help it."

Roy smiled and looked down, like what I told him embarrassed him. "Oh." Reaching his hand down between my legs, he began to run circles under and over my sac.

I gasped and my hips jerked. I was on fire again, craving him inside me.

Roy smirked at me. "Ed, you didn't control yourself again." He ran his finger up my length and circled over the top. "I'll have to think of something really nasty to punish you with now."

Clenching my teeth, I fought to keep my hips steady. His finger sent pleasure shivering up my spine. My erection jerked from the force of it. "Oh, God, Roy, please, punish me."

Roy continued to run his finger over my erection, teasing me, making my body shudder. I bit my lip so hard I almost drew blood, but it kept me quiet.

"Okay, I got it." Roy sat up and hesitated before climbing off the bed. He stood over me and gazed down, appearing to take in my need. "You sure you want to do this?" His hand reached up to push a finger between his lips while he waited for my response.

"Yes, please, Roy." I lay on the bed naked and so aroused, every inch of my skin tingled, every muscle ached. He was making me beg for my punishment on top of getting punished. Perfect.

A wide smile played on Roy's face. "I don't know Ed, what I thought of might be a little over the top." Roy swayed slowly, biting his finger.

The look on Roy's face almost sent me over the edge. "Roy, please . . . "

"Okay." Roy left the room.

I watched his pale lithe body leave the room and the hall light come on after he left. Clanking sounds snaked their way into the room. Suddenly, I saw Roy's silhouette as he emerged in the doorway.

Roy had a bowl, tape and gauze in his hands. "Okay, Ed, we're going to play a little game."

I sat up on my elbows, smirking, and shivered thinking what he might have in store.

Roy walked to bed and climbed up on his knees. He set the bowl down beside me. "This might be a little cold at first."

I immediately looked down into it. It was dark.

"Lay back down."

I did as he asked.

Roy took a spoon and filled the gauze with the substance from the bowl. "Okay, now this will be cold." He placed the filled gauze over my erection.

The cool substance felt slick and smooth over me. I fought to keep from moaning. As Roy put it all in place, he ran the substance over my erection, sending pleasure racing through me. I clenched my teeth.

Roy ripped four strips of tape, putting one on each finger. He then taped the gauze to my hips to keep it in place. "There you go, Ed. I want you to turn on your stomach now."

I looked up at him in confusion, but as soon as I turned over and pressed my erection into the substance and felt its slick wetness on me, I almost cried out. "Oh, God, Roy, this is good."

"You like that, huh? It's chocolate pudding, Ed. And it's taped to you. I want you to keep your pudding clean, you understand?" Roy bent down close to my ear as I nodded. "And if you keep it clean and don't remove the tape, which, by the way, won't stick again once it's removed, then I'll lick the pudding off you as your reward."

"Oh, God . . . " I wanted to move and thrust and moan, but anything could put me over the edge and I didn't want to disappoint him. As he crept off the bed, the slightest jiggle rubbed my erection over the pudding and sent me reeling. All I could think about was having Roy's mouth on me, licking it off. I was in heaven.

"I'll be back in about an hour. If you keep that tape on and keep it clean, you'll get your reward." Roy dressed and left the room.

I lay on my stomach, wanting to thrust so badly, but I couldn't. I wouldn't disappoint my Roy. But still, every time I repositioned a limb and made the bed move, my need intensified. All I could think about was how exquisite it would feel to have Roy lick it off when he came back. Any thoughts of Envy and what he did to me vanished. As long as I had this, the pain and shame were gone.

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I'd heard Roy fumbling around his house and his muffled voice on the phone a few times. Finally, I saw his shadow from the doorway. So many times I almost gave in to my urges, so many times I'd let myself squirm just a little too much. But in the end, I did it. I kept my control.

"Ed? You asleep?" Roy stopped in the doorway.

"No. Roy, I want you. I did what you asked." I almost moved my hips, but caught myself.

Roy walked into the room. The bed jiggled as he climbed onto it.

I clenched my teeth as a wave of pleasure rushed through me. I was so sensitive it wouldn't take much to push me over the edge.

Roy lay beside me and put his face close to mine. "Ed, were you a good boy?" He rested his hand over my buttocks and pushed.

My erection slid in the pudding. I struggled to maintain control of myself. If he did that a few more times, there'd be no way for me to hang on. "Y-yes."

Roy smiled and pressed on me again.

My erection hummed in the pudding, gaining hot slick friction against the gauze. I began to pant, forcing myself to keep from letting the sensation consume me.

"You are wound up tight, aren't you? I have to admit, I had no idea you'd be so into this." Roy ran a light trail up my back and brushed my cheek. He leaned in and kissed me.

I pulled away from the kiss. Everything was too much. My body was uncoiling. "Roy, I can't take it. I'm sorry, I—"

"Shh, settle down." Roy stroked my cheek, so light it tickled a little. "Just breathe deep and relax. It's all right." He gave me a deep, slow kiss. "It's all right." He guided me onto my back and sat up on an elbow to inspect the tape before removing it. After gently lifting the gauze off me, he placed it, clean side down, on the nightstand.

My body pulsed with need. I licked my lips in anticipation of finally getting what I wanted. But, did I want it to be over? Was it too soon?

Roy dropped his head down between my legs. "Go ahead, you earned it, moan, thrust, do whatever you want."

"Roy, wait, please." I grabbed his shoulders. Did I want to continue like this?

"Ed?"

"I, uh, maybe you should leave it on, um, all night." Was I insane?

"Come on, the fun part of waiting is finally getting what you waited for, isn't it?" Roy appeared confused. I didn't blame him, so was I.

"Yeah, but, make me have control." I knew this was what I craved. He had to tell me what to do, all of it.

"Okay. Don't move. Don't make a sound. Don't come until I tell you." Roy began to lick and suck on my sac.

Oh the pleasure that rushed my body, it made me swoon. I kept perfectly still and quiet, with my teeth clenched and my hands fisted, while he ran his tongue over and under my sack, lapped and the base of my erection, laved me all around my length without giving me the direct stimulation I needed to release.

Roy lifted his head. "Only one spot left to clean, Ed. I want you to hold it until I tell you, okay?"

I nodded.

Roy licked up my length.

Tingling rushed through me. A tiny sound came out of me.

Roy licked again. "You can move now, Ed, but no sounds." He licked up and took the head in his mouth.

I thrust my hips up, but realized doing so might make me loose control before I was allowed. The sweet frustration of it heightened my desire even more. My body trembled.

"Moan, let it out. Scream if you have to, but don't lose it yet." Roy licked me and swirled the tip of my erection before flicking it with his tongue.

Loud urgent cries came out of me and filled the room. I drew my hips down, doing my best to keep my climax inside me. How I ached for release and how I thrived on not being able to surrender to it.

"Okay, Ed, do it." Roy covered me with his mouth and pumped hard.

There was no way to stop my peak from rushing to the surface. It forced through, making me so sensitive I did scream. It spilled out of me, shooting my seed into Roy's mouth, sending intense shudders through my body, and making me writhe in ecstasy. "Oh, God, Roy," I panted. It finally slowed and Roy pulled off me.

Roy came back up and draped himself over me. "Damn, Ed. I don't know what I'm going to do with you." He placed a soft kiss on my cheek.

I wrapped my arms around him and buried myself in his neck, still feeling dazed from my climax. "It's okay, isn't it?"

Roy lifted his head to face me. "What?"

"Being like this, wanting you to do these things to me. It's okay, you like it too?"

Roy's eyes darted between mine. "Yes, it's okay. As long as it's not hurting either of us, it's fine. If it hurts, you have to tell me so we can stop. I won't hurt you, ever. You have to know that." He placed a soft kiss on my lips. "You deserve the best, Ed." He kissed me hard and firm. "I love you."

I pulled him close, lost in the moment. "Roy, don't you want something?"
Roy chuckled against my neck. "I'll get mine in the morning. I'm too old and too tired to keep up with you right now."

"Oh." I squeezed him. "You taste like pudding." I grinned.

"I like pudding." Roy snuggled in close to my neck and shut his eyes.