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The Sound of Silence	By : ZaKai Category: Fullmetal Alchemist > Yaoi - Male/Male Views: 11395 -:- Recommendations : 1 -:- Currently Reading : 1
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A/N: this story moves
rather quickly through the years, just to give a heads up about the need to pay
attention to that.� The �six years
earlier� is the only pointer that will be given toward time change.

The Sound of Silence

Chapter One

Secrets

Six years earlier...

Ed looked down at the pavement as he walked along the
streets of East City, home of the military�s Eastern
Headquarters.�

It was dark.

Of course it was dark.

It was the middle of the night.

The twelve year-old alchemist
kicked at a small pebble that just happened to be in his way and watched it
clatter noisily off the sidewalk and into the empty street.

That was how he felt.

Empty.

How appropriate.

Ed sighed and adjusted his long, red coat so that it was pulled
more tightly around him; the hoody part of the coat
falling into his eyes for a moment before he could readjust it on his head.� Irritably, he decided it just wasn�t worth
the trouble and let the top of the hoody fall just in
front of his eyes.�

He was looking down anyway�

It was a cold, windy night.

Of course it was
cold and windy; it was near the end of autumn�

But it was more than that��
It was cold and windy because the world hated him.�

Plain and simple.

At least that was how he felt.

Nothing seemed to be going his way; nothing at all.� But then wasn�t that just the way his whole
life was?� Not that he was going to give
up.�

No way.

But it was still frustrating.

Well, Ed supposed he couldn�t say nothing was going his way� He did
pass the state exam a couple of months ago.�
That was something, right?� But
then there was all that horrible stuff with Nina and Tucker, and then what
happened with Barry the Chopper��

The boy didn�t think he�d ever been so scared in his
life��

Well, maybe when he and Al had tried to� but that was a
different kind of fear�

Now though, he and Al had a purpose.� They had a plan� They�d find the
Philosopher�s Stone and get Al back to normal.

A particularly cold breeze made Ed hug himself even
tighter.�

He�d thought it would be much easier than it had been.� Ed had expected to find it within at least a
few months.� That�s the way everything
had always been for him.� Study, search,
find.� But the stone was proving to be
extremely difficult.

Ed sighed.� They would find it, and he would get Al back to normal.� His brother always said �us� or �we�, but
that wasn�t the way he thought.� Maybe Al
would get back to normal.

But not him.

He just couldn�t believe he�d get back to normal.� This was his punishment for what he�d done. Ed
supposed he could live with that as long as he could get things right with Al,
that�s all that mattered.

Thunder rumbled overhead, but Ed didn�t bother speeding up
his pace.� Even if he got rained on, it
was better than lying in bed, tossing and turning, not being able to sleep.

Ed sighed.

He hated East
City.� He�d much rather report in at Central, but no�
someone had to get themselves
promoted and sent east.� Even then, Ed
would still rather report into Central�

Ed couldn�t deny the fact that had it not been for his
commanding officer, he�d probably still be moping around back in Rizembool,
probably without the automail as well.�
The appearance of that man on that night had given him the idea.�

A purpose.

But�

There were times that the colonel just acted�strange.� The man would look at him�differently.� Ed wasn�t sure what to make of it.� Mustang never looked at him like that when
there were other people around, just when they were alone�

The blond frowned at the sidewalk as it became lighter; pale
colors of neon lights that belonged to the city�s night life of bars and clubs
made the ground glow in faint colors.

Ed he didn�t know how he should react to the older alchemist.� The looks were almost like ones he�d seen the
man give to women passing on the street��
But then that would make no sense.�
The colonel liked women, and Ed was definitely no woman�� Besides that, Ed didn�t consider himself all
that good looking, especially with the automail.� Then there was the fact that he was
freakishly short, twelve years-old, and the
man�s subordinate.

The boy shook his head.�
He just didn�t understand�

When he heard some people laughing raucously, Ed picked up
his pace.� This wasn�t an area he wanted
to be in so late at night.

Suddenly, someone called his name and he stopped.�

�Ed?��

The blond turned around, and lifted his gaze, but the cowl
of his hood made it impossible to see.�
Grunting in irritation, Ed was about to pull his hands out of his
pockets to adjust the hood when it was lifted and placed in a less precarious
position on his head.�

�I thought it was you�� Roy Mustang muttered.�

�Well, duh!� How many other people do you know that dress
like I do?� Ed replied irritably.� He
wasn�t exactly happy about having the man he had just been thinking about
appear.� The blond looked the man up and
down then said, �You look nice� Been out on a date?��

Mustang, who was dressed in a nice pair of dress slacks and
a gray button up shirt, grinned and said, �You think I look nice?�

Ed rolled his eyes and glanced away.� Besides those looks, the colonel had been
giving him when they were alone; there were also the casual comments�nothing
too out of place and definitely nothing that was actually inappropriate, but�

�To answer your question, yes I was on a date, but she left earlier�the story of my life�� the last
was muttered and Ed almost didn�t hear it.�

�So why are you still here?� Ed asked, nodding at the
nightclub.�

The twenty-six year-old shrugged and grinned.� �That is
a good question.� Perhaps it was time
that I left.�

Ed pulled his coat closer around himself.� �I�m taking a walk by myself.�� He wanted to wallow
in his self pity alone, and he especially
didn�t want his creepy commanding officer walking with him.

But when Ed turned around and began walking away, Mustang fell
into step beside him.� Irritably Ed
growled, �Alone means one
person.� Maybe they should make sure
soldiers can count before they�re promoted��

�Well Ed, it is late
at night, and it could be dangerous for you to be out alone.� I�m just doing my job to make sure you�re
safe.

�What a load of crap�� Ed muttered.�

Neither of them spoke for a while as they left the bars and
nightclubs behind them, then Mustang said, �You know� my apartment isn�t too
far from here� I make a pretty decent cup of coffee��

Something warm did sound
good, but that would mean going to where the colonel lived��

�Why would I want coffee?�
It�s after one in the morning,� Ed muttered grumpily.�

�Because it�s cold outside,� the man said, undisturbed by
the blond�s moodiness.� �I thought maybe
you�d like to warm up.�

No� Ed wasn�t sure he wanted to go to the colonel�s place,
but it was cold� and something warm would be nice��

�I have hot chocolate too��

Suddenly a drop of rain landed on his nose, then another on
his cheek.� It was only beginning to
sprinkle, but it would probably get worse and soon.

Sighing, Ed nodded.�
Mustang put a hand on the younger boy�s shoulder as if to guide him
which way to go.� Ed shrugged his
shoulder, but the man kept his hold there for a moment, then
ran his hand along Ed�s back before taking his hand away.� One more oddity to add to the list�

Mustang casually touching him every so often��

Though he would never admit it out loud, sometimes it was
nice, like when it was a pat on the back for something good he did, but
sometimes it happened at the strangest times, for no real reason��

And, of course, it only happened when they were alone
together.

When the colonel turned a corner, Ed followed and they began
walking toward a tall apartment building. It took about five minutes to get
there and when they walked into the foyer Ed crinkled his nose.�

One wall was covered with small boxes for mail and the other
wall held a faded picture of� something� Ed wasn�t sure.� The paint on the walls, which looked as if it
had once been tan, but was now a putrid smoky color, was pealing and cracked in
many places. There were a couple of worn pieces of furniture and a small table
where a group of men sat smoking and playing cards; a bottle of some sort of
alcohol sat on the table.�

�We�ll have to take the stairs,� Mustang said.� �The elevator is broken.��

Ed was only too glad to get into the stairwell.� The men at the table had ceased their game
and had started grinning lecherously at him.�
A couple even chuckled and whispered something about �sharing�� whatever
that meant�

After five flights of stairs they left the stairwell and
walked down a narrow hallway with doors on either side.� The walls were a sort of faded pinkish color
and there were smears of dirt and � other colors� Ed didn�t know�he didn�t even
want to guess.

�Here we are,� Mustang said and pulled some keys from his
pocket.� The chipped, brass colored
number on the door read 5-13.� Ed, now
feeling slightly nervous, almost turned around and left, but the thought of the
group of men stopped him.� It wasn�t as
if he couldn�t defend himself if he had to but�

Thoughts of what happened with Barry the Chopper filled him
with an unexplainable dread� Memories of running for his life, of a fear he�d
never known before�

�You going to stand out in the hall all night?� the colonel�s
voice brought the short alchemist out of his thoughts.

Ed slipped inside and shut the door behind him.� The apartment was a small studio apartment,
and the only light on was the one in the kitchen.� There was a couch that looked as if it
doubled for a bed, given the pillow and the blanket piled sloppily on one side.�

On each side of the couch was a small end table.� A desk sat near a window on the far end of
the room.� The desk had a pile of books
on it as well as a couple of pictures and a bottle of some sort of
alcohol.� There was a garbage can next to
the desk that held papers and beer bottles; a few of the empty brown bottles
dotted the floor near the desk and the couch.

In the corner opposite the desk lay a mound of books and
papers and by that, against the wall opposite the couch was a small rack where
the colonel�s uniform and other articles of clothes were kept.� Also hanging from the rack was the colonel�s
gun holster complete with the gun.�

Ed shook his head, both at the
irresponsible way the colonel treated the weapon, and the fact that he carried
one at all.� Supposedly, the rational was
that even a trained State Alchemist might need a back up.� Ed had asked about the gun one day, and that
was when he�d first learned that Mustang�s flame alchemy didn�t work in the
rain.

�So, hot chocolate?� asked Mustang.

Ed looked over to the other side of the flat where the dark
haired man stood in the middle of a small kitchen.� He shrugged and nodded, then frowned when the
colonel grinned at him before turning to making their drinks.

�Can�t you afford something better than this?� Ed finally asked when he couldn�t take it anymore.�

�Of course,� the colonel said casually.� �But this is cheap, and it�s away from where
I work.� I prefer it here.� Besides, I want to get something nicer when I
go back to Central, so I�m saving my money.�
It�s not as important to keep up appearances here.�

�I guess�� the boy muttered.

�Why don�t you have a seat?� Mustang invited as he continued
to work in the kitchen.� Ed looked
uncertainly at the couch which, besides the chair at the desk, was the only
place to sit.� �Don�t worry, it�s clean,�
the colonel said when he saw Ed�s reluctance, then
added, �Take off your coat and hang it over there.�� Ed looked to the set of hooks on the wall
where the man�s coat hung.

Sighing, Ed peeled his damp coat off and hung it on one of
the hooks before heading to the couch.� Cleanliness
wasn�t what was bothering the young alchemist.�
Ed sat stiffly on the edge of one end of the couch, leaving plenty of
space so that the colonel could sit farther away on the other side.�

When the dark haired man was finished in the kitchen he walked
over, and handed Ed a mug before sitting next to him.� Ed frowned at the close proximity, and would
have scooted away from the man had he not already been at the end of the
couch.�

The twelve year-old watched the colonel take a drink from
the brown beer bottle before taking a sip of his hot chocolate.�

�So, why are you out so late?� Mustang asked, reclining back
and stretching his legs out.�

Ed took another sip, unsure what to say.� He was out because he couldn�t sleep, and he
felt the need to move.� Tossing and
turning in bed only worried Al, who never slept at all.� His brother was probably worried right now
given how the weather was turning sour.�

�Couldn�t sleep huh?� the older man asked, and Ed gave him a
surprised look.� Mustang grinned and took
another drink from the bottle.� �That�s
what I thought.�� The boy looked down at
his mug.� For some reason, Ed felt
embarrassed that he could be seen through so easily.� Suddenly he felt a hand start rubbing his
back softly, and he stiffened.� �Don�t
worry about it Ed, we all get that way sometimes.�

It felt strange to have the other man touch him like that,
but it was also comforting in a way.� The
only person who had ever really touched him in a comforting gesture since his
mom had died was Al.� Ed loved Al, of
course, but there was definitely a difference between hard metal and the soft
touch of flesh and blood.

Ed took another sip, his emotions conflicting with each
other.� As much as the blond wanted to
tell the man to keep his hands to himself, he also desperately craved human
contact.

They sat that way for a few minutes, Ed sipping on the
cooling chocolate drink, and the older man rubbing his back.�

�You miss her don�t you?� the colonel asked softly.�

It wasn�t a question.

Ed swallowed hard and asked, �What do you mean�?�

�Your mother.� You miss her.�

The boy blinked down at the mug as tears came to his eyes.� �I�.��
The statement had just been so unexpected that he didn�t know what to
say or how to act, but suddenly he felt much worse than he had all night�

Ed felt the man move closer to him, then
the colonel was taking the cup out of his hands and putting it on the end
table.� �It�s okay Ed,� Mustang whispered
and put his arms around the boy and pulled him back away from the edge of the
couch.� At first Ed resisted, but not
much.� It did feel good to have someone holding him��

Ed rested his head on Mustang�s chest as the older man began
rubbing his back again.� The blond boy
worked hard to keep the tears back.� He
didn�t want the colonel to see him cry��
Ed could hear Mustang�s heart beating and it kind of reminded him of
when he was little and his mom would hold him and�

Again Ed felt the tears come, and again he tried to blink
them away, but one stray tear escaped his eye and fell onto Mustang�s shirt. �It was then that Ed felt the colonel�s hand
slip under his jacket.� The boy could
feel the man�s hand more clearly now since the tank top wasn�t nearly as thick
as the jacket.� Ed felt the colonel�s
fingers touch the skin on his shoulder and below his neck then move back down
over the tanktop again.�

Mustang drank the rest of the beer and tossed the bottle on
the floor where it rolled a bit until it clunked against another bottle, then the man put his other hand on Ed�s leg and started
rubbing it slowly as well.

Ed stiffened a little; this definitely wasn�t the kind of
touching he was used to�

�It�s okay Ed�� the dark haired man whispered, and pulled
the boy even closer.� �We all need to be
comforted sometimes.� Even I need someone
to hug.�� The twelve year-old swallowed
and nodded.� �How about this� I�ll
comfort when you need it, if you�ll let me hold you when I need it.� It would be like�equivalent exchange�would
that be okay?� ��With Ed�s head pressed
against the man�s chest, he could hear Mustang�s heart beginning to beat faster.� The dark haired man�s breathing was becoming
a little irregular too.

Ed nodded reluctantly.�
The request just seemed�odd�but it would be nice to have someone hold
him sometimes� Ed sighed; his body was tense from the unaccustomed contact.

�Just relax� I�m
not going to hurt you�� the older alchemist whispered.� After a few more minutes Ed was able to do
just that, but it didn�t last.

The blond boy felt Mustang�s hand slide up his leg and to
the part of his rear that wasn�t pressed against the couch, and again he
stiffened.� �Don�t worry� I�m not going
to tell anyone about this so you can relax okay?� It will be our secret��

Again, Ed wondered if he should tell the man to stop�he was
feeling really weird about this, but�no one touched him anymore, no one held
him or hugged him�and it really did feel nice to be held even if the way
Mustang was doing it was a bit�different.

�Right Ed?�

�Huh?�

�This will be our secret, right?�

�Um, yeah�� Of course
he didn�t want people to know that he was being childish by letting the colonel
hug him like a little boy�but then he didn�t want to tell anyone about how Mustang was touching him either�it
was just too strange�

�Promise me Ed, promise you won�t tell anyone,� the older man pressed.

�I promise�but you have to too,� Ed said quickly.� He didn�t want the colonel to tease him about
being a baby or something in front of everyone.

�Oh, I promise.� You
can be sure of it.�

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