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Feel Me, Shame Me, Heal Me	By : RyokoBlue Category: Fullmetal Alchemist > Het - Male/Female Views: 11762 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Chapter List
- 23
- 24
Disclaimer: What makes you think I could possibly own this?�
Just where are you getting your information? honestly!

Summary: Winry determined to find the Elric brothers, headed
to Central.� Life is definitely full of surprises, and she certainly didn�t expect
this one.

A/N:� I have included lyrics from the song Till We Meet
Again, by Raymond B. Egan written in 1918.� It�s a good song, but it wasn�t
until I was watching the Mini Series made in 1989 Till We Meet Again, that I
felt the song was appropriate for this Roy and Winry fanfiction.�

Thank you so much for your continued support for this fanfiction,
I am pleased that I was able to bring you a grand tale and that you all enjoyed
it.�� There will be a sequel, read my authors note at the end of this story for
more details about the sequel.

Enjoy the last and final chapter/episode of Feel Me, Shame
Me, Heal Me.�

Feel
Me, Shame Me, Heal Me

Episode
23� �Till We Meet Again

It was near two in the morning and
Winry was sitting on the window seat in Roy�s apartment, in his bedroom.� She
had put on a shirt so that she wouldn�t have been cold because of the night
air.� Roy was next to her, holding her to him as he ran his hand up and down
her belly, trying to soothe whatever troubles she had away.� Winry had been
thinking about everything that led up to this point in her life.

Winry had come here to this city
in the hopes of finding out where Ed and Al were.� Eventually, there had been
the mention of Lior, but who really knew when they actually reached the city or
if they left it already.�

It was funny, not in amusing way
but a strange one, how things had changed and she had stayed in this city for
another reason.� Winry could admit it now, she knew how it happened.� There
were no more excuses she could make, no more hate, no more unfair anger� And
she was glad about that.�

�What are you doing sitting up so
late?� He asked, then kissed her shoulder.

She sighed, �I was just thinking
about everything that led up to where I am now.�

Roy smiled against her skin.� �I
am not going to apologize about my behavior towards you, I hope you realize
this. And I would do it again in a heartbeat.�

Winry softly laughed, �I don�t
doubt that.� I never expected you to apologize for any of your behavior.�� She
turned into him and pressed so close, her cheek resting against his chest as
her arms looped around his waist, clinging to him as if he were her very
lifeline.� This was hurting, her heart felt like it was being squeezed so tight
and she struggled for breath.� Tomorrow...� Tomorrow she would end this with
him.� It was the right thing to do for him, the best actually.� This was just
an arrangement, and it wasn�t supposed to be long term.� Just a couple of
weeks� it ended up months and to Winry this experience�it turned out to be far
more than she ever thought possible.

Staring down at the top of her
head in slight worry, Roy ran his fingers through her hair.� �What�s the
matter?��

She pressed her face into his
chest inhaling his scent, memorizing it.� She shook her head, �nothing.� Winry
replied, sounding muffled.� Looking up at him, Winry found his concerned
expression.� �Is it so wrong to want to hug or cuddle you?�

Roy knew she wasn�t being entirely
honest, but he wouldn�t make it a point to bring it up.� Her cupped her cheek
and leaned closer, �Not at all.�

�Everything is different now,� She
said quietly and saw a tiny smile curve against his lips.� This was difficult,
and he needed to stop smiling at her like that.� It was heart wrenching.� She
shifted out of his soft touches and stood up, turning her back to him.

�You�re acting strange, Winry.� Roy
said in concern and he stood up.� Something was really bothering her.� He�d
gotten to know her moods and mannerisms so well that this one was shouting out
at him in drastic alarm.� He moved in front of her and reached down and took
her hand.� He wondered why she wouldn�t lift her head and look at him.� �Have I
done something to upset you?�

She shook her head quickly.

�Have I said something to make you
angry or sad?�

She shook her head quickly again.

Roy sighed in frustration, �Did I
do anything?�

�No.� She said, �It�s not anything
you have done.� I just�� Winry finally looked up at him and she just about
melted on the spot. �I�l�like you.� I like you alot.�� She couldn�t say it.�
She couldn�t say how she really felt.� She lost her nerve.� It was probably a
good thing she didn�t say the truth because he was just staring at her, not
even speaking.

He liked hearing that, even though
Roy knew she was still covering something up.� But he could see she really
meant what she said.� Tightening his hand around hers he walked backwards
toward the bed and pulling her with him.� He sat down, but his head was lifted
and his eyes remained on hers.� There was so much he wanted to say, but thought
better of it.� He did not want to complicate her mind; he could see she was
already struggling with something that she didn�t want to talk about.� �I tell
you, that�s a lot better than hearing your shouts of I hate you.� He replied
with a kind smile.

Winry smiled so very lightly, �I
was terrible, I know.� It�s so easy to judge another without all sides of the
story.� I don�t know if I ever really hated you as hate is so powerful an
emotion.� I really wonder what my parents would say about this.�

�I wish I could tell you.�

�I wonder if they ever blamed you,
for doing what you had to.� Why�d they have to be such noble doctors, why
couldn�t they be picky that one time?� It might have been as much their fault
as it was your superiors, helping enemy and ally alike.� It�s something that
will always have me guessing about.� And you were put in the middle to lose so
much because your superiors were too cowardly to do it themselves.�

She was right, but Roy would not
accept that.� He had to take some responsibility for taking lives.� And he was
sure she knew that.

�So, Roy, I am sorry about how I
acted.� It was unfair of me.� Winry stared at her bare feet.

He traced his thumb over the top
of her hand.� �Your anger was not unfair, Winry.� I know that I would be angry
if anyone took away someone I loved. It�s the nature of the way we are made to
feel.� And I know there will always be an empty spot inside you that can never
be filled.�

�That might be true, but the empty
spot has somehow shrunk and I finally feel that I can move on.� The future
doesn�t seem so bleak and cold as it had once felt.� I will always miss my
parents, that�s a given.� But I remember their love, kindness the values in
which they tried to instill in me even at my young age. I know that they are
always with me, perhaps continuing to guide me along my path.� Winry couldn�t
help the tiny smile. �I know you don�t feel you deserve it, Roy, but I for my
own heart and soul, forgive you.�

His arms were suddenly around her
middle with his face pressed against her belly.� �You�re right; I don�t feel I
deserve it.� It�s nice to hear though, Winry, and I appreciate it.� I don�t
know if I�ll ever really feel at peace, but hearing you say that makes me think
that it�s possible.�

Her hands rested on his shoulders,
she squeezed them in affection. And she gasped when he lifted his head staring
up at her, seeing the sure intensity in his dark eyes.�

�I want to be a better man, Winry,
one that you can be proud of.�

She lowered her lips to his
forehead and softly closed her eyes, �You are everything and more.� I am proud
to know you, and I will tell anyone I run into.� Yes, even those two that shall
remain nameless to you that you perhaps aren�t as bad as he may think.� Winry
smiled against his skin.

�Not bad? Why my dear, I am
positively naughty.� And Roy�s hand moved from her waist downward and squeezed
her backside, making her laugh.

Cupping both sides of his face in
her hands, Winry took to memorizing how he felt, the very warmth of his skin
while her fingers traced over his cheeks.� Her eyes were moving all over his
attractive face, taking in his every appearance.� She never thought she would
have gotten to know him this personally.� Slowly, Winry leaned forward placing
her forehead against his shoulder and she felt his arms tighten about her.

Roy had the feeling that something
was very wrong. It was almost as if she were�His eyes widened a slight
fraction, �Winry?�

Hearing the tone in his voice,
Winry lifted her head from his shoulder and pressed closer to him.� �Don�t ask
me any questions, Roy, all right?� Just��

� He pulled her to him so that she
fell into his lap, where he rolled her over and pinned her beneath him.� Roy
searched her eyes, those beautiful blue eyes for his answer, and there he found
it.� He was about to speak, to protest, but she leaned up and kissed him,
cutting off his words.� �Winry�� He groaned against her lips as she angled her
lips more over his, and pressing harder.�

Her arms were around him and she
slid her hands up his back, and clung tightly to him, as Roy lifted his head,
taking his mouth from hers.� He planted his hands on her shoulders, holding her
down so she couldn�t cut him off again.� Roy said one word while staring
directly into her eyes, �Why?�� His heart was pounding fiercely.

�Not now, please.� She turned her
head, not able to look at him.� Winry felt his hands on her face and he pulled
it back towards him, where she closed her eyes.

So she was really going to end
this, Roy swallowed hard.� He didn�t want this to be over, it was way too soon.
He had every right to know why she decided to do this, and they would indeed
discuss it tomorrow.� Lightly stroking her cheek with gentle finger tips, he
kissed her softly.� �All right, tomorrow we are going to discuss your
decision.�� He watched her eyes open and pressed his nose against hers.� �Maybe
I can change your mind.� He grinned lightly before kissing her again, his
fingers smoothing up into her hair, to lightly play in the silk like strands.

Their remaining clothing fluttered
to the floor.

Roy�s hand swept up her hip,
lightly curving fingers stroked her soft skin making its path up her belly
where he lightly poked her belly button with his forefinger, making her softly
giggle.� His lips moved about her neck and throat. �Don�t end this, I want you
too much.� He thought as he moved over her, glancing down into her heavy
lidded eyes.� Winry�s fingers skimmed his cheek, stroking in small patterns.

It was hard to let go.� Roy felt
his heart squeeze.� If there was a way to make her stay he would do it, and he
was not above blackmail�He just couldn�t do that to her.� It was selfish, and
he knew that he couldn�t be selfish, not with this.� He would do whatever made
her happy even if it was letting go.

Winry wrapped her arms around him
and pulled him close, she needed to feel this, to touch his heart, his soul,
his pain and suffering, his joy.� She wanted all of him.� Her lips touched his
cheek and his dark lashes closed and his mouth feathered over hers and she
groaned wanting a more solid contact.� His fingers were on her face, in her
hair, and he pulled her mouth up to his, kissing her deeply.� It felt like he
had touched her soul, marked it and was never going to release it.� Why
couldn�t she be selfish, why did she have to think of what he needed?

His hand smoothed up her side, so
soft, so gentle.� His fingers like light falling snow igniting the fire in her
veins as he covered her breast and molded the soft supple flesh, his mouth
continued to make love to hers and she arched into him.� The way her scent
carried through him, filling him with what he needed.� Her hands grabbed at his
shoulders, nails gripping.� Pulling back from kissing her, he stared at her as
his hands moved about her body, making her want to stay, to never want him to
stop touching her.

She was wet and warm, and Roy
groaned at the feel of his hand up against her heated center.� �Stay��
he stroked her and sent spiraling pleasure within her and she thrust against
his hand.

Winry felt tears gathering in her
eyes as she let her head fall back at the amazing way she felt when he touched
more than just her body.� His scent filled her senses and she couldn�t help the
choking sob at the fact that she was really going to miss this, to miss being
so close to him, as he shifted between her thighs.� His hands framed her hips.�
She could feel his hard length press into the opening of her heat and slowly
slide into her.� She groaned and breathed in, she felt him becoming a part of
her.� Winry looked into his eyes.

It was the hardest thing she ever
had to do, to leave him and she could tell he didn�t want her to.� He moved
slowly inside her, making her feel him.� She watched Roy close his eyes, his
mouth dropping open in his soft pants as she squeezed him with her legs as she
met his thrusts, her body sliding against his in this beautiful rapture of
feelings.� Her arms were so tight around him and her mouth on his neck
suckling, and he moaned.� She closed her eyes this time letting her other
senses take over. �I love you, I love you� �Tears fell in smooth paths
down her cheeks as she arched into him.

He kissed her again and she mewled,
enjoying the way he tasted, filling her with his unique flavor.

�Roy watched her many emotions and
the heating of her beautiful pale flesh.� He did not like those tears on her
face, so he softly moved his lips about her face, kissing them away.� And when
she opened her beautiful blue eyes, he felt lost in those endless depths.� He
wanted to drown in her, to die here in her embrace.� He pressed his nose
against hers as he ground his hips harder into hers, making her gasp his name
so breathlessly.� �Give me all night, Winry.� He panted.

She smiled so light, �Yes�� Winry
opened to him, his mouth taking hers never wanting to let go.

�I love you, sweet Winry.�
He moaned at the feel of being so hard and so hot inside her.� The way she
seemed to be made just for him, even though he didn�t deserve this.� She was
his and there was no way he was going to let her go.� Perhaps, once he
accomplished his goal he would seek her out.� Yes. Yes! That�s it.� He will let
her go for now, but it wouldn�t be forever.� She was his light in his eternal
darkness.� And maybe he was hers as well.� �Winry� you�re mine, no one else
will have you. �I will take you back when I am accomplished and worthy of you.��
�Yes! Oh yes.� He thrust harder, and she squeaked in bliss, her nails digging
and scraping up his back in her enflamed passion.

Her body glistened as that light
sheen of sweat spread over her heated skin.� And Roy�s tongue made a lazy path
up her neck to her ear. �This night is ours, and I will make love to you till
you can no longer keep your eyes open.� He kissed her ear, her cheek and she
breathed out his name in heated rapture.

�Oh, Roy�please. I want this, I
want you�so very much.� She kissed his cheek, the side of his neck and her
mouth moved slowly over his throat as he angled his head giving her the access
to him that she craved.� �I want to remember this, I want to never forget how you
feel.� Oh�� She moaned deeply as he thrust deep in her, making her toes curl as
she wrapped her legs tightly around him.� �All night, I am yours.�

And he smiled.� There was no way
he was going to stop; no way would he let her get a wink of sleep.� They both
needed to be one with each other, for as long as possible.

****

�What do you think is going on in
there?� Riza asked Maes who leaned against one of the desks.

�Nothing of what you think this
time, Riza.� Maes looked towards the closed door of Roy�s office.� �Winry is
ending things with Roy.� He saw Riza�s eyes widen slightly.� �She thinks she�s
doing the right thing, but I�m not sure it is.�

Riza turned towards the door,
wondering why after everything Miss Rockbell would do something like this.

�So does this mean you are not
going with me to the East Headquarters then?� Roy asked Winry as he was
standing at the window and staring out it with his arms crossed tightly over
his chest.� Early that morning he had left his flat with Winry still there, not
wanting to face her because she would tell him it was over and he wanted to
prolong that moment for as long as he could.� He had left before she even woke;
there was a pretty necklace with a bright red stone and a note where he had
slept.� The note informed her that if she needed to contact him he would be at
Military Headquarters and to find him there.� He had also mentioned to drink
the contents of the glass that contained the green liquid on the bedside table.

So now, here they were in his
office and it was early afternoon.� Perhaps she had wasted the time in telling
him that this was over.� Roy had noticed that she was wearing the necklace he
had gotten her, along with that gold heart charm that the Elrics had given to
her when she was a child.

Winry stared at floor, �I�m going
home.� She lifted her head, taking in his extremely rigid posture, �Home to
Resembool.�

�Ah.� Roy gave a short nod, his
brow crinkling slightly.� �What are you going back for? What�s there?�

�It�s home, Roy, my home.� Ed and
Al will be there eventually and I want to be there for them.� They don�t have
anyone.� They are all alone in the world.� But besides that, I am not cut out
for this city life.�� She didn�t want him to think that she was leaving because
of him, that she was in his way.

Lifting his hand, he lightly
traced the glass panels with his finger, �I failed.� His eyes narrowed and he
heard her take a step towards him.� Roy turned around and found her confused
expression so clearly.� �You don�t feel safe, I failed to protect you.�� He saw
her face fall and chest hitch.

�Oh no, no you didn�t fail.� Winry
stepped forward on her right foot, her eyes expressing tenderness.� �If it
wasn�t for you, I�d be dead or worse.� And it�s not that I don�t feel safe,
that�s not it at all.� I just miss waking up to the birds singing, the quiet of
the country where nothing is rushed.� It�s a nice place, Roy. I think you�d
like it.� She had to leave, if she didn�t she wouldn�t be able to stay away
from him.� She was sure that was also expressed in her eyes for Roy suddenly
got this look of understanding about his face.� He was always really
intelligent and to be able to pick out the reasons with just an expression was
impressive �I have to go, Roy.� It�s just for the best that I do.� There is so
much that you need to really focus on.��

�Winry, I think I understand why
you�re doing this and I admit that I will miss you.�� His obsidian gaze held
her blue.

She smiled lightly and lowered her
head, her eyes lightly closing.� �Even though it started out really rough for
me, being here with you have been the happiest times of my experiences here in
Central.�� Winry scraped her shoe against the floorboards, �I know you will do
well, and you have my support even if I am far away.�� She felt her cheeks
heat, �I will be thinking of you.�

�So this is it then?� Roy stared
at her as she lifted her head, her eyes holding his.�

Winry nodded, �This
was�interesting and it was just supposed to be sex, right?�

�Right,� Roy said, �it wasn�t, it
was more than that.� He was feeling like his throat was closing up and he
swallowed hard.

�It was not supposed to
be�emotional, because it didn�t mean anything.� Correct?� Winry said, hoping
maybe it meant something more for him.� That perhaps he really cared for her,
and she knew if he said so, if he said he cared, or even�loved her that she
would forget all about her plans of going home to Resembool and stay here with
him, even if she was in his way.� But�she knew he would never say that he loved
her, because it just wasn�t possible.

He noted the look on her face, she
was waiting for something.� For him to say how he felt, only he did not. �I
love you, Winry, and when my goal is complete I will come for you.�� He
didn�t know how long it would take for him to become Fuehrer, but he was going
to go as quickly as possible, doing everything he must in order to rise to the
absolute top, so that he may eventually claim her and not hold back with
anything.� �Correct.� Roy�s voice sounded a little rough and he cleared his
throat.� He saw her face fall and she averted her eyes to the left, �If you
ever need anything, anything at all, Winry.� No matter what has happened.� If
you need me, I will come to your side, you need only contact me.�

Winry felt her heart beat wildly
and squeeze at the same time in a bitter ache.� He was so much more than she
ever thought.� She reached to the inside pocket of her black jacket and pulled
out a letter, and returned her gaze to his.� �I would appreciate it if you
managed to pass this letter onto Edward and Alphonse for me.�� She found him
staring at the envelope, �It just tells them that I went home to Resembool, you
can read it if you want.� There�s nothing personal in it.�� She placed it on
the desk.�

�Those boys, they are very fortunate
to have a friend like you.� You support them with every ounce of your heart;
you�re always there for them no matter what.� Roy said still staring at the
letter.

�You�re my friend too, Roy.� I
care about you, alot.� I know who and what you are, and I am so honored to have
had you in my life for even this brief moment.� She saw his mouth curve up
slightly in his barely there smile.� �I thank you for everything, and wish you
luck in all that you do.�� Winry felt her eyes swell with tears that she was
trying to hold back as Roy was now just staring at the floor.� She turned and
headed for the door.� Pulling it open, she stepped out into the floor full of
working military personnel and walked a few steps.� She had barely heard the
footsteps behind her.

�Winry,� Roy said from the archway
of his office as he gripped the doorjamb with his right hand and his left
curled down at his side.� As she stopped, he took three quick steps to her just
as she turned around to face him.� He didn�t wait.� He swiftly reached out and
gripped her wrist pulling her to him, where he covered her mouth with his.
Smile the while you kiss me sad adieu

When the clouds roll by I'll come to you.

Then the skies will seem more blue,

Down in Lover's Lane, my dear.

Neither Roy nor Winry heard the clanking of
objects hitting the floor or the gasps of shock about the large floor.� Roy
bent her back so that she arched into him where he kissed her hard and deep,
memorizing every touch, every soft sigh as he molded her lips to his and his
tongue swept into her mouth, caressing hers as she just as hard and impassioned
returned every emotion, every ounce of her soul into this one moment in time.
Wedding bells will ring so merrily

Ev'ry tear will be a memory.

So wait and pray each night for me

Till we meet again.

Winry�s arms had slid up his back, holding him so
tightly as this was really farewell.� Tears slipped from her closed eyes and
wetting paths down her cheeks. Her heart cried, her soul wept.� She so longed
to stay in this bliss wrapped up with him, life was so unfair.� She ripped her
mouth from his and took a much needed breath, but his hands on her face turned
her back and his mouth took hers, making this moment last just a little bit
longer.� She felt his hands slip into her hair where he gripped the back of her
head and kissed her so hard he was probably bruising her lips�and she wasn�t
protesting.
Tho' goodbye means the birth of a tear drop,

Hello means the birth of a smile.

And the smile will erase the tear blighting trace,

When we meet in the after awhile.

His heart pounded in a strange fear, he didn�t
want to let go.� He couldn�t� Roy needed to make this last as long as he
could.� He didn�t care who saw him, he didn�t care if it was going to be
commented on in the papers, or talked about for months to come.� She was
leaving him and he had to give her all he could before she walked away for who
knew how long.� It might even be too long for him to keep his promise to
himself and go after her when he became Fuehrer.� He was doing it for those he
had wronged and for her�
Smile the while you kiss me sad adieu

When the clouds roll by I'll come to you

Then the skies will seem more blue

Down in Lover's Lane, my dear,

Winry sighed into his mouth as she melted against
him, letting him have as much of her as possible, to let him have a piece of
her soul, all of her heart.� It all belonged to him and he would never know the
power his words would have over her.� If he said the words she longed to hear,
she would fall completely.� �I love you, I love you.�� Tears streamed
down her cheeks as she arched into him more so that there was no sliver of air
between their bodies, pressed so tight that they could become one.

Wedding bells will ring so merrily

Ev'ry tear will be a memory

So wait and pray each night for me

Till we meet again.

�

�Jean, close your mouth.� Riza
said calmly and she heard Maes laughing.

Clearing his throat, Jean Havoc�s
jaw had literally dropped at the sight of his superior kissing Winry Rockbell,
he was sure the girl hated the Colonel and she was no way pushing him off, he
had actually seen the girl pull him even closer.� �Are you not shocked?�

�I�m not.� Kain Fuery suddenly
said from Jean�s left side, who turned to him in surprise and Kain wore a very
sheepish expression as he rubbed the back of his neck awkwardly.� �Well, I
figured out something was going on.� It doesn�t really take a genius to look at
the signs and see what�s there.�

Riza looked at Kain with
disbelief, �Sometimes I wonder why you�re still a Master Sergeant.�

Kain felt his face heat as he
shrugged.

She had slipped from him and took
a small step back.� Winry opened her eyes seeing Roy standing there with the
wild expressions in his eyes and she took a deep breath trying to settle her
fast beating heart.� It was as if they were the only two in the room as the man
lifted his hand and using his thumb brushed the tears from her cheeks.� She
gave him a soft smile as there was nothing more to say.

Roy swallowed hard and felt his
insides twist, but retained his calm appearance.� �See ya.� He said quietly and
Winry stepped back, his fingers slowly falling from her face.� She turned and
walked away.� He sucked in a large breath of air and straightened his posture
before he spun around and headed back into his office.

Winry continued to head for the
stairs that would eventually lead to the exit.� She stopped right beside Miss
Hawkeye and even though she was sad, Winry smiled at her through her tears.�
�Take care of him for me.� Make sure he doesn�t get himself killed.�

Riza gave a nod, �I will, I
promise.�� She watched as Winry continued on her way, before twirling around
and rushing into the Colonel�s office.� She found him at the window staring in
concentration out it.� Riza softly closed the door.� �Sir, if I might inquire
as to why you let her walk out?�

In a slow blink, Roy couldn�t help
the small smile.� �This was the right thing to do.�

She walked to him, standing beside
him. �But you love her.� Riza looked at him and he turned his head, catching
her eyes with his dark gaze.

�Yes.� Roy turned back to the
window.

Riza, too, turned to the window.
�Then why didn�t you tell her?�

Roy smiled so light that he heard
Hawkeye gasp.� �If I told her then she would have stayed.� He answered, knowing
that she very well would have.� And Winry needed to do what she felt was right
for him, leaving so that he may accomplish his atonement.�

�After everything, are you sure
about this, why not put up more of a fight if you love her?��

�The Elrics need her.� Was his
simple answer, he really didn�t want to go into it with Hawkeye.

�You need her.� Riza replied,
glancing at him out of the corner of her eye and a slight turn of her head.

Roy let out a small breath of
air.� �We can�t always have what we want or need.� Those boys are not much
different than I am.� I see a lot of myself in Edward and so I know how much he
and Alphonse need her right now.� And I need to do so much before I am worthy
of her.�

�So, it�s over then?� Riza asked
trying not to upset him any more than he already was.

�No,� He saw Winry�s figure down
below and he reached up to the window latch and turned it where he popped the
window open.� Leaning forward, Roy cupped the side of his mouth, �Winry!� He
shouted and he saw her stop and look up.� She turned around and he saw it� She
stood there on the ground and she stared up at him, a beautiful smile on her
face.

�Roy!� She shouted up at him,
�Thank you! For more than you could ever know!�� Her face was all lit up with
happiness.

He grinned down at her, �Behave yourself.
Don�t get into any unnecessary fights, or I might just have to go to Resembool
and punish you myself!� Roy heard her laughter and even though his heart was
heavy and aching, he felt it lighten just a little bit.� He held up his hand in
a wave and she returned it, her arm lifting high in the air as she waved her
hand from side to side.��

Riza couldn�t help it, a small
affectionate smile found its way onto her face.

�No, Lieutenant.� It�s not over
with Winry.� Roy replied still staring out at Winry and he couldn�t wait till
the day he was worthy of her.� �It�s just on hold for a little while.�

Winry�s laughter faded, he was
such a shameless flirt, but she wouldn�t have him any other way.� She turned
around, taking one last look over her shoulder up at him.� She was really going
to miss him, even those sarcastic comments and smirks that always adorned his
face.� Yes, she was going to miss all of him.� Giving him another smile, Winry
twisted her head around, her blonde pony tail flying behind her and she headed
for the gate.� Her heart may be aching right now, but she knew it was going to
be all right.� Her future was bright and full of possibilities, there was no
longer that dark cloud hanging over her.� She had allowed the pain to run its course;
she confronted her demons even if at first she didn�t want to.� Roy Mustang had
saved her in more ways than he realized.� He saved her heart and her soul and
she hoped that perhaps maybe she saved his as well.�

In time, Winry knew that she could
come to love another, but it would never be the same way she loved Roy.� He
would always have some part of her heart, no matter who was to come along.�

At the gate, Winry gripped the bar
with her hand and twisted part way around.� Staring back at Central City�s
Military Headquarters, she looked the building up and down, so grand and
powerful looking with its banner.� She will take back with her the memories of
her time spent here with Roy and it made her smile with affection.� �Good luck,
Roy.� May you succeed in your goal, I will support you even if I am not here
with you, I am always on your side.�� She whispered.� �I love all that you are,
I love you with your emotional damage, your cocky attitude you pain in the
ass.�� She closed her eyes and smiled, �yes, I love you.�� And she turned away�

�AHHH!� Sweaty and disgusted,
Edward Elric bolted upright, the blanket falling to his waist.� He swallowed
hard, trying to choke down that ball of air that just kept rising out of his
throat to fill his mouth with revulsion.� He was panting and pressed his left
hand to his heart, feeling it pounding hard in his chest.

�Brother!� Alphonse�s voice was
heard before the flap was pulled open and he stuck his head inside the tent.�
�Are you all right? I thought I heard you scream.�

Edward turned at the sharp
entrance of his brother�s dark blonde head, �No, no.� I�m okay.� It was just a
nightmare.� He took in a deep breath through his nose and relaxed, �A sick
nightmare that I feel like throwing up.�

Alphonse crouched down, his knees
making a slight cricking sound. �What did you dream about?�� He saw his brother
shudder.

�You don�t wanna know.� Edward
still felt his face turn green at the very idea; he lifted his hand and rubbed
the sweat away that had gathered at his hair line.

Alphonse smiled, �Aww come on.� It
couldn�t have been that bad now, right?� After all it was just a dream.� You�ll
feel better if you tell me.�

�It was the worst nightmare ever.�
Edward leaned forward as did Alphonse, �Remember years ago when we were
searching for the philosopher stone?� He saw his brother nod.� �I don�t know
why I had a nightmare about that time, but I was fifteen and you were supposed
to be fourteen.� And well while we were away on our search� remember those few
letters we received from Winry about her living in Central and then her ending
up going back to Resembool.� Well my dream was in that time period.�

Leaning forward a little more,
Alphonse nodded.� �Yeah, so when�s the disgusting part?�

�I�m gettin� to it!� Edward shouted
and crossed his arms, one was still metal and the other flesh over his chest.�
�I can�t believe it, Al, I had a nightmare about Winry and Mustang, ugh, they
were�they were.� He felt chunks rising to his throat.

�They were�� Alphonse�s brow was
arched prodding him to continue.

�Do I have to spell it out for
ya!?� They were having sex, alot of it.� All the time!� It was so sickening.��
He breathed out.� �Good thing it was just a nightmare.� He said with relief.�
�Can you imagine if it really happened�� He noticed his brother had lowered his
head and was staring downwards, the air suddenly felt tense and stuffy.� �Al?�
Are you all right?� See I told you it was gross.�

Alphonse suddenly lifted his head,
�Heh, heh. Yeah, gross uh�� He noticed the odd look his brother was giving
him.� �What?�� His eyes widened and guilt poured from his tone.

Narrowing his eyes, Edward felt
suspicion crawl through his veins.� �You look funny, what�s going on?�

�Nothing!� Alphonse said sharply
lifting his hands defensively in the air, �hey, I hear the gypsies have
breakfast ready, we better get some before it�s all gone.�� And he raced from
the tent.�

Edward tugged on his pants and
pulled on his shoes, he hopped up to chase after his brother.� �Al, Al, get
back here!� There�s something you�re not telling me!�

�No!� Alphonse kept running, his
brother was hot on his tail.� If his brother caught him, he�d make him spill it
and he just couldn�t.� He might have seen something that happened between Winry
and at the time he was still Colonel Mustang, but what good would it do to tell
his brother? It�s not like they were going back to that side of gate.� They�ve
been stuck on this side for more than two years already.� His brother was now
almost twenty one, and he was fourteen almost fifteen.

Edward was annoyed, no use of
Alchemy here.� He would have stopped Al awhile ago.� �Al, I swear that if you
don�t�!� He came skidding to a halt.

�Hey there,� A young woman with
soft brown hair stepped out of her tent and into his path, �Would you like your
future told?� She asked the young blonde man.

�No thanks, lady.� Edward waved it
off and was about to go after his brother.

�What about the past?� She said
eerily, and the young man turned to face her, �Of a friend?� Is there something
you wish to know?�

��Can you do that?� Edward asked
still in disbelief.

Alphonse had realized that he
wasn�t being chased anymore and found his brother talking with the French
Gypsy, which is the country they were currently in.� They had been traveling
with them since they left Germany.� He walked back over to Edward, hearing the
woman speak about the past of a friend.��

�You�d be surprised what I am
capable of�� She smirked, �Edward Elric.��

Edward stared in surprise, how did
she know his name?� This was just way too strange.� Of course, so was that
freaky nightmare.� Was it just a nightmare, or did it really happen?� There was
one way to find out.� If this lady could really do what she boasted, then it
was time to discover the truth.

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This is the very last episode/chapter of Feel Me, Shame Me, Heal
Me.� I hoped you all enjoyed Roy and Winry�s emotional roller coaster.� And I
hope to see you all stick around for the sequel, which will actually contain
Edward and Alphonse.� Some surprises lie in store for Roy and Winry, will they
be together? Or will their love be torn apart.� The drama and angst and
hopefully some comedy is to come for the sequel.

Until next time readers,

Thanks for reading and sticking with this story till the
end.

Ryoko Blue
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