Who\'s to say what normal turly is?

A/N: Warnings Yaoi, rated R for self mutilation, drugs, and for over all adult themes. If you are under 17 don't read!! If you don't like yaoi don't read!! Don't flame me just because it's yaoi.
In this chapter it's strictly Duos' POV'
Note
//...// Duos' thoughts

Who's to say what normal truly is?
Chapter two: Who I am
By: chibi yukie isha

"Duo?"

"Yeah Quat?"

"I'm your Friend..."

"I know Quat..."
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After that he just continued to dab ointment over my arm in silence. I almost felt bad for leaving him in the dark like that. But there was really nothing he could do for me, I mean the guy's done enough for me already and I really don't know why. I mean there's that whole friendship thing but still I just don't get it. I understand friendship perfectly fine but I don't know how Quatre came to care so much for me in such a little time. It's almost scary that he's so trusting it kinda worries me, a person as trusting as him could really get hurt if they didn't watch it. I don't know maybe I'm being overly cynical, but I really don't think it's such a good thing to be so trusting. But here he is, trusting me, caring for me, and he looks to be overly worried.

Wow, I've only met of few people that ever even cared for me. The first was Solo a street rat just like me and it was from his name that I got my own. Yeah we were close we watched out of each other while living on the streets together, I have some real fund memories of us looking back. The second would be Sister Helen and Father Maxwell of the Maxwell church. Which is where, if you already hadn't guessed it, I got my last name and my priest outfit. It's also the reason for my braid. See I always lon long hair and I wouldn't let anyone touch it. So when Sister Helen wanted to cut it and I wouldn't let her, she ended up braiding it instead. Yes those were the few people that ever really care for me. But it doesn't matter they're all dead anyway. Yes I killed them all by merely befriending them for I am the God of Death. Anyone I've ever cared for had been killed and so would anyone else who dared to touch the heart of Shinigami. Yes, they would give me their love and in return I'd give them death.

And now as I look at Quatre I realize how close I've gotten to him. No I just couldn't let that happened I wasn't going to kill Quatre as well. //No Quat you're not my friend cuz I can't be yours..// That was my last thought as we began walking out of Quat roo room.

Now as we both began to walk back to my room Quat told me how busy his was with his fathers business and how ashamed he was for not being the proper host he should be. I told him `no sweat Quat my man I had enough fun playing mind games with your the maids.' That seemed to really lighten the mood as he was actually smiling again. Yup, guess I've still got the touch. I start grinning like a manic and the maid that just passed us ld asd as if she was about to call an asylum and ask if they had an extra room. But that only brought my grin up tenfold.

"See Quat I'm not just some, extremely depressed, must ended their life, listens to scary music, and wares all black clothing kind of person. No, I'm also a very happy person! I'll have you know that once I ran up to Heero and I sung him all of the 'Little Bunny fofo,' song for no reason. But that doesn't really help to prove my sanity does it?" I laughed. But I didn't get quiet the same reaction from Quatre that I had hopped to get. Instead I watched as he got that troubled look on his face again. //Oh great what did I do wrong now?//

"Duo?" He muttered as if he were afraid of what he was thinking.

"Yeah?" I cringed I hope he's not gonna ask another question about my arms.

"What were you listening to earlier? You know when I, umm. Bumped into you." When he finished I let out a sighed of relief. Was that all?

"Oh that... Well I was listening to Disturbed they're a band I like to zone out to when I have the time." After I was done I felt like such a dumbass. The way Quats' face fell when I said I was listening to 'Disturbed,' it was obvious he was one of those 'that kind of music makes people want to hurt themselves,' fanatics. Man how could I not see this coming?

"Oh, well they sounded really...er...Interesting." Okay now that really made me want to laugh. Interesting huh?

"Yeah well they're cool..."

"Would you mind if I listen to them?" Now that was a shock. Why did he want to listen to Disturbed? What did he want to analyze it or something?

"Umm, I don't know I don't think that you would like them Quat."

"Oh, well I was just wondering. But if you don't want me to-" I cut him off when I saw him starting to blush from embarrassment. I wonder why this was embarrassing to him, is it cuz he thinks that I don't think he's able to take my music? Well he'd be right I really don't think he could handle it but I wasn't about to make him feel worse then he already did.

"No Quat that's not it. It's not that don't want you to hear it; I just didn't think you'd like it. But if you really want to listen to them it's ok with me." I mentally kicked myself for that. What was I thinking? Letting him listen to Disturbed that would only make him freak out more!

"Thank you Duo." He gave me another one of those beautiful smiles. Yeah that's right I said beautiful, cuz he is. I've made no real attempt to hide the fact that I'm Bi form anyone but I have a feeling they all just think I'm kidding or being sarcastic when flirt with them. It's really funny to; everyone has a different reaction when I flirt. Wufei looks like he's about to have a noise bleed, Trowa just rolls his eyes but I saw him grin at me a few times which made my jaw drop to say the least. But when I flirt with Heero I go all out, whistling, cat calling, everything I just want to see that guy to reacted to something. But all I ever get is a baka or a good slap upside the head. But I can safely say Quat is my favorite to tease, as soon as I began to flirt with him he turns bet red its sooo funny. And when he-

I found my thoughts cut short when I slammed into the door of my bed room. //Oww damn, stupid door that hurt!// Man was I feeling really intelligent right about now. I had got too caught up in my thoughts again and walked into the damn door man I gotta stop doing that.

"Oh Duo are you okay?" Ok I really feel dumb now. I just walked into the door man I can't get over it and right in front of Quatre to.

"Uh, yeah I'm fine Quat just wishing they'd make doors a little bit softer." Oh I can't tell you how good felt when I heard him laugh, needless to say I felt like an idiot no longer. But when I snapped out of it I suddenly remembered who I was. //I am Shinigami...//
"Hey Quat you think we could chill later I'm feelin' kinda tired." I really was tired and I really could use a nap right now it really wasn't a lie. But felt like a jerk when his laughing stopped and he gave me a quizzical look. But finally I think that he realized I was kinda worn out by today's events and decided to let me be on my own. A simple nod from him was all that was needed. I gave him a fleeting smile and a see ya later before I vanished into my room with out any hesitation.

As soon as I closed the door I ran and I plopped down on my bed. Taking out my cd player I placed the crappie excuse for ear phones on. As I stared at the ceiling I pressed play and let the music flow through me as I laid there playing today's events back in my head.

~~He's on it again. Huh Huh Huh Huh Huh Huh
He's on it again. Huh Huh Huh Huh Huh Huh

Reject
Are you no one
Feel you nothing
You know I'll bet you think
You have a good reason to be living
In the limelight of the fortunate ones
you're too weakened by the poison
That they feed you in the living lie
They don't believe you
Carr to no one
Trust in nothing
Little impotent one

I don't wanna be
I don't wanna be
I don't wanna be
I don't wanna be innocent, you know
I don't wanna be
I don't wanna be
I don't wanna be
I don't want to let them hypnotize me

Punk ass, are you listening
Can you hear me or are you deaf and dumb to my language
Do the real words seem to hurt you
Well put 'em up motherfucker
You'll feel it
When I stamp it on your forehead
So you will never forget
That you're a reject
And you're a no one
And you're nothing
Little impotent one

I don't wanna be
I don't wanna be
I don't wanna be
I don't want innocence, you know
I don't wanna be
I don't wanna be
I don't wanna be
I don't want to let them hypnotize me

Fear awaken
Go with it now
And let it overcome you
Fear awaken
Your mind is racing

I don't understand why you don't like me
Why don't you like me?
Am I so different from you
Now does it scare you that I'm able to discern
What to love and what to burn
I'll add your fuel to the fire now
Stand back, brother take your hand back
Leave it and I might crack
More than a smile or two you see
Don't judge what you don't understand
You can't deny what has been given to me

I don't wanna be
I don't wanna be
I don't wanna be
I don't want innocence, you know
I don't wanna be
I don't wanna be
I don't wanna be
I don't want to let them hypnotize me

Fear awaken
Go with it now
And let it overcome you
Fear awaken
Go with it now
Go with it now
Your fear awaken
Go with it now
And let it overcome you
Fear awaken
Your mind is racing

Erasing No.
Hey reject, are you no one, feel you nothing
You know, I bet you think you have a good reason
to be living in the limelight
Of the fortunate ones ya know~~

As the song began to fade tthinthing I felt my eyes began to creep shut and the only thought in my head was the sad thought that I'd have to leave Quatre. //I'm sorry but I am not your friend anymore Quatre R. Winner...//
~~~~~~~TBC~~~~~~~~~~~~

That was it not a very long chapter I know but I'm to tired to care -_- So I think I'm gonna do what Duo did, listen to some Disturbed and pass out. See ya later, please review~

ps I'll try to make it up to you guys in the next chapter o.0