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The Sound of Silence	By : ZaKai Category: Fullmetal Alchemist > Yaoi - Male/Male Views: 11395 -:- Recommendations : 1 -:- Currently Reading : 1
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A/N:�
I would just like to restate the warning given in the prologue.� This story contains child abuse situations
that (including sexual abuse).� This
story is not a romance.� It will not
become a romance.� This story is meant to
address child abuse and its affect on the victim(s).

The Sound of Silence

Chapter Two

Equivalent Exchange

�A false
lead�� Ed murmured as he stared out the
train window.�

�It�s
alright, brother.� I�m sure we�ll find
another one��

Ed�s
moved his eyes to stare at the suit of armor that held his brother�s soul, then
back out the window.� �I had to charge
all those damages to the military�� he muttered.

�It�s
okay.� I�m sure the colonel will
understand when you tell him about what happened��

The blond
sighed and continued to gaze glumly out the window at the passing scenery.� Yes, he was sure Mustang would understand, after
the dark haired man had reprimanded him in front of everyone for wasting
their budget.�

Yes,
after that he would be very
understanding.�

After his
office was empty and everyone had gone about their duties, then he�d be understanding.� The man would probably apologize for
embarrassing him in front of everyone and then he�d�

The
twelve-year-old swallowed hard.

It had
been almost two months since that night at the colonel�s apartment.� The night had ended with Ed mumbling that
he�d better get back or Al would come and find him.� Mustang had walked him out to the front of
the building after Ed had insisted on it.�
Though he hadn�t been able to admit it to his commanding officer, the
men in the foyer scared him; reminded him in a frightening way of Barry the
Chopper�

The men
had a hungry look in their eyes...

Since
then, they�d had over a dozen other �cuddling sessions� as Ed was beginning to
think of them, since they usually involved hugging and Mustang running his
hands over Ed�s body.� The younger
alchemist felt a slight blush of embarrassment tinge his cheeks. �It seemed the man always had to touch him everywhere�
especially his rear.�

It really
seemed odd, and it was a bit uncomfortable, but he supposed it wasn�t that big of a deal� it was just his
butt��

No matter
how hard he tried to convince himself, Ed knew that it just wasn�t normal.� How should he deal with it?� He didn�t know.� The short alchemist supposed he could just
tell the man not to, but�

Ed looked
down at the snowy ground as it sped by.

But�

But�he
liked it.

Shame
filled him, not for the first time, and he tried not to think about it.�

Unfortunately,
he could think of nothing else.

He felt
so confused.� Was there something wrong
with him?� It wasn�t okay to like it, was
it?

Ed shook
his head.� No, he was making too big of a
deal out of this.� There was nothing to
worry about.

Really.

It was
just his butt�

;-;-;-;-;-;-;

�Well,
Ed, congratulations on becoming the biggest drain on our departmental budget,�
Mustang said in irritation, then flopped the report
down on his desk.�

�I
already told you what happened.� It�s not like it was our fault,� Ed mumbled.�

�Do you
have any idea what this is costing?� the colonel barked.

�Do you
have any idea that I don�t care?� the boy replied snidely.

Mustang
pressed his fingers against his forehead and let out an exasperated
breath.� �Perhaps you�ll care about this�
A lot of paperwork is going to need to be filed to cover up exactly why �you were there in the first place.� It isn�t just the amount of paperwork, it�s what�s in the paperwork.� You know, I don�t just file away blank pieces
of paper.� I do have to report to General Grumman, who just happens to be pretty
interested in what is happing under his command.�

The dark
haired man glared at Ed, then turned to look at the blonde woman who was
listening to their conversation.�
�Lieutenant, would you please go to Records and pick up a few things for
me?�� Mustang began writing something on
a piece of paper.� When he was finished,
he handed it to Hawkeye who took it with a nod.�
�Fullmetal and I are going to have ourselves a little talk.�

The woman
nodded curtly.� �I�ll tell the others
you�re not to be disturbed.�

�Thanks,�
the colonel said as the lieutenant closed the door behind her.

For a
moment there was silence in the room, then Mustang sighed and said, �Come
here.�

Ed folded
his arms and looked away stubbornly.

�Edward��
the colonel coaxed softly.

The blond
sighed in defeat and pushed himself off the couch before slowly walking around
the desk and in front of the other man.� Mustang
sat forward in his chair, bringing himself eyelevel with the small twelve-year-old.�

�Ed�� the
man breathed and raised his hands to the boy�s hips.� �I don�t appreciate the attitude you�re
giving me about this.�

The young
alchemist fidgeted a little under the intense stare the man was giving him, and
also under his touch.� �What do you want?�
Ed mumbled.� �An
apology?��

The colonel
looped his fingers through Ed�s belt loops and pulled him forward.� �Sit.��

Ed
hesitated.� �On your
lap?�

�That�s
right.�

The boy
looked uncertainly at the door.�

�Don�t
worry.� No one is coming in here. �Now sit,� the man said, and pulled on the belt
loops again.

Ed
reluctantly did as he�d been asked, and grumbled a bit
as the colonel situated him on his lap with his back toward the other man.� The small alchemist tried to move, he was
sitting right on a lump� probably the colonel�s watch�and it was kind of
uncomfortable, but whenever he tried to move, Mustang always moved him back.

�Stay
there,� the dark haired man growled testily.�

Ed sighed
in exasperation.� He�d just have to live
with it for now.

His
commanding officer touched the inside of Ed�s thigh and rubbed his fingers back
and forth lightly against the leather pants.�
�Ed� I�m really disappointed in you.�
After all I�ve done to keep yours and Alphonse�s secret safe, you give
me all this additional paperwork and not even a word of thanks.�

Ed felt
Mustang�s other hand pull out his tank top, then ran up against Ed�s side.� �You know
how I hate paperwork��

The small
boy nodded, and squirmed a little under the touching.

�I really
think you owe me for this Ed�� Mustang
murmured into his ear, then kissed it softly.�

Ed
blinked in surprise.� The man had kissed him�� On the ear, but it was still a kiss�� He didn�t even know what to think, but all
thoughts of the kiss left his mind when he felt the hand on his thigh slide up
and touch his groin.� The small boy�s
eyes widened and his head jerked back a little in shock.� Ed�s mouth opened as he gasped for more air,
then he said shakily, �What are you doing?��

�Don�t
you like it?�� Mustang asked blandly.

He
stiffened.

Like it?

The man
was�

He was�

It was a
humiliating question that Ed didn�t want to answer.�

Yes�

Yes, it
felt good�

But he
hated it...

Ed
desperately wanted to tell the man to stop, but he couldn�t make himself do it.�

The colonel
was rocking his hips and breathing hard into the short boy�s ear.� �Ed� I want you to come over to my place
tonight.�

�What?�
Ed gasped.�

�Tonight�
You owe me.��

The boy
squirmed nervously under Mustang�s fondling.�
�I don�t owe you��

�You owe me for keeping your secret and
covering your ass when you get into situations like this.� It�s equivalent exchange.� Now, tonight� the same time you�ve come over
before, alright?�

When Ed
nodded, the colonel rocked his hips one last time, then
pushed the boy off his lap.

�Tonight
then�� Mustang grinned.� �You might want
to pretend you�re angry when you leave or someone will wonder why your cheeks
are all red.��

Ed
slapped a hand to his face and felt himself flush even more in
embarrassment.� He was about to leave
when the colonel grabbed him and pulled his long red coat closed.� �Don�t forget to cover up�� he said, then swatted Ed on the rear.

Cover up?

It was
only when Ed looked down did he realize that he had become aroused; only then did
he feel the tightness of his leather pants pressing against him� In
humiliation, Ed grabbed his coat for a moment, then
stormed out of the office.

�Edward!�
the blond lieutenant, who was just coming back from her errand, called sternly.

�What?� Ed
growled.� He felt so embarrassed and
ashamed of himself.� How could he let
himself get like that in front of the colonel?�
Why had the man touched him there to begin with?� He felt so confused, and angry, and�

And�

�Edward,
you should really be more respectful,� the woman said, looking down at
him.� �He has your best interest in
heart; yours and Alphonse�s.�

Ed only
looked away in frustration.�

Maybe
that was true�

Maybe.

He just
didn�t know right now. ��

�You may
not realize it,� the blonde woman continued, �but he cares a lot for both of
you boys.� Why don�t you try letting him
be your friend for once?�

�Whatever��
Ed muttered and stalked away from the lieutenant.� The boy thought he was letting the colonel be
plenty friendly with him�

;-;-;-;-;-;-;-;

�Hot chocolate?��

Ed
shrugged and hung his red coat on a hook near the door.� He wasn�t very cold after running up five
flights of steps.�

The men
downstairs had started propositioning him as soon as he�d walked into the
foyer.� Didn�t those psychos have anything
better to do at night than to sit downstairs playing cards and drinking booze?

�Okay,
hot chocolate it is,� Mustang said behind him.�
Ed turned to go sit on the couch when the dark haired man said, �Why
don�t you take off your jacket too, you won�t be needing
it.�

He
wouldn�t be needing it?

Ed stared
at the man for a moment before slowly doing as he said, then made his way to
the couch.� Putting his elbows on his
knees, Ed rested his chin in his hands and watched his commanding officer stir
the contents of the mug.� The dark haired
man picked the mug up from the counter with one hand and a bottle in the other
and headed over toward the couch.

They sat
in silence for a few minutes, Mustang drinking his beer, Ed clanking the spoon
around in the chocolate, but not drinking it.

�I could
have gotten you something else��

Ed looked
over at the colonel and muttered, �No�this is fine�� then took a small sip of
the warm liquid.�

The boy
thought vaguely that maybe if he never finished his cocoa, perhaps he�d never
have to have the man�s hands on him; never have to pay whatever debt the colonel
seemed to think Ed owed him.�

He
sighed.

Maybe he did owe him.� Mustang did cover up a lot of things for him�
Perhaps the man was right.� Perhaps it
was only fair; only equivalent exchange.

�How about we put that aside?�� It wasn�t
until Mustang spoke to him that Ed realized the drink had gone cold.� The older man lifted the mug from Ed�s hands,
leaned over the boy, and set it on the end table.� With the cup out of his hands, the colonel
wrapped his arms around Ed�s shoulders and scooted him closer.

�I really
did miss you while you were away,� Mustang whispered into Ed�s ear, then moved his lips down to kiss the boy�s neck.�

The
younger alchemist stiffened slightly, but the other man didn�t stop there.� Ed felt large hands move under his shirt, and
when one traveled down to fondle him through his pants, he gasped softly.

�I know
you like that.�� Ed could feel the other
man�s hot breath on his neck as he whispered to him.� �You�re a very bad boy aren�t you?� What would your mother think if she
knew�?�� Tears of shame sprang unbidden
to the small boy�s eyes.� �And Alphonse�what
would he think?�

Ed�s
breathing was shallow and quick as he silently willed himself not to get an
erection.� He didn�t want to enjoy this�

Mustang
undid the boy�s belt, then pulled Ed�s pants and boxers down to his knees.� The blond looked down for a moment, then turned his gaze away in self-hatred.�

His body
had betrayed him�

�Yes, you
are naughty, aren�t you?� Mustang
murmured.� �Who would have thought it of
you, Ed?�

The boy
felt blood rush to his face in embarrassment.�
It wasn�t like that.� It wasn�t.� He hated what the man was doing to him, but
he didn�t want him to stop either.� His
body begged for more, and his psyche craved attention, but the revulsion and
confusion he felt was tearing him apart.�

This wasn�t what he wanted.� He hadn�t ever wanted this.� He�d just wanted someone to care for him and
hold him and�

�Come on,
Ed. �Say
it.� Tell me you like it,� the colonel
whispered in his ear.� Gasping at the
sensations he was feeling from Mustang�s fondling, Ed shook his head.� He couldn�t�he just couldn�t�

He panted
heavily through his mouth, and a tear rolled down his cheek in humiliation as
his body climaxed without his consent.� The
other man ran his tongue along Ed�s face where the tear had fallen, then kissed
the boy on the temple.

�You
really are quite the little whore aren�t you?� the dark haired man
murmured.�

Ed
cringed slightly at the words.� It wasn�t
like that�not at all� �He felt sick to
his stomach and just wanted to go home�

The colonel
slid his hand down to Ed�s and put the boy�s hand on the fabric covering his
own erection.� �Now Ed,� Mustang
whispered, �It�s my turn.��

;-;-;-;-;-;-;

Ed shut
the door quietly.�

Not that
it mattered.

Alphonse
never slept.

�You were
gone a long time brother.��

Ed
sighed, and nodded in the darkness.� �I
know.� I�m sorry� I guess I just forgot
the time��

�But,
brother� It�s snowing out there.� You�re
going to catch a cold or something.�

�You�re
right, Al,� the twelve-year-old whispered despondently.� �I�ll go take a hot shower��

His feet
felt heavy as he dragged himself to the bathroom and shut the door.� He wanted a shower so bad� Ed turned on the
water and undressed himself.� The smell
of what had happened became stronger and he felt the urge to throw up.

Ed
stepped into the shower and sat on the floor, letting the water spray down on
him.�

Dirty.

He felt
dirty.

Used and dirty�

Ed
reached out and made the water hotter, then grabbed the bar of soap and started
scrubbing at his skin.� Mustang�s words
filled his head and tears sprang unbidden to his eyes.

�You�re a very bad boy aren�t you?
What would your mother think if she knew...? And Alphonse... what would he think?�

Ed�s
small body shuddered as a sob broke from him.

�You�re quite the little whore
aren�t you?�

The boy
reached out and made the water hotter.�

�I know you like that...� Who would have thought it of you?�

He didn�t
notice when the soap ran out, nor did he notice when Al let himself into the
bathroom.�

�You�ve
been in here for a long time brother.�
Are you almost done?��

The
question didn�t register in his brain.�
Instead, he reached out and turned the water even hotter.�

Would he
ever feel clean again?�

When the
shower curtain was pulled back, Ed jumped and pulled his knees into his chest,
trying to hide himself�

�Brother!� You�re all red!� Ed watched in despair as a
large metal hand turned the water off.�
�You�re going to get burned!� Alphonse scolded worriedly, then wrapped a
towel around him and helped Ed to his feet.

�Sorry�� Ed
whispered.� �Sorry� I guess� I guess I
got colder than I thought out there and I was just trying to warm up�sorry�� He forced himself to smile at Al.� He couldn�t let his brother know�

Couldn�t
let anyone know�

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Child abuse, or any kind of abuse, is a serious issue. If you, or
someone you know, is being abused, please find someone
you can trust and tell them.

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