Broken Will

A/N Hoho!! Welcome to fourth installment of my suicide enducing tale of depression. Yes, it will be a Max/Bryan, but I want to make this at least ten-fifteen chapters so the two wont meet for a while. And about the summary, Kai dumps Rei, then Bryan convinces Max to tell Kai how he feels and you know the rest.

Disclaimer- Do you really think the owner of beyblade would write a story like this?
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I sat on my bed, arms wrapped around my knees, thinking. This was all getting too much for me. If I didn\'t tell Kai about my feelings for him soon, I would crack. But Kai loved Rei and Rei loved Kai. There was no space left for me. There were probably locked in each other\'s embrace right now, possibly having sex. Why couldn\'t I tell him at the beggining? Maybe he would have accepted me. I can\'t be that ugly...can I?

There was a knock on the door. My mom came in, a towel round her midriff and her hair in rollers. \"Max, are you all right? You haven\'t eaten since you came back from school, and it\'s nearly ten o\'clock.\" She looked at me with worried eyes. Heh. At least somebody loves me. \"I\'m fine mum. Just not very hungry.\" She gave a sigh and left. And as she left the room, I was struck by a craving.

I didn\'t know what for, so I lay down on my bed trying to remember anything I was addicted to. Was I a smoker? Had I got into under-age drinking? Then it hit me. I had to talk to Bryan. But my computer had a virus and some technician guy who came round said it wouldn\'t work for another three days. I could just use a school computer. But then I\'d have to wait till tomorrow. I folded the balnket over myself and switched off the lamp next to my bed.

Why was I so desperate to talk to Bryan all of a sudden? I hardly knew the guy and I\'d only talked to him once before and I just couldn\'t work it out. \'Maybe it\'s \'cos we\'re both gay\'...\'Finally meeting someone who understands me.\' My puzzled thoughts led me into a deep sleep full of strange dreams.
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When I woke up the next morning, I had no idea of the surprises in store for me the next day. I got to school in the usual depressed mood, wondering if if I should eat lunch. Nah, eating takes up time that could be used in the computer room talking to Bryan. I got to school, tired after running there, oblivious to the scene I was about to witness. I got into class early with only a few people there. Mr Sickles was late as usual and everyone was either talking quietly, or stripping on the tables. I looked at one of the shirtless guys and felt a firmiliar tightness in my pants. No. Stop thinking like that. You only have eyes for Kai. But does he have eyes for you?

Mr Sickles walked in and the guys got off the tables and put their shorts back on. The class silencenced as he walked in. She made her way to the front of the room, and cleared his throat. \"Now, class, today, we are going to pair up and write poems. I will give you and your partners twenty minutes to complete the task\" What? Pairs? POEMS? I knew this man was psychotic. Besides, who would pair up with me in the first place? I sighed and raised my hand, ready to ask Mister Sickles if I could go to the toilet. At least that way, I could escape the embarassment of not having a partner. But before my hand could leave the table, Hiromi pulled up a chair and sat on the other side of the desk in front of me.

\"Hey, Max.\" I sat there, shocked. Hiromi, one of the most popular girls in the ENTIRE school, was pairing up with me. \"Eh..hi Hiromi.\" She smiled a plastic smile and put a lined paper down on the desk between us. \"Look, I\'m not too keen on this so you can just do it yourself, and we both know that you\'d look stupid without a partner so...get to work!\" Jeez...what a bitch. Oh well, it won\'t be that hard.

Misty
my name is misty
i am but three
my eyes are all swollen
i can not see
i must be stupid
i must be bad
what else could
have made my daddy so mad?
i wish i were better
i wish i weren\'t ugly
then maybe my mommy
would still want to hug me
i can\'t speak at all
i can\'t do a wrong
or else i\'m locked up
all the day long
when i awake
i\'m all alone
the house is dark
my folks aren\'t home
when my mommy does come
i\'ll try and be nice
so maybe i\'ll get
just one whipping tonight
don\'t make a sound
i just heard a car
my daddy is back
from Charlie\'s bar
i hear him curse
my name he calls
i press myself
against the wall
i try and hide
from his evil eyes
i\'m so afraid now
i\'m starting to cry
he finds me weeping
he shouts ugly words,
he says it\'s my fault
he suffers at work
he slaps me
and hits me
and yells at me more
i finally get free
and run for the door
he\'s already locked it
and i start to bawl
he takes me and throws me
against the hard wall
i fall to the floor
with my bones nearly broken
and my daddy continues
with more bad words spoken
i scream i\'m sorry
but it\'s much too late
his face has been twisted
into unimaginable hate
the hurt and the pain
again and again
oh please, god have mercy
oh please, let it end!
and he finally stops
and he heads for the door
while i lay there motionless
sprawled on the floor
my name is Misty
I am but three
tonight my daddy
murdered me

By Max Mizuhara and Hiromi (insert surname here)

\"Okay, class twenty minutes is up!\" Mr Sickles came round to collect our work and paused, skimming mine. \"Wow, you two, this is great stuff!\" Hiromi smiled her plastic smile. \"Thank you! We worked really hard on it.\" She looked at me with eyes saying \'don\'t you dare...\'. Mister Sickles walked away, still marveling at our-my work. Hiromi returned to her desk, and high-fived Mariah who was sitting next to her. Apparently, Miriah had manipulated Michael by promising him a date if he did the work. Whores, the lot of them. We spent the rest of the lesson writing essays and proof reading our work. Jeez, literature is so dull.

LUNCH HOUR, CAFETIRIA
Yes, this was it. I had finally given in to hunger and went to get lunch. The queue was miles long, and it was a good half an hour before I was even half way there. Then it happened. Kai and Rei were sitting on a table together, eating each others faces out. Oh....it was so hard to watch Kai getting molested by that slut. Then they stopped, and pulled away from each other. They each had stupid grins on their faces, and were loking at each other like the other were a million bucks. Then, Li walked by, turned Rei around, and kissed him full on the lips. And I mean FULL. To make it worse, I gasped as Rei kissed him back.

Kai\'s face transformed from blissful to I\'m-gonna-kill-you-brutally in a flash of anger. He pulled Lee away and punched him. Li fell over instantly, knocked out. \"Rei! What are you doing!!\"

\"Kissing Li..\" Rei said it like it was an everyday habit. \"What? HAVE YOU FORGOTTEN ABOUT ME?!?!?\"

\"No, of course not.\" Rei remained calm as ever.

\"Then what are you....\"

\"Look, Kai, it was just a kiss. I just wanted a taste of him is all.\"

\" What? Look, if you\'re gonna lick every fucking penis that comes your way, then there\'s no point in this relationship!\"

\"Kai-\"

\"No! Just...no!\" And with that, he left. Rei sighed and followed after him. Hey...this could be my chance. I could be the one to ease Kai\'s pain and rescue him before he commits suicide or something. Hah! Get real Max. Kai\'s never gonna want you. He\'ll probably date Takao next. ~Shudder~ that name brought chills to my spine. Just weeks ago, I was having a nice dream about Kai, when he comes in and kisses me. It was like....gross...worse than kissing girls.~Double Shudder~. I got my food and sat down to eat, alone as usual. Joy. Stale bread with slug soup (or as the lunch ladies like to call it, vegetable soup).

I finished the meal (I will never eat lunch in this school again) and left for the library, hoping to talk to Bryan. Then I came across Kai in a jam packed corridor. \"Max...\" I looked at him as if to say, what the hell are you doing talking to a nobody like me? Go flirt with Takao or something! \"Max, theres something I need to tell you...\" Uh oh. Was he going to come crying to me about all his social problems and teenage hormones? Wait. He\'s feeling emotional. Now\'s my chance. \"No, Kai, theres something I need to tell you first.\" His eyes brightened up.

\"Kai...I love you.\"

My heart skipped a beat and time seemed to stop. Kai was holding a mike in front of my face and my statement had just rang out through every speaker in the school. Oh God. This is not happening. Tell me this is another dream!! TELL ME I\'M ABOUT TO WAKE UP!!!! Kai laughed, a cruel smirk. No. No dream of mine could create such an evil look. \"Congratulations Max. Now the whole school know.\" My blood boiled liek a volcanoe. Anger ran through my veins, bursting to be released. Everyone in the corridor was silent, except for a few giggle here and there. Kai held the mic to his face.

\"Who would have known that Max Mizuhara was GAY? And to think he had a chance with me??!\" Rei and Kenny came up behind Kai, laughing their guts out. Kai continued. \"And none of this would have been worth it without the help of my friends here!\" I stood there, frozen in shock. I managed to mutter three words. \"But...but, how?\" Kai laughed his evil laugh and lokked me in the eye, piercing my insides witha sharp sword (figure of speech...). \"Well Max.Let me explain.\"

\"No Kai, let me.\" Rei. \"You see, a few days ago, you were in the computer room talking to someone. Luckily, Kenny here managed to read part of the conversatoin and that just happened to be the part about you loving Kai. So naturally, Kenny came running to us and told us everything.\" Kenny sniggered. Kenny? I never pinned him as the type. Oh, well. You can\'t trust people if you don\'t know them. Slowly, the anger inside me reached boiling point. I hate him. I Hate Him. I HATE HIM!! I brutally lashed out and struck Kai on the jaw with my fist. Kai fell back, and was caught by Rei. He stood back up and retaliated, punching me. Blood streamed from my nose and I smiled, fixing Kai with a malicious look. \"Nice one Kai.\" And with that, I walked away.
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tbc

Okay, THATS the end.

~Ramek~