Asserting Power

With a pounding headache and aching muscles Kai awoke to daylight streaming through the window. Groaning he rolled away to find a body lying next his, they were both equally naked, for a split second he panicked worrying that he’d picked up some random girl but then he got a clearer look at the girl nest to him and saw who it was. “Hilary?”

“Hi” she had obviously been awake for a while, she sounded odd, nervous, almost scared.

“What happened? Why are you here?”

Turning over Hilary looked at Kai “You don‘t remember?”

“No”

“It doesn‘t matter” Hilary shook her head, he leaned over to grab her arm but Hilary backed away and climbed off the bed “I‘m gonna go take a shower” without another word Hilary made her way into his en-suite limping ever so slightly and soon Kai heard the shower start up.

Confused Kai shook his pounding head, he really didn’t remember last night, nothing at all. It was odd, closing his eyes Kai frowned and thought back to the last thing he remembered, he had been in the bar with his team-mates. Tyson had come over, he’d shown them that picture. Oh god…

Most of what he remembered wasn’t so bad until he got to his hotel room. It was what had happened between him and Hilary in his room that had been bad.


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As he carried her Kai continued moving his hands back down to grip her bottom properly he began to use his finger again, slowly he rubbed a finger against her wet folds lubricating it slightly before he inserted it in the puckered hole. As he did so Hilary’s lips left his neck and he heard her gasp but before she could protest properly he added a second un-lubricated finger making her openly cry out. Walking the last few steps he pumped slowly stretching her.

“Kai please, I really don‘t want to do this” Hilary begged as Kai lay her down on the bed before laying over her.

“Sh” Kai covered her mouth with his and slowly began to remove her nightgown his movements were tender but Hilary was pale and scared, she trusted him but she didn’t think she could do this. Soon her only item of clothing had been thrown to one side and Kai began to kiss her body. Her nervousness began to disappear and she began to help Kai take his clothes off, when she was with him she could lose all sense of self, she had to admit to herself that she loved to look at him.

When he was fully undressed Kai made a quick movement and flipped her onto her front, immediately her whole body had stiffened and she tried to lift herself up, immediately he had lain over her pressing her down with his body. Reaching to the left he opened up a drawer in his bedside table and took out a small bottle. Hilary was still struggling lightly with him but Kai moved one hand around to her front and sliding it up her body pinched lightly at one of her hardened nipples. She gasped arching up into him and he placed kisses along her back feeling her shudder and gasp. Judging that the time was right he flipped open the bottle and poured some on the desired place.

Feeling him rubbing the lubricant onto her made her body tense up, she was nervous anyway but knowing that they were getting to the point of no return freaked her out even more. She wanted him to stop but at the same time she didn’t, the idea of fulfilling his fantasies was important to her, she wanted to make him feel as though she was the best.

As he rubbed the warming gel onto her Kai raised himself onto his knees and hooking one arm around her waist pulled her up onto all fours. Slowly Kai finished rubbing and slowly he entered two fingers and immediately she began to move away, she pushed herself up off her hands muttering inaudibly.

“Ssh” he whispered “it‘ll be alright, give it time” after saying that Kai reached under her with his other hand and pinched her clit making her gasp and fall forward onto the bed again. He kept stretching her with two fingers while he manipulated her wet folds making the pleasure mask the pain.

Loving how he stroked her Hilary was surprised, the pain in her ass wasn’t so bad anymore in fact… she was starting to enjoy it. His lips came down and pressed against her back nipping lightly and kissing down the line of her spine. Still she sounded fearful every time he moved, he didn’t want her afraid but she wasn’t relaxing any more as time went by.

“Ok, that seems enough” nodding to himself Kai removed his fingers and placed one hand on her hip while the other moved to himself picking up the bottle from the table and pouring it onto himself, a few quick rubs he positioned himself and then holding her hips in a firm grasp thrust into her. The first time he couldn’t get far, she whimpered quietly and shifted in his grasp but he couldn’t quite tell if it was more pain or pleasure. After pulling out he thrust back in this time he got further, each time he did it he got a bit further in until finally...

“KAI!” she screamed his name louder than ever before, he was tearing at her stretching her. She couldn’t really tell if she liked it or not, it was painful but enjoyable, her hands grabbed onto the sheets pulling at them so hard she feared that she would rip them. She shuddered trying not to tense up every time he entered her as that made it hurt more.

“It hurts you” he muttered through gritted teeth trying to decide whether or not to stop, but he didn‘t exactly sound sorry.

“You want it to?” she asked curiously

“I don‘t know” he responded honestly pausing his motions and leaning back “I want you to like it, I want you to like everything I do. Just as long as no other man ever touches you”

“Kai… Just do it” she muttered resigning herself to her fate

“You‘re mine?” he asked almost childishly needing her to say it again

“I‘m your‘s. The kiss meant nothing.”

At those words he thrust into her again, her words brought the memory of what he had seen back to him and remembering the rage that had brought him to his pain the became fiercer than before. She was his, no one else’s, he was claiming her again and ignoring the cries of pain that began to get worse the rougher he became he gave himself over to the deed at hand.

Thrusting continuously he smirked to himself she was his, he had claimed her in a new way tonight making her more his than she had ever been before “I‘m almost there” he hissed thrusting quicker, his control had disappeared after she gave him permission to continue. He pressed two fingers on her slick folds before inserting them into her feeling her tighten around him. Seconds later she was screaming in anguish and orgasm as he continued his hand pleasuring her and his thrusts paining her until finally he too reached his peak, pressing her back down on the sheets and crushing her to the bed he came yelling her name.

Afterwards he had lain on top of her holding her tightly muttering drunkenly about how she was his and only his. She had struggled in his grasp and it wasn’t until she complained of an inability to breathe that he rolled off her but even then he wrapped his arms around her and pulled her tightly to him.

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Feeling sick about what he had done Kai walked into his bathroom, he needed to put it right, he knew there was no way that he could but he needed to try. Hilary sat in the shower with the hot water pouring down on her marked body. Edging towards the shower Kai knelt so they would be eyelevel, she finally noticed him and looked up smiling tremulously.

“I remember” he told her nervously “I remember what I did. I-I‘m so sorry.”

“It‘s alright” Hilary shrugged a little but Kai could tell she was still hurting and reached out to take one of her hands in his.

“It’s not alright. I guess we ought to… I don‘t necessarily know how these sorts of things are done but I assume you report it the police, so we could go to the station…”

“What?” Hilary looked at him seriously now “What are you talking about?”

“Hils I raped you, I‘ve gotta face up to what I did”

“By being arrested?”

“Hilary it makes me feel physically sick to think of any guy being allowed to hurt you, the fact that I did makes me want to die. I can never…” Kai was cut off as Hilary left the shower and dripping wet knelt beside him, she smiled running one hand through his hair before she embraced him.

“Don‘t say that, the idea of you dying makes me want to die, I completely and utterly forgive you for what happened”

“Stop it”

“You were drunk”

“That’s no excuse”

“You were depressed, you have been for a while. I’ve noticed it”

“Men that do this sort of thing deserve the worst kind of punishment.”

“KAI! Stop it” Hilary took his face in her hands and stared into his eyes “I love you, so don‘t ever, ever talk like this again. Kai there were at least three instances last night where I could have kicked you in the balls and ran, I just can‘t hurt you.”

“But I hurt you, I am so sorry, I‘ll never ever…”

“Kai, I‘m in love with you, you don‘t have to keep apologising to me, all you have to know is that you are forgiven… and that I have no clothes here with me so I‘m gonna have to borrow some of Mariah’s to go home in. Do you think you can sneak some out for me?”

“Yeah” Kai stared at her amazed “Are we broken up then?”

“No” Hilary smiled and kissed him gently on the nose “I told you that I wouldn‘t ever leave you, I‘m yours. Completely and utterly”

“How can you forgive me like this.”

“I‘ve told you, I love you.” After saying that she pulled him closer into a kiss. Sitting on the cold bathroom floor with him Hilary thought back to what Kai had said in her home, so far they had done at least two of the things he wanted, his doing oral, and anal. Surely he couldn’t want to do it all too soon, besides his house was in Russia and there were over twenty rooms in his house and even he couldn’t last that long… right?

Besides she couldn’t do oral, she had no idea how to. She knew the theory, what girl didn’t these days, but she’d never had the practice. What if she gagged or couldn’t do it?

“Hilary?” pulling the naked girl into his arms Kai looked down at her face “What’s wrong? Does it hurt too bad?”

“No” biting her lip Hilary began to look worried “but I‘m going to let you down. I‘ve never done this stuff before, I don‘t know how and…” tears were falling now as Hilary tried to explain what was wrong.

“Oh god” Kai held her tighter kissing her hair “Didn’t I tell you that first time? There’s nothing to prove. I don‘t expect that everything will always be perfect, I just want to be able to touch you however I want.”

“You‘re not going to hate me if I can‘t do something?”

“I could never hate you… I shouldn‘t have done this” He ran a hand down her arm feeling the way goose bumps were running up and down her arm “You‘re trembling.”

“It‘s OK… I don‘t mind really”

“You obviously do”

“No I don‘t, part of me actually liked it.” Smiling at his shocked expression Hilary kissed him, he still looked surprised when she pulled away and she giggled kissing him again. “I‘m just different to those other girls you are usually with. I‘m more… inexperienced, I‘m less confident and most of all I‘m not just with you because you‘re ‘the Kai Hiwatari’ I’m with you because you’re just Kai Hiwatari, just like I‘m just Hilary Tatibana.”

“You‘re not ‘just Hilary Tatibana’” he whispered holding her shaking form closer to him “You‘re amazing…, and you‘re still trembling.” his concern was evident, part of him was worried that she was shaking because of what he had done to her “What’s wrong?”

“Well it‘s kind of cold on the floor, the water was warm” Hilary pointed out, he looked around seemingly remembering where they were and what she had been doing before he came in. She laughed at his confusion before winding her arms around his neck and kissing him. For a long time he sat there just allowing her lips to move against his and across his cheeks and neck. Finally he began to respond and standing he lifted her into his arms and walked back into the shower. She hissed slightly as he lifted her still obviously in pain but Kai carried her carefully and soon the two of them were standing together under the hot water.

Pressing her up against the warm tiles he ran his hands over her skin, reaching for the shower gel he poured a generous amount into his palm before slowly rubbing it onto her skin. He moved slowly lathering the suds and coating her body carefully rubbing his hands across her torso and sliding down to wash her slender legs. Resting back against the wall for support Hilary couldn’t keep the groans inside as he paid attention to every inch of her pale skin. His hands ran up and down the length of her body before he finally came to a halt face to face with her.

She was flustered as he faced her a light blush painting her face, as he stared down at her she pressed her hands to his chest before reaching up to kiss him. Kai rested one hand beside her head as their lips met, they kissed slowly, sensuously, and Kai allowed his other hand to rest on her waist before slipping it around to the small of her back and pressed her closer to himself.

“I‘ll never hurt you again” he promised as he moved his lips to her ear “I‘ll never let anyone hurt you. I‘m so sorry”

“I forgive you” she laughed wrapping her arms around his shoulders “Stop apologising”

The kissing resumed and soon Hilary felt herself being lifted up, her legs automatically wrapped around Kai’s waist only seconds before Kai thrust into her. Prepared as she was for his actions Hilary was a little shocked and merely wound her arms around his neck burying her face into the crook of his neck. She was still in pain from what had happened last night and found that moving her legs made it worse, instead she just let her legs dangle whilst Kai held her thighs rocking her into him.

He whispered to her telling sweet things and giving her affectionate compliments as he made love to her. He hadn’t expected to be forgiven, he couldn’t believe that someone could love him enough to forgive him for something like that. He couldn’t erase the past but he promised her with every move he made that he would protect her and love her. She’d never feel pain of fear like that again.


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