hesitation

Title :lang=EN-US> Hesitation

Warning :lang=EN-US> yaoi, angst, language

Pairing :lang=EN-US> envyxed, royxed,
envyxroyxed

Disclaimer :lang=EN-US> We don’t own hagaren, just have an
unofficial fans club ^_^ square enix does.

A/N : This is our
first hagaren fanfipan>pan> and we
hope you like it. This fanfic based on class=SpellE>manga storyline. And sorry for the bad grammar coz English
isn’t our first language. Well, enjoy!

Chapter 1

Edward Elric is
lying on the bed and staring at the ceiling above him. It was Minute="0" Hour="0">midnightlang=EN-US> already but he couldn’t go to sleep. It’s been a week since he was
captured by Envy when he faint from the incident of 5th laboratory. He was held
in this room and couldn’t escape because his auto mail arm has broken. Also he
can’t move freely because both his hands are chained to the bed post. Envy put
him this way so he can’t use alchemy. Well, he already tried many times to kick
Envy but failed miserably because Envy is much stronger than him.

He’s been thinking about Al and Roy a lot.
‘Al must have been worried to death and so does lang=EN-US>Roy.’ He misses
them, especially Roy. Well, to tell the truth he’s been dating with lang=EN-US>Roy since Nina’s
death. That time Roylang=EN-US> was comforting him and since then, they became closer. After
awhile, Roylang=EN-US> confessed his love to Ed in his own way (you all know lang=EN-US>Roy’s behavior
right?). Ed sighs when Roylang=EN-US>’s image comes to his mind.
He misses the way he tease him and his arrogant smirk when Ed got angry
with him. He turns his body to find a comfortable position when suddenly Envy
come and snap him from his drifted mind.

“How are your wounds, Hagane
no chibi-chan?” Envy asks with a grin on his face.

“Chibi
iuna!!!” Ed yelled
back to him. But Envy just still with his usual smirk
and pose.

“How do they look to you?” Ed snapped back
to reality coz there’s no respond from Envy.

“Well, if you already can yell like that, I
think they healed already and you always look delicious to me.”

“Suit yourself!” Ed replied sarcastically.

“Oh, really?lang=EN-US> Hey, you don’t have to be mad! I’m just telling the truth. You
really really look sexy when you’re shirtless, your
hair is loosening, and chained like this, you know.”

With that Envy come closer to Ed, lean on
him and kiss him roughly. Ed complied and parted his lips. Envy pushes his
tongue to Ed’s mouth and savor Ed’s taste. It’s not the first time for Ed to
have Envy act like that. In fact, Envy had already taken him a few times since
he has been captured. The first time when Envy wanted to rape him, Ed struggled
and tried to push him away. But that time Ed’s wounded and Envy’s far too
strong for him. Plus he was chained so he can’t do anything against Envy’s
will.

Ed feels guilty because after a few times
Envy took him, he started to have feeling for Envy. So…can it still count as
raped anymore? But he also still loves lang=EN-US>Roy so he started
to think that he had betrayed Roylang=EN-US>. Now, he really can’t choose between them. What should he do now?
He wants to go back to Roylang=EN-US> but in the same time he wants to stay with Envy even when Envy
tortured him because he enjoys the pains and the pleasures that Envy gives him,
also Envy’s cares to him and can be gentle too. At least Envy was the one who
treated his wounds. Today’s the same like the other days which Ed started to
submit willingly to Envy.

Envy parted the kiss and Ed loosing the kiss.
Part of him wants to stop this but the other doesn’t want this to be over.
Before he can make decision, Envy started to kiss him again. This time his kiss
is gentler. He nibbled Ed’s down part lips and he kissed again and slipped his
tongue to Ed’s mouth. He caresses Ed’s ceiling and tongue with skilled moves.
After awhile, Ed started to kiss back and play his tongue along to Envy’s mouth
too. Ed melted because of the kiss and he can’t think not to continue this
pleasure moment.

‘Envy’s always such a good kisser. In fact,
I must admit that he’s better than lang=EN-US>Roy in bed, not
that I’ll ever say to him neither Roylang=EN-US> about that. But I’m also pathetic because I can’t resist him and
always submit to the pleasure he gave me in the end, even when I know I betrayed
Roylang=EN-US>. Damn these teenager hormones and damn Envy for being such a hot,
sexy, expert guy and make me betrayed lang=EN-US>Roy! And damn lang=EN-US>Roy for being less
expert than Envy and mainly damn myself for being such a slut and submit to
those every fucking factors and blame everything even when I’m the one at
fault!’ Ed thought with resignation. That time Ed’s thinking was interrupted
again by Envy’s hands. Both of Envy’s hands were started to pinch Ed’ nipples
and make him arched his back and moan to Envy’s mouth between the kiss. And Ed
started to feel the throbbing on his groin.

After awhile both parted the kiss because
of the need to breath. Ed panted and started to feel that his tight leather
pants put too much pressure on his now aching cock and Envy notice the bulge.
Envy now leaning closer to Ed and press his body to Ed’s and Ed moan because of
the friction. Then Envy start to kiss along Ed’s neck and stop on the throat to
suck it while he start to rub his own now started to erect cock to Ed’s. The
moves make Ed moan and arch his back again and throw his head back and give
Envy more access to his neck. Envy licks on the side trail of his neck and
nibbles his ear then slips his tongue into Ed’s ear and lick it. Ed moan Envy’s
name. This make Envy smirk and he whisper to Ed’s ear with husky voice, “I’m
really like it when you said my name like that…Ed.” Envy said Ed’s name with
very seductive and sexy tone and that make Ed shiver with anticipation because
when Envy already called him by name, there’d be so much pleasure waiting. “Oh,
god…Envy…” Ed only can say that with hoarse voice and his breath became
heavier.

Envy mouth went down to Ed’s collar bone
and kiss and suck it to make hickey. Ed groan and he really hopes that his hand
aren’t chained so he can touch Envy. Envy’s tortures already began. “Goddamn
it, Envy! Can’t you release me from these fucking chains?” riedried. “Why
should I? I love seeing you chained…Ed.” Envy replied while he now licked and
sucked Ed’s right nipple and his left hand went down caressed along Ed’s torso
and stomach and started to unzip Ed’s pants. “Aahh…”
Ed moaned and raised his hips againsty’s y’s to get more contact and rubbed
along Envy’s rhythm. ‘OMG…he used that fucking sexy voice again when said my
name. Damn it! I can’t bear it anymore.’ His erection now became more painfully
aching. Ed’s move makes them both moan. “So…I…can touch…you damn it!” Ed said
between his moans and gasps. “Sou ka…class=SpellE>ja, help me to slide down your
fucking pants first and then I’ll release you, Hagane
no chibi-chan.” Envy said with hoarse voice and
seductive smile plastered on his face. Then he gets up to make room and placed
his fin on on Ed’s waistband. “KISAMA…WHO IS SUPER ULTRA
HYPER CHIBI LIKE A BEAN THAT YOU CAN’T SEE WITHOUT MAGNIFIER GLASS?!!!”
Ed cried because of Envy’s tease and the stress from contact lost, but he still
complied to Envy’s order and lift his hip to make Envy
more easy to slide down his pants and his boxers. After finished with Ed’s
clothes, Envy start to pull down his own short pants then he release Ed’s left
hand.

Envy then pursue to give him blow job and
his hand clutch onto Envy’s long and silky hair. “OMFG…Envy…aahh…”
Ed can only moan and arch his back. He wanted to thrust to the other’s mouth
but Envy’s left hand on his hip make him still while his right hand playing
with Ed’s balls. ‘Hagane no chibi’s
taste always good to me. I never bore to feel him in my mouth and my arms like
this.’ Then Envy stopped and get up and take Ed’s hand off his hair. Ed
whimpered, but Envy said with husky voice, “Don’t pout to me, Ed! I stopped
just because I’m gonna give you more waves of
pleasures through your hot little body. But your pout face also looks so cute, class=SpellE>Hagane no chibi-chan.” while he
coated erecerection with his own pre cum. Ed’s blushed and shuddered from the
words.

“Teme…Don’t call
me LITTLE…CHIBI…and CUTE, Envy! Or else…HNN…” but Ed’s words didn’t finish coz
Envy started to push into his entrance. “Or else you’ll what, class=SpellE>Hagane no chibi-chan?” Envy said
with evil grin on his face and started to thrust into Ed and stroke Ed’s
throbbing cock with the same rhythm. With that, Ed started to moan and forgot
all the words that he wanna said earlier. But his
subconscious managed to say between his moan, “chibi…class=SpellE>ahh…iuna…AAHH…” he cried coz Envy
just hit his prostate and sent pleasure all over his body. Envy just sees him
with great amuse and thrust faster, hit the pleasure spot many times. Ed’s
moans became louder and louder and started to thrust back into Envy’s
desperately to get release. Then Envy leaned down and started to kiss Ed
fiercely. Ed kissed him back with same eagerness and their tongue tangled in
the Ed’s mouth. Both moaned at the other’s mouth as the pace became faster and
faster.

Both panted and getting closer to climax.
Envy parted the kiss to get air. Then Ed’s body tensed and he came first onto
Envy’s hand and his stomach and cried Envy’s name. Ed’s clenching muscle around
his cock sent Envy to the Edge and he came too with held cry. Then he move off
from Ed and collapsed beside Ed. They calmed down their breath while enjoying
the afterglow. After awhile, Envy got up and started to lick Ed’s cement from
his fingers and Ed’s stomach clean. Then he put his own pants on again and
helps Ed with his pants. Ed lying on the bed still exhausted.

“Why did you do this to me, Envy?”

“Coz I like you, Hagane
no chibi-chan.”

“Chibi
iuna to itta class=SpellE>darou!” Ed snapped. Pause.

“But why me?” he asked again.

“Well, coz you’re the one that I want, Ed”

“But…”

“Look, you don’t have to think much about it!
I like you and I want you. And from what I see from your responds, you like me
too…so, I fuck you and you seem to enjoy it too. Just admit it!”

“…Well, yeah…it’s true that I have feeling
to you…” Ed started. “And… I like it when…when…we have…sex…” Ed’s words became
whisper on that said. “But still…” Ed brought his hand to his head, puzzled.

Envy sighed. “Fine, it’s up to you! Make up
your mind Hagane no, I leave the decision to you! “

Ed tensed a bit, when Envy calls him class=SpellE>Hagane no, it’s just like… lang=EN-US>Roy. Of course the
voice is different, but the tone is similar to lang=EN-US>Roy’s. Slowly and
carefully, Envy releases Ed from the chain that held him to the bed. Ed looks
at him with questioning look, but Envy just shrugged. A minute has passed and
still Envy didn’t say anything. And that makes Ed more confused. Usually Envy
would tease him or insult him. Envy just watch him in silent, then proceeded to
leave. In reflect, Ed grab Envy’s hand, holding him so he can’t go anywhere.

“What is it, Hagane
no Chibi? Not enough for you?” Envy teased him again,
but the teasing is much colder than usual.

“Why? Why are you releasing me now? After
you held me here for about a week? What am I to you Envy? A toy to se
se
yourself?”

“Ed, you’re the one who knows the answer. Ask
yourself. And to answer your 1^st question it’s because I give you an
option, whether you want to stay with me or go back to your place. It’s up to
you. Well, I’m leaving then Hagane no class=SpellE>Chibi,
I’ll see you tomorrow…hope so.”

Envy kisses Edward on the forehead before
he leaves him alone in that room to think. ‘Why? Why can’t I decide that kind
of thing now? I really want to come back to Roy and Al, but…. I really like
Envy too.’ He thought. An hour has passed, but the young alchemist still can’t
make a decision. But then, suddenly something come to his mind. The promise he
make to Al. He can’t do it if he stays with Envy. He gets up and grabs his
coat, settling his mind to come back to Roy and Al. It’s really hard for him to
leave Envy, but Al needs him. He gets out from the room and manages to find the
exit.

“I’m so sorry Envy…but I can’t stay with
you, I’ve already have Roylang=EN-US> and also I can’t live without Al,” he says to no one in particular.

He just realized that Envy has been
prisoning him somewhere in the East. Ed thanks Envy for this, because with his
condition, he can barely take any long trip. He examines the road then after
finds the direction, he goes toward lang=EN-US>Roy’s house.

TBC

Well, that’s it! Hope this class=SpellE>fic doesn’t suck and you guys like it! So, please review
and tell us if this fic good or bad coz this class=SpellE>fic would be continues or not depend on you! Critics are
always accepted as long as you didn’t flame us!

In case you’re wonder why we call ourselves
with the phrase ‘we’ and not ‘I’ even the authors name is only class=SpellE>fuuchouin kadzuki, that’s because
the truth is we or fuuchouin kadzuki
are two people. We just use one name for easy and we like the name. So just for
notice, fuuchouin kadzuki
or we are ito no renkinjutsushi
and akatsuki no renkinjutsushi.

Just then, we said we own unofficial class=SpellE>hagaren fans club. Well, we still don’t have the website
yet coz it just created recently and maybe it’ll be awhile, also we still
search for the members…so please bear with us. Anyway, if you’re still
interesting to join the fans club, just e-mail us at href="mailto:ito_no_kadzuki@yahoo.com">ito_no_kadzuki@yahoo.com and we’re class=SpellE>gonna very willingly to welcomed you.